8. Fight it out

Nikolai

When I saw the first rays of the sun, I got out of bed and headed to the training grounds.

I couldn't sleep all night; I was too furious. I needed to talk to Avalyn. I needed to ask her about her previous Masters. I would get the list of all the people who had hurt her and kill them slowly. I was already thinking about new torture techniques. Were all of her previous Masters just sadistic fucks who raped her? Judging by her age, she couldn't have had many masters, but you never know in our fucked up world.

I should have fucking trusted my gut. She didn’t even know what she wanted. I fucking knew I needed to wait and that she needed time. But like a dumbass, when she offered, I couldn't say no. Was she even offering because she actually wanted it or because she realized that I wanted it? Maybe she was confusing my wants with her wants. It could be because she was trained to put others' needs before hers, so much so that fulfilling others' needs had become her need.

That was