A gush of the wind against the tenderness of my skin keeps me awake as I tried to not stumble on the stairs and successfully open the door of my room.
I laughed to myself as I stumble face-first on the floor. My head is still spinning as I tried to stand on myself using my elbows. I nearly groan when I felt my toe twist because I am wearing high heels.
Drinking is not for me anymore, I thought to myself and still tried my best to stand but then I was baffled when I was being lifted off the floor. Someone is holding my waist and putting me right into my bed.
My room is dim black and my head is still spinning so I can’t really point out who was the shadow is.
“ Are you drunk, Amara?” he asked in his deep voice. A loud spur of voice came out of my mouth as I realized who was it.
It’s Major Levi Sullivan in his bare chest and low hanging jeans. He was angrily looking at me with his deep set of eyes and I was seeing nothing but t
“ I was the reason she was killed, Amara.” “ I was the reason she was killed, Amara.” “ I was the reason she was killed, Amara.” I’m still too drunk to think straight. Too drunk to absorb what he just said but, in my mind, I felt like I was a genius. A smart woman who knows what those words meant.I took a step backward and it wasn’t enough. No, I wasn’t afraid of him or terrorize. My mind cannot just absorb what he meant by that. Or maybe it was my heart because the last time I checked it shouldn’t hurt like this.It shouldn’t beat like it was tired of beating. Trembling, I sit right on the floor. The cold didn’t bother me. What bothered me was him and his words.How can he tell me that? How can he tell me that with pain in his voice as if getting her killed was the biggest regret of his life?I see him closing
“ Wait a damn minute, Levi!” I scream as I grab my face out of his holds and made him look at me instead.Indeed, these pictures bother me, but what the hell was he doing?He looked at me and embrace the intensity of my gaze. It is still morning and my head is still aching from alcohol last night, but I know what he is doing.“ You’re trying to avoid what happened last night!” I concluded at his actions, but this bastard only gave me a glare before continuing what he was doing. He was taping papers and pictures whilst completely ignoring my presence. And it only did nothing but to hurt my ego, to bruise my ego.I was too caught up with my emotions that I tear every paper and picture out of the wall, tearing them into pieces before I throw them right in front of his face. I can show how angry he was because he is biting the insides of his lips and his body is tense.But right now, I am not afraid of him. I don&rsq
“ And?” I asked not truly processing what he meant by that.He looks mystified by my reaction. “ Didn’t you hear me? I told you I was a sex addict,” he repeated his words as if I didn’t hear it the first.Oh well. Everyone has their own battle to win, their own waves to tame inside of their mind because if you don’t you’re either the deity or you’re an angel.“ I heard it, Levi. And so? What if you’re a sex addict? Did she think that you’re less of a person because of you’re diagnosis?” I asked, closing the distance between us.This time, all I wanted was to sit on his lap and encircle my arms around his nape. To feel his hot breath touching the skin of my neck and be close to him. And I did. I fucking did as I straddle him.Major Sullivan smiles. And I was too bewitched to notice that I’ve been staring at it for some time now. His smile is not sarcastic or a
I was woken by gentle kisses sliding through my neck up until my shoulder bone. A muffled snort escapes my lips when it slides through the back of my neck. Opening my eyes, I angle my head and see the gaze that even after everything made my heart flutter.“Good morning, madam,” he smiled at me and I feel the urge to part my lips to be able to breathe properly for I felt like his smile made me stop from breathing.He gave in a quick kiss before stopping and letting our foreheads press into each other. I can feel him and his warm breath lingering through every bit of my skin.He felt like peace and protection. A special ingredient for this perfect moment. A home and a sense of love. In the midst of war and chaos, a shield and strength to go on life without worrying to be alone in the middle of the war.A ladder in times of hardships and light in the darkness. He felt like everything. And I know that it was only him.“ W-What&r
A loud banging on the door makes me purr into my sleep. I didn’t even notice that I have fallen asleep on the couch using Major Sullivan’s lap as my pillow. I felt so at peace with him by my side. He was gently stroking my hair and when he notices that the loud banging of the door made me awake, he kisses the tip of my nose and tugged me more into the couch.“ Stay here,” he mentioned before I felt his body slipping out of the couch. I did what he told me because my head felt heavy and my eyelids. I am indeed sleepy and I don’t know why.The sound of the shuffling of shoes didn’t bother me as I kept my eyes closed. I really needed to take care of myself. It feels like my body is suffering from something. The sound of shuffling shoes became closer, but I still didn’t bother to open my eyes. Major Sullivan can deal it for me, whoever it was. My eyelid is so heavy that I was annoyed when I felt a finger poking
“ I told you to stop moving around!” Major Sullivan calmly said as he stopped me from walking back and forth inside of my room.It’s been ten minutes since Ares drives out of my house and announces that the president is being ambushed, but nothing is giving me any information about it.I stare at the television, and no news is coming up. It only makes me frustrated. I tried calling Ares but he wasn’t answering his phone. It just keeps on ringing and ringing. Dad’s head of security is also not responding.My head is going to break from all of this. I needed to do something before I lost my mind.Damn it. What the hell is happening? I was told that my father is being ambushed and all I can do is to wait inside my house? He ruined my life, but he was still my father.Major Sullivan sighs as he dropped the phone call that he had and held my face still. My body is still trembling thinking of all the possibilit
“Calm the fuck down Amara or I’m really going to tie you down, baby. I swear,” Major Sullivan shouted as I bolted out of the room as soon as I read the message on his phone.No one can stop me now that I’ve read what happened to my father. I was running to slip out of the door of my room when a sudden steel arm grip my waist and held me in place.I was shouting and resisting but his large frame kept me still. My feet are trying to kick his hands away, pushing him so that I can finally go and see my father. My eyes are so hot and sore from anger and frustration.Why can’t he let me go? I just wanted to see the president and know if he’s okay. And know if he’s breathing but he wasn’t going easy on me. I shouted, screamed, and fight for my way but there is no defense for his large body frame.Major Sullivan roared and I scream for more, louder than ever when I felt him carrying me back on my bed. My knees
The sun is almost out when I heard some noise above my body. When I open my eyes, I saw Major Sullivan staring right into my eyes. My hand was free and I presume that he untied the knot when I fell asleep.He looks unkempt as he stares at me. His eyes look red and puffy. Don’t tell me he didn’t sleep at all just to watch me? I pursed my lips and stare at him.“ No, I didn’t sleep at all, baby,” he taunted before pointing to the side table. My heart whelms as I saw a food tray and a new set of clean clothes,Without moving, I look at him and tried to ask what he is doing right now using my eyes. He seems to get what I want when he smiles. Tiredly smiles before he assists me in sitting up.I felt him kiss the top of my head before sighing heavily. “ I’m sorry I tied you up, baby. After you eat and get cleaned, we’ll visit your father,” he mentioned which only makes me feel worse because of
Grey perky clouds cover the vicinity of the place. They say that grief comes in many forms. It comes with agony and sadness for those who did nothing but to love. It comes with happiness and joy for those who gave resentfulness until the last breath.However, above all of those that was mentioned, nothing can beat the true meaning of grief. For those who spend their life living with that person and for those who shares every bit of their life with that person, griefs come with pain.The pain of losing someone and knowing that there is no choice left but to accept the cruelness of being left alone.I kneeled and sighs as I tried to wipe the dirt out of his name. The cold stone where his honorable name was engraved stood right infront of me. I’ve brought flowers and even this time, I don’t know if he will be happy with the type of flowers that I have chosen.Funny how even his favorite one is such a puzzle for me. I guess, I took my time rebelli
“ No…. no!” I screams as I turned around and found them both lying on the floor.There are bloods. Lots of blood colors over Major Sullivan’s clothing. Everything for me stops the moment that I choked on my own breath and run to him.“ Amara!” I heard my father said behind me, trying to stop me from going to the man that I love but how can I? How can I not run when I literally saw blood on his clothes and know that he’s been shot.Terrors and fears fills my body when I saw him shutting his eyes.“ No!” I shouted. My hands touch his face, shaking my head as my body trembles with terror.No. No.“ Y-You can’t leave…me…again,” I whispered and just like a star appearing on the middle of the night where only darkness dominates the whole place, I saw Major Sullivan opens his eyes.I heard him sigh. “ I won’t baby,” he whispered. I was st
“You’re going to pay for this!” Major Sullivan shouted as he tried to resists on the knots that are binding us right now.We are on the couch, our whole body is tied with some thick ropes as Ares and Maricriz appeared in front of us, their guns are pointing just right on our heads.I can feel the tip touching my skin and the coldness from it only made me shiver and drown into being terrified. I know that in just one click, the bullet will surely pierce through our heads.My body is shaking from the fear and from everything. I am still lost because of the too much information that I’ve absorbed earlier and now, I am being tied on the couch whilst a gun is pointed at my head.Tears are streaming down my face. I was trying to calm myself but I just can’t simply do that. I was choking from too much nervousness.Maricriz stopped in my direction, the tip of her gun is pointing just beneath my jaw forcing me to
Whilst I don’t know what to expect as I was ushered out of the car. Major Sullivan is holding me like I’m a fragile object that will shatter at the moment that he will drop his hands.Maricriz is beside us. Or beside him, and judging by her reactions, I think she’s curious or entertained right now. I can’t figure out why she’s alive and why she’s here.There is no way that she accidentally turns out on our wedding day and drops all of this like a bomb, waiting to explode.The journey to the house felt like forever. Major Sullivan kept on touching my hands and reminding me of his presence. I’ve never been to this part of the country where the next house is located miles away from this one.I don’t know how they pulled this out or how they escaped me out of Ares’s den.As soon as the door opened, I was expecting a little not so ambitious style of the house. The outer exterior looks like it’s
“She’s awake.” My mind heard someone say or whisper right beneath my ears. I don’t know what to do because when I tried to move my body, all I can feel is the leather itch strap holding me back down into whatever I am tied to. I can feel a loud gush of the wind and it seems like I am inside of an enclosed space where there is only one cycle of a breathing pattern that is allowed to do. My back is aching from being tied down for so long. How long have I been out of this world? Then, it occurred to me. The nurse forces me to gulp some capsules after she injected me something. I fought my urge to be drowned back to the oblivion. No. The nurse is working for someone else making me panic. My body started to squirm out of the hold of the bound. I shouted but there is something in my mouth. It’s a piece of clothing preventing me from speaking. It tastes like fabric clothing. The only thing that I can do is to open my eyes. Sensing the danger, I am mu
My goal right now was to escape Ares. I don’t know how to start but I definitely needed to do something about my life right now. Before, I used to think that I possess a Masteral degree when it comes to escaping. I didn’t have any problem with running out of the presidential house as well as with the bodyguards. Considering that they are trained professionals, I partake pride in my works of escaping against their vision and running out of their sight.I am used to escaping. It’s always the plan when everything seems to be heavy in my life. I used to escape for fun but right now, it’s not for fun anymore. It’s a matter of life and death situation because escaping means that I will have the chance to get out of this hell.Inside of my heart, the emotions and commotion cannot be sustained with every ounce of braveness that I’m using to bridge the gap of wanting to survive and accepting my fate in this lifetime. What happened the o
Huddling inside of the room, Ares tried to get my attention as I helped myself with the television. This is the only entertainment that I can have to not make my sanity wash over the wind.The only entertainment that I was allowed in this prison. In this prison where I was forced to live, without knowing that I’m in the devil's den. The memory of the day of the accident drowns my thought away. It’s one of the things that is bothering me right now.Ares was there too. He insisted on driving the car for me as I was wrecked and stubborn, trying to chase Major Sullivan. His expression and the concern in his voice shook me within.I cannot accept it. None of it seems like a dream.A tear slid down my cheeks and I was abrupt on wiping it over. I cannot afford to be weak but being pregnant makes me sensitive and fragile. It makes me overthink things that I shouldn’t suppose to think of.Ares moves over causing our skin to touch with one
The room is silent. If only the gush of the wind can spare a moment from creating a whirlwind sound, the cricket outside can definitely be heard because of the silence. It’s been like this, it’s always been like this, and every time that I had a glimpse of what Ares and I had done in this lifetime, all I can feel is disgust.Major Sullivan messages stills appeared right into my mind. It’s like a permanent reminder that right now, I am in the lion’s den and he is dangerous. I should deem him as a dangerous predator pretending to be a protector.I should deem him as nothing but the enemy. That is what Major Sullivan wants. He wanted me to be careful and I don’t want to do anything that will put me into the danger zone.My baby. Our baby needed to be protected from Ares. I gulped as I survey his movement, watching his movement in caution.Ares looked down on me. He was trying to unbutton his coat, leaving him with only his white
For another day, I found myself resting inside of my room. The television is my only source on what is happening outside of this room. Ares told me that he will visit me today but he didn’t. I was only told that he was busy with his new duty. His new duty as the president of the country. I can still see his smile while swearing his oath on the national television. I know that he wants that position for a long time but I almost felt like he’s hiding something because of that smile.I tried to seek for my phone but the guard said that it wasn’t with me when I was brought here either. The only thing that I can do is to rest and to hope for my father to be in best shape.He wasn’t conscious yet and it’s been almost five days since the incident. The doctor told me that it is normal and maybe he’s taking his time to rest but it didn’t sit well with me. If he was just shot on the shoulder, he should be awake right now, right? However,