LEAVE
I don’t know what to say. I can’t believe I was this close to actually accepting her. I’m relieved I didn’t get to accept her that much. Because if that happens, then I think it might hurt even more now that I have actually given in and submitted.
I am walking on the streets of Chicago. I don’t really know where I am about to go.
Then my phone rang. I smiled. I almost forgot I got a best friend.
“Hello?” I answered Genevieve’s call.
“Hey! Where are you?” she asked as soon as she heard my voice.
I looked around. “Uhm… walking around?” I replied unsure. I don’t really know where I am. I was walking to a random place again.
I heard her sigh on the other line. “Okay. Come to me. I am with some of Chester’s friends. We are at a café near 7th district.” She told me.
I smiled and nodded.
RIGHT THINGSI pushed Kristoff away from me. I don’t like it when he is like this. I don’t like him begging me to stay. Because I know that he will be fine without me by his side.“Stop,” I told him as I panted. “Let’s stop this.” I repeated. “Kristoff, I don’t want this anymore.” I concluded. “Let’s just end this,” I told him while looking in his eyes.He looked shocked. And hurt. And broken.And…I can’t even get myself to look at him anymore. Because if I do, I’m afraid I won’t be able to do what I want to.I want a divorce. I’m tired. And I don’t know if I am doing the right thing. Should I really leave the person I have loved all my life because of someone who just appeared out of the blue?Should I leave Kristoff because Bianca needs him?I don’t even know what’s
MOVE ON“So where do you plan to go now?” Genevieve asked me. We are still at the café and I am still sulking over this decision of mine. Which, I am trying to convince myself that I am right.I shrugged. “I don’t know. I actually plan on taking a leave from work because I don’t think I can handle working with this kind of situation,” I replied, lifeless. Honestly, I feel like a zombie.I haven’t even been working now because of all the things that has happened to in a span of a single month. I can’t believe there could be tragic things happening all the way.Genevieve sighed hard. “Yes. I think you should relax first and free your mind from everything that bugs you right now.” She agreed. Of course, she would agree. She is my best friend in the first place.I nodded. “Although, I don’t exactly know where or when to start moving on,” I r
YOU HAVE ME“Are you sure you can do this on your own?” Genevieve asked me as she was standing by the door of my new home.Yes. I bought a new condominium unit for me to live in. I smiled at her and nodded. “Of course. Why wouldn’t I?” I asked her back.She gave me a look. “Are you sure?” she asked again.I nodded positively. Right now, negativity is the least thing on my mind. I don’t even want to think of my past already. And when I say past, I mean, the things that happened the past few days.She sighed hard and crossed her arms around her chest. “You don’t really need me to stay here with you even for a couple of nights?” she asked.I chuckled. “Don’t worry about me, G. I can do this. I’m a big girl now.” I assured.Genevieve scoffed. “Yeah. A lost big girl, I might add.” She beamed.I frowned at
NEW ASHANTI MICHAELSI felt better after the talk with Hunter. He seemed to have triggered my determination because, right now, I know I want to live for myself. I have to put myself first from time to time.“Oh, are you free tonight?” Hunter asked me.I gave him a look. “Why?” I asked, pretending to be intrigued.He chuckled and shrugged. “I don’t know. Maybe you want to grab dinner together,” he replied.I smiled at him. Perhaps, if there is someone I have been most grateful of in my life—aside from Mom and Genevieve—it is Hunter Looney.It was true that I hated him to the bones. Oh yeah, I even wanted to kill him or choke him to death or whatnot. And that’s the reason why I can’t believe that he has this inner alter ego that makes me feel safe whenever I hear his advices.He has this somewhat invisible force that makes me feel like a
STEAK HOUSEI fixed my things and the folders on the table. In about fifteen minutes, Hunter would be here. Yes, for the dinner. Perhaps, I have trained myself to be spoiled by Hunter. I even think I can’t live without seeing him in a day anymore.It’s not like we’re in love with each other. And besides, we are friends. I consider him one of my best friends right now, so, I don’t see something wrong with us eating and seeing each other every single day.I heard a series of knocks on the door.He is here.“Ashanti?” I heard Hunter call me as he opened the door.I looked at him and smiled. “Yes, I’m ready,” I told him as I grabbed my bag and walked to the door where he is waiting. He was smiling widely but I can see that he is tired.“Did you finish practice early?” I asked. I know he is tired because they are preparing for another comeback now
BRING IT BACK “You should look into the one you bumped to when you apologize, Ashanti.” I looked at Kristoff who was looking directly at me. His perfect features are still as perfect as ever and his handsomeness never even shred off. Didn’t he even get lost when I went out of his life? He looks so damn fine. And I am wondering if he ever wept when I was gone. As for me, I tried my best not to get lost in his eyes. I had to take control over my emotions. I can’t lose now. Not when I kept telling everyone that I am the new Ashanti. I can’t lose everything I have learned just because I am in front of Kristoff now. I flashed a wide smile at him. “Sorry, Mr. Kristoff Marx.” I repeated as I bowed. “Sorry, I think you didn’t call me in my name. I’m Ashanti Michaels, not Marx.” I corrected him. Kristoff raised his brow at me. “I wasn’t wrong,” he replied. “You are Ashanti Marx.” He insisted. I pres
JUST FOR TONIGHT“Can’t you just let me love you? Can’t you just endure my presence even if it pissed you so much?” Kristoff asked. “Can’t you just…” he paused as his eyes trailed to my lips. “…let me kiss you and make you feel that you want to bring it back?” he asked as his lips crashed on mine.I was stunned at first. How long has it been?Three months?Three months and I missed how he kisses me. I missed how he holds me. I missed how he makes me feel like I am the most beautiful woman alive.Then I realized I missed him. So much. So much that I have been living everyday missing him without me knowing. Missing him has been my hobby. And now, it all came back to me.He cupped my cheek as he deepened the kiss. It was a very passionate kiss. It’s as if he had been saving all his emotions for this moment. He must have waited for this ki
ENLIGHTENMENT“Kristoff,” I called him, breaking the silence enveloping the room. We are in the living room and I am sitting across him.He looked at me as he drank his coffee. It’s two in the morning and I still got no sleep. We talked about a lot of things already, about our history, how he’s been doing, how his friends are doing, though, I know some because Genevieve tells me sometimes.This is it. If I am going to give him another shot, at least I have to know the details. If I am going to give him another shot, at least I have to know the truth.I took a deep breath to prepare myself to talk. “What are you and Bianca?” I questioned. Trust me, I have saved up all my other energy for this question and Kristoff better give me an honest answer.He gave a look. “What about us?” he asked back.I didn’t respond. Okay. If he’s not going to talk about this is