NaomiI glanced down at the clock wearily, feeling another hour slip away that didn’t bring any peace to my life. I felt like my body was moving at a snail’s pace, the fog around me never truly lifting.More than that, I continued to hear the sound of the crib crashing to the ground repeatedly in my mind, a lifetime of what could have been dreams and hopes for the future gone in an instant.It had been Vera who had found me still curled up against the door and had helped me to my bed, even holding me briefly and whispering that it was going to be just fine.I allowed her to do so, comforted that the stern older woman would even consider offering me comfort when I was the subject of so much pain for the man she served.Did she know that I wasn’t Sveta now? Did they all know? Was I the butt of some joke that Gavril was dealing with?Had I truly ruined everything for him?It was all my fault, after all. If I had only told him about Jon’s true identity in the beginning, he could have been
GavrilI watched as the men filed into the study, clasping my hands behind my back as they took their seats. Internally, I was fucking exhausted from the events of the last few hours. From the meeting with Konstantin to my moment with Naomi, I hadn’t had a moment to breathe but doubted it was going to get any easier from here.After I had left the nursery, I had thrown myself into my preparations. With Anatoly’s help, we had rallied our troops and stored our weapons cache in a safe place in case Konstantin decided to attack the places I had shown him previously. Money had been moved all around the world into various accounts, and, in the likelihood of me not winning, my family would survive. I had briefly debated on warning my mother, but decided against it for the moment. She would find out soon enough.At least they were in Russia and would be protected from the shit that was about to go down here in the States. I had already sent word for Inessa to take the girls on a vacation, all
NaomiI simply looked at my husband, taking in his handsome profile in the morning light. My head hurt and so did my heart, wanting nothing more than to crawl into the large bed in the next room and cover myself with a blanket.I hadn’t yet, wanting to see Gavril and ensure he was all right, at least, and now he was standing before me, a darkly beautiful man who was so broken on the inside. “I’m terrified of you,” I admitted, feeling like I needed to say it aloud. “I’m terrified of what you will do in your Bratva. I’m terrified that you look at me now and are disgusted by what you see.” That hurt my heart the most. I could take him being angry at me, but for him to look at me like he had was not something I liked at all.His jaw clenched, and I couldn’t help but wonder what he was thinking. Gavril had to be under pressure about this whole war, and why he had come to see me, I wasn’t sure, but it wasn’t going to be good. “I don’t know who you are,” I said in a softer voice. “I see two
GavrilNaomi was crying. One minute she was sucking my cock for all it was worth, nearly making love to me with her mouth, her touch, and the next, her beautiful eyes were shimmering with tears.I couldn’t take it.“Please don’t,” I forced out, the vise-like grip on my chest making it hard to breathe.Her shoulders slumped, and she looked like she had lost all hope. “Will this be the last time?” she asked softly.The last time? I didn’t fucking know, honestly. What I was going to have to face in the next twelve or twenty-four hours was still up in the air. I had a bunch of shit going on, but I hadn’t honestly thought about my own survival.Not yet. I wasn’t to the point of having to worry if I was going to walk away in the end.But her words made me consider the fact that I could die in this war. It was the same fact that happened every time I made a new enemy. Hell, it was the sheer side effect of being a Pakhan to begin with. At any point, someone could wipe me out.Was Naomi worrie
NaomiI didn’t like anything that I was witnessing at this moment. I didn’t like the fact that my kidnapper was standing before me or how Gavril was giving me a look that seemed to sear my very soul. He looked so defeated, and I didn’t think I had ever seen him like that before. “What’s going on?” I asked, far too scared to say anything else. “Why is he here?”Gavril finally snapped out of his thoughts and placed his hands on my shoulders, the heat of his skin burning through my thin shirt. I could feel a faint tremor in his touch, and it surprised me. Gavril was never rattled. “I need for you to go with Anatoly,” he said, his eyes meeting mine. “He will get you to a safe house.”“And you are coming with me, right?” I countered, already knowing the answer.His jaw tightened and I gripped his wrists with my hands, tightening my hold. “Your men can fight this war for you,” I rushed on. “You don’t need to fight alongside them.”“There is no honor in running from a fight,” he said tightly
GavrilI stood in the driveway until I could no longer see the taillights of the car that carried Naomi away. I felt sick to my stomach at what I had just done, hoping that I had made the right decision in sending her away.Of course, it was the right decision to get her away from the danger, but I should have taken her myself.“Fuck,” I breathed, shoving a hand through my hair and forcing myself to turn back to the house. I thought that when she left, I would be able to breathe a bit easier, but right now, I didn’t feel like it at all.I felt like part of me had just left in that car.“Pakhan?”Looking up, I found Ivan standing at the entrance, concern on his weathered face. “What is it, Ivan?”“Anatoly will watch over her,” he said softly, as if he could read my thoughts. “She will be safe. We will make certain that she is.”I drew in a steady breath. “Thank you, Ivan.” The old man was one of my trusted few, and while I wouldn’t normally take that sort of conversation from just anyo
NaomiI rubbed my stomach as the car rode along the highway out of the city, watching the ocean in the distance. I had barely said two words to Anatoly since his last statement, waiting for the shoe to drop, so to speak, and for him to pull the car over to kill me.It seemed, though, that he was truly going to drive me somewhere safe. Either that or we weren’t to the kill location just yet.At this point, I really didn’t know.Still, there had been a hole in my heart from the moment we pulled away from Gavril. I didn’t like that I was leaving him to fight his war by himself. I didn’t like that he had felt the need to send me away, as if he wasn’t going to make it through this fight and that was potentially the last time I would see him. Touch him.God, I couldn’t believe how my entire feelings had taken a turn in the last day toward him! I both loved and hated him, loving the part that was the good in him and hating the bad part that made him consider himself a monster. In order to lo
NaomiI adjusted my body on the leather seat, trying to relieve some of the pressure on my shoulders. Despite all of the men that had been present when Jon finally found me, it was now just me and him in the SUV. I remained silent as he drove, afraid of what would happen if I said something.I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified at the prospect of being in his hands again. I knew exactly the kinds of horrific things he wanted to do to me. But I wasn’t the same person he remembered. For the longest time I had been scared of him, of what he could do to me. I hated the way that he made me feel helpless, but I wasn’t helpless anymore.I wasn’t the helpless girl he had tormented for years.But he still held most of the cards, and I had to be smart about being around him if I wanted to find a way to return to Gavril.This couldn’t be the end of my life. I had so much more I wanted to do. I wanted to see this child grow. I wanted to repair my relationship with Gavril, for us to find some