I hate that despite my unwillingness to attend this wedding, I'm ready on time.
Not being ready on time would start another argument with my mom, but as much as I would like to argue with her, it's better to keep things the way they are. I know how she can get when she doesn't have her way, and I don't want that at the moment.I want to attend this damned wedding and see the end of this awful day.I check my reflection in the mirror. I'm fairly satisfied with it. There were more beautiful dresses in my closet, but since she wants me to wear this one, I will. I don't care how I look. It's not that it's a bad dress; it's too plain for a wedding. Weddings are glamorous affairs for people like us, and most of the time, the women wear designer dresses. Mom bought this dress at a store I've never even heard of. I don't know what she's thinking, but I won't challenge her. Again, I couldn't care less.After accessorizing, I make my way downstairs. Mom is there with her arms folded, and she's tapping her heeled foot on the floor. Mary is beside her, and when I see her dress, I pause momentarily. I pause without intending to. The dress she's wearing is absolutely stunning. It's long and hugs her curves perfectly. Her hair is in a stunning updo as well, which makes me realize that there was a stylist with her. She couldn't have done her hair like that on her own.I glance at mom. I wonder what she's up to again. Why did she buy me a relatively plain dress, and not Mary?There's only one answer to that question.Mom arches a brow when she sees me, and she places a hand on her hip. I meet her gaze and walk down the last few steps. Mary looks a little embarrassed by my appearance, but I wouldn't feel bad for me if I were her. I don't give a damn about this whole thing. I want to get it done and over with as quickly as possible."I'm glad we're on the same page," mom says. "Let's go."I suppress the urge to roll my eyes and follow her and Mary out the door. The driver is waiting for us outside. We get inside the car and he speeds off. Mom is seated between the two of us, so there's no chance of us saying anything to each other. But to he frank, I don't know what I'd say to Mary even if we were alone in the car. For so long, she was anguished by the thought of marrying Luca Ferrante, and now that things have changed, I don't know what's left to say. I glance at her and notice that she's staring at her reflection in the window. She looks stunning, and I'd tell her this if I weren't upset with this whole thing."When we arrive," mom begins, but that's all I hear. I've blocked her out completely. It seems like she's talking to Mary, not me. I stare out the window while she goes on and on about the bride and groom. I don't have time for this pointless gossip. Mary didn't either until a few days ago, but now she's giggling at some probable absurdity tumbling from mom's lips, and I catch myself wondering if there's something I missed throughout the years, something that indicated that Mary was always on mom's side. It makes me uneasy, knowing that it could all have been a farce. Well, the truth is that she's always been good at faking it like me, but she was much better, and more patient.Could she have been faking it with me, too?I brush the thought away. There's not a chance in hell of that being true. She's just excited that her friend is getting married. She looks and feels beautiful, and she's not in a sour mood like I am. That's all there is to it.There's also the thing with the Ferrantes that she's glad about. Or not. I don't know anymore. This is all getting too complicated."Your father will meet us there," I hear mom say. She sighs afterward and rearranges the bracelet on her wrist. "I hope he isn't late. It'll look bad. I can't excuse his absence forever."The car slows to a stop in front of a grand hotel. I know this hotel. I've been here before with Victoria. It was someone's birthday. A cousin of hers, I'm sure. A man in a fine suit opens the door, and I slide out. The night's air is a little cool and the wind rustles my hair. I wait for mom and Mary to start walking before I do. We ascend a long flight of stairs to the entrance of the hotel, where mom shows another finely dressed man her invitation.As soon as we enter the large ballroom, I see people we recognize. I bow my head in greeting but don't stop to chat to anyone. When mom and Mary stop, I keep walking. I don't have the patience for this. Most of these people aren't even true friends; it's simply the kind of friendship that is maintained just for the sake of it. Important people should know each other. End of story.I don't have any friends within our world.A waiter walks past with a tray of champagne and I grab a glass. I need liquid courage. The champagne is delicious and expensive. A couple walk past me, and I notice how the woman glances at my outfit. She's dressed in a glamorous emerald silk gown, and her neck is adorned with pearls. When I glance over my shoulder, I see that a group of older women are also staring at me while speaking in hushed voices. I take another sip of champagne. I won't let this affect me. I tell myself that I couldn't possibly care about what they think, and that this is all on mom for choosing this dress for me.She's the one who'll look bad. Not me.I hear her surname, after all.Still, this makes me more curious as to why she wanted me to wear this plain dress. There has to be a good reason. Mom doesn't do anything without thinking it over twice. There's a motive for this and I suspect that I'll find out what it is soon.I glance around the room to divert myself. Everything looks and smells expensive in here, from the food being offered to the guests to the bouquets on the tables. The colors are all cohesive and I can tell that the stylist must be one of the best in the city. These people wouldn't have asked just anyone to organize the reception. I drain my glass and think of having another one when I'm approached my mom and Mary.I brace myself for what she'll say."Your father is late," she informs me, as if there's anything that I can do about it. "It doesn't look good.""I don't know what you want me to say," I tell her.This seems to hit a nerve. "Can't you ever be in agreement with me? Why do you have to fight me on everything, Laura?"I don't see how this qualifies as fighting, but I don't answer her. I stand next to her wishing that I had taken the glass of champagne when it was offered, and I glance around the room for another waiter. There's one carrying a tray of canapés, and I take one. It's a piece of smoked salmon on a cracker. I don't pay attention to the garnish. It all tastes the same, anyway.Mom has more to say, it seems. "If you were more like Mary, the three of us would be an unbeatable team.""How would that make us unbeatable?" I ask, unable to hide the incredulity from my voice. She says things that I can't wrap my head around. I glance at Mary and notice that she's eyeing me with some despair. Oh, so now she sees me? I don't entertain the look she's giving me.Mom narrows her eyes at me and doesn't answer the question. I hope it's because she realizes how little sense her statement made. I shove the canapé in my mouth without taking my eyes off her face. She says nothing else, and Mary looks away.I'm tired of both of them, so I walk toward a waiter I spot with a tray of flutes. I thank him as I take one, and wash the canapé down. I can feel them both looking at me, but I don't meet their gazes. I can't keep doing this. There are times when I feel like threading my fingers through my hair and pulling it all out as I scream. Interacting with mom is always an exhausting affair, so if I can keep my distance, I'm safe.I'm draining my glass when I notice the Ferrante family walking into the room. The parents are in front, followed by the older brother. My heart accelerates for some reason, and I keep waiting for the men at the door to close the door, signaling that no one else is entering. But they don't. A few seconds later, Luca Ferrante strides into the room wearing a fitted navy blue suit. His eyes search the room, and I hold my breath this time.And then, his gaze lands on me.At first, I think he'll look away, but he doesn't. The longer he stares, the faster my heart beats. I don't look away either. I want him to know that I'm not intimidated by him, not by his reputation or his money. The seconds feel like minutes, and I begin doubting my decision to keep staring. Maybe he'll get the wrong message. Maybe ignoring him would be better. But I convince myself to keep my chin up, and he finally looks away first.Just as he does, I see a smile curves his lips.Our eyes meet occasionally, and I can't seem to understand why he keeps looking at me. Mom and Mary joined me as soon as dad arrived a few minutes ago. Mom scolds him for being late, but he makes no reply. We glance at each other, and his exhaustion becomes mine. She keeps going on and on about how bad he made the family look, and he simply bows his head in greeting to anyone we know who walks by. Mom stops momentarily and forces a smile but as soon as they're out of earshot, she continues with her pointless speech. I feel Mary glance at me but I'm still mad at her for reasons I can't comprehend myself, not fully. Maybe I began fearing her duplicity for the first time ever. I've never seen her friendliness with mom as a threat, not until today. There's a lot I've said to her about the way I feel about mom, and if she reported everything back, well...Deep down, I know I'm being unreasonable. I know Mary. I know she isn't like that. But the fear won't leave my bones and I don't know h
I'm shocked to see him standing in front of me. What does he want? He's holding a glass of champagne. It's full, and he twists it around in his hand without spilling his drink. I'm distracted by the sloshing golden liquid for a few beats, and then I look back at his face. His eyes are searching mine keenly, and I'm torn between ignoring him and demanding to know what he wants from me. I decide to go with the latter. "May I help you with anything?" I ask sarcastically. His mouth quirks. "Not unless you're serving canapés."I grit my teeth. I shouldn't have said anything. I take a sip of champagne and unwillingly remember the bottle of champagne from last night. God, I can't believe that was just last night. It feels like ages ago. He glances at the glass in my hand meaningfully but says nothing. I can tell that he's thinking about the same thing as I. I tilt my head back and drink the last of the champagne. The silence between us is beyond awkward. I don't know why he felt the n
I wake up to a knock on my bedroom door. I look around the room. I slept through the night. I didn't think I would. I came home fuming because I was in no mood to meet up with my friends. Mom had managed to ruin my whole week with her words and attitude concerning Luca Ferrante. Sometimes I close my eyes and can't believe that actually happened. To be frank, I'm not surprised, but that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm less hurt by what she said and did. It was no surprise to me that she meant to arrange a marriage between Mary and Luca, but telling me to stay away from him was taking it a step too far, even for her standards. The dress. The speech. It's all messing with my head. I don't remember feeling this angry with something she did, and so the best thing that I can do is keep my distance from her. If she tries to tell me something else regarding the issue this morning, my response won't be pleasing to her. There's the knock again. It interrupts my train of thought. I had forg
There's a card inside which has been rolled up and tied with yet another piece of red ribbon. I'm frightened now and I can't explain why. This isn't an ordinary gift. I don't know anyone who would send me this. Luca Ferrante springs to mind and it makes me even more terrified. This can't be from him. Surely, it can't. I pick up the rolled-up card and slide the ribbon off. The card has been typed, and as soon as my eyes skim it, I realize what this is about. It's an invitation to a masquerade party. My name is on the invite, and it says I can bring a friend along. There's no name on the invitation or anywhere in the box, so I don't know who sent me this. I tell myself that at least it wasn't Luca Ferrante. But if not him, then who?I read the invitation again. A masquerade tomorrow evening? I'm not interested. I don't trust it simply because I don't know who invited me. I can’t go to a party when I don’t know who’s throwing it. That’s asking for unnecessary trouble. I close the box
"How does this look?" Victoria asks. "Does it look better with my hair up or down?"Brett sighs. "Just do whatever. Jesus.""Up," I tell her. "You've got a long and elegant neck. Show it off. There's no reason why you should keep your hair long."She starts pinning her hair up and I stare at my reflection for the twentieth time. I'm all dressed up, and my fear is that we'll show up to this masquerade looking utterly ridiculous. Victoria assured me that it's a formal event, but she's throwing this party without knowing if people will abide to the rules. People normally don't. It's quite possible that we'll see people dressed in cowboy suits. "I feel like I'm going to a wedding," Brett comments. He then turns to wink at me. "Maybe yours with the Italian stallion."I glare at him. "I didn't find that funny.""It wasn't meant to be funny.""Like this?" Victoria asks, turning so we have a view of the back of her head. I nod and tell her it looks perfect. Brett says nothing at all, just go
I don't figure out what it is either. Not anytime soon. "I need a break," I say to Brett. "I need a bathroom break."He doesn't hear me. Neither does Victoria. I give up trying to make them listen to me and find my own way to the bathroom. It's not hard to find. It's in the room across from the one we were in. I walk down a long and narrow corridor to get there, and on my way there I see a couple making out in the dark. They don't stop when they hear me approach. I'm more weirded out by the fact that they were making out with masks on than them not stopping when I neared them. The bathroom is cool and clean. It's also empty. I lock myself in one of the stalls and empty my bladder. I'm glad I stayed. I'm having a good time despite my hesitance earlier. The door to the bathroom opens and two or more women shuffle inside. One of them is crying hysterically, and I feel so out of place that I hold my breath so I don't interrupt what's happening. "I can't believe him!" one of them is s
Luca I watch Laura walk away and return to the party. She won't stay long now that she knows I'm here. To be frank, her hatred toward me intrigues me. I'm not sure what I've done to her to deserve this treatment. From what I've heard, she's an agreeable and friendly person, however, when it comes to me, her anger becomes palpable. I want to know why. I push myself off the wall and head in the opposite direction. If I walk past the toilets, I'll reach my office. It isn't exclusively mine, but I tend to use it sometimes. I open the door and find Gregory inside. He's just ended a phone call. I place the mask on the table and ask, "Is she gone?""Yeah, with all her friends," he answers. "I don't know how she got in here without an invitation. We didn't want to cause a scene by asking her to leave.""You did well," I tell him. "But I don't want this to repeat itself. I want to be informed as soon as she's at the door."Gregory has been my head of security for many years. The reason wh
"I can't believe this," I say, absolutely flabbergasted. Brett scoffs. "How the fuck does something like this even happen?"We're practically alone in the parking lot since everyone else is in the party. It doesn't look or sound like anyone in there is going home anytime soon. I can't see how something like this would have happened without any of us having noticed earlier. This is the odd part for me. I look around the parking lot. I don't see anyone. I don't see anything beneath the car either. "The car was fine," Victoria adds. "It was fine. I mean, I didn't feel like you drove over anything, Brett.""Neither did I!"I pat my sweaty forehead. This conversation isn't getting us anywhere and I'm honestly desperate to get home so I don't cross paths with Luca Ferrante again. I'm honestly bothered by everything that has happened tonight. I should've known that there was something wrong with the invitation. Who would have invited us to such a lavish party? I should have known. I'm both
LucaI'm the last to see Laura, mostly because I want us to be alone for a long time. There's a lot I have to say to her, and I suspect that there's a lot she wants to say to me. She recovered well, and the doctors expect that she'll recuperate fairly quickly. She's tough. She broke a few ribs during her fall and fractured her skull, but she'll be just fine. It could have been a lot worse. She could have died. She could have been paralyzed from the neck down. But she survived. When I saw the crime scene, I realized that a miracle must have happened, because there was no way she had made it out alive when Miguel and Mary had over twenty guns in the apartment with them. The bloody scene was also an indication that something terrible had happened. We didn't have the details, but the police connected the dots fairly quickly. Miguel and Mary were lovers. Judging by the evidence they found, he was involved in the shooting. I was disappointed. Beyond that. I had no words for what I felt. I
I crack my eyes open. The light ahead is too bright, so I close my eyes for a while longer before opening them again. My head spins. I'm awake yet tired. My closed eyes make me fall back asleep. When I awake, I'm in the same place, but my mind is so hazy that I'm having a hard time figuring out where I am. I look to my left. My head practically snaps in that direction. There is someone beside me. Someone in white clothes. I look at her face, and her eyes widen a little and she leaves the bedroom. I groan. I wanted to ask her where I was and who she was, but I couldn't open my lips. My tongue is too heavy in my mouth. When she returns, she isn't alone. There's a man in a white coat beside her. He says, "Laura. Laura. Can you hear me?"How does he know my name?I fall asleep to the sound of his voice. I sleep easily. I dream of nothing. I have no concrete thoughts. I wonder where I am and wonder when my head will stop being so fuzzy. When I reopen my eyes, I see something interesting
“Stop!” Mary shouts. We both turn to look at her. She takes a few steps and reaches Miguel’s side. She stretches her arm out. “Give it to me.”“Why?”“I should be the one to do it,” she says. “Just as you’re the one who’s going to kill Luca. That was the plan. That’s what we agreed on.”“We never agreed on anything like that,” he says with a frown. “It was my idea to lure her here and so I have to be the one to do it.”“Miguel,” she says through gritted teeth. “Give me the knife!”I can’t believe they’re fighting over who’s going to kill me. It’s truly unbelievable. I look back and forth between them helplessly. If I stand, he might stab me in the back to stop me from reaching the door and that’ll ruin all of my chances of escaping. I don’t want to die here. I can’t die here. I’m suddenly so desperate to leave here and live. I want to see Luca again. I want to see my father again. Constance. My friends. I can’t die here at the hands of these deranged people. I can’t be another victim
It took everything within me to come here. I park outside the apartment building. I stare at the third floor. The windows are all closed. It's hard to imagine her in there, in my apartment. Polluting my sacred space with her negative energy and bad intentions. I climb out of the car. I don't allow myself to think. She wants this to end, we can end it now. I've hidden behind people for far too long now, and look what has happened. I can't let anyone else die because she's targeting me. That's cruel. I'm just as bad as her if I let such a thing happen. I didn't tell Luca. I didn't tell anyone I was coming here. I'm unarmed. I didn't call for help. There is no plan. There is just me. Me and her. As it's supposed to be. I close the door and take a deep breath before entering the building. The sun is starting to set and the sky looks beautiful; too beautiful for such a thing to be happening. The oranges and the purples are magnificent. I'll never forget the way the sky looked when I con
Yesterday feels like a terrible nightmare. Twenty-four hours has passed since those men stormed into the hotel and shot seven people. Seven people lost their lives, Luca's father and my mother were amongst the dead. I can't believe it. I repeat the facts to myself over and over again and still can't believe that such a tragedy has happened. It can't be possible that my mother is dead. That Luca's father is dead. And all because of some silly revenge that doesn't matter. All because I fell in love with Luca.I'm devastated. I don't think I'll recover from this anytime soon. I'm crippled by pain. And the worst part of all of this is Luca's pain and how raw it is. Marc didn't deserve to die at the hands of those traitorous shooters. I call them traitorous because they were invited to the party under some head of some family I don't even remember. It doesn't matter. What's done is done. We've lost two members of our family. My father is inconsolable. Sarah is inconsolable. Luca is abso
The wedding ceremony was absolutely beautiful. It was only Luca's family, mine, and Brett and Victoria. We didn't need a lot of people there. I've learned during all of this that Luca doesn't necessarily have a lot of friends. He has people he is very well acquainted with, but no close friends. He doesn't let anyone get close enough to him, because there's a side to him that he only shows the people he loves and he needs to keep it protected. It's too tender to be exposed to the world. I consider myself to privileged to be loved by him. He takes care of the people he loves. He knows how to love. I said yes with tears in my eyes. I didn't think I'd cry, but I did. Everything feel so official now. We're finally married. I'm his wife, not his fiancée. It's strange to think that I became his wife without having been his girlfriend first. It's just one of the many thoughts I had when he slipped the wedding band on my finger. We kissed and he held me for the longest time. I was hesitant
Luca Our wedding is tomorrow, and I'm not sure what to feel about that. It’s not that I’ve suddenly become indecisive. I know I want to marry her. I’m sure of my love for her. I’m not happy that we’re marrying this quickly but I also understand why it has to be done. My father was right; anything could happen to me at any point. If that’s the case, Laura is entitled to everything I have. It’s safer this way. But despite this, should we have given it more time? Would it have been best if we waited for things to blow over? That way, we could I have done things more calmly and wouldn’t have to rush like this. I don’t know anymore. I turn to look at Laura. Her back is facing me and she looks like she’s been asleep for some time now. I notice that she doesn’t really sleep at night. She spends a lot of nights awake; like me. So whenever she sleep, I feel easy enough to sleep as well. But tonight is different. I don’t want to sleep. If I do, I’ll wake up and it’ll be tomorrow. The weddi
"How's my favorite preggie doing?" Brett asks as soon as I answer the phone. I can't help but smile as I pop a grape in my mouth. "I don't feel pregnant yet, you know? It's just normal. I won't even lie."He chuckles and says, "You're just a cold-hearted bitch. My mother said that she could feel me from the second she found out that she was pregnant.""You haven't considered the fact that maybe she lied?" Victoria asks. I can tell from the sound of her voice that she's looking for a fight with Brett. "My mother said she didn't feel me either.""Well, that's you," he says with a sigh. "I'm different, then. Maybe those babies are the most magnificent and remarkable ones."I frown. "You're saying my baby won't be remarkable?""How can you say that?""I'm not saying the baby won't be remarkable!" he exclaims. "I'm saying that I was! Jesus! Give it a rest, you two! Stop being so annoying! Just stop!"I giggle and Victoria does the same. She then says, "I can't believe that we didn't get t
When Luca asked me whether I wanted to marry him anytime soon, I said yes. I would have waited longer if it were up to me. I really would have. I had no problem living the way we did. Alone. Free. Not caring about what anyone thinks. Not following traditions too much. It was the liberty I felt when I left my parents' house. But now that I was pregnant, that all changes. My father would want a date. And I'd have to give it to him. So I did. Things were happening quickly again. I was feeling quite overwhelmed with everything. My father was very happy when I told him I was pregnant. He was even happier when I told him I'd marry Luca in two weeks' time. He was strict about that even though he wasn't raised in our world. My mother was ecstatic as well. I never in a million years would have guessed that she would have reacted that way to the news. She even cried as she held me. I didn't know how to react so I simply watched her. The same happened with Constance, although with her my re