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21. Briss
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I thought heartbreak would be the worst pain I’d ever experience.To be fair the last six months were pretty intense watching Cillian battle through hell to win Matilda back, his blue eyes looking directly at me with a love that was for someone else. That pain was deep, burning. Lasting well into the night, haunting my dreams with a searing misery that left me breathless sometimes.Then I met Briss and found another level. His pain was mixed with a sweeter, softer burn. My ribcage ached and yearned to feel him again. I couldn’t get comfortable no matter where I sat or slept. Nothing feels as good as being in his arms.Sadly now I realise I was naive. I had no real concept of pain before landing here. The last thing I remember was waking up and kissing Briss on the cheek. I whispered “I love you into his ear,” ruffling his black hair and wondering what would happen if I kissed our mark.Then Sybil reminded me Briss was exhausted, staying up while I slept the night before. We have time,
Last Updated : 2023-07-17The Luna Who Wants Everything 23. Maddox
Accepting that rope from Thalia was a mistake. Just gripping it, knowing I'd signed myself into her servic was excruciating. Freya arrived back at White Forest just as I got back. Thankfully, the chaos of her return amongst the staff meant I was able to get a shower. mud removed, fresh uniform, no questions asked.Guilt seemed to be branded across my cheeks. I stumbled in my duties, almost crashing into other servants in the corridor as I made my way up the stairs to Beta Shane to ask for my next posting. Dressed in a smart black shirt, my White Forest cloak restored, I looked every inch, the loyal servant.And I have been. For so many years, I have dedicated myself to Nikolai. Together with Adrian, we were destined to be his loyal deputies. The future of White Forest. I was meant to shape armies, train warriors, and help bring peace. Basically, be a legend and live a happy, easy life surrounded by friends. Then I met Zena. Freya’s Ceremony, where I first laid eyes on her, was the dea
Last Updated : 2023-07-18The Luna Who Wants Everything 24. Zena
Quite how many days have passed, I don’t even know. They have started feeding me at least, but never enough to regain the energy to shift. I’m floating in a limbo. If I am not battling hunger pains, I am waiting for Sybil to get the strength to heal the lashes and bruises on my legs. On top of all that, landing softly like snowfall is the constant ache in my soul for Briss. When in my cell, my hand never leaves my mark, constantly touching it, hoping in some way he can feel any kind of connection. Now they have taken his shirt from me and given me some basic pyjama style silk clothes, without his mark I believe I might be dead by now. Being able to feel, confirm his love for me , enables me to continue opening my eyes each morning.He forgave me for tricking Cillian. Would he be able to forgive me again?Into the second week of being force-fed the vile lemon liquid, I have to sit and endure Ruth’s taunts and demands. She wants me to find Beta Zeke’s mate. How exactly I’m meant to do
Last Updated : 2023-07-19The Luna Who Wants Everything 25. Briss
I give it a week of desperate, pointless searching before heading back to Alpha Cillian. For someone so organised, I’m turning into a mess. I forget to eat. Walking, exploring all day for the slightest trace of Zena before crashing out. Theh I dream of her quietly shuddering, alone in the caves.Except this time, no matter how hard I scream or hit the cave walls, she can not hear me. I frequently wake up having punched the ground. Worse, I flailed into the dying embers of the fire. That one really hurt.The mark she gifted me remains active. The only way I know she hasn’t been killed is the fact that when I touch it, which is almost constantly, I can feel the warmth of her love for me. Whatever has happened, I know that her heart was mine that night. I had to bribe with everything I had just to get directions to her Fate coven. Weaving my way through endless cornfields, I was ready to head back and strangle the goatherd who gave me directions when I came across a collection of tiny,
Last Updated : 2023-07-20The Luna Who Wants Everything 26. Zena
Giving the name of Zeke’s intended mate was meant to be the end of my woes. For over a week, I huddled in my cell, conserving my strength, begging for Sybil to return to me.The rations remained basic for several days until suddenly they were plentiful. Huge steaming meaty buns, rich vegetables coated in honey. Unlimited drinking water and clean clothing came through my small metal catflap.With a heavy heart, I knew exactly what this change in fortune meant. They had found Aisling. They need me to be in good health in order to perform the transfer. They must know I was the one who placed Alpha Cillian’s lost wolf back inside him.It made each mouthful harder to swallow. Everything lost its taste. My safety and improving health were purely the result of a poor girl, and presumably, her family being traumatised. Curled up in a ball on the painful metal bed, guilt gnaws away at my guts. /We have trained for this guilt. Every reading condemns someone, somewhere down the line. This is th
Last Updated : 2023-07-21The Luna Who Wants Everything 27. Maddox
Taking Freya through to Rising Star without Zeke calling my bluff was hellish. Freya had already called my bluff, demanding to know why I wanted to take these risks. "Because I think someone I love is being held there." It's the truth. Of sorts. Everything is to get back to Zena. The clock is ticking down on me at White Forest. Nikolai is sure to want me back or a good excuse why I'm not trying hard enough to deserve a spot by his side. Saving Alpha Alexander on the waterfront bought me time, but not immunity. Freya was placated, then I had to ride out the blatant resentment from Zeke. Leather jacket, scowling prick. He hated me the instant I strode in to spoilt their romantic little moment. Well sorry, some things are more important than his dick. I'm helping to rebuild a pack. Potentially. Who knows perhaps Freya might kill Phillipe, maybe I'll be a hero for enabling the end of the war. As long as I successfully kill a boatload of people who know I'm full of shit. Including the
Last Updated : 2023-07-22The Luna Who Wants Everything 28. Briss
The countdown to following Zeke into Rising Star could not have moved any slower. Seriously, I was losing my mind. The guys were surprisingly entertaining. I ended up with Easton latching onto me for a few days and then time, I honestly believe stopped moving entirely. I was trapped in a terrifying zone where all I could hear was his voice and see his stange brown curtain of a fringe flop with every gesture.“Did you know that celery can grow without soil? And basil!”/Make it stop. Put a log in his mouth/ Shi begged as we hauled logs.“I did not,” I answered drily.“Lettuce, cabbage! I’m just saying, all the crops are fucked left right and centre but we don’t need soil! We’ll be fine!”“I’m not living off bloody celery Easton.”“No, no, no I’m just saying, there’s options, horticulturally. Did you know cabbage…”I was actually relieved to be broken off by a letter from Beta Adrian. The guy is springier than a jack rabbit at the moment. Practically bounding into camp with his blonde h
Last Updated : 2023-07-23The Luna Who Wants Everything 29. Zena
This isn’t the Maddox I left back at White Forest a couple of months ago. I remember thinking he was turning a bit creepy for grabbing my dirty panties as a souvenir. It was over, done. I'd made that painfully clear surely?The days I am conscious, it is taking every ounce of control I have not to blow up at him. I keep my head because I know the only way I’m getting out of these silver chains is through him releasing me. Of course, when I woke up the first time, after he got me out of that cell, with a monster hangover headache and the world's driest mouth, I assumed it was exhaustion. I woke with a retching start, laid on a sagging, ancient bed, holding my temples. This abandoned wreck of a manor house still had some running water, albeit a funky brown colour. I had a shower, dressed, and then headed to find Maddox.He was messing about with his rucksack and supplies, dropping it to the floor with an echoing clang when he saw me. I'm not going to blame myself for not guessing he
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It can’t be the packhouse that created this change in her. From the second I walked into her room, filthy from the day's labour, she sized me up like prey and left me practically drooling. She knows exactly what that midnight blue gown does to her figure. A thigh-high split, too? Cruelty in spades. I was more than willing to give her space. I can cuddle, be affectionate, and listen until the end of time. I’ve massaged more oil into her delicate soft skin and bump than I would have thought possible. Sometimes, such rubdowns ended in tears as memories overwhelmed her. Other times, I was able to send her up to heaven in a state of bliss. It’s been a rollercoaster. I’ve dug my way out of my own pit of grief, Freya had been living on hold for so long. She’d been on the run, trapped back at White Forest, held at Rising Star against her will. Shitbag Phillipe had dared to put his hands on her and thankfully paid the fucking price. I regret never getting to land a blow on him myself. But it
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That mysterious mate of mine. Slinking around like a fox, those dark eyes always threaten something fun or interesting. The love he has for Aisling almost sets me off crying every time. I can’t deny I have been a rollercoaster for the past few months. Or a complete fucking nightmare. Maybe a bit of both. Taking tea with Doctor Thatcher the day before our journey to White Forest he confirmed I have physically recovered from childbirth. Aisling is flourishing. I have nothing to worry about. “Then why am I so worried? Why is my head filled with constant doubt about everything going wrong?” He sipped his tea thoughtfully, before placing the cup down and steepling his hands. In a steady, doctor-mode voice, he replied, “because you have been through an awful lot Luna. Phillipe made you question your worth. Years believing you weren’t quite good enough, that you always had to try harder. Now?” “Now…I know Zeke loves me exactly as I am. I know he doesn’t want me to change.” “Well as lov
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The Luna Who Wants Everything 48. Zena
The next five months see us settle into a strange, comfortable routine. After only a night under their roof, I immediately commandeered Finn’s barn conversion for us. Much as I adore my parents, I don’t want to be in the same house as them. That is not entirely due to my mate bond either. They still have an ever-burning adoration of each other that I can only hope Briss and I match in decades' time. I just don't need to hear it. Ever.It appears Finn isn’t coming home anytime soon. He’s embedded into Shadowlands, no doubt a future legend in the making. So now Briss and I sleep in the huge double bed with its skylight to the stars. When Briss isn’t building boats, we take out my father’s smaller one. Refreshing my memory on the rigging, sails, and navigation. On a night, we look at the maps together, sprawled out along the table in the downstairs half of the barn. Where the sea reaches the edges of the paper with no known landfall, I know those areas interest Briss the most. The boat
The Luna Who Wants Everything 47. Briss
It took over four days for us to finally leave that cabin. It still wasn’t enough time. In an easy cocoon of happiness, we existed together. I don’t think I saw her clothed for the vast majority of the time. And why would we? In that tiny wooden space, everything fell into place. Our bodies are made for each other, but the more time we spend together, the more I learn more about her every day. We talked for hours, curled up on the small bed. Then she’ll give me a look that just sends a bolt of lightning to my cock and I have to have to have her. It’s impossible to deny the power of the mate bond. My ribs and chest have not hurt since the connection formed. Shi apologised, explaining how it was his only way to make me realise she was important. The power of Padgett’s twisted ploy removed, he and Zena’s wolf Sybil were finally able to unleash their infatuation with each other. I know how badly Shi has fallen for her brassy, quick wolf because we share dreams. When we wake, Zena curl
The Luna Who Wants Everything 46. Zena
I believe that Padgett was right to choose me. She just got the reason wrong. Her visions suggested I was next in line to wield the strength of that ancient wolf. To carry on tradition. I believe the Moon Goddess always knew I was going to be the one to break the line. I’m a drifter, not a leader. Rules are a challenge. I run from fights, even the ones I’ve started. How was I ever meant to lead a coven! It was lunacy from the start. Yet poor Padgett persisted, despite having the devoted Jane right there. That’s why it felt so right. To step into those blue and white flames and try to return Padgett’s wolf spirit back to the Goddess. Hopefully, she will eventually be joined by all the stolen Hybrid spirits. It is unclear just how many wolves Ruth hosted in the end. Cillian told me the colours, but so many poor souls have been harmed in this war it is impossible to tell. For all we know, she could have kept Alpha Brandon, Luna Hollie, and some of the golden-eyed Beta Warriors for her
The Luna Who Wants Everything 45. Briss
Zena is as good as her word. We have a truck to ourselves, stacked with food and other goods. Without revealing a single detail she triumphantly set us up in as much comfort as possible.Every other truck was overflowing with men, stuffed together like sardines. On a passenger bench big enough for three I sat stretched out, my wounded leg supported with a makeshift pillow-thing she had built out of all the discarded and ripped shifter clothes. Zena next to me driving, continuously catching my eye with a proud little smile on her face.She hasn’t stopped for a second. I can only watch as her mind works overtime. I know better than to question whatever scheme she has going on. Eventually, the whole convoy starts up and we are away. Zena drives steadily, making sure we end up at the very back of the Shadowlands convoy. She doesn't give her burned out coven a second glance. There was no special pyre or ceremony for Padgett either. Her body has been lost to the cabin fires. A woman who ha
The Luna Who Wants Everything 44. Zena
I cannot wait to get out of this dusty, blood-stained patch of dirt. Not a single cabin remains standing. Just black, charred skeletons. While Briss first slept I held his hand and stared at them. Trying to make sense in my own mind of just what my life should become now. I didn’t want to look too closely at the bodies. Padgett had described me as a river, always heading towards what I want. But this place was never what I wanted. Unlike Jane, it never felt like home. It taught me so much, how to use my gift but then the image of sweet little Phoebe Kharkov comes into my head. What if a thoughtful, gentle girl like her ended up in this lonely wasteland? Too many women have had their gift manipulated and forced into use. Look at Luna Genevieve and Helena. Mated to Alpha’s yet blighted with glimpses of pain and disaster, distorting their potential joy. What if the Moon Goddess and her plans should just be left the fuck alone? Then they could be free. I could be free. Ideas rattle a
The Luna Who Wants Everything 43. Briss
When I wake up again, I am half tempted to severely reprimand Shi for making me fade out of the most perfect moment of my life. I was in Zena’s arms, surrounded by jasmine and love, and now…well where the hell am I? “You’re awake!” Zena cries, and I do my best not to cry out in pain at feeling her roll into my arms, planting fierce kisses on my cheeks. “We’re still in the north, up at the coven?” I murmur after allowing myself to be spoiled with rough, greedy affection for a minute. I have just enough strength to lift my arm, trailing my fingers over her bare neck. I close my eyes again, overpowered by the sensation of feeling her perfectly soft skin under my fingertips. “Yes but not for long. Then do you know what-” “Zena let me treat him,” a stern voice reprimanded. I squinted at the sun over my head. “He’s seriously weak.” I might be mistaken, but I’m almost certain I heard Zena growl under her breath at the request. With a dozen more soft kisses, she lifted herself away but k
