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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,Silence the pianos and with muffled drumBring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.For nothing now can ever come to any good." - W.H. Arden 'Funeral Blues'There will not be a new post Saturday, November 27th. I'm genuinely sorry but I had to put down my 15-year-old beloved cat today. And all inspiration to write has fallen to the wayside.
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