Rae couldn't relax, not for a second. Keegan was in a complicated position and she could tell that he was anguished and worried, perhaps more than her. He kept the door constantly locked even when he was inside with her and the first night he was back, he didn't sleep a wink. She rolled to her side and saw him staring at the roof of the caravan in the dark. His breathing was normal but aggression emanated from him. She didn't say anything, she just watched him until her eyes felt droopy and she slept. She woke up to him banging a cabinet in the kitchen area. She sat up quickly and he apologized. “Sorry about that.”Rae rubbed her eyes. “Good morning.”“Morning,” he said. The circles around his eyes were dark and pronounced which indicated that he hadn’t slept a wink. She felt bad because she knew that she was the reason why he was so worried about Fred having the key. She couldn’t say that she wasn’t disturbed. It was clear that he was a freak and had the worst of intentions. What
Rae awoke suddenly. The caravan was dark. She stared at the dark roof quietly and tried to figure out if it was the same night because she felt like she slept through the week. She was well rested and not at all exhausted considering she woke up unexpectedly. What woke her? She couldn't tell. She sat up and eyed Keegan's bed. It was empty. A scowl pinched her features together and she stood up. The floor of the caravan was warm. He wasn't seated at the table and he never sat in the driver or passenger seats. The door was closed but they key wasn't there so she assumed he was outside. It was the only other option. Where had he gone so late in the night? Did he often do this? It was strange that she was living with him for close to two weeks and knew nothing about what he did on a daily basis. Perhaps two weeks wasn't enough to get to know someone. He was mysterious. She wondered if there was something else he was up to apart from gathering an army to fight Negan. She started wal
The morning was slow and unremarkable. Now that Fred had the key to the caravan, allegedly, Keegan couldn’t bare the thought of leaving it empty for a long period of time. When she had to use the woods, he would stay behind. She would stay behind most of the time but he wasn’t concerned that she was alone because he doubted that Fred would try to do something reckless in front of everyone. He was planning something big, Keegan was sure of it. She was tired of the entire situation and hoped that it would get resolved soon. She was bored most of the time and without training, her days were even longer than usual. She slept a bit after breakfast and immediately started reading her book after the nap. Keegan had gone somewhere so she was alone. As the book progressed, she unconsciously compared herself more and more to the main character. With a sinking heart, she concluded that she would never be such a female. She didn’t know any female who defied the laws and was successful about it
Every step Rae took away from the camp weighed on her heart and conscience. She was far enough now that if she screamed, she’d be brushed off as a night bird. She was regretting not saying a word when she had the chance. The deeper she went into the woods with him, the less her chances were of successfully escaping. He was bigger than her and undoubtedly his wolf was more skilled too. She was hoping for an intervention, particularly from Keegan’s side. Where was he? When would he notice that she was missing? She hoped it would be soon. Keegan was the one who was obsessed with keeping her safe so how could he disappear on her? She wasn’t considering that Fred might have gotten to him but only because she didn’t want to imagine the worst just yet. They were still walking and her guess was that he was going to take her far from the camp. It would give Keegan plenty of time to discover that she was missing and then chase them. Fred’s have was still on her mouth. He was sweating profuse
Keegan shook her lightly. Rae heard his voice from a distance. He was far away, so far that his voice echoed. He was telling her to wake up, pleading almost. Her sleep was too peaceful. She didn’t want to wake up. She didn’t know where she was but it was a comfortable place. She was totally relaxed and she couldn’t remember feeling this way in a long time. If it weren’t for Keegan’s voice in her ear, she would go on sleeping forever. She opened her mouth to tell him to go away. She didn’t want to be disturbed. She had forgotten about what had happened earlier with Fred and how she almost died. All she focused on was falling back asleep because it was the kind of sleepiness that she would never experience again. It was similar to napping on the couch and then being woken up. It ruined everything. “Rae, please,” he said gently. He sounded desperate. “Don’t do this to me. You can’t do this to me. Wake up. Rae. Rae!”She finally groaned. She was upset that he was insisting on waking her
A week had passed and Rae made a full recovery. Her feet still tingled whenever she stood for too long but she was better than before. She didn't feel pain on her neck and whenever she felt the area, she felt the scars. She didn't have a mirror so she couldn't see them but Keegan guaranteed her that he couldn't tell where the scars were. She sensed that he was lying to her but she appreciated the effort. He didn't want her to feel bad about what had happened but as much as his efforts were helpful, they were also in vain. She wouldn't be able to get the incident with Fred from her mind that easily. As the days passed and she interrogated Keegan, she got a clearer understanding of what went down that terrible night. Keegan was reluctant to share the truth with her but when she threatened to leave he told her everything she wanted to know. The truth was simpler yet more haunting than she assumed. Fred didn't want to just kill her that night.In all fairness, she understood why Keegan
Things between them had changed.The change happened practically overnight. They woke up and turned to look at each other simultaneously and it was something that had never happened before. The intensity of his gaze stunned her. It made her shiver involuntarily and she was forced to hide in the bathroom while he prepared breakfast for the two of them. She wished she had a mirror so she could see the look on her face. She didn't doubt that she was blushing heavily. Her cheeks were warm to the touch. What was happening? She couldn't tell.Rae had to get a grip on herself. She didn't want Keegan getting the wrong idea. She was not in love with him. She was confusing her gratitude and her appreciation for him for...something else. She didn't plan on falling in love with anyone, much less Negan's brother because yes, that was what it all boiled down to. He was Negan's brother and she already established that the idea of mating with him to get back at his brother for rejecting her was temp
Keegan sighed and drank a whole bottle of water in one go. Rae watched him anxiously. She knew it had something to do with her pack. Her old pack, she meant. It was the reason why he didn't want to tell her the truth. Why he was hesitating. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and said, "It's about BloodMoon. Things aren't well."She was surprised by her need to know the truth. It was almost overpowering. "Why? What did you hear?"Keegan searched her face with his eyes and she resisted the urge to shout at him. "I have the right to know, alright? Tell me what the problem is." She couldn't begin to imagine what he had to say to her. What could be so bad that he did he want to talk about it?"It's your father," he said finally. "What about him?" she asked with a frown. Her heart began racing and her palms sweated. She wiped them on her shorts. She wasn't prepared for what he had to say. Not in the slightest. "I'm sorry, Rae," he said. "He died."Rae closed her eyes slowly.
Rae awoke in a light room. She felt the area around her with the tips of her fingers. She could move her hand. Linen. A soft mattress. A sheet covered her body. She was in a bed. She instantly relaxed, and fell asleep for a few minutes again before trying again. There was the scent of bleach in the air. She knew that scent well, it was a detergent that her mother loved to use. Thinking about her now meant nothing to her. She didn’t feel pain. Her absence from her life did nothing for her. The wolf who made her heart ache was her father and him alone. He had been kind to her, and she wished that they had parted ways on better terms. Rae would never see anyone from her family again. It was strange to think about, but it was the truth. Trying to figure out where she was wasn’t easy. There were two options. Rather, there was only one probable one, but she would include the unrealistic one in her possibilities. One, was that she was at StonePaw. Where else would Keegan have taken her, i
Rae searched the grassy field for something. Anything that she could use as a weapon. There was something glittering in the dark, and upon inspection, she discovered that it was a thick shard of glass. She picked it up. Nobody paid any attention to her. Everyone was engrossed in their own fight. She saw Negan and Keegan tumbling around in the dirt. They were still in their wolf forms. She held the glass tightly, but not sharply enough to cut her hand. Any extra injuries wouldn’t be doing her any favors. She neared them. Neither of them noticed her, and she began to fear that they wouldn’t. She stopped a safe distance away from him. She thought of calling Keegan’s name, but that would distract him and give Negan the advantage. So she held her breath and called out, “Negan!”He turned his head to her sharply. Keegan did the same. The point of this was to give Keegan the advantage, but he didn’t take it. Her guess was that he was too shocked at seeing her. Now that she had his attent
How would Rae get there?It was all that she was asking herself.She began walking. She didn't know where she was going. All she knew was that she couldn't stop and do nothing. Waiting for him to return was not an option. She was the one who was enraged now. How could he? How could he abandon her again, without a word?How could he make such a big decision without her?Rae felt hurt and betrayed, but she had to remind herself that Keegan wasn't himself. She had never seen him lose so much control. He was a shadow of his former self, and she knew that he would only go back to what he was once he killed his brother. But that was the whole problem. Fighting Negan was not a piece of cake. His pack was strong, and although Keegan's group had been reinforced by the males from WoodFur, they were all injured. The ones who weren't were very few. They would not stand a chance against StonePaw. So, why did he leave? Rae was walking around without any sense of direction. She was walking away
Smoke was everywhere. Rae sniffed her arm, and could smell it on her skin. It was rancid, and a constant reminder of what had happened. The house was black, and everything inside of it had burned. Nothing could be salvaged, and they lost most of their food. It was kept in a small room under the stairs, and had burned along with everything else. Three lives were lost, two of Keegan’s males, and the female who had been whipped by the cruel Beta of WoodFur before Keegan showed up. She couldn’t outrun the flames, it seemed. She had been in bed rest for the whole week. Rae’s heart ached for her, and when she heard of her passing, she cried. The unfairness of it all was too bitter. A lot of wolves were injured, and Rae along with Tara, all of the females, and some of the males who knew how to clean and disinfect wounds, had their hands full. She had never wrapped a wound before, so she was learning along the way. Tara taught her the basics, but it was far from enough. Watching their fac
They lied awake, staring at the ceiling of their bedroom. Rae was beyond spent. Her body ached deliciously, and the sleep that hovered above her threatened to drag her under its murky waters at any moment. Her fingers were interlocked with Keegan's. The warmth in them was unimaginable. He emanated enough heat to keep her warm. It was almost as if he was feverish all of the time. The night was lovely and breezy. Rae couldn't have imagined a better evening to be mated to him. It was the coolest night in the whole of summer. The moon had decided to bless their union in the most surprising way. She glanced at Keegan and saw that he turned to look at her at the same time. His lips curved into a smile, and he turned his body so he was lying on his side, and closed the distance between them. His fingers were on her hips. "Are you okay?""I'm perfectly okay," she said, smiling. "I didn't think that I could be this happy. In the beginning of this week, things were so grim and hopeless. I n
The after-ceremony was more entertaining than Rae thought possible. The food was amazing, and everyone ate and danced merrily. Rae was glued to Keegan's side, and nothing could tear them apart. Everyone in the pack congratulated them, including Keegan's Beta, whose name she had finally learned; Jace. How had she forgotten? When she told Keegan that she had completely forgotten his name, he laughed. "Don't worry about it," he said, and kissed her full on the lips. "I don't think he minds. He's a practical wolf."Rae couldn't have asked for anything better. She was truly content. The evening was better than she thought it would be, and all her nervousness left her. She felt totally at ease amongst everyone. She ate and drank a little, mostly because she was nervous for what would happen after the after. And the way Keegan looked at her was a confirmation to her that he was thinking about the same thing. She felt hot all over, and trembled occasionally. Now that she had a taste of wha
The day of their mating finally arrived. Rae was dressed in the fine dress that Tara had remedied. It had belonged to the Luna of WoodFur, and now it was hers. The design was a little different than the usual ones—the bodice was tight-fitting, and there was a slit on the side of the skirt so she could move freely. The sleeves had been ditched because the days were getting increasingly hot, and overall, Rae was absolutely in love with it. "Thank you," she said to Tara. "I can't take you enough for making this beautiful design for me. I look...I don't think I've ever looked this beautiful.""The pleasure is all mine," she replied with a smile. "You've saved us all from a miserable end. For that, I will always be thankful. You and Alpha Keegan saved our lives."Rae blushed. "It was our pleasure."Tara took her hand in hers and they stared at each other’s faces for a full minute. Rae felt truly grateful for her help. She was the one who she and Keegan put in charge of the house’s affair
Rae slept for the better part of the day. She woke up feeling exhausted yet refreshed. Her muscles hurt, but it was a good like of pain, especially because she knew why they hurt so much. There was a smile plastered onto her face, and she couldn't stop smiling no matter how silly she felt. Last night was a marvelous experience, and she was thankful that he gave her a taste of what their mated life would look like. She was ready for the big commitment. It wasn't just that he made her feel good, it also had to do with the way she felt about Keegan excluding everything that they had done. To know that they could make love like that was a bonus. She hadn't expected that when she first fell in love with him. She wanted to make love with him every single day. She was excited for it to happen. And it was funny how she never craved sex before, but now that she had an idea of what it was, she wanted to do it again. Right before breakfast. It was insane, and she could hardly recognize hersel
The two of them had dinner inside their tent, and Rae ate well for the first time in a long time. Everything was delicious; she ate as if her life depended on it, and perhaps it did. For the most part, Keegan watched her, and he did so with a faint smile on his lips. “Good?” he asked. She nodded. “For you, only the best,” he said, and she blushed. “The cooks here are spectacular. They had months of food kept all over the place. A cruel folk, they were. Starving all of you for their benefit. The injustice makes my blood boil.”“It’s over now,” Rae said to him after she swallowed her mouthful of wine. “You’re here to make everything right. You’ve saved them all.”Keegan smiled, then leaned in for a kiss. Rae felt delighted. She had forgotten the argument they had about StonePaw, and chose to live in the moment. There was no use in stressing about something that hadn’t happened yet. She was only shortening the beautiful moments, and tainting them with her worries and despair. She had