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90. What Am I Doing?
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2025-04-28 16:25:47
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The Mafia's Boy Toy 91. Stop!
Salvatore;I watch as David smiles absentmindedly at Lucas, who just walked into the room. My grip tightens on the papers in my hand as I watch the twinkle in his eyes. Why is he looking at Lucas like that?What’s with their sudden closeness? David suddenly looks up at me, and his smile drops. I watch him look away from me uncomfortably, and this makes my irritation grow even more. Why is he acting like he’s doing something he shouldn’t be doing?Is he? Is there something I’m missing? Does he like Lucas?My gaze moves to Lucas, who has his head rolled back and his eyes shut. He’s oblivious to the tension crackling just beneath the surface. There’s nothing between him and David, right? I’m just… Overthinking.I mean… I can’t come up with such speculations. David loves me. I know that… Right?My constant detachment couldn’t possibly have changed his feelings for me… Right?He still loves me… right?I look back at David, who’s looking at everything but my face, and I grit my teeth.He
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 92. He's The Only Wound
Salvatore;“Stop!” I turn to David, and he stands up with his eyes fixed on me. “You’re going to Dimitri, aren’t you?” He questions, and I raise a brow. “I’m going to get my cousin,” I reply, and he shrugs.“Fine. I’ll come along.” He says, and my head dips in amusement as I stare at him.“What nonsense are you saying? I’m letting you come with me.” I rant, and he takes a defiant breath.“Why? He said you should come, and you’ll just up and leave? What if it’s a trap? What if he wants to hurt you? Do you trust him so much that you’ll just go to him with no guards or security??” He questions, and every emotion in his voice slices through me.Anger.Hurt.Insecurity…And Jealousy.Lucas looks up at me, and I swallow. I don’t have time to waste, but I also can not take David with me.“I do not trust him. But I trust myself. He can’t hurt a hair on me.” I try to assure him, and he scoffs. “That’s not enough. I’m not letting you go to him!” He yells, and I see tears begin to rim his eye
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 93. Oh, No!!
David;Lucas blinks at me in silence for a few seconds. He opens his mouth to say something, but then he falls silent. He tilts his head and smiles at me, and my heart skips a beat at how warm and unjudgmental the smile is.“Some wounds are important. Think of it like kintsugi… It’s better than boring old ceramic, isn’t it?” He says, and I blink at him.“Besides, a romance novel without ups and downs will make for a very boring read, don’t you think?” He adds, and I look away. I don’t want to be Kintsugi or in some dramatic romance novel. I just want to love and be loved. I want to be seen and appreciated. I do not want to be seen as a nobody. I want to be loved, respected, and cherished. I don’t want to have to guess if I’m loved or not. I want to be understood. I want clear, easy-to-see love. “Let’s do something fun.” Lucas then says, and I turn to him. “Do you do archery?” He questions as he stands up, and I blink at him.“No…” I reply, and a big grin forms on his face.“Awesom
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 94. What You Did
Salvatore;I walk into the abandoned, dusty building, and I can feel eyes on me. As usual, Dimitri didn’t walk alone. He never does. He always has at least two capable snipers stationed wherever he is. He’s always been a coward. I know I ought to be careful with him, but I also know he doesn’t intend to kill me. That has never been his mission. His aim all along has been to hurt me. To break me and get under my skin. And I must say he was failing woefully at doing all that till David got involved in the mix.“Dimitri!” I yell, and my voice bounces off the walls and corners of this place. Echoing so far, I can tell just how empty this place is.Through one of the incomplete walls, I look up at the sky and sigh. “Lucas!” I yell, hoping that he can give me a hint of where he is. “Dimitri, get the fuck out here!” I yell, and finally, I hear movement. Debris crunching under someone’s steps. I turn around and find Dimitri walking over to me with a cigar in his mouth. He smirks on seeing
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 95. I Need Him
Salvatore;I watch him clean the edge of his lower lip before chuckling. “You’re still as feisty as always.” He says, and I glare at him in silence.“Your cousin is in the sixth room on the right. Hopefully, he hasn’t bled to death.” He adds, pointing in the direction he came from earlier, and I cast him one last hate-filled look before walking in the direction he pointed. However, the words he speaks next causes motion to leave my legs. “You haven’t seen the pattern, have you?”I turn to him, and he smirks as he spreads himself lackadaisically on the floor.“Everyone who has ever said they love you… Everyone you’ve ever said ‘I love you’ to… They’re all dead.” He adds, and I feel my heart drop into my stomach. “And it will stay that way. It has to, Sal.” He continues, and I swallow before returning around and walking towards the corridor. Deciding to ignore him. To act like those words didn’t just ignite the fear already bubbling in my guts.“I promise to make you feel what it’s l
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 96. What's Wrong?
Salvatore;It’s late. I got home late. I couldn’t leave Uncle Aldo or Lucas till we were sure he was fine. But now I’m home. Home and eager to see just one person. I barge into my room, and I feel relief explode inside me when I see him. He’s sitting on the bed, covered by the duvet, and has a sketch book in his lap.“Sal?” He questions as I walk into the room and shut the door. “Are you… Are you drunk?” He questions, and I nod at first, but then shake my head in denial.“No. I just had a couple drinks.” I reply as I stagger, and he immediately throws the duvet and sketch book aside before rushing over to me.“And you drove home like this!?” He questions as he takes my hands and starts inspecting my body as if expecting to find an injury from driving drunk.“I’m not drunk…” I slur, and he gives me a look.“Yes, you are. I can’t believe you can be this irresponsible. What if something-” Be begins, but before he can finish, I can’t take the worry in his voice. I need to shut it out —
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 97. If He Doesn't Love Me
David;I arch my back off the bed when he wraps his tongue around my tip, and I watch as he sucks my full length into his mouth. The feeling of his warm mouth around my dick sends all the cold I previously felt evaporating from my body, and sends sweet warmth and shivers to the roots of every single nerve in my body."Fuck... "I cuss as I grab the bed sheet.My toes curl as he begins to wrap and work his tongue around my length, but I almost lose it when he swallows me, and I feel his throat wrap around my dick."Oh, shit... "I cuss as I bite my lower lip.I feel my soul threaten to leave my body as he sucks me like his intention is to suck every voice of reason from my head... And it seems to be working. This isn't just a blow job. No. He is making love to my dick... With his mouth.Goosebumps rise along my skin when he moves down to my balls, and unable to stop myself, I bury my fingers in his silky, long hair. I struggle to hold back as he keeps swallowing my full length. Allowing
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28The Mafia's Boy Toy 98. Mr. Snuggels
Salvatore;I tried getting David to talk to me once he got into the bathroom, but he ignored me. And to be honest, I deserve it. I know a lot will change if I just tell him I love him, but how much will really change is what I have no control over. I know it’s pathetic, but despite not being a spiritual or religious person, Dimitri was right. There is a pattern. Everyone I’ve ever said ‘I love you’ to ends up dead.”Dimitri may seem alive, but he’s dead too. His heart… the good in him… joy… It’s all dead. Sofie was my best friend. I told her constantly how much I loved her and our friendship, and… what happened? Then my family… Lucas and David are probably still alive because I haven’t told them those words yet. I know I’m a coward. A fucking cunt for doing this, but I’m scared. I’m scared of loving David. I don’t want to lose him. He might end up hating me, and it would kill me, but… I don’t want to see him dead. I don’t want any harm to happen to him. If I lose him, then… if
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-28
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The Mafia's Boy Toy 100. Tides Of His Past
Lucas;“I shouldn’t have brought this to you. It’s stupid talk.” He says as he tries to walk away, but I grab his arm to stop him from leaving. This makes him turn to me with confusion on his face.“It’s not stupid talk if you believe it,” I whisper to him, and I see a tear drop slide down his face.He stares at me in silence, and I smile at him. My heart broke at the silence in his eyes.“Talk to me. You know I’ll listen.” I speak softly, and he blinks at me. His breath… shaky as I see him melt into the trust he has for me.A trust I appreciate way more than he knows.“If you need me to just listen, I’ll do just that. If you want my opinion, I’ll give it. Whatever you want. You should know by now that you mean more to me than the facade of invisibility you put up in front of everyone else. Let me see your scars. I won’t mock them. I won’t judge them.” I add, and he swallows.I let go of his hand and step aside. Allowing him room to move to my bed. I let out a relieved breath as he wa
The Mafia's Boy Toy 99. Stupid Talk
Lucas;I stare at him as his laughter grows, but he doesn’t let go of my leg. I want to be mad at him for barging in like that. For scaring me, and most importantly, for finding out my secret. I’ve known how to knit since I was a little boy. I got bullied for it in elementary school. In high school, when guys found out I could knit, coupled with the fact that I’m bi, it was hell. The bullying was insane, and since then, I’ve kept it a secret. I couldn’t even tell Sal because I found it embarrassing. And it looks like I was right to. He’s laughing so hard, he can’t stop. And still, my stupid love struck ass can’t bring myself to be mad at him for it. How can I get mad when he looks so bright, laughing like this… Even if it’s at the expense of my feelings.Seeing as I can’t break free from his grip, I sit on the floor in front of him. My confidence crumbling with every laugh. “I need that…” He laughs, and I hug my knees to my chest as I stare at him.“It’s that bad, huh?” I question
The Mafia's Boy Toy 98. Mr. Snuggels
Salvatore;I tried getting David to talk to me once he got into the bathroom, but he ignored me. And to be honest, I deserve it. I know a lot will change if I just tell him I love him, but how much will really change is what I have no control over. I know it’s pathetic, but despite not being a spiritual or religious person, Dimitri was right. There is a pattern. Everyone I’ve ever said ‘I love you’ to ends up dead.”Dimitri may seem alive, but he’s dead too. His heart… the good in him… joy… It’s all dead. Sofie was my best friend. I told her constantly how much I loved her and our friendship, and… what happened? Then my family… Lucas and David are probably still alive because I haven’t told them those words yet. I know I’m a coward. A fucking cunt for doing this, but I’m scared. I’m scared of loving David. I don’t want to lose him. He might end up hating me, and it would kill me, but… I don’t want to see him dead. I don’t want any harm to happen to him. If I lose him, then… if
The Mafia's Boy Toy 97. If He Doesn't Love Me
David;I arch my back off the bed when he wraps his tongue around my tip, and I watch as he sucks my full length into his mouth. The feeling of his warm mouth around my dick sends all the cold I previously felt evaporating from my body, and sends sweet warmth and shivers to the roots of every single nerve in my body."Fuck... "I cuss as I grab the bed sheet.My toes curl as he begins to wrap and work his tongue around my length, but I almost lose it when he swallows me, and I feel his throat wrap around my dick."Oh, shit... "I cuss as I bite my lower lip.I feel my soul threaten to leave my body as he sucks me like his intention is to suck every voice of reason from my head... And it seems to be working. This isn't just a blow job. No. He is making love to my dick... With his mouth.Goosebumps rise along my skin when he moves down to my balls, and unable to stop myself, I bury my fingers in his silky, long hair. I struggle to hold back as he keeps swallowing my full length. Allowing
The Mafia's Boy Toy 96. What's Wrong?
Salvatore;It’s late. I got home late. I couldn’t leave Uncle Aldo or Lucas till we were sure he was fine. But now I’m home. Home and eager to see just one person. I barge into my room, and I feel relief explode inside me when I see him. He’s sitting on the bed, covered by the duvet, and has a sketch book in his lap.“Sal?” He questions as I walk into the room and shut the door. “Are you… Are you drunk?” He questions, and I nod at first, but then shake my head in denial.“No. I just had a couple drinks.” I reply as I stagger, and he immediately throws the duvet and sketch book aside before rushing over to me.“And you drove home like this!?” He questions as he takes my hands and starts inspecting my body as if expecting to find an injury from driving drunk.“I’m not drunk…” I slur, and he gives me a look.“Yes, you are. I can’t believe you can be this irresponsible. What if something-” Be begins, but before he can finish, I can’t take the worry in his voice. I need to shut it out —
The Mafia's Boy Toy 95. I Need Him
Salvatore;I watch him clean the edge of his lower lip before chuckling. “You’re still as feisty as always.” He says, and I glare at him in silence.“Your cousin is in the sixth room on the right. Hopefully, he hasn’t bled to death.” He adds, pointing in the direction he came from earlier, and I cast him one last hate-filled look before walking in the direction he pointed. However, the words he speaks next causes motion to leave my legs. “You haven’t seen the pattern, have you?”I turn to him, and he smirks as he spreads himself lackadaisically on the floor.“Everyone who has ever said they love you… Everyone you’ve ever said ‘I love you’ to… They’re all dead.” He adds, and I feel my heart drop into my stomach. “And it will stay that way. It has to, Sal.” He continues, and I swallow before returning around and walking towards the corridor. Deciding to ignore him. To act like those words didn’t just ignite the fear already bubbling in my guts.“I promise to make you feel what it’s l
The Mafia's Boy Toy 94. What You Did
Salvatore;I walk into the abandoned, dusty building, and I can feel eyes on me. As usual, Dimitri didn’t walk alone. He never does. He always has at least two capable snipers stationed wherever he is. He’s always been a coward. I know I ought to be careful with him, but I also know he doesn’t intend to kill me. That has never been his mission. His aim all along has been to hurt me. To break me and get under my skin. And I must say he was failing woefully at doing all that till David got involved in the mix.“Dimitri!” I yell, and my voice bounces off the walls and corners of this place. Echoing so far, I can tell just how empty this place is.Through one of the incomplete walls, I look up at the sky and sigh. “Lucas!” I yell, hoping that he can give me a hint of where he is. “Dimitri, get the fuck out here!” I yell, and finally, I hear movement. Debris crunching under someone’s steps. I turn around and find Dimitri walking over to me with a cigar in his mouth. He smirks on seeing
The Mafia's Boy Toy 93. Oh, No!!
David;Lucas blinks at me in silence for a few seconds. He opens his mouth to say something, but then he falls silent. He tilts his head and smiles at me, and my heart skips a beat at how warm and unjudgmental the smile is.“Some wounds are important. Think of it like kintsugi… It’s better than boring old ceramic, isn’t it?” He says, and I blink at him.“Besides, a romance novel without ups and downs will make for a very boring read, don’t you think?” He adds, and I look away. I don’t want to be Kintsugi or in some dramatic romance novel. I just want to love and be loved. I want to be seen and appreciated. I do not want to be seen as a nobody. I want to be loved, respected, and cherished. I don’t want to have to guess if I’m loved or not. I want to be understood. I want clear, easy-to-see love. “Let’s do something fun.” Lucas then says, and I turn to him. “Do you do archery?” He questions as he stands up, and I blink at him.“No…” I reply, and a big grin forms on his face.“Awesom
The Mafia's Boy Toy 92. He's The Only Wound
Salvatore;“Stop!” I turn to David, and he stands up with his eyes fixed on me. “You’re going to Dimitri, aren’t you?” He questions, and I raise a brow. “I’m going to get my cousin,” I reply, and he shrugs.“Fine. I’ll come along.” He says, and my head dips in amusement as I stare at him.“What nonsense are you saying? I’m letting you come with me.” I rant, and he takes a defiant breath.“Why? He said you should come, and you’ll just up and leave? What if it’s a trap? What if he wants to hurt you? Do you trust him so much that you’ll just go to him with no guards or security??” He questions, and every emotion in his voice slices through me.Anger.Hurt.Insecurity…And Jealousy.Lucas looks up at me, and I swallow. I don’t have time to waste, but I also can not take David with me.“I do not trust him. But I trust myself. He can’t hurt a hair on me.” I try to assure him, and he scoffs. “That’s not enough. I’m not letting you go to him!” He yells, and I see tears begin to rim his eye
