I was drunk as hell. I don't know why I did it but I always had a crush on him. It was a drunken mistake although I had no regrets.He pushed me away. I was too drunk to think about anything. "What?" I hugged him."You are drunk Ari.""So what? I like you. I want to be close to you." I chuckled."You like me?" He asked."Yeah it is not like you don't know. You don't like me." I was still laughing."What's so funny about it?""You don't like me and I like you. It is funny.""It is?""Yeah, I am a fucking joke. My life is a fucking joke.""It is not true Ari.""It is you don't like me, Leon doesn't like me, now even Renee doesn't like me. Everyone hate me. Now I am not happy I am sad." I sank in his arms."I like you Ari.""But you don't love me.""I...""You don't have to answer. Come on Ian make me feel loved. Even if it is for a while. Touch me."I kissed his neck and unbuttoned his collar button. He held my hand. He didn't wanted me to make a mistake I will regret.I kept my leg on
"Why are you with Leon?" Ian asked me."I wish there was an answer that could give you but sadly I don't have.""Does he love you?""He can't love anyone.""Leave him.""It is not that simple. I will go back now. Take care, I will see you again.""Yeah sure and if you ever need a friend just give me a call. I will be there."I gave him a smile. He offered to take me home but I said no. Leon will freak out if he saw with Ian.On the way back I thought what am I doing? Isn't being happy the whole purpose of marriage? I knows that I am not happy with Leon. He is with me only because he wants to punish me. It is not like he likes. The situation in which we got married was different.I untied my hair. My head was hurting so bad. I was not able to breath. I drank too much last night. I needed a lemonade.Maybe I should ask for a divorce from Leon. What's the point of being a relationship that means nothing to one and everything to other. It is not like he will agree to. But what if there i
I tried to get up but I was too weak to even stand. I just wanted to get away from leon. I was not able to stand him.Everything around me was blurry that was probably the effect of medications. I took forced steps towards the door but I stumbled. Luckily Leon caught me. He made me sit down on the bed."L-Let me go Leon." Leon was holding me. I was asking him to leave me but I didn't wanted him to leave him. I was too weak to sit by myself.The doctor came in to examine me.I gently kept my hands on my belly. The baby wasn't even here yet I was having strong feeling for it. But now it was time to say good bye. It was best for the baby also.I struggled to free her hand from Leon's grip."I want to talk to the doctor alone Leon" I looked at him with her bleary eyes."No" He responded. He knew what this was about. He knew that he did wrong to me but he was not going to let me punish his child for that. The child was in me, it was more of me. It was mine not his.The doctor asked Leon to
Dear diary, The day went smooth. Nothing bad happened. It was surprising for me to. After all it was my life. It never goes smooth, it has a lot of jerks. Leon moved to my room. He wanted to make sure that I was fine. It was very weird to see him act like a husband. My heart was saying that he was changed but my mind was the saying otherwise. In the middle of the night, Leon was murmuring something in his sleep. Actually it broke my sleep. It was gibbrish. I was not able to understand a world. All of a sudden he gasped and snapped his eyes open. He was panting. "Leon are you fine?" I poured him a glss of water. He hugged me tightly. His body was trembling. "Leon what happened you can tell me." "I s-saw that d-dream again." "What dream Leon? Just tell me. It will make you feel better. "You remember the day Ava...." "Yeah." "She was coming to see me. And ever since I have been seeing this weird dream. Every night I see her dying." "Tell me about it." He told that he see
Dear diary,Leon has always been mysterious. But when I caught him he looked scared and that's what he was trying to hide behind his anger.Something about him scared me to the very core and not in way like it did always. His eyes were speaking words that she was not able to understand.He looked like a person who has been starved for day and is searching for food. The wind forced the windows open. It was story outside. Oh God what was nature waring for now?But that's not why I was there.I knew that if I got scared then I will never be able to say what I want. I wanted to confront him And why should I care if he is hurt? He never cares for me.I closed my eyes and said in a single breath, "I want a divorce.""You want a what?" He moved closer to me."I w-want a divorce." He twisted my hand."You lame girl, you think that I will give you divorce just because you asked me. How can you be so stupid.""I am so done with you Leon. I am so done with you treating me like shit. And now you
Dear diary,Leon kept me locked in the room for two days straight. Someone used to stop by give me food. I was feeling like I was an animal. No animals have more freedom.Renee left me a message that she didn't wanted to see me.I have no idea what I have done to her.Something good happened, I found a friend in Leon's captivation.Last night Leon's half brother Jake came to visit him. He will living with us for a while. He opened my door and came to talk to me earlier today.Leon was looking for Jake in the entire home. He never thought that he could be with me. He heard me chuckling so he came to my room. He got surprised to see Jake there. He stood at the door to see wha we were talking about.Leon and Jake barely talked so Leon thought that Jake was here with a motive. We were not talking about something that we shouldn't. Jake was saying that Leon is the best brother. He was always there through with him through thick and thin."Where were you all these years?" I asked Jake. We
We were talking when Leon walked in. We were so engaged in the conversation that we didn't even noticed him.Leon coughed to make them aware of his presence."L-Leon." I got surprised to see him. He could have greeted us with a smile but no that man is made of stone after all.I got away from Jake, my eyes were bowed down. I felt like I was caught doing something wrong."Ok I will leave you to love birds alone. And she will be here any time now. I will go and call her." Jake said and walked away.Leon waited for him to leave the hall. He was staring me without saying anything that was scaring me."We were j-just talking...." I tried to explain myself. I had no idea why I was explaining myself to him. He meant nothing to me.I was staring to feel like his slave. There was nothing I can do without his fear.Without beating around the bush he said "I don't want you anywhere near him."I just nodded my head. No words fell out of my mouth as he was in front of him.For a second I thought t
Dear diary, Last night I did something brave. I snuk out at night and nobody noticed. I just wanted to be by myslf for a while. It was hard to deal with everything. I went back to my old house. I had some terrible memories there with my step mom but I also mad beautiful memories with my dad and my sister Renee. Despite what Renee said I was not able to believe her. It was something else. She didn't tell me everything. She was keeping something from me. Early morning I went back to Leon's place. I didn't wanted him to know that I wasn't home, He will kill me or at least he will trap me again. I reached there at six, Leon doesn't come back until 7. The staff must be working so I could easily sneak in through the doors. I hid behind a tree outside my house. Since Leon moved in there were guards every where. After all he is a celebrity. I can't deny this. I peeped out. The guard were not there. I got a feeling like I is a robber. Anyways there's no time to hover over it. The guard