I had no one to explain to me of the reasons why I had been having weird dreams. There was no one to talk to about my inner turmoil and the idea of that ate at my inner tummy every time I decided to take a breath. This particular dream I had, had, it was like my dream had gone back in time to attack me of the things I used to do. When I was young, around fifteen to sixteen, a stage I was not proud of in my life, I used to cut myself. To me, it was not a big deal, I just wanted to lessen the pain that was the only wait it seemed to me. That was, until I watched a documentary that spoke on mental illnesses and I saw how crucial it might be that I have been cutting myself. This dream felt surreal. The same way it used to be, me using a seashell to try to cut myself at the beach whenever dad was not looking, because I spied the other kids laughing at me or calling me human. This dream, seemed to have gone into my mind, to bring out those horrible moments, those moments in my life that I
“I know you are not a werewolf.” She said to me and I rolled my eyes. “I hear that a lot, and I have learnt to deal with it. You can even smell me. I know I am at danger too but like I said the last time, I have a father who would hunt you down if anything happens to me.” I winked at her and she laughed. “I can see that. I wish I had a father who cared about me like that too. It’s just me, and my mother with very annoying siblings.” She chuckled. “I don’t have siblings.” I told her. “That is quite obvious. Although, i am curious as to how a human, ended up in the midst of werewolves. I really do not understand that part. Mind if I pry?” She raised her blue eyes at me and I laughed. How it feels to have a friend. Although, I knew she was not my friend. “My father was a mate to a human, who was my mother. I don’t know how that happened because I heard only Lycans can be mated to humans, but that happened and my mother left with me to this place. I was said to be too strong for her,
Prince’s Diary The resigned gravity that entails giving up drawls slowly, like an hypnotism towards us, passing a raging rave of emotions through our existence. We are resigned in forgetting them, we are resigned in blocking our emotions. We are resigned in being strong. We force our emotions to enhance blockage while hurting ourselves at the same time. We have broken countless of times it’s hard to patch the wound all over. We are being hung by the neck by the memories we’d pretend has faded. We are resigned. Resigned of trying to mask the face. Resigned of blocking the hurt. Most of all, we are resigned of depriving ourselves of what we want but refuse to have so as to avoid the hurt. We are sad people, sitting at the front doors of resignation, waiting for it to shut. We’ve given up on the hope of trying and now we are just left alone, barr and tired. We are resigned in having the ability to feel.Pain lessens when you admit the source.And I feel the reason why we feel more pai
CodyLet me tell you a tale. The one of a broken lady who stopped by every door to seek forth the love, hidden under her worn out cloak, geminated by her deepest desires. A tale of me. Once upon a time, leading to once upon a consistent present, I crashed through the thorns of the wrath of the wicked heart of human, in my search for love. My spine was laces alongside menace as I weep through the empty bars of my strengthOnce upon a time, I craved loved from the ones who ridiculed me in the day, hurt me in the sins of the night. The ones who couldn’t make me sleep at nights Ruled by a dark belief , I embraced any delusional clarification and declaration of love my sick mind provided My being is locked with toxicity I met a man, I met several man and I arrived at an equation; A variable that could never be compatible In the bleak mid winter, I was a sad thing of laughter to my soul, I was written and cast aside by the deprivation of love. I stopped by each door, wrenching with p
There was something about the darkness that called to me. The dizzy drawl of the atmosphere as it rhymes periodically with the cool air outside, I found it comforting. There was something about the dark to me that assured me, "rest baby girl. You are safe" There was just something. Something about the dark. I could sense, than heat the rustle of leaves as they scattered around from the tree and shattered right through the ground. They were like wailing sharks, voice crying out but could not be heard. Dad looked at me, how look was intent on my face and I gulped I’m nervousness. I was not looking forward to his response and at the same time, I was really eager. Dad cleared his throat, and I looked at him back, it was really clear that I was eager to hear what he had to say. My mind was racing already. “Cody, you are my daughter. And I care about everything that you do. I care about you a whole lot. I know that it is not easy being here. But you don’t just drop something like that a
I gazed at nature, in all it's perfectness, in all its glory, the sea, the wind and the air. The smell of the breeze as it swept over me and dusts the skirts of my gown . I gazed again, at the haze of the sky as it overlooked our shadow. As the tears of our pillows, danced underneath the beautiful stars. We were underneath the beautiful moon. Underneath the perfection of nature. The feeling itself was celestial. I felt like a celestial being. Then Adam had gone ahead to play my favorite song. Love, by Lana Del Ray blasted through the speakers. We were underneath the limelight of nature. And it was blessing them in every way possible. I was confused as to how Adam knew my favorite song, as to how Adam knew that I loved, Love by Lana Del Rey. Together, they moved in every way possible to the music, we jumped in delight as the pitter patters of the salty water teased our toes. Birds of different breeds stared at us as they sometimes passed over our heads. And we stared at each other
I stared at Jimmy for a very long time, I did not know what to say. My mind wandered from where and what had been happening, and it became heavy, and sore, and out of focus. I could no longer comprehend what was happening and it was all happening right in front of my eyes. “Ever since you have been gone, strange things have been happening to me. I don’t know how to explain it but things have not just been the way they used to be. It started with my physical appearance from the beginning, you said something about me adding hips and butt. That happened right after I thought I was on heat.” I said and Jimmy opened his mouth, and closed it back because of how surprised he was.“What do you mean heat? What do you mean changed? I don’t even understand. I noticed there had been a difference but it is only to someone who I thought was growing. I am very confused right now. You have to break it down to me, princess.” Jimmy looked really confused as he looked at me. I could tell he was confus
I could feel myself weigh down with my back pack. I did nit understand any single thing that was happening with me, but I knew I was going to figure it out. I went from finding out that I might actually do care a little bit about Adam, a little bit than I thought and the very mere thought was so disturbing. I knew that the world was playing tricks on me, but what was actually happening with me. I did not understand if this was the mate bond, or if I had actually fallen in love with Adam. After the class had been over, the Lycans all trolled out before I could even get a chance to look up from my desk. I was so surprised but at the same time, I knew there was no one to blame but me. I had told Adam to stay away from me and now that it was, it was hurting every part of my heart. I felt like I could not deal with what I was dashing out, which was the the truth. I was glad he was moving on, and happy with his life and that of his new partner. I wished him a good life. I was going to go