Chapter 5

I thought of my past Amy. It had been a long time since this ever happened to me. I thought of how we used to play around, how we visited places, how we ate and even how we made love.

We knew each other's likes and dislikes. We mastered each other's habits like it was a craft. We were a duo who had seemed to never separate. I remembered a time where we had skipped having breakfast and laid in our room making love in a daze of exhausted pleasure. Our romance and love making were top notch. We were good at the act and we never starved ourselves.

Thinking of it now, it had been a hundred years since I had sex last. The thing was that after the death of Amy, I had denied every lady access to me. I remained in the confines of my home and saw no lady. I usually satisfied my sexual desires by masturbating.

Kenny had always disturbed me to have a woman in my life. He had tried persuading me many times but I always stood my ground. Frankly speaking, I had run into some temptations and close situations but the picture of Amy in my mind had always made me wave the temptation off.

As for me, I didn't want just any woman and any woman who wasn't my Amy was just any woman. That may sound contradictory but that was exactly how I felt.

I thought of different things pertaining to Amy till I couldn't make any headway on my thoughts anymore. I thought I wouldn't get any sleep as I devoted my thoughts to Amy. However, as time passed on, I slept and I didn't know when...

I woke in the morning feeling tired. I checked the time and found out that I had only spent three hours sleeping and not my usual eight hours. I felt my body aching as I stood up and went to get some water to drink.

After drinking water, I went outside to stretch myself. I jogged for a while before getting back inside.

I started boiling eggs and I waited for the coffee to percolate. I grabbed one of my old books and started reading. Actually, I wasn't really reading, it was more like the book was reading me.

My mind had trailed miles away. I just kept silent and thought.

With Amy's address gotten by me, I decided the next thing was to go see her and check out her well being. I already got the address from Kenny.

With that thought still up in my mind, I tried harder to focus on reading the book but I wasn't doing any better. None of the ideas that the book communicated held onto my mind. As I read, everything I was reading vanished before my sight.

At last, I gave up. I was worried and nothing wanted to stick in my head. It was better that I abandoned it as it was doing me no good.

I checked my eggs and found out that they were almost ready. I went ahead to brush my teeth then I went back to get my eggs. I had boiled eggs and coffee and rested well before I headed to the bathroom to bathe.

That was the typical me.

I enjoyed brushing then eating before bathing. I usually ate first before I went to bathe. This had actually become my norm as I cultivated it as a habit.

Anyway, I went to take a bath. In the bathroom, I scrubbed every nook and cranny of my body with a bid to impress. I was actually going to see Amy.

I finished bathing and headed to my room to dress up. I picked up my best outfit and wore it. I took care of my body just to impress Amy. As soon as I was ready, I set out to see Amy.

My heart was beating hard as I went. I was truly excited. It was a true feeling.

I soon got to where Amy lived. What I did first was to check out the house itself. The building wasn't quite impressive. It was a bungalow. It had no special designs. It was just bare.

I wasn't concerned by the context of the house. I moved off to find Amy. I didn't know where to find her and I decided to go inside. I actually couldn't say what motivated me to that extent.

Before I went inside, my nose caught the smell of medicine oozing out of the house. The smell was so thick and almost tangible. It was like I could hold it.

The door was partly open so I didn't knock. I didn't know why I didn't bother knocking but it seemed it was just what I was led to do.

I entered and faced an empty room before me. Nobody seemed to be inside. I turned to take my leave when I heard some hushes. I listened more carefully and it was actually people talking. One of the voices resembled that of Amy.

I turned to the area where the voice came from. I wasn't really hearing what they were saying but I seemed closer. I was now heading to one of the rooms.

I watched what made me feel angry happen right in my presence.

I could see Amy and a strange guy together in a room. I didn't suppose that anything more intimate could have happened. I was just looking at them. They didn't seem to be aware of my presence.

I watched this said guy take Amy's hand and kissed it. I couldn't take it further.

“How dare you!” I screamed at them.