Over three weeks on the bloody sidelines. Abandoned. Doing nothing more interesting than watching Luna Genevieve mope around arm in arm with Luna Helena. Alpha Alexander keeps to his library. He holds constant meetings, getting me to ferry paperwork around Silver City as he tries to arrange support for NIkolai at the front.So it is a demotion. I’m reduced to an onlooker. Beta Shane, the leader of the home guard detachment, clearly doesn’t want me on the roster. So at night whilst the guards pace and keep an eye out for wolfsbane toting assassins I’m struggling to sleep.All the while, there isn’t a trace of Zena. Nearly all of our encounters happened at this castle. I keep expecting to catch her jasmine scent and see a flash of black hair vanishing around a corner, but nothing happens.She’s probably gone back up to the North. Hiding among her own kind whilst blood is shed. She never elaborated on what that really meant. She'll tell me one day, I'm sure. Stop being vague and let her
You’d have expected us to go at it full pelt. Two charged up, deranged sex monkeys on heat. But it turns into something else entirely. Of course, that initial tension, especially being touched while blindfolded, left my skin burning.As his fingers worked some insane magic on my body, placing the perfect pressure inside whilst massaging my swollen clit to my breaking point it felt so different. For a start my focus didn’t float away. I lost control but never awareness of who I was with. It was dreamlike. A bizarrely perfect, synchronised dance. It shouldn’t be anything other than sex. Fucking. Screwing. Basic desire satisfied. We should be like ships in the night. Ships that make the other explode half a dozen times before dawn before pretending it never happened the next time we run into each other in Cragstone.But it’s not.Briss is quiet and thoughtful. I’m brash and careless. Oil and water. But with my legs still shaking from the way he deftly unravelled me, his large hands spre
In the melee of people leaving, the lights vanishing from the fighting venue, I lost track of Finn, Zeke, Freya and their bikes. It seemed they got separated at some point, or at least didn’t travel the same way. By the time I finally caught up with them, forced to painstakingly follow bike tracks in the mud like a damn boy scout, pure carnage was breaking loose. A large log cabin, every window blazing was under attack. A window suddenly smashed as wolves, possibly even hybrids, tore towards Finn. He snapped the neck of one whilst stamping down the throat of another. Turns out Finn is wasted down here, he should be at the front.I lingered, masked in the dark of the tree line. There was no sign of Freya, unless she’d been given the equivalent of wolf-steroids and was one of those attacking FInn. Nothing except the metallic tang of blood and howls of pain filled the air. Because somehow Finn, the giant lump was still taking on these wolves in human form. /He doesn’t have time to sh
Waking with a start, blinded by hazy sunbeams I instantly started worrying. Had the cosy, intimate night I shared with Briss an illusion?His sleeping body wonderfully displayed as he rolled over. Shaggy black hair falling in awkward tufts across his forehead. Coupled with a sharp jawline and high cheekbones that could have been carved from marble, there's just something about him.I planted a soft kiss on his cheek, inhaling that deep, earthy scent and clambered to my feet. Standing by the near-dead fire that ratcheting sensation around my heart clamped down tight, stopping me in my tracks. My past habits involve always being the first one to bail. I’ve certainly never spent the night curled up in a guy's arms. But I don’t want to bail. Not this time. So I walk, but gather up dry wood from the forest floor instead. For once, I’m going to be around. Briss will wake up to a hot fire, maybe he has some more food left, or just boil some water for drinking. I hum a little song to myself
Would she have even believed I only asked for my Fate in order for her to see that I am a decent man? It was meant to prove to her I am more than the idiot who grabbed her, kissed her, promising just one night.I’ve found this strange, surprising happiness and then gone and blowtorched it with my own foolish stupidity. We had something. Sat together, my hands on her perfect slinky body, drowning in those grey eyes. Why did I have to ask? Why couldn’t I trust my own feelings?I don’t even care about my future. Well, it would be good to know I don’t die in the war, obviously. What I was hoping, in a stupid, foolish plan was that maybe she might see us together. I imagine she’s terrified of how strong the sensations between us are. I am too.I could barely breathe when she stripped off my shirt in front of me. I had to either kiss her or have a heart attack. Same when she reappeared this morning. Another few seconds and she’d have seen me drop to my knees. All the strength was fleeing m
I have a routine established for dealing with the wave of guilt that usually occupies me after dropping a guy. Just like Maddox, head north. Like the guys before him, I run away and retreat. It’s never stung like this before.I dropped in on little Phoebe Kharkov first. I stopped by one of my hideouts and got dressed. Best to not approach young people in a near-naked state. She was playing by herself by the tyre swing on the outskirts of Cragstone. I had a hunch she will be there, seeing as so many visions of Zeke and Cillian’s past revolve around this place. Still a young teen her face is wide and innocent, her coppery hair wild and messy with her dark eyes keen and focused.“Do you know who I am?” I ask, leaning against her tree, trying to look cool as she spun in slow circles back and forth. She sized me up, as brutally as only a child can do, her face scrunched up.“You’re Alpha Cillian’s friend. You helped him save Matilda.”“I’m Zena, yes.”“You’re a Fate?”“Working on it. Nearl
The equivalent of a mental gust of wind shattered the image of Maddox, collapsing into dust before my eyes. Mumbling as the image settles, I feel the pressure of Padgett’s stare. “It is Luna Matilda…Beta’s Naomi and Leona…and…oh Goddess. All three are pregnant. They all have huge bumps. They must be ready to give birth around the same time. It's not Cragstone though …no it's a dark grey room. They don't look happy-""DO NOT GUESS!""I see nothing else, just a grey room and the three pregnant women oh!” as the vision disintegrated again.A new image surged forward. I smell trees mixed with metal. “I’m in the forest. I think…no it is definitely Shadowlands camp. I’m walking forwards."I force myself to look down at the hands of the person whose vision I’m claiming. Olive skin and a scent of red wine. I’m in Zeke’s head. He’d kill me if he knew I’d ridden his future. “There’s blood everywhere. There’s…there’s some men crying. Tents are down. Some are burnt. There has been an attack. The
I was right to tell Matilda my escorting days are over. There was only a couple of days difference between taking her for a quickie with Cillian and Zeke receiving that note. Of course I was panicked, same as Zeke. If Cillian had been murrdered along with half the army then we’d all be fucked, my wavering alliance to Shadowlands the least of my problems. So while Zeke took on the whole journey with his olive-skinned face pale and washed out, mine was tense with frustration. It feels like strings are being pulled that I have no idea about, dancing over a hole. Zena springs to mind, but then she always does. The jasmine-scented dagger between my ribs. Whilst the blonde Riley and everyone else ran about like headless chickens trying to put together the pieces of the attack I stood and breathed in. If Cillian had been killed the men would need a leader. And it isn’t me. I don’t have the respect of the pack like Zeke. I don’t want it either. So I turned to Zeke instead, my voice low an