KarinaBeginning of JuneMonths ago when I accepted a request for a message from Mason Harrison on the dating app I'd recently signed up for; I couldn't have imagined this was where I'd be. Standing in his driveway, fighting to hold back tears as Caleb, the child I never knew I wanted, prepares to leave for college. Beside me, Mason is tense as we try to avert our eyes from the heartbreaking scene going on in front of us. Caleb is leaving for the University of Alabama today, and Jess leaves for Ole Miss two days from now. I'm not sure what the future holds for the couple, but it'll be almost impossible with them both on scholarships, to be able to keep their relationship going.They spent the whole night out with one another last night, only showing up here at six-thirty a.m., to fall asleep on the couch wrapped up in each other's arms. When I woke them up at eight, because Caleb has to be in Tuscaloosa at noon, the stark sadness on both of their faces almost killed me."I know
MenaceJuneKarina is meeting up with some of her fellow teachers today at the high school. She mentioned something about helping to purge and clean some of the older rooms. They've been doing it for a while, a couple of the times some of the guys from the police department have been asked to go out and help move stuff, but I've never been one of them.She looks cute as she's ready for her day, with her hair pulled back in braids, a hat over her head, a pair of old shorts, and one of my old t-shirts. I reach up, tugging on one of the braids. "Have fun today."She gives me a look, one that says kiss my ass, before she grabs me around the waist."I'll see you later." She kisses me, squeezing the flesh of my stomach, before we part ways for the day. "Tell Caleb I miss him. I hope you two have a great day together.""Ouch woman, that fuckin' hurt." I rub my side where she'd grabbed my fat."That'll teach you to pull on my hair."I give her a hot grin. "Sometimes you like it
MenaceKarina's head on my chest with her arms wrapped around my waist is my favorite place to be. Here, I don't worry about what Caleb's doing. If he's eating, if he's sleeping, are his coaches and teammates giving him a hard time, is he screwing around with girls he shouldn't be? I don't worry about what's going on in this town with the moonshine business. My brain isn't traveling fifty thousand miles an hour trying to unravel the mystery of how the moonshine is in the school. For the brief moments she's in my arms and I'm in hers, my brain is quiet, my thoughts are peaceful. The only thing I think about is how good it feels to have a partner. How warm and loved I feel with her beside me. It's an emotion I'd never known until I'd met her."You're quiet," she comments as she runs her foot up my leg."Just thinking." I roll over so that we're now facing each other, holding her in my arms."What are you thinking?" She smiles, running her finger along my jawline. Those green eyes
KarinaJulyThere have been a lot of times in my life when I imagined my wedding day, especially when I was engaged before. That day was supposed to be the most magical day of my life. It had been planned for almost a year. The dress had cost more than I'd been able to afford, but it had been a gift from my parents, and the honeymoon was more than my yearly salary. That had been a gift from his parents. I still wonder to this day if they'd known what was going on. If that had been their way of trying to buy me off. I should have known something was up when they'd been all too eager to spend what could have been a down payment on a nice home to send us away. All of that though, it pales in comparison to what this day means to me. Last week when Mason had asked me to marry him, I'd imagined a long engagement. I'd thought maybe we'd get married next summer before Caleb started workouts for next year, but the more I'd thought about it, the more I realized I didn't want to wait. W
MenaceAugustToday very well could have been the longest day of my life. I've done nothing but write traffic tickets, try and track back the evidence that was found at the school during June, and run into fucking roadblock after roadblock in all of the above things. The only thing I'm legitimately looking forward to is going home and having a nice quiet night with my wife. Glancing at the silicone wedding ring I wear while I'm on shift, I imagine her waiting for me. She's been at home, waiting for me every night since we got married. I don't know what I'm going to do when she has to go back to work, besides miss the fuck out of her. As I pull into our driveway, I feel the stresses of the day seep from my body. Something about parking next to her car and knowing she's there to greet me has done wonders for my stress level. Still doesn't mean I'm not tired as hell at the end of the day.Getting out of my Jeep, I grab the mail, and shuffle through it as I stomp through the side
KarinaSeptember"I'm so tired." I yawn loudly as I lay on the couch, my feet in Mason's lap. We're watching something on TV, trying to avoid doing yard-work in the early September heat. "I feel like I'm coming down with something." I close my eyes, snuggling into the cushions."You were tired a lot this week," he comments as he grabs the cover off the back and covers me up with it. "Was it hectic at school?""Not particularly, which is why I think I'm coming down with something. My stomach wasn't happy with me this morning." I mention the other symptom I had. "Maybe if I just take a nap, I'll feel better." I turn into the couch, hugging one of the pillows.The next thing I know, Mason's shaking my shoulder. "Rina, you've been asleep for two hours, time to get up."I fight against the lethargy holding me down. Working against the exhaustion to prop myself up. "Two hours?""Yeah." He runs a hand down my face. It's my favorite hand. His left hand that holds the ring I put t
KarinaOctoberI'm beyond intimidated as I walk with my hand tucked into Mason's along the family section of the football stadium. This week we'd gotten the call that Caleb would be playing in the Auburn game and everyone who could in the MTF is with us. That includes Whitney, Ryan, and Stella. Part of my intimidation is watching this game with Whitney."Remember last time we were here?" She smiles over at Ryan as he carries Stella, wearing a cheerleading uniform. She's got stickers on her cheeks and carries a pom pom in her hand."I do." he gives her a look that says they only see each other."Yeah we have a lot in common with that." She hits elbows with me."We do?"I know zero about football, and I have a feeling I'm way out of my element with the rest of them, including Stella. Pretty sure Stella knows more than I do, but I also know I wouldn't miss Caleb's debut for the world."Yeah." She gives me a grin. "I was pregnant last time I was here, too. Like close to pop
KarinaNovemberSchool is routinely kicking my ass. Even though I've just passed my three-month mark in the pregnancy, I'm not feeling much better than when I started, and I'm still getting sick on a regular basis. It doesn't matter, though, the show must go on and I don't want to take time that I don't need yet. Because the due date is around the first week of May, I'll more than likely be taking maternity leave at Spring Break, so I don't want mess with any of the plans I already have. It's taking me longer to finish grading papers and make lesson plans. Pregnancy brain is really a thing, and I'm suffering from it, all the time. I'm finding more often than not, it's easier for me to get things done at school, so I'm staying a little later than normal every night. The librarian keeps the library open since she does work too, and I've been finding going in there with her helps keep me on task. Grabbing my laptop and my water bottle, I close up my room and head to the front of th