Jackson let the car idle for a moment as he dug through the middle console. Buried in the bottom and scratched to hell, he found his old pair of sunglasses. “Here. Put these on.”
Wren squinted at what he held out, then carefully, he reached out and took them. His face relaxed as he slid the sunglasses on.
“How long were you blindfolded?”
Silence.
All right. That’s fine. They’d brought in new wolves before who took a while to settle in. “Ok. Let’s just get you home so you can have a bath.” Wren tensed up at his words. “You have to look presentable before you meet my dad.”
They drove home in silence. Wren was a tense statue beside him, not once did he turn his head to watch out the window. He didn’t fidget. He didn’t ask a single question about where they were going.
Jackson felt a prickle of insecurity run down his spine at the utter stillness of his companion. He might have been a little too impulsive in this purchase. He glanced over at the wolf as he waited for the garage door to open. “We have a lot of wolves working for us. Just… Stay close to me. I’ll get you an official tour later.” He pulled the car into the garage and turned it off. They sat in the dark for a beat. “We’ll only be here a week, so don’t worry too much about remembering where things are.”
Nothing. No reaction whatsoever.
“Ok. Follow me.”
Jackson got out of the car, but Wren stayed put. Jackson waited outside the passenger door to give him a moment, but when two long minutes passed and Wren still didn’t move, Jackson opened the door himself.
Wren stepped out of the vehicle before Jackson could say a thing. Jackson stared at him for a second, but Wren stared straight ahead and made no move to make eye contact.
Ok. That’s fine. He slammed the door shut and stepped away. Wren stepped so he was directly behind Jackson’s right shoulder. Jackson ignored the prickling of fear and led the way to the main house.
They walked through the flower garden toward a side door. Wren stayed in his place behind Jackson, just barely within Jackson’s peripheral vision. As far as he could tell, Wren didn’t look around at the new place. He didn’t react at all to the massive gardens surrounding them.
It would be fine. He’d calm down and adjust soon enough. The wolf had only ever had one owner. It must be intimidating going into a new place after 24 years of the old routine.
The kitchen was bustling as Jackson and Wren stepped in. Margaret stood at the stove stirring what smelled like chicken soup. “I know you didn’t just bring a dirty wolf into my kitchen while I’m trying to cook.”
Jackson gave her a big grin when she looked over. “Sorry, Margaret. I wanted to see if you’d have Kia bring up dinner for Wren and me?” She started to smile back, but the smile froze as she looked at Wren. Her head cocked to the side and she breathed in. Her nostrils flared. “Oh, Margaret, this is Wren. Wren, Margaret.”
The other wolves in the kitchen kept casting curious glances towards them. Margaret gave Wren a soft smile. “Welcome, Wren.” She turned back to the pot on the stove. “Kia will be up soon with your food. Go get him a nice bath.”
Jackson nodded in agreement and made his way through the kitchen, up a flight of stairs, and down a hallway. “All right, so this is my room,” Jackson said and heard the first reaction from Wren since he’d said his name.
It was just a sharp inhale. Barely a sound, really, but enough that it made Jackson worried. Sunglasses’ parting words rang back in his head and Jackson again wondered what ‘personal’ meant in relation to this wolf.
“I’ve got the good bathroom and I figured you’d like some privacy,” Jackson explained and opened the door. “Plus Kia will be bringing the food to this room. I don’t want her to have to scent us down to find us.”
Jackson was happy he kept his room fairly neat as they stepped into it. The blinds were wide open, showing his perfect view over the expansive flower garden. His comforter was rumpled on the bed from where he’d been sitting on it before leaving earlier.
Wren didn’t look around at all.
“You can take off the sunglasses now. Or I can shut the blinds if it’s still too bright.”
No response.
Jackson nodded. “Yep. Ok. Follow me.” They stepped through the open bathroom door. “Tub, shower, shampoo, conditioner, soap.” He pointed at the various bottles then pulled out two washcloths and a towel. “Do you want to take a bath or shower?”
No response. Jackson stared at him. Wren stared just part his shoulder. Realization dawned on him.
“Do you know how to use a bathtub or shower?” Jackson asked. There was no response. “Answer me.”
“No.” One painful sounding word. The chicken soup would be good for him later.
Jackson had definitely been too impulsive in this purchase. “Ok. Just… I’ll run you a bath then and we’ll take it from there.”
Jackson turned his back on the wolf and leaned over the tub. He cranked up the hot water until steam was rising, then tempered it down with some cold. He heard a rustling behind him, but he ignored it. Wren had given him no reason to not trust him so far and it was almost a relief to know Wren had at least a little bit of curiosity in him.
Jackson knew the wolves all had sensitive noses so he held back on adding any oils or salts to the water. Once Wren had relaxed, he could choose his own scents, whichever ones wouldn’t irritate his nose.
“All right,” Jackson said as he turned. “It’s - what?”
The largest wolf he’d ever seen was sitting in front of him. Jackson kept his face straight as he stared at the sunglasses still perched on the nose, this clearly wasn’t a time to smile. His fur was darker than average and matted beyond belief. The blindfold was stuck and hanging behind his head still. The markings themselves were rather standard. The fur on his back was mostly black, interspersed with some gray and white. It faded to an almost pure gray around his chest and on his sides. The middle of his chest to his stomach looked like it would be white, if it was clean.
“The wolves here usually clean themselves as humans,” Jackson said. Wren didn’t respond or change back. “All right, well… I guess it’s a good thing I have a large tub. Get in.”
Wren stood and cautiously stepped into the tub. He froze once his first paw hit the water, then scrambled in the rest of the way. Jackson stepped back in an effort to avoid the water sloshing over the side of the tub. He stared at Wren, who had lowered himself down into the water so the top of his head, sunglasses, and nose were the only things exposed to the air.
“I guess I got the temperature right. Do you want to just soak for a while?” No response. Jackson held in his sigh of frustration. “Soak for awhile, then turn into a human and scrub your hair with this.” He put the shampoo on the side of the tub. “Follow it with this.” He put the conditioner next to it. “Put this soap on this washcloth and scrub your body until the dirt is all off. And take the sunglasses off soon.”
He felt stupid giving step by step instructions for getting clean, but since Wren wouldn’t talk with him he didn’t really have any other choice.
“I’m going to get you some clothes to change into. I’ll be right back.” He pulled the remote from his pocket and fiddled with it so Wren would be able to move a farther distance and set the remote on the edge of the sink.
He left. Wren was quite a bit larger than him so he made his way down to where they kept the uniforms for their wolves. A pair of sweatpants to sleep in and a plain white shirt would be enough for now. They could go shopping later, once Wren had calmed down enough to hold an actual conversation.
When he stepped back in his room, he could hear the water sloshing in the bathroom. The wolves they owned all had no sense of modesty, probably since they had a communal bathing area. He wouldn’t hesitate to walk in and drop off clothes to any of the rest.
Jackson knocked on the door. “I’m just bringing some clothes in.” He opened the door after a beat passed with no response, then froze in the doorway.
Wren was human. The sunglasses sat folded on the floor next to the tub. Wren leaned back against the edge of the tub. Thick, corded muscles, previously hidden beneath his shirt lay along the rim. He had his hair slicked back out of his face and shiny with water, though still a tangled mess. His eyes were half-lidded as he stared directly at Jackson. Jackson swallowed hard as he felt his heart trip over itself.
Wren slid down a bit lower in the water as Jackson stared, and Jackson ripped his gaze away. He set the folded clothes down on the sink. “Do you need anything else?”
There was a long beat of silence, then Jackson left the room without looking back. The door shut with a soft ‘snick.’ He fell down onto his bed and stared at the ceiling. He had definitely and 100% been too impulsive.
Jackson was still in that position when his bedroom door opened. Without looking, he reached over and flipped the switch on the small box sitting on his bedside table. “It working?” “Yep,” Kia said. There was a tinkling of metal and glass. “So, how’d it go?” Jackson sat up and stared at Kia. She had her back turned to him and was slowly setting out dishes on his table. Her long hair was braided and twisted up into a bun. “Kia, I messed up.” She froze with a covered bowl halfway to the table. “What do you mean you messed up?” “Hurry up and finish.” She did then hopped on the bed with him. “What happened?” Her wide eyes were worried. Her lips tugged into a soft frown as he told her everything that had happened. “Jackson, you absolute dumbass. He’s been fighting since he was 8! Of course he’s not going to have the first clue on what he’s supposed to be doing!” “Ok, yeah sure… But Kia, that’s not the bad part. He can learn whatever
Jackson Carmillan of Carmillan Collars. The metal collar around his throat hadn’t felt so tight, so restrictive in a long time. I think I know how the collars work better than you do, the words echoed in Wren’s mind. Wren stayed on edge. He wasn’t going to trigger any anger in Jackson for as long as he could help it. Silence had always been his best friend. He couldn’t say the wrong thing if he didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to guess the right choice if he just waited until the choice was made for him. He knew he stunk. He knew his hair had grown out to a better length but had become unmanageable in the process. The makeup caked on his face itched. He wanted to be clean, but he didn’t want the bath. His old owner was bad enough, a bucket of cold water tossed over him to clean off the blood after a fight and it was called a day, he didn’t want to know how the Carmillan heir treated his wolf. What his idea of a bath would be. Wren’s hair had been
Kia stacked their empty bowls back on the cart then migrated to the bed and the open laptop. Jackson dug through his bathroom drawers for a comb. It’d been awhile since his hair had been long enough to require a comb to tame it, but he knew he had one hidden somewhere.Wren sat in the wooden chair and didn’t move. Jackson wondered how his hair was taken care of before, though judging from the scars covering his face and the visible area of his arms, he’d take a guess that it wasn’t taken care of at all.Finding the comb, Jackson paused with a good bit of space between him and Wren. “Someone needs to comb the mats out of your hair. It’s your choice who does it; you, me, or Kia.”Wren didn’t say anything, but his shoulders tensed and his hands clenched into fists.“Choices might be difficult,” Kia spoke from where she was laying on the bed with his laptop open on her stomach. “I mean 24
Jackson flipped the switch on the bedside box as they left the room. “Come back in an hour with some lavender tea,” Jackson spoke clearly as soon as they stepped out into the hallway.“Yes, sir.” Kia blew him a kiss and laughed as she left.“Follow me.”Barely in his peripheral, Wren kept pace with him. Down the hallway, up another staircase. They stopped in front of a set of intricately carved double oak doors. Jackson ran a finger over the nose of a carving of a wolf and steeled himself before knocking.“Come in.”Jackson straightened up and opened the door. “Dad.”His dad was sitting behind his desk, bent over some paperwork. His glasses rested on the end of his nose. His dark hair was starting to gray around the edges. A shadow of stubble told Jackson enough about what kind of day he’d had, and he straightened his spine further.With a heavy sigh, his dad took
Wren almost cowered. The garden was so big. Flowers as far as he could see with small trails through them, some brick, some dirt. Every breath brought more information to him. Lavender, honeysuckle, lilies… Fresh, overturned soil. The pine trees in the distance. The sky was so high above. There were no walls to hide in. Nothing. Just space, and room… He focused on Jackson. Followed Jackson in the right position. Let his entire world shrink down to just Jackson.His panic diminished once they stepped into the gazebo. It was a small space. Enclosed. Safe.He loved being outside. He just needed a smaller amount of outside. But… Feeling that breeze. Listening to the leaves of the vines rustling. Slowly, his heart rate returned to normal and he risked looking up at Jackson.Jackson was completely turned away from him. Wren followed his line sight to see a little pond in the not too far distance. It’s surface was highlighted orange fro
Jackson opened the door across the hall from his room, then stepped aside and gestured for Wren to step in ahead of him. Wren hesitated, then stepped forward. The room was dark and smelled faintly of disuse. Jackson stepped in behind him and Wren forced himself not to whip around. He didn’t like people at his back.“Light is here,” Jackson said and the lights came on. Wren turned around at a normal, sedate pace, in direct odds to the pounding of his heart. Jackson had his hand on a panel at the door. “Bed, couch, bathroom.” Jackson pointed at each thing in turn. “Just come to my room when you wake up in the morning. Kia’s bringing breakfast up.”Wren stared over Jackson’s shoulder. The words Jackson said were all normal, easy words… They just didn’t make any sense. Why was he leaving Wren in this room? Where was his cage? The bars with the slot so food could be pushed in to him. The flat pillow and thin
Kia shoved his laptop towards him as he fell face first onto his bed. “What am I doing, Kia?” He turned his head to her.Her gaze was sympathetic. “A good thing. You know as well as I do that the chances of him being alive this time next year was next to none. Besides, it could always be worse. According to this some former fighters are near uncontrollable without constantly manipulating the collar.”Jackson pulled the laptop on top of him. ‘Severity of Aggression in Rescued Fighter Wolves.’ He scanned through the article. A lot of it wasn’t very optimistic. The best results seemed to come from wolves who were saved at a young age. They were successfully switched to other positions with fairly minor leftover effects.“Did you notice the ages?”“Yeah.” The oldest wolf they had ever rescued was 22 and he was damn near feral according to the article. “I think once they found out
Jackson showered before going to get Wren. He assumed Wren would be enjoying his time alone to relax, or maybe Wren was sleeping in. He hoped Wren was sleeping in. Which is why it took him a moment to comprehend what he was seeing when he opened the door.Wren stood leaning back against the fireplace. His arms were crossed when Jackson opened the door, but fell to his sides as he stepped into the room. Dark circles were under his eyes, clear even from across the room. His hair hung in loose waves around his shoulders. Jackson glanced over. The bed was either perfectly remade or Wren had never touched it. “Good morning,” Jackson said, looking back at Wren.Wren didn’t answer. Jackson hadn’t expected him to.“All right, follow me.”Wren followed. Jackson had him sit at the table again. All at once, Jackson was overwhelmed. Wren wouldn’t talk. Wren wouldn’t sleep. Wren wouldn’t… No. He stopped. He
Jackson dug their big knife out of the drawer. He crushed and minced the garlic and scraped it to the side of the cutting board. “Wren?”“Yeah?”“Check the chicken.”There was a rattle behind him. Jackson turned to the carrots and started peeling them. The peeler was apparently a little loose and cocked the side after just two swipes. “Chicken’s good. Want me to adjust that?”“Nah, I got it.” Jackson straightened the peeler clamped on the edge of the counter. He tightened the grip and switched back to peeling the carrots. “Has anyone texted yet?”“Kia and Belle said they might be a little late. Otherwise, no.”Jackson glanced over. Wren was leaning his hip against the counter. His hair was loose around his shoulders. The sun beamed through their kitchen window and lit him in a warm light. Jackson set the half-peeled carrot down and stepped forward.
Nine months since he’d lost his arm and he and Wren were homeowners. Jackson laughed as he caught sight of the white flakes swirling in the wind outside the kitchen window. He opened the cabinet doors in search of the cocoa. Wren was starting a fire in the fireplace. The first snow of the year was later than normal and nothing more than barely there flurries. “Wren,” Jackson called from the kitchen.“Yeah?”“It’s snowing.” Jackson found the container. He braced it between the counter and his hip and used his hand to pry off the top. He mixed the chocolate into the hot milk, squeezed the excess out of Wren’s tea bag, placed both cups on his tray and carefully carried it into the living room. “Our first kiss was in the snow.”The fire was just starting to catch on the logs. Wren settled on the couch next to him and reached for his steaming mug on the coffee table. He tossed his other arm across Jack
Six months of therapy and rehab and sympathetic looks and Jackson was sick of it. He was tired of living in the hotel. He was tired of nonstop people. Nonstop sound. Nonstop everything. For a moment, he considered asking Wren if Wren would want to move in with Grandma Rose and Grandpa Frank. Then he realized what they could do. What they had the means to do.Wren stepped into their room. He was sweaty from the run with Zain. His dark hair stuck to the back of his neck despite the ponytail’s effort to keep it off. Jackson pushed his laptop to the side and rose up on his knees.Wren leaned forward for a kiss and Jackson pulled him in closer with his arm around Wren’s neck. Wren chuckled and gently disengaged. “What’s going on?”Jackson fell back and reached for his laptop again. He avoided eye contact as he pulled up the screen he had minimized. “I was just thinking that maybe it’s time we get a house? Just for the two of
Three months. His scar was still red and angry. Jackson’s therapist was great. Really. He knew any body image issues he might have were something he’d get over with enough time, but for now, staring at the angry red skin that marked where his arm should be… He felt a stupid mixture of embarassment, shame, and disgust. Jackson was pale. He’d always been pale. He’d never had an issue with it before, but now, the paleness of his skin made the scar look all the more alarming. The knock on the door startled him and he realized he’d been standing there for a little too long. “Just a second,” he called. The shirt was still a struggle to get on, but he was getting quicker every time. Jeans were a no go since he couldn’t button them one handed so he spent all of his time in sweatpants. Sweats were comfortable, but they were just another reminder of what he couldn’t do anymore. What he didn’t have anymore. The empty sleeve hung limp over his shoulder. Jackson turned hi
His dad was on his way to Jackson’s hospital room. Grandma Rose had reassured him countless times that if he changed his mind then she would personally escort him from the entire country. Jackson appreciated the thought, but he needed to talk to his dad. It had been a week since Jackson woke up. A week and Jackson was leaving the hospital in hopefully another day or two. He wanted to talk to his dad now, while he was still in such an impersonal place such as a hospital room.Jackson stared at the door. His dad should be arriving any minute. His dad had told Grandma Rose that he would be there at noon and it was currently 11:57. Wren sat next to him, on his left side, the side of his missing arm. He glanced at the clock. Then the door. Then the clock.When the knock came, he jumped and glanced at Wren. “Can you get it?” Jackson asked. Walking across the room in his hospital gown with one sleeve hanging limp would have put him in too vulnerable a positi
About two hours after your shooting, all of the collars in Oconee stopped working.Jackson didn’t understand. “That’s not possible. I know the coding in those collars backward and forward. There are countless fail-safes. For them to just, stop working…” Jackson shook his head. He was already feeling tired again, but he pushed through. “Do we know what caused it?”“There was a statement put out from that Carmillan Collars PR lady that they were looking into what caused the problem, but that was three days ago. There’s been no word since.”Three days. “What day is it?”“You were shot four days ago. You’ve been in and out of consciousness but every time was only for a few seconds and you were pretty confused,” Kia said. “You mentioned geese a couple of times.”Jackson’s lips twitched in a reluctant smile. “I think I was dreaming of
Jackson woke up confused. His brain was fuzzy and he couldn’t move. The ceiling was unfamiliar to him. It was white and speckled… like a quail egg. Jackson chuckled, but the laugh sounded wrong. He couldn’t stop though, because quails made him think of geese and geese made him think of Kia getting chased by the geese that lived in the pond.His chest heaved as he tried to stop laughing, then a sharp burst of pain stole the laughter from him. He gasped and closed his eyes.“Jackson!” That was Kia. Wasn’t she just chasing the geese? “Jackson! Wren, wake up.” There was a thump. Wren? Did she name the geese? Maybe he’d help her chase them…* * *Jackson opened his eyes to the quail egg ceiling. “Did you get the geese?” There was a weight across his legs that he hadn’t noticed until it was gone. He tried to turn his head, but his muscles didn’t want to work so he just closed
They mingled. Jackson shook countless hands. Laughed with people as he passed them by. The crowd bubbled around him and let him through easily. Kia held tight to one hand as she pulled him forward through the crowd. “Come on!”She shoved him up onto a truck bed, then pushed him higher so he was standing on the cab. A megaphone was shoved in his hand. He gripped it tight and stood up straight. In the most surreal moment of his life, the crowd in front of him stilled and grew silent without a word from him. Hundreds of people. Thousands of people? A lot of people, quiet and staring at him. Jackson lifted his chin and raised his hand in a wave.“Are you ready?”There was a murmur of assent through the crowd.“Please, march quietly. We ask that this be a time to reflect. A time to ask ourselves what else we can do for those oppressed in Oconee. If you’re religious, use this time to pray for our neighbors. If you’re no
Jackson couldn’t believe it. The sheer amount of people who had crammed their way into the small town near the border… He turned to Kia. “How did you do this?”Kia grinned. “The power of the internet… And your second interview was probably the main thing.”People in bright colors carrying signs of various messages milled about. The streets were packed. There were police officers out, some of them carried signs of their own.No More Collars. Freedom For All. No Rest Until We’re All Free.Jackson shook his head and stepped back from the window of his hotel room. “I can’t do this. I shouldn’t be the one speaking.”He heard the shower cut off. Kia leaned against him. “You’ve done so much more than this already, Jackson. Now you’re going to lead this march. You’re going to climb on that stage and you’re going to give that speech. Look out there