This isn’t how I imagined my Tuesday night would be. I bought whiskey and slam the remote after the “political marriage” scandal has bombarded the news when the magazine was released. The photoshoot includes a picture of the prime minister and the president’s daughter wearing nothing but their bikinis.
I looked at the magazine that has been delivered into my house and cannot help but to feel agitated or maybe it is the excitement? The way how I imagined Major Sullivan provoked and triggered by what I did excites me. And it hits a realization, maybe I needed to see a therapist for this kind of thing.
There is no way, I am enjoying the fact that he’s provoked by my little stunt. Well, who wouldn’t be when I am only wearing a bikini and the prime minister is half-naked, and my back leaning on his chiseled chest. The organizer really seizes the opportunity.
It’s a good thing, Ares is ambitious. He really doesn’t care a
He slowly slipped me into my bed as I got tired from crying. Two years without him, and seeking for him, and now that he’s here, I felt all the tired emotion flash inside of my heart.I shook my head and found myself not wanting to let go of his nape. Major Sullivan sighs and gently strokes some strand of my hair before I felt the soft mattress against my stiff back.My gaze landed on Major Sullivan and there is a nervousness inside of my heart, knowing that he will leave me. He will leave me again.Tears burst out of my eyes with that realization. I fucked this up. I haven’t cried like this for the past years without him only to realize that maybe I’ve been holding for too long that hearing his apology after all these years made me weak, shatter the barrier of hope that been hiding how broke I am when he left.His eyes look so hurt and I cried harder when I felt him join me in the bed. The way how he pats my back and how he places my he
“ The prime minister told me that you have the file of the late senator’s case. I wanted it, Amara, you shouldn’t be doing this.”I quickly snatched all the files from my father’s hand when I saw him trying to gather all of them.This isn’t what Ares, and I talked about. I should know that he will always rat me to my father. His loyalty simply relies on him.He looked at me with his usual stern expression. The firm lines and his thin lips told me that he didn’t like what I did.“ I don’t want you snooping around my house, Mr. President. Give me the key,” I mentioned and reach my hand to him.He snickered and leans back into the couch with a grimace in his face.“Amara, I’m not here as the president. I’m here as your father,” he muttered. His voice is too gentle that it almost touches my heart.I looked at him. “ It’s too
“ I’m going to find out the reason why you’re avoiding me,” Ares declares as I heard his sulking voice on the phone. I just told him that I cannot meet him for a week because I needed time to think.I don’t even know what to think but having no one’s presence in my life for a week is my definition of peace. The only thing that I need at this moment of my life.Ares sighs and I heard his apology again. “ I’m sorry, Amara,” he muttered and I had to roll my eyes because I’m tired of hearing him apologizing but he keeps on ratting me to my father.What happened the day after yesterday is not the first time that Ares did something like this. He always tells my father about the photoshoots, countries, and even the location of this house.I should be angry, but being angry with him only means I had to waste my energy. I couldn’t. I simply couldn’t waste energy when I have turmoil inside of m
It was only an hour when a loud banging of my main door was heard. One hour and I am still on the couch contemplating what I just watched. My heart is racing as I’ve just run from my morning jog. My body is trembling and every part is aching for answers. Then there’s my mind trying to wrap my mind into the scenarios on the video.The banging became louder and louder that I don’t have the choice but to open it to whoever is trying to knock out my main wooden door. A sweaty and worried face of Major Sullivan welcomes me as soon as I opened the door. I took a step backward but he was quick for him to pull me into a tight hug.Just then, those emotions that have been bottling up inside of me resurface in the power of his embrace.“ I-I’m…too…”I wanted to say that I’m too shocked and scared but words are being vanished by my sobs. Tears cascaded down my eyes as if it’s the only time t
“ You’re not meeting him,” he roared and snapped back my clothes out from my hands.It annoys me that he was here, in my room, and hindering me from confronting my father. The idea of him being the mastermind and the owner of that flash drive disgusts me. Who could it be aside from him, right? His hate towards Major Sullivan drives him into this kind of circumstances.I stood over him and held my head high. “ He’s disgusting,” I commented, although it was actually my own father.Can you believe that?“ No, we’re not sure that it was him,” he replied making me annoyed for more.Is he fucking serious right now? My mind battles up all of those curses inside of it.“ Are you seriously defending him right now? He had our videotape!”My screams make him cringe. The emotions are still lingering inside of me as if it was some sort of leech.He sighs and too
Major Sullivan didn’t come back for two days and for those days, I don’t have a choice but to sulk in my bed and just think about everything. The horrors of watching the video only made my day worst because of the idea that what could happen when it was released on the public. The amount of shame that I would’ve gone through. I cannot imagine living that life where I will wonder who watch the video.The thing is scandal got buried down after the time but videos on the internet always stay on the internet. Nothing could ever take it down, even the president. Or even Major Sullivan.A deep, rumbling groan escapes from my lips as soon as I got bored from thinking. What now? What will I do in this house? The idea of cleaning and doing some chores makes me become lazy to stand up on my bed then my gaze landed on the laptop that has been neglect for two day.Major Sullivan rushed out of the house as soon as he heard the call and he didn
“ Why are you crying?” Instantly, I shoved the laptop into my bedside table and wipe the tears out of my cheeks. Ares, in his black tuxedo, is leaning on the doorway of my room whilst his eyes are fixated on the laptop. Still trembling from what I saw, I rose from the bed and welcome him. His hands automatically snake into my waist, pulling me closer into his body. “ W-Why are you here?” I asked, quivering and fighting to not cry in front of him. I don’t want him to know what I’m up to because that will unleash the fact that Major Sullivan shows up in front of my door. Ares is still fixated on my laptop, but I tiptoed and kiss his cheeks. “ I thought you’re angry with me?” I asked once again, trying my best to divert his attention from the laptop to me. He sighs and patted my butt before carrying me and walking to the bed. I felt the soft mattress against the back of my skin and his kisses trailing on my neck. I don’t want this. I alre
I don’t know what to do other than stare at my ceiling and process everything. It feels like the time is so slow and all the cells in my system are out of the energy it needed to make me understand what the hell happened.Oh damn. The image of the death certificate that I have seen made me tremble more than the fact that Ares nearly violated me.Who died? It can’t be him, right? It can’t be Corporal Neo Velasquez because the last time that I saw him, he was perfectly fine.But they did go into war. Oh shit. My eyes moist at thought of them going to the war and like pieces of puzzles coming together, a dark hunch comes knocking at the back of my mind.As I wrapped myself into that hunch, my heart is crushed into pieces. If he’s….if he’s truly dead….then…I gulped not able to continue my sentence. I cannot accept it so what I did is to do some chores to take my mind off things. After that, a cold sho
Grey perky clouds cover the vicinity of the place. They say that grief comes in many forms. It comes with agony and sadness for those who did nothing but to love. It comes with happiness and joy for those who gave resentfulness until the last breath.However, above all of those that was mentioned, nothing can beat the true meaning of grief. For those who spend their life living with that person and for those who shares every bit of their life with that person, griefs come with pain.The pain of losing someone and knowing that there is no choice left but to accept the cruelness of being left alone.I kneeled and sighs as I tried to wipe the dirt out of his name. The cold stone where his honorable name was engraved stood right infront of me. I’ve brought flowers and even this time, I don’t know if he will be happy with the type of flowers that I have chosen.Funny how even his favorite one is such a puzzle for me. I guess, I took my time rebelli
“ No…. no!” I screams as I turned around and found them both lying on the floor.There are bloods. Lots of blood colors over Major Sullivan’s clothing. Everything for me stops the moment that I choked on my own breath and run to him.“ Amara!” I heard my father said behind me, trying to stop me from going to the man that I love but how can I? How can I not run when I literally saw blood on his clothes and know that he’s been shot.Terrors and fears fills my body when I saw him shutting his eyes.“ No!” I shouted. My hands touch his face, shaking my head as my body trembles with terror.No. No.“ Y-You can’t leave…me…again,” I whispered and just like a star appearing on the middle of the night where only darkness dominates the whole place, I saw Major Sullivan opens his eyes.I heard him sigh. “ I won’t baby,” he whispered. I was st
“You’re going to pay for this!” Major Sullivan shouted as he tried to resists on the knots that are binding us right now.We are on the couch, our whole body is tied with some thick ropes as Ares and Maricriz appeared in front of us, their guns are pointing just right on our heads.I can feel the tip touching my skin and the coldness from it only made me shiver and drown into being terrified. I know that in just one click, the bullet will surely pierce through our heads.My body is shaking from the fear and from everything. I am still lost because of the too much information that I’ve absorbed earlier and now, I am being tied on the couch whilst a gun is pointed at my head.Tears are streaming down my face. I was trying to calm myself but I just can’t simply do that. I was choking from too much nervousness.Maricriz stopped in my direction, the tip of her gun is pointing just beneath my jaw forcing me to
Whilst I don’t know what to expect as I was ushered out of the car. Major Sullivan is holding me like I’m a fragile object that will shatter at the moment that he will drop his hands.Maricriz is beside us. Or beside him, and judging by her reactions, I think she’s curious or entertained right now. I can’t figure out why she’s alive and why she’s here.There is no way that she accidentally turns out on our wedding day and drops all of this like a bomb, waiting to explode.The journey to the house felt like forever. Major Sullivan kept on touching my hands and reminding me of his presence. I’ve never been to this part of the country where the next house is located miles away from this one.I don’t know how they pulled this out or how they escaped me out of Ares’s den.As soon as the door opened, I was expecting a little not so ambitious style of the house. The outer exterior looks like it’s
“She’s awake.” My mind heard someone say or whisper right beneath my ears. I don’t know what to do because when I tried to move my body, all I can feel is the leather itch strap holding me back down into whatever I am tied to. I can feel a loud gush of the wind and it seems like I am inside of an enclosed space where there is only one cycle of a breathing pattern that is allowed to do. My back is aching from being tied down for so long. How long have I been out of this world? Then, it occurred to me. The nurse forces me to gulp some capsules after she injected me something. I fought my urge to be drowned back to the oblivion. No. The nurse is working for someone else making me panic. My body started to squirm out of the hold of the bound. I shouted but there is something in my mouth. It’s a piece of clothing preventing me from speaking. It tastes like fabric clothing. The only thing that I can do is to open my eyes. Sensing the danger, I am mu
My goal right now was to escape Ares. I don’t know how to start but I definitely needed to do something about my life right now. Before, I used to think that I possess a Masteral degree when it comes to escaping. I didn’t have any problem with running out of the presidential house as well as with the bodyguards. Considering that they are trained professionals, I partake pride in my works of escaping against their vision and running out of their sight.I am used to escaping. It’s always the plan when everything seems to be heavy in my life. I used to escape for fun but right now, it’s not for fun anymore. It’s a matter of life and death situation because escaping means that I will have the chance to get out of this hell.Inside of my heart, the emotions and commotion cannot be sustained with every ounce of braveness that I’m using to bridge the gap of wanting to survive and accepting my fate in this lifetime. What happened the o
Huddling inside of the room, Ares tried to get my attention as I helped myself with the television. This is the only entertainment that I can have to not make my sanity wash over the wind.The only entertainment that I was allowed in this prison. In this prison where I was forced to live, without knowing that I’m in the devil's den. The memory of the day of the accident drowns my thought away. It’s one of the things that is bothering me right now.Ares was there too. He insisted on driving the car for me as I was wrecked and stubborn, trying to chase Major Sullivan. His expression and the concern in his voice shook me within.I cannot accept it. None of it seems like a dream.A tear slid down my cheeks and I was abrupt on wiping it over. I cannot afford to be weak but being pregnant makes me sensitive and fragile. It makes me overthink things that I shouldn’t suppose to think of.Ares moves over causing our skin to touch with one
The room is silent. If only the gush of the wind can spare a moment from creating a whirlwind sound, the cricket outside can definitely be heard because of the silence. It’s been like this, it’s always been like this, and every time that I had a glimpse of what Ares and I had done in this lifetime, all I can feel is disgust.Major Sullivan messages stills appeared right into my mind. It’s like a permanent reminder that right now, I am in the lion’s den and he is dangerous. I should deem him as a dangerous predator pretending to be a protector.I should deem him as nothing but the enemy. That is what Major Sullivan wants. He wanted me to be careful and I don’t want to do anything that will put me into the danger zone.My baby. Our baby needed to be protected from Ares. I gulped as I survey his movement, watching his movement in caution.Ares looked down on me. He was trying to unbutton his coat, leaving him with only his white
For another day, I found myself resting inside of my room. The television is my only source on what is happening outside of this room. Ares told me that he will visit me today but he didn’t. I was only told that he was busy with his new duty. His new duty as the president of the country. I can still see his smile while swearing his oath on the national television. I know that he wants that position for a long time but I almost felt like he’s hiding something because of that smile.I tried to seek for my phone but the guard said that it wasn’t with me when I was brought here either. The only thing that I can do is to rest and to hope for my father to be in best shape.He wasn’t conscious yet and it’s been almost five days since the incident. The doctor told me that it is normal and maybe he’s taking his time to rest but it didn’t sit well with me. If he was just shot on the shoulder, he should be awake right now, right? However,