I stood in the pharmacy thinking about what to do. I felt self-conscious standing looking at the counter with the displays of pregnancy tests. I didn't want to pick one, until a trio of girls that looked as if they were in col-lege, picked them up as if they were going for a pick and mix at the candy store. This whole thing felt nuts. They were talking about the different types of pregnancy tests and the ones which claimed 100 percent accuracy. "Amber, you need to go for this one. It tells you how many weeks pregnant you are!""Shut up!" The dark haired one said as she picked it up "Shit, this thing's good." She picked up the packet and started reading and laughing about it. I did what any sensible woman who had been care-less and was possibly knocked up by a quarterback would do. I picked it up and said, "This could solve all my problems."Not only would it tell me if I was, but it would give me timelines too. Amber seemed to agree as she said, "You and I both. I better get
"God, I can't remember the last time that I was this happy," I said as I grabbed my sister. Mom was having a barbecue to celebrate her being cancer free. I offered to do it at my house, but she wanted to do it at home, Wwith the family. I could tell that Emma and Mason be-ing invited made them both feel part of the family. Then again, Mason comes to every damn family event. People used to laugh and ask if he was my girl-friend; he was the only person that would come with me to an event that I would show up with more than once. Every girl I did bring, and there were very few, only came once or twice and then no one saw them again. No one bothered asking if they were coming back. I had a reputation and not a very good one. But, I had a feeling that they knew Emma was different. Besides, handing in her notice hadn't gone down very well. I felt like a shit, making her do it. I wanted to go with her, but she said that it wasn't a good idea, that it would mean that she could prob
"Hey girl, you okay?" Sophia said as she picked up the phone. We were due to go on vacation the next day and I was going insane with so many things going in and out of my brain. Maybe it was the pregnancy hormones that had me all messed up. So many things had happened in a short space of time that I needed to talk to someone. Anyone that wasn't Sebastian that is. Call me self-ish for not wanting to talk to him about it, but up until now I had felt that we had gone from just establishing our relationship to me having to make a whole heap of sacrifices. I didn't know if I could add another one to the list. "Yes, could we meet up? I just need to talk to you about something?""Why are we whispering?"Oh because, your brother's in the next room and I'm going to make up some story about why I wanted to leave the house. Gosh, I couldn't even leave the house without permission. This whole thing was nuts. He was taking over my mind, body and soul..."Emma, are you there?"I nodded
"Hey, I thought you would be late." I smiled as I reached the door of Starbucks and Sophia just happened to be in front of me. I still hadn't looked at my phone; I was too scared to see what it would say. "Well, I had to come early. My baby brother is practically in tears thinking that you're going to leave him or something. That's not what this is about?" I shook my head. I wasn't going to tell her on the doorstep of Starbucks with customers behind us that I was pregnant. So I did my little fake laugh and said, "Let's go in and talk.""Phew!" she sighed with relief, but she still didn't have a clue what I wanted to talk about. How could she be relieved?I thought about making up a story and then just leaving, but I was in too deep. I had already realized that I had upset Sebastian by leaving so abruptly. Now So-phia was scared that I was going to leave Sebastian and all the while my phone was in my hand and I kept think-ing, just look at the damn message and find out what
It was our first vacation together and I knew that he was going to ask what was wrong. He kept going on about it on the way there. Subtly hinting about me not having my period for the last two months. What is it with men?Why don't they say exactly what is on their mind? He asked if we should stop at the store on the way to the airport, because I forgot to pack something. I ignored him, pretending that I didn't know what he was on about. I could see the disappointment on his face when I said that there was no need. Was he upset, because he knew? Or was it the fact that I didn't tell him?The season was starting and he needed to get his head back in the game. He had been jogging and doing exercises with Mason when he had managed to get out of bed. Which hadn't been often. The thing is I knew that I wanted to be with him. There was no doubt about that in my mind, but the thing that got me was the fact that we had moved so quickly.Kind of too quickly!I had to think a
I had wanted to spend the whole two weeks in the room. But I drew the curtains, grabbed my clothes and left. She was calling after me, screaming my name. I couldn't believe that she had been so selfish. All this time she had been keeping it quiet, because she was thinking of getting rid of it. This was our first official fight and I hated myself for behaving this way. After all, a woman has rights too, but what about the guys? I had millions in the bank. I could have hired someone to look after the baby if she wanted to go to work. So be it. I had never thought about being a dad until now, but the whole idea that I could potentially have been one and never known about it, made me fucking angry. "Don't go."I ignored her plea. I opened the door and left. I couldn't talk when I was angry; all the things would come out the wrong way. The best thing to do was to be on my own. I felt as if I was going to explode. I didn't make it far before she was behind me. I had just reached t
We were walking down the tunnel from the locker room. It was the final game in the season. Just like Emma had said, nothing could go wrong. I was fit, and nothing was holding me back. The vacation was just what I had needed. Time away from here and to spend more time connecting with the one woman that I had loved practi-cally my whole life. She said that we had moved too fast; that we needed to take it slow, but love waited for no one and as I headed out into the bright lights of the field, I thought about her sitting in the stadium carrying our child. She was going to be a mom; the last few months had been hard for her. She was used to being a doctor. Worrying about her career and now she didn't know what was going to happen to that. I had kind of had an idea. She had been going to meetings, even conferences just to keep herself busy while I had been at games and practices. The idea of be-ing a stay-at-home mom felt too small for her. Something that she had never considered, but
Two years later...It was still fucking daytime, but with all the cur-tains closed and windows covered, the room looked dark. Not that I gave a damn what time it was outside, because I didn't plan on leaving my home.There was a part of me that was angry for locking myself in, and feeling sorry for myself. I still wouldn't leave the house, though.I didn't have the courage to leave, after all. Not anymore."Fuck, this is boring," I grumbled, drinking the last of my beer, then crushed the can and tossed it in my trashcan. The can went in, and I smirked, but it quickly dropped with a sigh as my eyes turned back to the TV. "If they're gonna show this kind of play to people, they at least need better players."Like me, I thought, then cast that thought away, too. It was a dangerous thought to have for me recently, but sometimes, I couldn't keep myself from wishing.I was watching a football game, and it was already in its last quarter. I wasn't on either side, but the team on t