The way his throat moved whenever he said something deep. His rich pale skin, which looked like diamond. Like the finest piece of diamond ever, even in the manly way he held the phone. There was just many things about him I could look at, and not get tired. I was starting to get impatient. That feeling, when someone is with you, but all you just want to do is ruined because of how occupied the person was. Adam was not even batting a eye at me. I knew he was in business mode, I did not bother to listen to whatever it was that he was saying because like earlier, I was still not interested in it. Something just told me it was going to be something that was going to hurt me, which I did not want to hear. So I remained in that position, for a long time and when I started to get bored, I started to play with the shout of Adam. He paused from the phone call he was making, stared at me like I had two heads and continued what he was doing back. That seemed to give me the go ahead because I s
I could not contain my excitement as I remained in the room, every part of my body was screaming at me to just do something, just to do something exciting. I had a lot of things that was bothering me in my heart, and there was so many questions I wanted to ask Adam. My heart increased the tempo of the beating. I was still seated on his laps, this time, we had both gone quiet. One of those days when there is nothing to say, and there is nothing to do, but you just want to be in the company of the one you love. I closed my eyes, trying to swallow the overwhelming feeling in me, wanting to make everything to settle on my head. I was seated on Adam’s laps, the more I thought about it, I guess it was about time I embraced what it might be, that I was getting myself. I needed to understand the concept of everything before it pushes me out of love. Many times, I have ignored the thoughts of wanting to see the Lycan side of Adam. Sometimes, I just wanted to see how he looked like, in his Lyc
I had this soldier back in the days, when I was in the Royal army, there are many things you have to go through to be fully braided as a Lycan prince. We had this comrade, he was mated to his Lycan. I had never really seen someone go crazy before. But I think I had seen it. At first, he had felt the loss of their bond even before he saw her dead body. She had been attacked by a dominating and opposing pack during the time. I saw the pain in his eyes, as I watched him carry his mates body, and groan in pain. So it dis not come as a shock, but I was still surprised because his Lycan side took over. It took over everything from him at that time, he could not think clearly and the only thing on his kind was to destroy thing. He could not even recognize us, our faces. A Lycan is dangerous. We could not leave him roaming about that way. And there was no way we could him prison and at that time, he was in his phase, nothing was strong enough to hold him back. So, as sad and hurtful this
There was something that comes with unexpected questions. Or the dread of something. When it finally dawns on you, moments in your life, when everything semester blurry. When you want to know do your next decision will cost something important in your life. Moments in your life, when many things feel like you will make a bad decision. That was my predicament with Adam right now. I had asked him that I wanted to see his Lycan side, but I did not know if I was ready to. I did not want to run away from him, and be in the situation where the both of us are disappointed by the outcome. It came as a surprise to Adam. I did not think he was expecting me to outrightly ask to see his Lycan part. There were many reasons I wanted to see it. Firstly, I felt that there as a way I could embrace what was building in me, if there was a way I could also accept seeing Adam’s. I wanted to know what was coming back for me. I just wanted to understand what it was, that was waiting out for me. Many thing
It was really hard, the feeling of loving someone and also being scared that something could happen out of the blue once they see your true self. The feeling of not being able to be yourself completely around them because you are scared as to what would happen. You do not want to think about how terrible it will be, you do not want to think about the negative side. I knew how that felt, I knew this by heart because I had felt this way before, I felt like my true self; being human was something to be ashamed of. A default. Something that could be compared to a bad egg. Something that felt like a default. Even on those days where Jimmy would come through to speak to me, and I wound he so suspicious, I would want to act like the werewolves who could just carry something heavy as they walked past, and throw it at themselves and it becomes something really funny between them. Situations like that. So I knew what it was. I understood Adam’s fear. I knew what it was to feel like there was
Cody’s Diary I was lost in the darkness when I closed the doors that disabled our connection. Like a volcano rushing to destroy its victim, my heart quenched with hurt deep in my veins. A devastating simile to the sun, lights from various sources surrounded me. A window, no a mansion of light was drizzled upon my shuddered soul and that served as my only form of life maintenance. Dear you, I’m scared. They say if you are surrounded by light, surely you must blend with the light. They say if the light seeks you, it consumes you. Dear you, I’m afraid. Too anxious and broken to speak out loud. Maybe I don’t want a form of clarity. Maybe my darkness has exceeded its limits the light can no longer consume me. My soul is surrounded by light but it’s refusing to blend in. My snap off is like a walking time bomb, ready to be ticked by its final oppressor. I am shredded by the sharp razor of hurt I can no longer bleed anymore.Dear you, as you are reading this, I fear I might be kissing th
There was just something that kept banging in me, and making me want to crawl to him. I wanted him to turn to his Lycan part, over and over again, because I wanted to meet him. I wanted to speak to it. It was so surreal, to feel this way between the him and his Lycan. I did nit know there was something like this; that would make me feel this way, because I thought after I had seen his Lycan, I was going to run away. But here I was, wanting to see his Lycan. “What are you thinking about, love?” Adam asked me from nowhere. And I stared up at him. How could he not know that it was him I was thinking of, that it was only him, that could make me feel the way I was feeling, without remorse. I closed my eyes, and I opened it back. and he was still there. It felt surreal, like there was someone ready to love me with all their might. There was someone waiting for me to love them with all their might. Adam really made me happy. I could not start naming the days when he does. “Well; I think
Silent nights, holy nights. My thoughts are scattered around the floor like a doormat, waiting for an owner to step on it, waiting for an owner to claim it. The echoes of my head rings at the back of my head, it’s voice void, yet resounding in my ears. I closed my eyes. I wanted it to stop, and at the same time, it seemed like it was not working at all. I was locked on Dads chest, the only place my body was not protesting too, the only place o was finding solace in, and I wanted to remain there. Locked there in. Like that, forever. I took a deep breath. I breathed in a shallow way, waiting for this void to unfill me. I had no idea how I was feeling this way, I had no idea why it had to be now, of all times to be feeling this way. All I just wanted to do was hug dad. It had been me and him all through. During the times where I will suddenly fall sick from sleep, my body really hot from tears and my face flushed with sickness. Sometimes, when it was just me and him, not wanting to t