Chapter 18

THEY say that dreaming is free, so keep dreaming. Make big plans. I was in my junior year of high school when I decided I wanted to be an architect. I, too, hesitated at first and became frustrated whenever the thought occurred to me, ‘What if I can't do it?’ ‘What if I don't succeed?’ ‘What if... this isn't the right path for me?’ ‘What if I'm not cut out to be an architect?’

And a slew of "what ifs." But, as Bella once said, "How will you know if you don't try?"

That question from my best friend irritates me. And I realize she's correct. There are so many what ifs in my head that I forget I'll never know if being an architect isn't for me if I don't try. I was in my senior year of high school at the time, and I was frustrated. I was even on the verge of crying every morning because I was still undecided about which course I would take in college. I was angry at myself because my classmates kn