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2024-10-29 19:42:56TANIA
When I awoke this morning Sylvain had already left to his sister's pack—without even a goodbye. I didn't know why that vexed me so much. He didn't owe me anything, especially not a goodbye or a few words before he decided to leave. However, I kept thinking back on the events as of late. Was he finally fed up with me pushing him away? Did he come to his senses and leave without a thought of turning back?
Or, would I see him curled on my bed when I returned to my room later tonight?
Only time would tell but the question well and truly plagued me. So much so, I was tempted to leave and use the shadows to find him so I could be there, with him. My father would probably lose his shit but at least I would be able to think of anything other than him.
I needed to calm the anxiety that roiled my stomach and turned my hands clammy. No one had ever mad
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