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Confront your desires

Penulis: Lustre Okengwu
last update Terakhir Diperbarui: 2025-01-21 20:49:44

Sage

I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t breathe. My mind continuously worked, stealing any chance I had for rest. Every attempt to close my eyes only brought more loud thoughts into my head. I was confused and it felt like everything was slipping out of my control.

The one release I wanted was the fight with Kaiden but even he gave up on me. I knew I was being a brat but fighting with him would have given me the satisfaction I wanted. I wanted to beat myself up, I was so frustrated by what the professor said to me that I was going to say hurtful things to my best friend.

It made me a bad person because in that instant, I didn’t care about him or his feelings. I care about feeling better. I was selfish.

I hated what the professor said to me, it was hurtful and harsh. It made my chest so tight and it was difficult to breathe. All the times that we have spent together meant so little to him? I meant so little to him?

I thought he was doing all of that because he liked me bu
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    KaidenHeartbreak. All through my life, I haven’t experienced what this was. Not even with the people around me. My model friends too have way too much time on their hands than to be tied down to one person, their words not mine.While I valued myself to be the type of person who can’t feel anything, I know what I was feeling right now was heartbreak.I also know it isn’t supposed to feel like this. It isn’t supposed to be so wrenching so much that I thought my heart would snap into two. I was so riddled with guilt that I sought out the one person I needed to talk to. I didn’t want to spend my free days fighting with him when his company was the only one I could tolerate.The moment I left the bar, I had one goal in mind, to make peace with him. The fight earlier had been stupid. I’d let my insecurities and jealousy push me into lashing out, and I couldn’t stand the thought of leaving things unresolved. He mattered too much to me.When I arrived at his house, the lights were off.

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   The professor at my door

    Sage For three days, I stayed holed up in my apartment. I couldn’t bear the thought of facing the professor after what I had done. I had embarrassed myself and made a fool of myself at the same time. I was nothing more than a fool who had bitten more than he could chew. It’s been days after that but I still couldn’t forget how desperate I was begging him to fuck me. I mean I could have just laid on his feet and plead because what in the hell was that? What the hell had I been thinking? Marching over to his place in the middle of the night, pouring my heart out, only to be met with that cold, infuriating response. I’d practically thrown myself at him like some lovesick fool and yet, nothing moved him. I groaned, pressing my hands against my face as I lay sprawled on the couch. My phone sat on the coffee table, lifeless, its screen dark. I’d called Kaiden more times than I could count, but he wasn’t answering. It was as though he had vanished off the face of the earth. So becau

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   À fantastique blow

    SageHe broke the kiss off and pinned me with a gaze, « whatever you are thinking right now doesn’t matter. This is what you wanted right? »« I know it’s what I wanted but I want to be sure that it’s what you want. »« Shut up, Sage. »I nodded and he grabbed my neck, pulling me closer to him with his gaze pinned on me.« The first time I saw you, I wanted to shove my cock in your mouth just to see how those eyes would water for me. You think you have liked me from the start? Mine is the worst. »His words should have sent me running to the hills or even rethinking this but my mouth watered. I was so happy to have been the object of his fantasy for so long.He has liked me from the start, is that why he gave me a job? So he would have to see me everyday?I was so filled with happiness that I took initiative."I want to taste your cock" I said, and dropped to my knees, I carefully zipped down his pants and my eyes widened from the size of his cock.I thought Kaiden’s was huge but this

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Hickeys

    SageHe nodded, gliding his mouth up and down every inch of my cock. Then he popped it off and breathed, " That's what I was driving towards, it defeats the purpose of me sucking you off.""No," I chuckled, "I meant an actual drink," His lips swiped his wet bottom lip as he gazed up at me with a confused expression. "You think now is the time to offer me a drink? When I am sucking you off? »Yeah, I wondered that too. Besides the fact that I had no alcohol except an old bottle of whiskey that Kaiden left here months ago.« No, » he shook his head. « I don’t want a drink. » he gestured down to my still hard cock, « now, do you mind? »I nodded, « I don’t mind. »He resumed sucking me off but I was a little sad now. I wanted the alcohol for a little courage. I looked down at him just to find him staring at me.He sighed, « okay, I want to drink. Where do you usually keep your drinks? »My face lit up, as he slid off the bed.« It’s in the bottom of the last drawer in the kitchen. »« O

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Down and dirty

    KaidenKaidenHead tipped back, eyes closed, lips shivering. He didn't even notice what I'm doing. Grinning to myself, I continued my descent down his body, making more hickeys on his pelvis. Naturally, I had to stop to suck on his cock for a few minutes, because I just couldn't help myself. It was so good and tasty... But then I forced myself off of it, kissing his inner thighs."Flip over for me, beautiful," I breathed, sitting back and spinning him onto his stomach.He went gladly, and I returned to kissing and nipping his sweet, warm, blushed flesh, making a few more hickeys on the taut cheeks of his ass."You're biting me an awful lot..." he rumbled, pushing his butt up to my mouth like he liked it.I chuckled, cupping him in my hands and spreading him open while he gasped. "Oh, how foolish of me. I came back here to lick."Wasting no time, because seriously, I've been wanting to do this since I set my eyes on him, I lowered my lips between his ass and feathered my tongue over h

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Little slut

    SageIt's like he created a monster. All the yearning I have had for him came pouring out. I refused to let him go anywhere so We were still at it.I have never felt like this before and I intended to drain it so it doesn’t drive me crazy.We are going to be spending so much time together anyway, it was easier to get this out of the way."I've never tried..."I tried to say but he ran his hands up the backs of my thighs, cupping my ass hard while I whimpered. "Do you wanna come with my tongue in your ass, Sage?"My dick leaked a heavy pulse of precum onto the bed as I breathed,"Yea... that sounds... fun."Gosh, I didn’t ever think that the professor would ever talk dirty. He was like a walking contradiction. He looked like a rigid person merely looking at him but he was a beast in bed.And I was the object of his pleasure.He chuckled seductively, spreading me open while I purred at the sensation of being on display and at his filthy mercy. "I'd grab that pillow." His warm breath tick

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Scream for me

    SageI couldn’t move an inch, not even if I wanted to.He tugged it out slowly with a shivering breath, dragging the swollen head over my lips and down my chin. Then he collapsed on me, while he kissed my mouth. Sucking at my lips, he teased my tongue with his, tasting himself.My brain was a scrambled mass of static, the sexual haze we're wading in filling the room as my fingers tangled in his hair and I held his lips on mine.Keeping us lost for as long as I could until this wears off.Till something else comes up and shatters this, like reality.He peeled his mouth away, but only to kiss down my chest and suck his cum off my nipples. The feeling jolted my cock awake but I was drained."Come on, let's get you cleaned up," he said.I wanted to protest because I enjoyed being under him like this, I didn’t want to move so I wouldn’t have to accept the harsh reality that this was the end.It didn’t matter that the past few minutes were so passionate, it would soon come knocking at the d

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Disappearing acts

    SageI blinked awake, disoriented, my body aching in ways that reminded me of the night before. The room was quiet, the sheets cool against my skin. That’s when it hit me, I was alone.The cold weight of disappointment settled in my chest before I could stop it. I hadn’t even realized I was expecting him to still be here until he wasn’t. What was I thinking? That he would cuddle me to sleep after fucking me?I rubbed my face, trying to piece together the events of last night. I vaguely remembered what happened during the shower sex. Or that we actually had our bath. Had I blacked out from sheer exhaustion?I turned to the clock on the nightstand. It was early morning. Morning. How long had we been at it? My body certainly felt the strain, and yet, there was a hollow feeling that cemented all of it.We had an awesome night but I wanted to wake next to him, in his arms especially. I bet he would smell and look really good in the morning.He would be smiling down at me because he had b

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  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   A handsome devil

    SageI wore my clothes and wrinkled my nose when the antiseptic smell still clung to my clothes as I walked out, my body sore from injuries that hadn’t fully healed. The dull ache in my ribs reminded me of the attack, the pounding of fists and boots, the weight of helplessness crushing down on me. The bruises would fade, but the bitterness in my chest would remain because it was now obvious to me that Kaiden was the reason I had been attacked twice now.He couldn’t even come to see me after they had called him. He is a very ruthless bastard and I hate him with every fiber of my being now.The professor was waiting for me outside, leaning against his car like he hadn’t just berated me in there. His arms were crossed, his expression unreadable, as always.The warmth I had glimpsed in there was long gone now.I stopped in front of him, adjusting the hospital bag slung over my shoulder. "Are we going to your place?"He barely spared me a glance before unlocking the car. "No. I’m taking y

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Like a princess

    SageI woke up the next day having rested my body. The first person I saw was the kind doctor who had treated me the last time. “We have got to stop meeting like this,”I looked at him, he was young and extremely handsome, I smiled. “I am sorry, I can’t help it.”His face turned serious, “what happened this time, Sage?”I sighed, how would I even explain it so he would hear it? That I was a klutz or this was the second time someone intentionally put me in the hospital? I couldn’t say anything that wouldn’t put me in trouble. I had no idea what I was even dealing with.“You have to be more careful from now. The bruises you got this time were much worse. You cannot keep coming back here.”“I understand, doctor.” I said.There was nothing else to say but that. He must think that I am an idiot. Coming into the hospital like a bruised punching bag. I brought this upon myself.He was still crossing things off his record when the professor entered. He took one look at me and frowned.“What

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Poorly timed death

    KaidenA dull, throbbing pain spread through my skull as I came to. My limbs felt like lead, my throat dry and sore. The air was thick with the scent of disinfectant, and the bed beneath me was softer than I expected.Where the hell was I?I forced my eyes open, blinking against the harsh light spilling in from a nearby window. The room was familiar, too familiar. Clean, precise, without a single thing out of place. My stomach twisted.The professor’s house.How did I even end up back here? I thought I made the big show of packing up and leaving?Memories crashed into me. The party. The drink. The dizziness. The attack. A hit to the back of my head.Fuck, I should call Martin and ask him what the party was all about. Did he even properly investigate before putting me there?Fuck!I shot up, a sharp pain lancing through my skull. My vision swam, and I groaned, pressing my fingers to my temples.The world was still spinning around in circles and I held my head to try and steady it. It f

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   The unwanted

    KaidenThe phone hung up and I stared at it in fury.“What the hell was that?” He asked.“It’s nothing,” I shrugged.“That didn’t sound like nothing. What was that?” He asked again through gritted teeth.“Okay, long story short. The people that attacked us earlier, they attacked Sage when he was in my house and he had to be rushed to the hospital. He is fine now and he went back home but he is back in the hospital. That was them over the phone.”I heard nothing, just the faint sound of movement. I expected him to make a huge deal of it but he said nothing so I looked up.The professor’s eyes burned with fury as he stood in front of me, arms crossed tightly over his chest. His usual calm, composed demeanor had shattered, and what remained was a man filled with contempt—for me.“What the fuck? Sage was attacked?”I nodded.“Take me to him.”I wanted to argue but something told me he wasn’t in the mood to play the checkers game with me. I could argue with him and end up with a bruised ch

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   A message from Kaiden

    SageI had days to myself in my house, barely gotten used to the quiet of my apartment. I keep having nightmares about the same people coming for me in my own house. But when I remind myself that I have nothing to do with them and they didn’t know where I lived.So I attended school, avoided the professor with care by the way and went back home. The typical life of a loner which I was sometimes okay with.The other times, I cried when I remembered that I was all alone with nobody to talk to. It really was like he didn’t care about me.Yes, I was still thinking about the professor. I had hoped he would try to corner me again to talk to me. I would have given him a listening ear this time.I shook my head with a smile and just rested my head when the peace shattered.It started with a knock at the door, and I froze. A warning bell went off in my head, but I ignored it. I wasn’t expecting anyone, but after the week I’d had, I figured it was someone from school or even my dad checking i

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Letting it all go

    Sage For the first time in years, I felt like I was truly alone. Kaiden didn’t come. Not when I woke up in the hospital, not when I was struggling to sit up without wincing in pain, not even when the doctor signed my discharge papers. Three days had passed, and he hadn’t so much as texted. I tried calling him but he didn’t pick neither did he return my calls which seem to be a usual thing for him since he fucked up. I guess I got my answer. He was done with me. I should have expected it, but the finality of it still left a hollow ache in my chest. It is something I struggled to accept but I couldn’t. Whenever Kaiden and I fight, I always imagine that it wouldn’t last. We would get back to bickering after a day or two, latest three days. But this blowout made us grow further apart like we had been fighting for decades. I was dead to him. Instead of going back to his place, where everything reminded me of him, I went home. My real home. The apartment was too quiet

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   A lesson in maturity

    Kaiden Walking into my apartment felt like stepping into a crime scene. The door creaked open, revealing a space that had been utterly torn apart. My couch was flipped over, my shelves emptied, their contents shattered across the floor. The kitchen drawers were pulled out, their contents spilled as if someone had been searching for something specific. A muscle ticked in my jaw as I stepped inside, the crunch of broken glass beneath my boots making my stomach tighten. It was as if they were looking for something. I was ticked. I hated it when people went through my stuff like they had every right to. I hated it in every sense of the word. I have never acted rashly with anyone and I doubt it anyone was out for me seeing as I didn’t have the time to go around looking for trouble. I clenched my fists, my breath coming out in sharp exhales as I forced myself to calm down. Getting angry wouldn’t fix anything. I needed to clean up. I didn’t even know where to start. I left the hous

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Hospital bed

    SageI woke up to the steady beeping of a heart monitor, the sterile scent of antiseptic filling my nose. My entire body ached, a dull, pulsing pain that reminded me exactly why I was here.The attack.The masked men.Kaiden.The moment my brain caught up, I heard a familiar voice, loud, agitated."What do you mean ‘soon’? Define soon!" Kaiden’s voice carried through the hospital room. He was pacing furiously, his arms crossed tightly over his chest as he glared at the doctor standing in front of him."Mr. Kaiden, I understand your concern, but his body needed time to recover. He experienced significant trauma. His vitals are stable now, and as you can see—"I coughed, my throat dry and raw.Kaiden’s head snapped toward me in an instant. His pacing stopped, his blue eyes locked onto mine with an intensity that made my stomach tighten.He marched to my bedside, his expression filled with anger and a part of me hoped that it was worry that I could see on his face. "What the fuck were y

  • The Professor Wants Me and So Does My Bestfriend   Run in

    SageI stood outside Kaiden’s apartment, gripping my spare key so tightly that the metal bit into my palm. I couldn’t sleep at all last night, I kept turning and tossing.Wondering why my mind was still stuck on Kaiden. He was still my best friend and I couldn’t give up on him. My anger had faded away to something more realistic.Loneliness.I didn’t have anyone to rely on and it made me so fucking lonely. The professor was out of my life and so was Kaiden, that one not by choice.The worst part was that I missed both of them so much that it hurt me everytime the thought of them came up.I decided that if there was any time to make peace with Kaiden then it would be now. He was still angry but he wouldn’t turn me away.My parents’ words still echoed in my head, Let it go if you want your best friend back.Easier said than done.I was so hurt that he would do something like that to me, whatever the reason may be.Kaiden and I had been through so much. The fights, the betrayals, the dis

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