Caroline
*****
And then the door flew open and a pack of wolves emerged. By wolves, I meant half of the cheerleaders and their friends. The tall, leggy redhead, Ally, who'd been Greg's date for every dance and formal for as long as I could remember, threw us a saccharine grin.
"There you are, Greg!" she cooed. "We've been looking everywhere for you."
I glanced at him and was stunned by his discreet eye roll. Taking a deep breath, he turned to face the pack.
"Hi, Ally." He smiled but it was so clearly forced that I almost laughed. "What's up?"
"Oh, we were just planning the after party at my house and I wanted your input on some things," she said, her friends bobbing their heads.
I didn't miss the suspicious or even downright hostile look some of them sent me. As if I asked for Greg to suddenly befriend me.
"Okay. What things?" he asked.
"Well . . ." She looked warily at me.
I was already rising to my feet, grabbing my backpack. "I was leaving anyway," I muttered.
"Caroline—" he started.
"See you later, Caroline," Ally taunted.
It would have been better if she never heard my name or of my existence. I mentally cursed Greg for ever approaching me. As soon as I walked towards the doors, my tray in hand, one of the cheerleaders stepped out in front of me. Her hand jutted out and knocked my tray backwards. The watery mashed potatoes dumped all over me. All I could do was gape down as the liquid penetrated the fabric of my favorite hoodie, the dark pink turning a sickening brown.
"Oh my god," said Ally.
"Mitchelle, what the fuck?" Greg said, his voice too close.
I felt the heat of his hand over my shoulder and it all became too much. I dropped the tray and hurried towards the school. My mind was blank with fury. Those bitches. I hated them. I really did. I'd tried to be nice to them so many times, helping with their assignments and offering my umbrella when it rained. They didn't care. If you weren't part of their crowd and you couldn't offer something they wanted, they could care less about you. It infuriated me that they felt so entitled and better than everyone else. No one should view other people as resources or means to an end. We all had things going on—hopes, fears, and desires.
I stomped into the bathroom with shaking hands. Even their behavior and attitude wasn't what infuriated me the most. It was knowing that I wasn't going to do anything about it. I was weak like that. My entire life I'd been useless at defending myself and my loved ones. I couldn't save my parents or Uncle James. I definitely couldn't save myself.
Just as I got to the sink and threw my backpack down, a male voice echoed through the concrete space.
"Caroline? Are you here?"
I stiffened. Then I closed my eyes and forced out an exhale. Go the fuck away, Bush. Can't you see you've caused enough problems?
"No," I muttered.
There was no response so I assumed he didn't hear me. Shaking my head, I looked up at my reflection over the sink. The entire front of my hoodie was saturated in a disgusting brown film. I didn't realize my eyes were watering until I saw the droplets fall to the tile below my sneakers. I quickly wiped the tears away and got to work on wetting some paper towels. It was just a stupid hoodie anyway. Just a silly birthday present Uncle James got me a few years ago. I hated it at first, because it was just like him to get me something that made me look like a child. But it was extremely cozy and the color eventually grew on me. Now, it was stained.
I shrugged the jacket over my head and laid it across the sink. I tried tapping the stain with the water but to no avail. So I started scrubbing. After a few minutes, I realized it was probably a lost cause. I stuffed it into my backpack and then shivered, since all I had underneath was a t-shirt.
The bell rang then and I knew I had to go or I'd be late. As I emerged from the bathroom, a hand caught my elbow. I spun around and jerked myself free of my attacker.
"Woah, easy there," Greg said. His eyes were soft as they looked down at me. "Hey, are you okay?"
I looked around, my brows furrowing. No one else was around except the departing lunch crowd. "Have you been waiting out here?"
"Yeah . . . seemed a little creepy to barge into the girl's bathroom."
I sighed. "Right."
As I turned and started towards my class, the giant jock fell into step beside me. Our shoulders brushed as the hallway narrowed and I felt my throat tighten.
"Are you alright? I'm sorry about them," he said. "They can be assholes sometimes."
Sometimes? I swallowed back my snark and focused on breathing through my nose, saying, "Yep."
"Oh, uh, here."
I looked over and saw him holding up a blue jumper. My eyes flickered up to his face.
"Take it," he said. "It's freezing."
"Is this yours?" If it was anyone else's, I'd rather freeze to death.
He smiled crookedly. "Sure is. Probably stinks like me too."
I rolled my eyes but accepted it. While we walked, I slipped it over my head. It was so warm and it definitely smelled like him. Just more like his cologne than his sweat, for which I was extremely thankful.
"Thanks," I said.
"Seriously, it's the least I could do."
I stopped outside my classroom. "See ya later, Bush."
"See ya, Wilder."
Periodically throughout the afternoon, I found myself smiling. No one else knew but I was wearing the golden boy's sweatshirt. I knew better than to mistake his gesture as anything but sympathy and I really wasn't interested in Greg in that way. He had essentially ignored me for years now. That didn't mean I wouldn't be a friend or whatever. It was nice having someone who wanted to be around.
The hours ticked by quickly until the last bell clanged through the intercom. Like everyone else, I bolted for the door. I was ready to get home and dive into bed. Maybe I would look up jobs around too.
I stopped at my locker and dumped off some of the textbooks I wouldn't need. It was finally Friday and I wanted to put homework off as long as possible. When I reached my locker, I happened to glance up and catch Greg's light blue eyes. He was talking to one of his friend's. I smiled and then turned to shove my shit into the tiny rectangular box.
"Wilder."
Shutting the locker, I slung my backpack over my shoulder and turned to face him. His friend was gone now and he'd moved across the hallway in a few quick strides.
"Bush," I greeted with an awkward head bow.
He chuckled. "Are you heading out or staying after?"
"Staying after on a Friday? No can't do, mister."
"Well, I never know with nerds."
"You're a nerd."
He shrugged. "Exactly. I'm unpredictable."
Snorting, I rolled my eyes as we leisurely headed for the doors. Most everyone else had rushed out by now to catch the buses or beat school traffic. I didn't miss how closely Greg walked beside me. The warmth of his body seemed to cling to me as we moved. I squinted as we stepped out into the afternoon glow. A snap of wind soared across the parking lot and I shivered. Suddenly, I remembered I was wearing his pullover. He probably wanted it back but didn't want to be rude.
"Oh!" I halted on the sidewalk.
He paused to look down at me questioningly.
"Let me give you your sweatshirt back."
"What? No way," he said. "It's windy and cold. Just bring it on Monday."
I bit my lip. I really didn't want to take it home with me—it was obviously expensive and what if I misplaced it or spilled something on it? But I did have a twenty minutes walk back home. So I finally nodded and shouldered my backpack again.
"I appreciate it. Really," I told him.
He shared a smile with me. "No problem."
When we reached the end of the sidewalk, he turned to the left where student cars were parked and I started to the right.
"See ya later," Greg said.
I waved. Then I turned and the sight before me stole my breath. It was him. The guy from the gas station. I blinked a few times. What was he doing here?
Then I remembered the blacked out sedan I'd been seeing on the way to and from school. I thought it was following me but figured I was just being crazy. Who would want to follow me anyway? And I had a feeling it was him. I knew it! But how?
I finally took in the expression on his face. His dark eyes were depthless as they bore down at me, furious. My skin tingled. He looked like Satan incarnate in black slacks and a matching suit, inky black hair loose and tousled. His tall frame was lined with subtle, toned muscles that filled his suit perfectly. Aviators rested on his head, buried in his black hair. His full, pink lips were pursed.
Damn.
Then, I felt his hand circling my wrist and an unfamiliar heat drenched my bones. His eyes blazed as he growled, "Come with me."
As if in a trance, I let him lead me away. I would have followed him anywhere at that moment.
Caroline*****Mr. Mysterious didn't make an appearance even once the entire weekend. I constantly was checking the windows or taking walks, watering the bushes or washing Freya's car. I knew she thought I'd lost my mind. Maybe I had. What was I even doing? Waiting for him to come around? Fuck that. I wasn't going to wait for anyone. Not after what I'd been through. By Sunday evening, I was hating myself for wasting the weekend thinking about some creepy stalker. I tramped out to the living room and sunk into the recliner. Valentina and Freya were curled up, surrounded in a cloud of smoke. They'd been like this all weekend, not that I could judge."Wanna order a pizza delivery for dinner?" asked Freya. She was turning down the volume of the Seinfeld episode they'd been absorbed in. Valentina whined and tried to grab the remote, to which my cousin just ignored her."Sure." I sat up. "What do you guys want?""Pepperoni," Valentina moaned."Just get the meat trio or whatever," Freya sai
Marshall*****She almost had me. I felt her, really felt her, for the first time. My angel was the perfect combination of soft and warm. I almost lost my nerve holding her so closely. There was little stopping me from taking her, from sucking on her sweet lips and squeezing her until she moaned for me. She wouldn’t stop me. I knew that much already.I sat rigid straight behind the wheel. Her small figure shuffled up through the dimly lit street, a bit faster than before. She glanced around the street and hurried up towards her house.Good! She should be scared. This was not a safe neighborhood for a girl like her. She was too naive, too attractive, too small. I knew I wasn't the one man who would look at her with intent. Her openness with me was also concerning. Of course, I wanted to believe she was only that way with me, but I wasn't a fool. She was innocent and soft. My breath caught just thinking about her silky golden hair and round cheeks, the fullness of her curves under anyt
Caroline*****Monday was pretty dull, as to be expected. Greg stopped by during lunch to get his sweatshirt but he didn't linger for conversation. I had to study for an exam so I didn't take offense. The only things keeping me going were the thought of my stalker making an appearance and starting my shift at the gas station. That was only exciting because I was ready to make money for myself.I would have gotten a job sooner but I didn't have a car and Uncle James forbade me from working. He said my focus should be on my studies and that he paid for everything, so why should I work?Freya was indifferent about my decision but I could tell she was proud, in some way. I was happy to get out of the house, just in case Valentina popped up, and start saving. Maybe if it was enough someday, I could go to school. I wasn't going to set my hopes too high, though.Once last period was out, I went to my locker to grab the gym bag with my uniform in it. It was actually just a collared shirt in t
Caroline*****My favorite day! Friday. It's literally the best. Just a few hours of torture at school and then freedom for a whole two days. I wondered if I could be named Friday like Wednesday Addams. Probably not, she was way hotter than me.Fuck, why did I smoke before school?Groaning, I dragged my feet as I stared at the sidewalk leading out of the neighborhood. I was just starting it and I had so far to go. Why didn't I take the damn bus?Somehow, I remembered to plug my earbuds in and scrolled through my Spotify to find a decent playlist. There were an embarrassing number of Selena Gomez albums in there. I picked the Mac DeMarco playlist that had been stuck in my head. Each step became slightly more bearable.Honey, the stars keep on calling my nameBut don't worry, I've told you again and againWhen I'm down, you're always the first one to knowSkipping town, I'll take you wherever I goI finally turned onto the Main Street and started towards school. By happenstance, I glanc
Okay, this wasn't too bad. The bleachers filled in as the game started and by half-time, it didn't feel like I was even sitting alone. It didn't hurt that Greg was a pretty good quarterback. My football knowledge was limited but I could see that he was agile and had an impressive arm, despite being built like a linebacker. I even found myself yelling and hooting with the rest of the crowd as we scored touchdown after touchdown. At the final buzzer, my fellow spectators poured out of the bleachers. The old lady who sat next to me with her walker needed assistance so I waited with her until everyone was gone. Then I held her hand and guided her down to the ramp."Aren't you a sweet girl," she cooed at the bottom.I chuckled. "Less sweet, more sour."She patted my arm with a laugh. "Thank you, dear. My son is just over there. He'll help me to the car."Her son? That piece of shit wasn't here to help her down the stairs? My eyes followed her finger to the blue and white jacket hanging off
Marshall*****She wore her heart in her eyes. I could see every desire, every ounce of adoration and trust, teeming in those hazel green eyes. In the dark, lying beneath me, she looked more like a fallen angel than anything a holy god would keep around. She was sin embodied, my personal elixir. Wavy golden hair, bright eyes, and never-ending curves.My hand stroked down her side while she blinked up at me. Trustingly.She shouldn't trust me. I was a true monster under all these human layers. I was arrogant, not blind. Although I was obsessed with her and knew deep in my bones that I would never get bored of her, I also knew what I was incapable of.Love!If I couldn't feel love for my own parents or siblings, I was incapable. My angel was a sensitive being, though she tried to hide it. She wanted love. I knew it was the one thing I'd never be able to give her.Not that it mattered. She would be mine, regardless of whether she wanted to be. From the moment I set eyes on her, I wanted
Caroline*****Yawning, I slowly roused from my sleep. A sweet smell lifted into my nostrils, beckoning me to get up. I sat up and pushed the covers down. My jeans were all tangled down around my ankles. I frowned as last night returned to the forefront of my mind.Marshall! I jumped and looked around but there was no evidence of him or his presence. No note or anything. Oh shit. He wasn't out there . . . in the kitchen . . . Was he? I sprang out of the bed and instantly tripped over my jeans. Huffing, I kicked them off and yanked on a pair of sleep shorts from my dresser. I moved the chair from the door knob and hurried out.Freya smiled at me from the stove. I glanced around the kitchen but it was empty.She chuckled. "Good morning to you, too, sleepyhead. Looking for someone?""I—" I swallowed. "Oh, I just wondered if, uh, Valentina was still here.""Yeah, she's worse than you. Still in bed."I relaxed and padded over to her. When my eyes locked sight on the golden pancakes in her
Caroline*****Greg showed up at 7:29. I hurried out to the door, waving farewell at Freya and Valentina from their spot on the couch."Wait, where are you going?" Freya asked."The senior bonfire is tonight," I told her. "I won't stay out too late."She shrugged. "Stay out as late as you want, but be responsible. No teen pregnancies or DUIs, okay?"I saluted her and grabbed the door knob."And you look hot by the way!" she shouted as I slipped outside."Thanks!" I shouted back.Nervous, I glanced down at my outfit and wondered if I was going to be overdressed. I was wearing black jeans and a cropped sweater with combat boots. Just for good measure, I brought a coat with a hood on it in case I really did freeze my ass off.Greg honked as I scuttled over to his freshly waxed BMW. I jumped into the passenger seat."Well, I'll be damned, Wilder," he said with a smirk. "You don't look like a nerd tonight."I chuckled. "Is that supposed to be a compliment?"My eyes roamed over his tan Carh
Caroline*****My eyes were physically out of tears. They felt heavy and almost itchy from their dryness. I wished I could just close my eyes and rest them, but sleep was impossible.I glanced over at Uncle Sam, who was sitting in the driver's seat. He was staring at the road and didn't respond to my lingering gaze. We hadn't spoken much since he picked me up at the foot of Marshall's driveway. It certainly wasn't out of lack of interest on my part.I had so many questions about Marshall, about the FBI, about Freya's murder and my parents' death, and Sam's role in all of this. I just didn't have the heart to ask anymore. Only hours ago, Sam picked me up and brought me to a discreet FBI checkpoint in town where I was told by agents that Marshall was the leader of the Persian mafia. They'd been trying to catch him on drug charges for years now but had been unsuccessful in penetrating his ring. They told me it was extremely likely he was responsible for the death of my parents and tha
Marshall*****I was still in the depths of sleep when the shrill ring of my cell phone pierced through my dreams of a beautiful blonde girl with kind eyes.Sighing, my hand extended to the nightstand where my phone was plugged in. I popped the cord out and sat up. I saw it was Nuel and cursed, shoving the sheets off of me."What?" I answered. My eyes flicked to the lump on the other side of the bed. Caroline remained peacefully asleep. I reached over to caress the curve of her side before stopping myself. I didn't want to wake her, especially given how late I'd kept her up.My fiancé. I still couldn’t believe she said yes, that it was official. I never once in my life imagined I would get married—certainly not of my own volition. She was the only person I knew capable of changing my mind. I was a stubborn fucker. But I also wasn’t willing to lose her.I'd have to make time today to get her a ring. I wanted to get her something special and meaningful. But also something fucking hug
Caroline*****The first thing I noticed was the lingering soreness of my thighs and pelvis. Grimacing, I stretched through the pain.My right hand searched through the sheets. Finding only coolness, I leaned over and reached further. The emptiness struck me and I frowned. My eyes reluctantly peeled open to look around. Marshall wasn't in bed. His side was stone cold, as though he hadn't been here for a while. I didn't hear him moving around in the bathroom either. I sat up and instantly gasped at the spasm of pain in my thighs. Gritting my teeth, I threw the covers off of me. My breath caught.My abdomen and thighs were littered with hickeys and bruises. The man did a toll on my body last night. As soon as I agreed to marry him, it was like a switch flipped. He took me again in the bed a few times, then against the vanity in the bathroom, and twice more in the kitchen. I couldn't escape his massive cock or greedy fingers or ravenous lips. And because I was a little fucked in the
Caroline*****His words hung between us like a wall of cracked glass. Marry me.I stared up into Marshall's impermeable black eyes. I never felt so distant from him. Yet, at the same time, he offered me more insight into his mind than he ever had.Some kind of emotional block held him back. He could admit to caring for me, but he wouldn't allow himself to call it 'love.' He was a tortured soul. I knew that early on. Our dynamic was fucked from the start. I was desperate to feel loved and wanted by someone. I was tired of feeling like a burden to those I loved. Marshall made me feel the way I always wanted to: wanted, desirable, sexy, trustworthy, worthy.So, could I really hate him?I couldn't. I was sick in the head for loving him and wanting to be with him, even when I knew he may never admit to loving me. But I would never pass up the opportunity to be with him. Nevertheless, I wasn't going to concede to his demands so easily."Marriage isn't something to casually throw aroun
Caroline*****"You think?" I challenged her.My angel blinked up at me through her big, doe-shaped hazel eyes. Her lips parted in surprise.Leaning down, I stole another breath-taking kiss from her sweet mouth. I tweaked her nipple between two fingers and earned a small cry from her. My cock was already turning stiff again. "Marsh," she whined. "Tell me," I said, leaning over her so I could peer directly down into her eyes. "Do you love me or not?"She sucked her bottom lip into her mouth. As it tugged free, the pink skin was glossy with her saliva. I stared helplessly at them. "You know I do," she whispered.My hand rubbed circles into her hip. We stared at each other without looking away, the air thick between us. "I have known for a while now," I told her. "The way you look at me . . . the way you touch me…" I rubbed my hand over the top of her thigh before tracing down to her warmth. Her curls tickled at my fingertips. I strummed my fingers through her slippery folds. Some o
Caroline*****My stomach fluttered like one giant net filled with butterflies.Marshall's intense eyes focused directly on the walls ahead. His face was neutral but I could sense the tension coiled in his muscles as they carried me. I leaned into his chest with a small sigh. The fact that I was here, in his arms and in his house, partly surprised me. He knew about Greg but he was still here. He still wanted me. And as far as I could tell, he had no plans to murder me or Greg. Maybe he does love me, I mused. Despite the signs of his dedication and affection for me and my welfare, I knew I'd never believe it unless he directly said it. I often speculated on it all day and night but I never allowed myself to believe it. Just in case he didn't. "How old were you when you lost your virginity?" I asked him. Marshall's unrelenting glare briefly broke form to glance down at me. "Thirteen." I couldn't help but choke on my next breath. 13?! I was fantasizing about Edward Cullen and po
Marshall ***** Gold digger! Sugar daddies!! I wanted immediately to throttle this bitch. There was not a goddamn plane in all the worldly dimensions in which I would share my angel's sweet and supple skin. Caroline tightened her grip on my hand as I did an about-face. A thin girl with freckles and red hair glared at me with a smirk. "Name," I said. Her eyes flashed with interest. "Oh, did I say something you—" "Give me your fucking name," I growled. "A-Ally," she stuttered, blinking hard. "Ally what? Full goddamn name." "Ally Sa-Samson, sir." "Okay, Ally Samson—" Pressure on my arm drew my attention down to Caroline. Her eyes were wide, pleading. "Just ignore her," she said. "She's Greg's ex-girlfriend and she's convinced I'm trying to—" "THEY MADE OUT." Ally's face flushed crimson. Caroline ducked her face, letting out a muffled cry. I studied her closer and deciphered her body language. "Who made out?" I asked the girl in a clipped tone. "Caroline a-and Greg." I t
Caroline*****My entire body felt like jello.Partly because Marshall fingered the hell out of me this morning. But mostly because I was about to step into the gates of adulthood.My high school career ended today.Tomorrow, I could get a full-time job. I could apply to college. I could get knocked up and have a baby.Just kidding.I could barely take care of myself, much less a whole ass other person.Still, the looming thoughts about losing my v-card tonight made my overthinking brain consider all the repercussions.Sex was pleasure but also STIs and pregnancy and pain. Or so I'd heard.I wasn't afraid to lose my virginity. There was no other person on the planet I wanted near my body but Marshall Brown. I think my behavior over the last few weeks made that more than apparent.Jesus, I'm embarrassed.Some of it I blamed on hormones. I couldn't help that being near him made all logic and rational sense fly out of my metaphorical and literal core.His presence absorbed every fiber of
Caroline *****I didn't realize we were already outside until Marshall firmly stopped me on the curb.He reached around me to open the car door.My focus was so scattered from all the sexual tension and desire that I failed to take in the vehicle.Only as I gathered my dress to slide through the door did I notice the vehicle's shape was strange—unusually long and polished perfectly.My hands flew to my mouth."A limo?" I gasped. My eyes jumped to Marshall's smug expression."Only the best for my angel," he said.My face scrunched in what I knew was about to be an all-out ugly cry. I'd never been in a limo. Hell, I'd never even been in the general vicinity of one.Sniffling, I ducked my head and slipped into the back of the limo.The interior was all black leather. A disco ball spun from the ceiling and some kind of upbeat jazz blared through the speakers. Grinning, I settled onto a seat. Across from my legs was a silver bucket nestled into the back of the seat. I reached over to pu