SIENNAI was almost tempted to yell at him to stop playing with my emotions that way. I was almost tempted to tell him to go back and not bother coming back here because the more I stayed around him, the more I would melt and I didn't want to. Fear and desire suffocated me to the extent that I was finding it difficult to breathe at that moment. “And who's going to keep you safe?” I asked, sounding more breathless than I would have liked. For a moment it seemed like he was at a loss for an answer as he leaned forward and tenderly tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ear. I didn't know how to function properly. Not with the way he was looking at me. He was looking at me just like I was the very center of his existence. I closed my eyes and sighed as I was beginning to feel overwhelmed. “How do you feel now?” he asked and I guess I should be relieved that he was now centered on another different topic almost entirely but with Sylvester, I was beyond convinced that there was always
SIENNAThe next time I awoke, it was on my bed. It was very surprising and it drove me into a state of panic. If I wasn't so certain that I had seen Sylvester so early in the morning, then I would have been convinced that I was dreaming, which I was very sure that I wasn't. I couldn't be dreaming, though. Sylvester's words still remained with me and for some reason that was entirely difficult to understand, I couldn't really forget it and I knew that I would never be able to forget it in days, possibly even months to come.I remained silent and smiled, as I was feeling very emotional. I ignored the tears that stung my eyes. He must have brought me in here when I was asleep. I hoped that no one was able to see him but I knew that if anyone saw him heading to my room with me, they would have caused a ruckus by now. Still, It didn't stop my heart from crashing with disappointment when I realized that I didn't wake up next to him on the bed. He was nowhere to be seen. But wasn't it what
SIENNAI was expecting him to leave but for some reason, he didn't. I was relieved that he didn't. I could tell that he didn't find my silence pleasing. I didn't find it pleasing either but at the same time, I didn't really know how best I was supposed to reply to him. I didn't want to lie to him but at the same time, I didn’t think that I had come to the stage where I was ready to be vulnerable. I closed my eyes, trying to ignore how they were stinging with tears. “You do know that I'm not going to force you to do anything that you don't want to do, right?” he said. But that was the problem. I didn't know exactly what I wanted from Sylvester. I didn't know what it was that I wanted. All I knew was that I couldn't entertain the idea of letting him go but at the same time, I was too afraid to let down my guard. “Since you have an off day today, maybe we could do something to take your mind off things a little,” he suggested.I wondered what it was that he had in mind but I knew tha
SIENNAI didn’t know how I was able to manage going into the park. So many memories that I didn't want to remember but at the same time so many memories that I had no desire to let go of. I closed my eyes and sighed. I wanted to reach a certain point where I could remember these good memories without changing to cry my eyes out. Benjamin looked at me. I don't think he ever tore his gaze away from me. I could tell that he was concerned and perhaps silently regretting the decision to bring me here. I wanted to tell him that he had nothing to be sorry about. All he was trying to do was make me feel better. I controlled the tears in my eyes, subtly bit on my bottom lips so they wouldn't fall but at the same time, I was unable to stop my hands from trembling slightly. I buried them into the pockets of my jeans so that Benjamin wouldn't notice but it would seem that from the way he looked at me, he already did. “I meant it when I said we could go back if you don't feel comfortable here,”
SIENNAThe ride back home was insanely quiet. I was tempted to yell at Benjamin. Anything to get him to talk to me and yet he refused to utter a word as we rode through the city to get back. The only time he talked to me was when he stopped in front of the cafe that we went to the last time. He asked me if I would like some ice cream and I said no immediately because I knew that it was going to be nothing but awkward between us. Each time that I would try to catch his eyes, he would look away and he would stare into the distance.It was almost as if I was non-existent and even if I didn't admit it, whatever he was doing made my tummy clench almost painfully and I couldn't focus on anything. I was completely and totally disconcerted. The drive seemed longer than it was when we initially drove out. Maybe it was because I was desperate to return back to the confines of my room. It was a lengthy drive back home and I suddenly felt too conscious of the proximity between Benjamin and I.
BENJAMINThe glow of the moon in the night sky flashed through the window, casting a silvery glow on the clearing where I finally let spill the emotions I'd bottled for years. "Sienna," I began, my voice wavering with a lot of nerves and raw emotion."I've been in love with you since we were kids."Her eyes widened in surprise, and for a brief but exhilarating moment, time stood still. I had loved this woman for years ever since we were little, evolving from her best friend to her loyal beta. Despite hoping time would wash away these feelings and open the door for a new love—and if it was my mate, then even better—however, my emotions for her only intensified.The agony deepened when I witnessed the toll of Jasper's heartless rejection of Sienna. He, an undeserving soul, didn't merit someone as precious and beautiful as my Luna. As the moon goddess toyed with my fate, I couldn't escape the internal conflict. Sienna, my Luna, deserved far more than the heartache Jasper had callously im
SIENNAIt was past midnight and I was back in my room. The moon hung low in the night sky, casting a glow that painted my room in silver hues. When Ben confessed and left, I decided to be alone. I went back to my room after I had taken a very long and satisfying walk in the trees.I didn’t change to my wolf form because I wanted ample time to understand what the fuck was happening to me and although I took hours in the trees, I wasn't able to comprehend anything so I gave up and now I was back in my room sitting at the edge of my bed and trying to actually understand what was wrong with me. Ben had confessed his love for me and to be honest, I hadn’t been expecting it. At times, a flicker of something more had danced between us, but I dismissed it as the natural affection borne of companionship. The weight of every emotion was pressing down on me. Sylvester, my big bad wolf, the one I had loved for so long after Jasper broke me and left me in pieces, The man bestowed upon me by the
SIENNA It took a while for my eyes to adjust to the new brightness in the room, making me wonder how long I had slept. I worried about the things that I would have to do this morning for a second before remembering I was placed on bed rest. Turning on my side, I came face to face with the black-haired man sprawled across the length of my Queen sized mattress. His arm was slung over my torso and his body was bare up until the dip of his muscles into the waistband of the grey sweatpants he had on. His tanned olive skin glistened a rich gold under the rays of the morning sun, and his lips puckered and unpuckered as he murmured something in his sleep. Long eyelashes that curtained his juniper-shade green eyes were shut, casting their shadows on his cheeks. On a regular day, I would panic, wake him up, and have him out of my room as fast as possible, but today wasn't that day. Oddly, I felt at peace. Both of us being like this was something I could totally get used to. Using the back o