SIENNA I was very tempted to avoid Benjamin's gaze as soon as I entered the room but that was definitely not going to help matters. The more I avoided his gaze, the more likely he was to become suspicious. And why wouldn't he? Sylvester and I were just returning at the same time. I hoped that I didn't look as disconcerted as I felt. It was a very big effort for me to be able to comport my feelings. “What's going on? What did I miss?” I leaned in and I whispered to him. I didn't miss the way he narrowed his eyes on me, his gaze traveling to Sylvester subtly in the space of a heartbeat. Thankfully Sylvester acted normal, completely oblivious to the way Benjamin was glaring at him. “Was he bothering you? Was that why you couldn't come earlier than usual?” Benjamin asked and I sighed, racking my head, so that I could come up with a reasonable lie. “He wasn't bothering me. We were just talking,” I said, feigning nonchalance and keeping my voice calm. “About what?” he asked. “I guess
SIENNAThings were a little bit tense for us at dinner. Clara and I exchanged minimal words and if my father noticed, I guess he was convinced that this was certainly not the right time for him to ask me or her. I was surprised that she didn't see it as an opportunity to rant to my father about how unfair I had been to her today. Clara never missed any opportunity to paint me in a bad light. My father asked about the details of the meeting and how it went and I downplayed everything that happened from the little that I was planning on focusing on and from the information that Benjamin had given me.From the expression on his face, I could see that he wasn't pleased at the new development. He wasn't pleased that the other neighboring packs were slowly beginning to depend on the Lycans for protection, but I guess he didn't really have much of a choice than to accept what was going on, because if we didn't want to lose more people in our pack, we had to make some certain sacrifices, even
SIENNAI sneaked glances at Sylvester over cheeseburgers as I ate. He looked extraordinarily divine and it was almost impossible for me to take my eyes off him as I ate. I couldn't believe that I had been about to pass on these cheeseburgers, because if they tasted delicious before, they were definitely mind blowing now. I couldn't simply get enough of them. I was sure that I was eating like a pig but I didn't care at all. I looked up to find Sylvester staring at me with a small smile on his face. My cheeks flushed with color as I hastily looked away. He caught me staring, no doubt.“You have something on your face.” He looked at me and then leaned forward. There was no way that he was about to kiss me here, in front of all these people, with everyone watching. The thought of that made my face drain of color. I looked at him, aghast. I was about to ask him what the hell he was about to do when he brushed his thumb against the side of my cheek, wiping away the mustard that must have
SIENNAI held my breath for a minute longer and this time without Sylvester's help. Who would have imagined that I could learn something new? Slowly, I began to flap both of my legs, just like he taught me and I stretched my arms forward as I began to swim. It felt exciting and exhilarating and I couldn't even begin to understand why I was scared in the first place. By the time I emerged back up, my chest heaved up and down as I tried to catch my breath. I ran my hand over my face and shifted my damp hair away from my eyes. My eyes met Sylvester’s, who was standing at the edge of the pool. I didn’t even know how long he had been standing there. His eyes glistened with pride as he looked at me. “I knew you could do it,” he said, making his way towards me. His smile always had a way of affecting me in a way that I didn’t understand, and I couldn't even think straight. It had its way of disconcerting me also. “Are you okay?” he asked as he got closer to me. I wanted to give a reason
SIENNA The aroma that wafted up into the air made my tummy rumble instantly with hunger. I guess he wasn't joking when he said that he could cook. As if he could sense that I was looking at him, he turned around to face me immediately. Our eyes met and held and my lips tilted up in a small smile. I was content with looking at him forever. “I'm sure you must be hungry now”he said and I nodded. I listened to him chatter excitedly about how he was always delighted to prepare dinner with his mother in the kitchen while she was alive. The spark in his eyes was impossible to miss when he talked about his family. I wondered what it must have been like for him, growing up and feeling so alone. It was even worse because he didn't have any siblings but I guess I could relate to it. Not completely, but at least to a certain degree. My dad always tried to make time for me, no matter what happened and yet it was still never enough. Sometimes I felt like he had an obligation to the pack than he
SIENNAI stretched luxuriously on the big bed and froze when I hit something hard. My breath caught in my throat and the smile disappeared from my face Instantly. My eyes fluttered open immediately and I looked at Sylvester who laid down next to me. I took note of his bare torso as he slept. My heart pounded frantically within my chest as I looked down at myself and I released a sigh of relief when I discovered that I was still wearing clothes.I knew he wouldn't take advantage of me. It was not just something that he would do but it was myself that I didn't trust. Due to the effects of the alcohol, I might have come off strong last night. And even if he wouldn't want to cross boundaries, I could be persistent, especially when I was under the influence of alcohol and that part of myself scared me. I searched the bed for my phone but couldn't find it. I must have dropped it somewhere. I noticed how his hand went around my waist and held me to him in a protective way. I couldn't help t
SIENNA I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to feel as I drove back home. I could forget the victory that flashed through Tamara's eyes as I stormed past him and headed out of the house. My hands trembled on the steering wheel and all I could do was blame myself for being all shades of stupid. I didn’t know what I was thinking? I didn’t know how I could push myself into thinking that he was going to me over Tamara. The people that I love never really got to choose me. I was always an option, always got treated like an option. Even my father made the pack first and me an option. The only person who tried very hard not to make me an option was Hailey and she wasn't here. At this moment, I was beginning to feel so alone, I was beginning to feel so overwhelmed by my loneliness and when I couldn't see clearly because of the tears that blinded me, I had to park on the side of the road and I broke down completely in the car. I felt all shades of stupid and regrets, I wanted to sla
SIENNAMy fists ached. I was positive that my knuckles must have been bruised but regardless I still went on punching anyway. Training was the only thing that I ever really did to occupy myself these days. It was a kind of reprieve from the self hatred that I seemed to be drowning in. My chest heaved up and down heavily as I tried to catch my breath. Everything was exhausting and tiring. Dad wouldn't talk to me, Benjamin avoided me like the plague and the only thing that was normal was Clara's occasionally taunting and even at that, she was strangely being nice and accommodating. Maybe she could sense that I was going through more than enough fire now. We held a burial for the people that died. Some of the people in the pack looked at me differently and it was quite impossible to miss the accusation in their eyes. It was almost as if I was a traitor and in a way I was. They needed me and I had left them to fight alone. I had left them to fend for themselves. I wondered how they wou