SIENNAMy palms were clammy with sweat as we headed over to from family to family with care packages in hand. I insisted that Benjamin didn't have to follow me to deliver them but he insisted, to my relief, because I wasn't so certain that I could have handled it on my own. Some families were not too receptive towards me. I had the door slammed in my face a couple of times, other times, I had the care packages tossed from my hand with them telling me how much of a disappointment I was to my father, and other times, they were surprisingly kind to me and accepted the care packages with gratitude. Benjamin was by my side through the whole encounter, so it made the entire thing bearable. After a while, I was finally done. I was relieved, the constriction in my chest loosened a little when I realized that it was finally over. “I guess it didn't go so bad,” Benjamin finally said after we delivered the final package, and when I shot him a look, my eyes were full of tears. “They hate me
SIENNA The space surrounding my chest felt lighter, my shoulders felt less heavy as Benjamin pushed me up and down the swing. I giggled like a little girl holding onto the swing tightly. I felt the cool breeze sift through my hair and I felt the soothing breeze hit my face. In a way, I wanted the moment to be perfectly at pause. If I had my way. I'll put it to a standstill so that I could get to experience the moment, every day of my life. I didn't think about how heartbroken I was or how I was still trying to pick up the remaining pieces of my heart. I didn't think about how I had so much work to do, or how I had to work so hard in gaining back the respect of my father and the entire park. I was almost certain that at some point, I had tossed my problems into the wind. I was convinced that I felt lighter, more lighter than I've ever felt. At some point, I told him to stop because I was feeling dizzy and he did what I requested. I looked at him and smiled. My tummy erupted into ti
SIENNA I stared at Benjamin, speechless and unable to utter a word because how the hell was I supposed to tell him that was what I had been doing for the past week? I didn't even remember the last time that I had anything substantial to eat. It was mostly just little bites here and there. Thinking about it. No wonder, I felt dizzy in the training room. Benjamin stared at me aghast, like he was petrified by the thought of me not eating anything. We headed down the hallway, past the living room, towards the direction of my bedroom. “Hold on and give me ten minutes. I'll come see you later,” he said and turned back and disappeared down the hallway without as much as a second glance. My brows furrowed in confusion but I decided that it was a better idea for me not to give any meaning to it. I turned back and walked towards my room. When I entered, I released a relieved sigh. My phone vibrated on the bed and I headed towards it, hoping it would be Hailey. My mood came crashing down en
SIENNABenjamin left earlier than expected. We spent the whole morning talking about the most random things. At the back of my mind. I knew I didn't want him to leave. One way or another. I was getting attached to him more than I would like to admit. I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I wouldn't say that I had returned fully to my old self but the glow was back to my skin and the bags underneath my eyes were gone. I was slowly on the road to becoming my old self again. I guess I had Benjamin to thank for that. I released a sigh and decided that I was going to let my hair down today. I've put it up in a bun for the whole weekI decided to put more effort into the way that I dressed today. I've been dressing like I'm attending a burial for the past week. Today's the first time that I was putting on a little bit of color with my black comfy jeans. If navy blue was even considered a color. Today was the day that I decided to suck it up and have breakfast with my father and Clara. I
SIENNAIt was hard coming to terms with the fact that he was here. Sylvester's eyes showed no atom of emotion whatsoever but I knew that his gaze lingered on me more than necessary. The air in the room was thickening with tension and it was impossible for me to focus on anything else. No matter how much I wanted to convince myself that he didn't affect me as much as he used to. I also knew that I would be lying to myself. He affected me just as much as he did before. I subtly looked around and hoped no one noticed the slight shake of my hand as I raised my cup of tea to my lips. “So tell me. How do you expect to bring back the lives of ten people?” I tilted my head to the side. My tone dripped with nothing but stone cold sarcasm. Perhaps I was to blame during the night of the attack but he was also to blame as well. Our packs were in alliance for a reason and yet he didn't deem it fit to inquire what was happening until a week later. “I'm going to station myself here with my men,”
SIENNA I hated how the tears filled up my eyes, my emotions were in a state of chaos and I wondered how I was going to get over the overwhelming urge to cry.“I know you must hate me. I wish that I could explain it to you but I also know it's too complicated for you to understand,” he said as he walked towards me, closing the remaining distance between us. All I wanted to do was move away, perhaps maybe even run as far away from him as possible but for some reason, my legs seemed to be planted in a spot. It was like my body no longer paid attention to the command of my brain. It reacted to him in ways that I couldn't even imagine, in ways that sent mind wrecking fear running down my spine.I wanted to tell him to make it make sense. I wanted him to explain why he felt it was okay to break me just after I had spent time with him the last time I saw him. I wanted him to answer the question that I've been harboring for almost a week. But there was no point, opening up myself again, tryi
SIENNAMy blood ran cold as I tried to process whatever Sylvester was trying to say. “What do you mean you lost your Beta? How is it even possible that we wouldn't have heard about it by now?” Benjamin raised an eyebrow at him as he glared at him with disbelief. It didn't take two and two to figure out that Sylvester was irritated by Benjamin's presence. I didn't miss how his gaze lingered on the proximity between Benjamin and I. I didn't know what to believe or if it was even safe to believe him. It could be that. He was trying to get back into my good graces again. Maybe he knew that I cared about him and he was trying to look for every way possible to take advantage of that. “I don't have to do anything to convince you. If you don't believe me, that's honestly fine but don't come here making assumptions about something you know nothing about.” Sylvester snapped. The glare on Benjamin's face didn't fade away as they both engaged in a glaring Contest. Deciding that I’d had more t
SIENNAI didn’t know what just happened or if I should be panicked about Benjamin suddenly leaving. Ever since the confrontation in the hallway, he had been behaving strangely. I closed my eyes and sighed. I was feeling all shades of frustration. “Are you okay?” my father asked, snapping my attention back to him. My cheeks flushed with color as I looked between the both of them. Clara looked at me curiously as I tried to return my attention back to what he had been saying earlier. My shoulder became tense with tension when I realized that Sylvester was going to be coming over today. Unfortunately for me. I was going to have to encounter him every day. Only the thought of that alone set me on edge. “You look worried and you haven't even touched your breakfast,” he said. I didn't know how to come up with an explanation. It was like the words were stuck at the back of my throat. The panic was beginning to well up in my chest as I tried to find the perfect words to say. “But it's un