While my intention is to kiss him softly, I should’ve expected him to be rough. Ric’s lips crash into mine, with a raw intensity that sends a shiver down my spine. Before I know it, he has lowered me to the couch with a swift move of his hand. His other hand slides up my thigh, slipping beneath the silk robe. I can feel my breath quicken, my heart pounding, as he takes control, and I let him. I’m melting into the couch, his fingers trailing higher, confident and commanding.
I’m losing myself to him completely. And I’m liking it.
But then, as his hand reaches for the knot of my robe, ready to undo it, a sharp thought slices through the fog in my mind—Is he married? The question slams into me, stopping everything. My body tenses, the heat I feel stalling, and Ric notices. His lips pause, his hand freezes on my chest just as I was about to tease myself, his fingers barely grazing my skin.
“Do you want me to stop?” Ric’s voice is low, rumbling with restraint. His breath is hot against my neck.
I hesitate, unsure of how to voice the question that now feels like a brick wall between us. But I have to ask. I push myself up slightly, meeting his gaze. My heart races, pounding in my ears. “Are you married?” I ask, my voice barely above a whisper, shaking with nerves.
His reaction surprises me. That usual cocky smirk slips from his face, replaced by something deeper, almost regretful. He leans in, pressing a soft kiss to my cheek before straightening up, the atmosphere between us shifting. “I should’ve known you weren’t as reckless as me,” he says quietly, his voice holding a hint of remorse. “You’re Elliot’s little girl after all.”
Anger flares in my chest. I scramble off the couch, standing in front of him, even though he towers over me. My fists ball up, trembling at my sides as I glare at him, feeling small. “I’m not a little girl,” I snap, my voice shaky with frustration. “I’m twenty-five.”
His eyes soften for a moment, but there’s still tension simmering between us. “And I’m almost twice your age, Natalie,” he says, almost like he’s giving up.
I can’t let it go. My heart is still racing, my skin tingling, but I need answers. “Then why didn’t that stop you from coming to me?” I blurt out, my voice filled with frustration and confusion.
Ric sighs, running a hand through his hair, the frustration evident in the way his shoulders tense. “I told you. I tried to talk myself out of it,” he admits, his voice low. “Believe me, I did.”
But it’s not enough. I need to know more. “Are you married, Ric?” I ask again, my voice firm now, pressing him. “I’m not reckless. I may have done some crazy things, but I’m not that.”
I think of Mike, of the betrayal, and the way it shattered me. It feels hypocritical to hate him for cheating and then turn around to be with a married man. I couldn’t live with that.
Ric’s response is swift, his voice steady. “No, I’m not married. Never have been. Never had a girlfriend either. Settling down with one woman has never been who I am.”
A rush of relief washes over me. He’s not married. And he’s here, wanting me. Even if this ends up being a one-time thing, I intend to make the most out of it. I step closer, closing the space between us, my body pressing against his, my lips brushing the skin of his neck. “I waited for you that night,” I whisper, my hand sliding up his chest as I guide his hand to my breast. “I imagined us doing all the things you implied you’d do.”
He groans softly, a low, guttural sound that vibrates through his chest. “Did you touch yourself?” he asks in a whisper, his eyes closed. His grip tightens on my body, but when he leans in to kiss me, I turn my head, teasing him, letting my lips barely touch his cheek. My other hand moves lower, trailing down his body until I brush against the hard evidence of his desire. I feel his breath hitch, and I smirk, knowing what I’m doing to him.
“Yeah,” I mumble, standing on my toes to nibble on his earlobe. “But it was your hands I was feeling.”
He tries again, leaning in to capture my lips, but I turn my head once more, letting his mouth graze my ear. The way he groans, low and deep, sends heat rushing through me, and when his hand slides to the back of my neck, gripping it firmly, I shiver. God, I love how he holds me.
Finally, I let him kiss me, slow and tantalising, his lips moving over mine in a way that makes my knees weak. His hands settle over my breasts, and I reach for his zipper, feeling the tension between us rise. His breath is heavy and warm as he pushes aside the robe, ready to suck my nipples.
Then, the doorbell rings.
The sharp sound startles me, pulling me out of the moment. Ric growls in frustration, his arms tightening around me as he pulls me up, his mouth finding my neck, sucking on the skin there in a way that sends sparks shooting through my veins. I gasp, laughing softly even though I’m breathless. “Wait,” I whisper, trying to pull away.
He’s stubborn, not letting go, and I can’t help but enjoy it. The doorbell rings again, louder this time, more insistent.
“I swear, if that’s your father, he’s got the worst timing,” Ric grumbles against my skin.
I chuckle, trying to imagine my father interrupting this. “It better not be.”
Ric pulls back just enough to look at me, his dark eyes still blazing with desire. “Shouldn’t you ignore it?”
I bite my lip, torn. “I probably should check,” I say reluctantly, even though my body is screaming for him to keep going.
Sighing, he finally loosens his grip, letting me go. I pull myself off him, adjusting my robe as I head for the door. My heart’s still racing as I glance through the peephole.
And that’s when my stomach drops.
It is my father.
A cold wave of panic rushes through me, freezing me in place. I blink, unable to process what I’m seeing. My father, standing outside the door of my penthouse. And here I am, half-undressed, standing just a few feet away, about to get laid by his friend.
“Ric, I need you to hide!” I hiss, my voice barely above a whisper. His eyes flicker with reluctance, but he moves quickly, slipping into the hallway just as the doorbell rings again.I quickly adjust my robe, tying it tightly around my waist, smoothing my hair to look somewhat composed while trying to calm my racing heart. I can still feel the lingering heat of Ric’s touch on my skin, but now isn't the time to think about that.I open the door, and there stands my father, his face set in a stern expression. “Natalie,” he says, stepping inside without waiting for an invitation. “Why have you been ignoring my calls?”I steel myself for the conversation I’ve been dreading. For the last two weeks, I’ve avoided him, knowing exactly what kind of lecture awaited me about my ‘marital issues.’ But now, here he is, in my home, and I can’t avoid it anymore.“I’ve been busy,” I reply, forcing myself to sound casual, though I’m sure the tension is obvious in my voice.“Busy?” His eyebrows shoot u
Up until the moment I step out of the car, my heart pounds in my chest with uncertainty. What if I can’t pull this off? What if all of this is a mistake, and I end up doing more harm to myself than to Mike? What's the point of any of this? My phone buzzes again, lighting up with an incoming call from Mike, and I scoff. The man who has dodged me like the plague ever since I exposed him has been incessantly calling me for the last two days, since my dad left my penthouse. His texts insist on “discussing what to say to the interviewers,” but there's no mention of an apology. Not even a hint, no. I guess Mike has fully morphed into his businessman persona, where the only thing that matters is what’s good for his image. Emotions and feelings? They don’t exist in his world.I was his wife, wasn’t I? I still am, legally speaking—he hasn’t even signed the divorce papers yet. How foolish of me to believe, even up until three weeks ago, that this could be fixed. That we could be fixed. I had c
Ric’s gaze flickers, darkening slightly as he pulls back just enough to study my face. His hands hover at my hips, gripping me just tight enough to remind me of his presence, but not tight enough to keep me close. “What happened?” His voice is rougher, though his hands remain still.I let out a breath, feeling the tension coil between us. “My stylist will be mad if I don’t get a proper picture in this dress,” I say, forcing a light tone, but the weight of the moment presses on me.Ric’s lips twitch with the hint of a smirk, but he doesn’t fully relax. His thumb brushes my waist in a slow, deliberate motion. “Is that what you're worried about?” His voice is low, teasing. “A picture?”I shrug, though the closeness makes it impossible to keep my cool. “Yes. She worked on it for weeks. It was meant to be worn for Mike’s launch party,” My voice wavers slightly. “I promised her it wouldn’t go to waste.”“She might have to forgive you,” he murmurs, daring me to give in.But I manage a smile,
I step out of the greenroom, running my hands down the fabric of my gown, trying to fix my look. I can't look like I was about to get laid backstage. The distant hum of the event feels like white noise, almost soothing compared to the whirlwind of the last few minutes. For a second, I let myself breathe, steadying the rush in my chest. But it’s short-lived. The moment I spot Meera hurrying toward me, her face a mask of disbelief, I know my brief escape is over.“Nat?” Her voice is low, almost like she’s afraid I might disappear if she speaks too loudly. “Where the hell have you been? I’ve been calling you nonstop!” Her words are laced with both worry and frustration, but I can’t help the grin that tugs at my lips. She has no idea.“I threw my phone in the bin,” I reply with a casual shrug, as if it’s the most reasonable thing in the world. “Didn’t feel like dealing with Mike tonight.”Meera’s eyebrows shoot up as she stares at me, her eyes flicking down to the bouquet in my hands. Her
The second I step into the building, I spot Meera. Her eyes are wide, and for a moment, she looks like she’s about to faint. “Okay,” she says, shaking her head in disbelief. “I expected something loud and ugly. And while this wasn’t exactly that, it’s... somehow worse.” She pauses, but then her lips curve into a smirk. “Just don’t ruin your dress, alright? You look sexy when you’re pissed.”I let out a breathy laugh despite myself. Leave it to Meera to find the silver lining, however small. “Noted,” I mutter, brushing past her as I make my way into the main hall.The lights inside are dim, the soft chatter of guests filling the space as I weave through the tables. As I slip into my seat at the table, the low murmur of conversations and clinking glasses fills the room. I barely have a chance to take in my surroundings before my eyes land on a familiar face sitting across from me — the lead actor from my debut movie. Chris Matthews. It’s been seven years since we worked together on that
Ric doesn’t take his eyes off me—not for the next few seconds, not for the next few minutes. Every time I steal a glance in his direction, I find him staring, those dark eyes boring into me, filled with a possessive rage that sends a shiver down my spine. It’s not just a passing look, either. It’s intense, unyielding, and there’s a raw edge to it that shouldn’t tempt me, but it does. I can feel my pulse quicken every time our gazes lock, and I hate how much I’m affected by him, by this. I’m fighting a losing battle with myself, trying to suppress the heat pooling in my stomach.I can’t immerse myself in any conversation after that. Every time someone speaks to me, their words float past my ears, barely registering. I’m too caught up in the memory of Ric — his face inches from mine, the way his breath felt warm against my skin, teasing me, shredding every sense of control I have over my body. I keep thinking about how close I was to letting him cross that line, how I had almost given in
I pace around the living room, my eyes constantly flicking to the front door in the hopes that I'll hear the bell ring any second. The penthouse feels too big, too quiet, making it hard to breathe. Ric’s going to be here any minute, and I can barely keep my thoughts together. I straighten the pillows on the couch for the hundredth time, then smooth down my dress, wondering if I should’ve changed into something else. But the knot in my stomach tells me it won’t matter.The bell rings, and my heart leaps into my throat. I take a deep breath and walk to the door. When I open it, there he is. Ric. Those dark eyes lock onto mine immediately, and it feels like everything else falls away.He steps inside without saying a word, closing the door behind him. His hand brushes my arm as he passes, a small, almost innocent touch, but it sends a wave of heat through me.“Did you think about me?” His voice is low, smooth, the kind of tone that could melt steel.I swallow hard, barely able to find m
I stare at the small plastic stick on the bathroom counter, waiting. The instructions said to wait three minutes, but I’ve been here for over five, anxiously hoping for two lines that still haven’t appeared. I let out a loud breath, my shoulders sagging in disappointment.There’s nothing. Not even a faint shadow of a second line.“Of course, there’s nothing,” I whisper to myself, a harsh laugh escaping my lips. “Why did I even bother?”I know I can’t be pregnant. There’s been no missed period, or sex that could have led to this. I haven’t been with Mike in months, and Ric... well, Ric and I haven’t gotten that far, even if my mind has wandered there. So why did I even take the test?I scoff, tossing the stick into the trash can. “Stupid,” I mutter under my breath, wiping my hands on a towel before glancing in the mirror. My eyes are glassy, and I blink back the tears that have formed.Was it because of Mike? His stupid confession about Hayley — his mistress — being pregnant... It had s
From the outside, Hayley’s family home looks like any other middle-income house. The lawn is modest, edged with flower beds that have seen better days. The curtains are drawn, casting a somber shadow over the brick facade. It’s the kind of place that holds echoes of laughter, birthdays, and quiet evenings spent together. A happy home, or at least, it was.Today, it holds grief, heavy and suffocating.The street is a circus. Paparazzi crowd the sidewalks, their lenses glinting in the gray light. The air buzzes with the hum of whispered speculation and the rapid clicks of cameras. Their presence here is insulting, but I acknowledge that they could do worse, and have done worse. I step out of the car, the sound of my heels on the pavement sharp. Immediately, the crowd shifts, a swarm of bodies struggling for a better angle. Questions are shouted, their voices slicing through the air, but I don’t acknowledge them.I don’t smile. I don’t wave.This isn’t the red carpet.Anya walks beside
I expect to hear something from my father, having signed the deal, but there’s not much to be disappointed about. At one point, I could have laughed like an evil maniac after this achievement — despite knowing this win wouldn’t have been possible without Ric’s help — but now it’s just meh. Thank you, next. Meera, however, wants to celebrate with pizza. When she sees my confused face, she tells me I deserve it for just what a joke my life has become. She’s not wrong. And then she casually slips to me that I got the role in Haymitch’s movie.I almost choke on the piece of pizza I’m chewing. “When did that happen?”“Oh, the call came when you were in the meeting. Anya was thrilled, believe it or not,” says Meera. The mention of Anya takes away any bit of appetite I had. “She was?”“Yeah,” Meera agrees with a mouthful. A bit of sauce oozes out of her mouth and begins to drip down her mouth, but before I can say anything, Matt wipes it off with a tissue. I pretend to not notice the exc
I leave my penthouse with Meera by my side, the world outside feeling too bright, too loud, for the space I’ve been hiding in. The air feels sharp against my skin as if it knows what I’ve been up to these past few days. I slip on sunglasses, trying to disappear into the back seat of the car, but Meera’s voice keeps pulling me back to reality.“You ready for this?” she asks, flipping through something on her tablet, probably the calendar she’s micromanaged for me since forever.“As ready as I’ll ever be,” I mutter, staring out at the blur of buildings passing by.Am I ready though? I don’t know. My mind drifts to the last time I stood in my father’s office, barely escaping the scrutiny that was hurled at me. No preparation, no defense — I’d walked into that room a girl playing dress-up. I still remember the way those boardroom vultures had smirked, like they couldn’t wait to watch me fail.I haven’t heard from my father, Elliot Jones, in weeks. Not a call, not a message, not even a col
Between kisses that leave me breathless and stolen touches that make me forget the world outside, Ric and I pore over the details of my presentation for the rest of the day. It’s a strange bubble we’ve created, a space where nothing else exists — no expectations, no consequences. Just the steady rhythm of our work and the occasional hum of desire pulling us back into each other’s arms.But the bubble was always bound to burst.The next morning, as sunlight creeps through the floor-to-ceiling windows, reality rears its ugly head. My phone buzzes once, twice, three times. I don’t bother checking it, knowing exactly who’s on the other end. The knocks come next, sharp and demanding, echoing through the penthouse like an alarm bell. I freeze, my breath catching in my throat.“Who is it?” Ric’s voice is low, groggy from sleep, but his body is already tense beside me.“Anya,” I whisper, dread curling in my stomach. She always ignores the bell, and knocks instead whenever she’s fuming.He sits
I call Maisie and tell her not to come in today. No cooking, no cleaning. I tell her I need space, a day to myself. It’s a lie, of course, but she doesn’t press. When Meera calls asking if she can swing by, I cut her off with another lie. “I’m binge-watching some mindless show,” I tell her, feigning a lazy yawn. “Having you here would just remind me of the tragedy from yesterday. Let’s catch up later?” Anya’s call comes next. She wants to go over interview questions, her usual no-nonsense approach taking precedence over everything. “I can’t,” I say, forcing a hoarse rasp into my voice. “I think I’m coming down with something. Maybe tomorrow?” One lie after another. I weave them effortlessly, piling them up like bricks to fortify my cocoon. Because the truth is, I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to do anything except stay locked up in my penthouse with Ric. Ric, whose lips are currently tracing a path of fire down my thighs. My fingers knot in his hair, pulling and ho
We fall asleep on the couch that night, tangled together in a mess of bad decisions and fleeting comfort. Ric’s arms remain firm around my waist, and my head rests on his chest, rising and falling with his steady breaths. The nightmares don’t come, and I wonder if it’s the warmth of his embrace or the devil’s presence itself keeping them at bay.I’ve killed people, Natalie.The words echo in my head as the first rays of sunlight filter through the floor-to-ceiling windows, bathing us in soft, golden light. My cheek is pressed against his chest, his heartbeat steady and strong beneath me. For a while, I just lie there, letting the rhythm soothe me in ways I don’t understand, in ways it shouldn’t.His arms don’t budge, even as I lift my head to study his face. The man who held me so tenderly last night. The man who kisses like he’s burning but pulls away like he’s drowning. The man who has killed people.I trace my finger along the lines of his face, memorizing the edges as if they could
I laugh bitterly, the sound harsh even to my own ears. “Yourself? That’s what this is about? You think you’re some kind of monster I can’t handle? Do you know how ridiculous that sounds, Ric?”His eyes darken, his voice dropping to a near whisper. “You don’t understand, Natalie. I’ve done things… things that would make you look at me differently. Things that would make you run.”“Then explain,” I challenge, my hands tightening on his face. “Stop assuming I can’t handle it.”He hesitates, his throat bobbing as he swallows hard. When he finally speaks, his words are raw and jagged, like they’re being ripped from his soul. “I’ve killed people, Natalie.”Suddenly I can’t breathe. All the air around us seems to have vanished. I blink, my hands slipping from his face as his confession settles between us like a bomb.“What?” My voice is barely audible, but it’s the only word I can manage.He doesn’t look away, his gaze piercing. “I’ve killed people. It’s not something I can take back, and it
I can’t tell if it’s the adrenaline coursing through me or the way his dark eyes hold mine, as if he’s searching for something he’s terrified to find.“Try,” I say again, my voice shaky. It’s a plea, a desperate attempt to save this. Save us. Whatever we are, I know it’s worth saving. I don’t know what thoughts are swirling behind those dark eyes, what decisions they’re weighing, what explanation he’s trying to weave into coherent words. All I know is that — whatever it is, I’ll take it. God, I hate him for making me feel like this — so exposed, so vulnerable. But I hate myself more for still wanting him, for needing him, even now.And when his eyes return to me it’s all I can do to not run to him and wrap my arms around him. A part of my brain tries to remind me of the way he dismissed me, disregarding all the time we spent together, all the kisses. But he did just say that he couldn’t keep pretending I didn’t matter, right? “Ric,” I prompt, unable to keep my patience any longer. “I
You may not have even realised.Those words follow me for the rest of the evening, haunting my every waking moment. I didn’t realise, no. Not until just a few hours ago when it seemed like a possibility. The possibility of being pregnant with Ric’s child. I don’t know what I was expecting to hear, until the very last second before the doctor reentered with the results. But miscarriage had never struck my mind. It seems so bizarre now. A cruel joke, almost. Here’s a problem, but wait there’s a solution. And I’m not satisfied with either. The doctor said there had to be some more tests that needed to be done because she found something suspicious. I was too dazed to be concerned, but Meera stepped forward and asked if it was something to worry about. A lost child.I don’t think anything can take your attention away from that. A child you didn’t even realise you were carrying. On the way back, Meera tries to uplift my sullen mood by saying that it wasn’t quite a baby — just a bunch