WORK AND LOVE
“Wow! You are early, Ashanti.” Min greeted me as I entered the office.
I smiled at her and nodded. “Kristoff wanted us to leave the house together so, I had to come early,” I replied as I placed my things on my table.
She just gave me a smile and I know there is a meaning behind it.
Minerva Crescent is one of my closest people in the office. She had been my person to run to, other than Genevieve, my best friend, when I am facing problems in any aspect of my life. She pretty much knows everything about me and I know that I, too, know things about her life as well.
There isn’t any awkward boss-subordinate relationship between us because one, we are of the same age and, two, I don’t look at her as a subordinate. She is a friend. She’s someone reliable.
I looked at the pile of folders on my table. There are about twenty of those in my estimation.
“These are the designs that we came up to for the fashion show next month,” Min told me even without me asking her.
I looked at her and nodded. “Are there any plans for the event yet?” I asked her as I browsed through the designs they gave me.
Min nodded. “We are planning to invite actors, actresses and idols to model for us. Through that, we can gain more people to attend the show because of the fans,” she replied. “But that is still boiling at this moment. We haven’t polished anything yet.” She added.
I looked at and smiled. “Sure. I’ll consider that, too.” I smiled at her. “Thank you. You all worked hard,” I told her.
She smiled and left for her job. “Thanks, Shan,” she said last.
I smiled and looked at the designs. These are all good. Most of them, I have seen Hollywood personalities wear. Some are patterned with some of the trending clothes nowadays.
We all know that fashion is forever changing, and so with music—as what Kristoff told me the last time we talked about our jobs—so, people needed to be updated with the mainstream right now.
That is why we are conducting a fashion show next month. We are planning to make it really big as we are planning to involve a lot of people of all ages for them to know what the trends these days are.
Someone knocked on the door. It is Nina, my secretary.
“Good morning, Mrs. Marx.” She bowed at me.
I nodded and smiled. “What is it?” I asked her with a smile.
She smiled back at me. “Someone came to see you, Ma’am,” she said.
I narrowed my eyes on her. Who would want to see me this early? “Who is it?” I asked curiously.
“Hi, Shan!” Genevieve came running to me like a maniac who saw a ghost but is actually running towards the ghost now.
I looked at her with my face really un-paint-able this moment. I was giving her my narrowed eyes and curious look.
She chuckled once she saw and got my expression. “Don’t be like that! I even bought you presents from the Philippines!” She beamed as she waved the gigantic paper bags she is holding.
Genevieve Peters is my best friend. We’ve known each other since elementary school. Back then, we were known to be the quiet and noisy tandem. I was the quiet one, she was the loud. We’re definitely the opposites but we made it work.
I looked at her as she sat in front of me. “So, how was the Philippines?” I asked as I diverted my gaze on the designs again.
She sighed heavenly. “I never wanted to leave that place. I bet their beaches are the best and I want to stay there forever!” She beamed as she slouched on the couch.
I looked at her. “So, did you have fun with Chester?” I asked.
Chester Moore is Kristoff’s friend. He is also courting Genevieve ever since we were in high school. Look at how persistent he is. And this friend of mine, I might say, is so lucky to have him.
Genevieve smiled at me. “Well, it’s always fun when Chester is around,” she replied happily, sounding really proud of her suitor.
I gave her a mischievous smile. I know Genevieve. She likes Chester ever since. I just don’t get why she won’t say yes to him. I mean, we’re of legal ages and she should get married, too, you know!
“Aren’t you going to be together?” I asked her.
Genevieve looked at me and smiled. “We are getting there anyway. I am not rushing things,” she replied.
“Not rushing my ass. Yes, you are not rushing things, you are buffering. Like, slower than the internet connection,” I replied making her laugh at me.
“Well I am not like you and Kristoff. You married early and look at what you have now. No child yet.” She teased me back.
I glared at her. This has been our argument since. She wanted to have a niece already and she is rushing me and Kristoff about it. Our parents, too.
She leaned closer. “Don’t tell me, nothing happened still?” she asked me.
I rolled me eyes. So what? Nothing happened yet. It is not like we are rushing on doing it anyway. We are fine by our own right now. We don’t need a baby yet.
Genevieve laughed at me. “You should’ve seen you face,” she said as she was holding her tummy for laughing out loud.
I rolled my eyes and threw her a folder. “Hurry up and just help me decide what design is good for the fashion show!” I told her to stop from laughing.
She looked at me and smiled at the folder. She looked into it. To be honest, I actually trust Genevieve’s fashion sense. She is a ramp and fashion model. She’s even planning on making it to the fashion week in New York next year.
“What are you planning to do for the event?” she asked me as she closed the folder.
I sighed. “Nothing drafted yet. I am planning to finish this by the end of the week. There are a lot of things to settle. But I guess we already have a date. On the twenty-eighth next month,” I replied.
She nodded. “You should also start gathering your models now.” She added. “You know that models are busy these days.” She continued.
I nodded. “Well, we are planning on taking hit celebrities so that we can attract fans to attend the event,” I replied. That was the original plan. I hope it will work.
Genevieve nodded. “That would be easy for you. Kristoff has a lot of hit idols and artists in his company,” she spoke.
I looked at her. I didn’t even think of that. Why was I so dumb?
She looked at me. “Don’t tell me you haven’t thought of that idea?” she asked me almost in disbelief. She would be shocked if she heard my reply.
“I didn’t, to be honest,” I said in all honesty.
Her eyes widened. “Oh, my gosh! Are you serious?” she asked, as I thought, shocked as hell. “That is so impossible of you!” she spat.
I laughed. “Well, I got a lot of things in my mind now, so, I haven’t thought of that.” I defended myself.
Genevieve rolled her eyes. “Whatever. You are unbelievable,” she said as she took another folder to check on the designs.
***
I was standing in front of the building tonight, waiting for a cab. Yes, I am the boss who hails a taxicab this early of the night.
Kristoff shouldn’t have dropped me off the office. I hadn’t brought my car because of that and now, I am hailing a taxi.
Suddenly, my phone rang. As I looked at the screen, I saw Kristoff calling.
“Hello?”
“Shan, are you still in your office?” he asked on the other line, his husky and handsome voice is making me melt.
I have to get a hold of myself. “About to go home,” I replied as calm as I can.
I can hear him chuckle from the other line. “Stay there. Let’s eat before we go home,” he suggested.
I almost thought I was hearing voices. Did I hear him right? He’s asking us to eat out now? In this ordinary night? I wanted to laugh but the warm feeling surfacing is taking over.
So maybe, Kristoff is really hyper today. I don’t know why. He dropped me to the office and now he is asking me for a dinner. Oh, Lord. Am I going to die tomorrow?
“What do you think?” he asked. He must have been losing patience because I haven’t answered.
I cleared my throat. “Yeah. Sure,” I replied.
“Okay. I’m driving there now. Wait for me.” Then he hung up.
And me?
I am left here in the façade of the office, not knowing what to feel. Am I going to die soon? Why is Kristoff becoming all so clingy to me now? Why? I need an immediate answer. I swear if he goes on like this, I will have to control myself from falling so deeply into him. This is mad.
Ten minutes later, he arrived just like what he said. He rolled the window of the shotgun seat down and peeked on me who was standing there. “Come on?” he asked with his gentle voice this time.
I nodded and entered his Audi. And I feel so uncomfortable. I don’t know why but I can’t even look at him. This giddiness is eating me! Somebody help my poor self.
ANNIVERSARY FIGHTSilence enveloped the car when we started driving. Only the noise from the stereo was heard in the whole car.“So…where do you want to eat?” Kristoff asked as he turned the car.I looked straight at the road. “Wherever you want,” I replied safely.I can tell that he is looking at me. I can tell at my peripheral view. And hell, I am distracted and over the roof uneasy.“Is there something bothering you?” He should’ve noticed my uneasiness.But yes, you are bothering me. I looked at him, against my will because looking at him will only distract me more, and shook my head. “No. Nothing. Just office stuff,” I replied as calm as I could.He nodded and seemed to believe. I do hope so. “What is up for your fashion show?” he asked.“We are still planning it. Hopefully, everything will be final by the end of the
THE GIRL IN THE RESTAURANTAnd I am talking to Kristoff again, right here, right now. Maybe his unpredictable attitude caused every bit of my pissed emotion to turn a hundred and eighty degrees.Sure, he doesn’t love me. That I have reiterated all throughout. But I am thankful that he is there for me whenever I need him. And he remembers important dates even more than me.I thought I was the one who’s in love with him. Why is he the one remembering the important dates?Kristoff looked at me as he caught me staring at him. “What?” he asked me as he took a bite on his food.I shook my head. I want to tell him everything that I am feeling now. But no. What if he doesn’t like me back? What if he doesn’t love me back? I guess I couldn’t bear hearing that.He gave me a confused look. “You are getting weirder every day,” he told me.I looked at him. “Why?
ASDFGHJKLKristoff didn’t talk to me for about five minutes. He just stared at me. I am still into tears and I think the people around are looking our way now. They are probably thinking that we are quarreling right now. But no, I am quarreling with myself.I don’t know why I hate it that I can’t do anything about the fashion show right now. I wish I could do something.I wish everything would fall back into place like what Kristoff said. I wish all the problems can just resolve on their own.Kristoff sighed. “Will you stop crying, Ashanti?” he asked as he passed me a tissue.I looked at him with my tearful eyes. “I’m sorry, I can’t help it.” I took the tissue he gave me and wiped my tears.He smiled at me. “Come on! We should be happy tonight right? Don’t cry like a baby.” He smiled wider.And trust me how I had to control my feelings
SICKI woke up the next morning feeling heavy and sick. Maybe I am really sick because I couldn’t stand up when I tried to. I can’t even move my body.Kristoff walked to my room. We don’t share one room. But our rooms are next to each other.He called me and said some things I couldn’t decipher anymore. He keeps talking but I don’t think I know what he was talking about.Is he speaking in Chinese? I don’t know.My head hurts like hell and I can’t move and it’s cold and maybe I need his hug and…. Wait. What did I just think of?I need his hug?Oh no. Please, Ashanti. Get a hold of yourself.I closed my eyes and went to sleep again.Sorry, Kristoff. I can’t understand you right now. Everything is blurring and fading away.***I woke up with a heavy feeling on my hand. I looked at the window
THIS LADYLora, our helper, peered on the door while Kristoff and I are laughing together over that funny stuff he was talking about.“Kristoff, there is a visitor downstairs,” she told him. She then turned to me with the eyes of a concerned mother. I smiled at her, assuring her that I am fine now.Kristoff suddenly stayed still, frozen and I don’t know how to describe his facial expression. Was he nervous upon hearing that?I looked at him as he sighed to collect his cool. I know there is something wrong.“What’s wrong?” I finally found my guts to ask.He shook his head as he stood up and walked down stairs. I watched him as he hesitantly moved to the door. He is not like this.There is something wrong. I don’t really like it when he is acting this way. It’s like he doesn’t want to share his problems. Doesn’t he know that it’s making me craz
INFINITEXI widened my eyes. “No way!” I replied, disagreeing. There is no way I am going to ask those boys to run for my fashion show. Not with that Hunter Looney. He had pestered me during my high school and college days. And that is enough for me.“But, Shan, that is all the options we’ve got,” Min told me.“How did that happen?” I asked. “Aren’t they joining the fashion show as well?” I asked again.Min and the rest shook their heads. “They are under another brand, so, no.” Min replied.I sighed. “I’m going to solve this,” I said as I went to my table and sat.Min walked to me. “Ashanti, we will still talk to InfiniteX if ever you will change your mind. Or if ever you won’t be able to look for a solution.” She told me.I sighed and nodded.She looked at me. “Don’t worry. W
THAT JERK“Good morning, Ashanti.” I snapped back as soon as I heard that familiar irritating voice. I swear to God I haven’t hated a person in my whole life as much as I hate this guy.I am not really a bad person but Hunter Looney is really the kind of person who would test my patience. He looked at me with a grin on his face as his members walked behind him.I rolled my eyes. What a jerk.“Aren’t you going to greet me good morning, too?” he asked me as he welcomed himself in the office.Min, who was standing by the door, was shocked to see situation. I guess I have to explain later.“What’s good in seeing your face?” I asked him as fiercely as I could.He smirked. “Then, morning is fine with me.” He snapped back.I rolled my eyes. “Talking to you isn’t even fine with me, jerk, how much more greeting you?”
SORRYJust as when the boys left, Kristoff entered the office with something unreadable in his face. He looked like he was mad but he was more worried than angry.“Ashanti,” he started as I went back to my chair.I looked at him as I sat. “What’s up?” I asked him, trying to act cool and normal.Kristoff gave me an apologetic look. “I’m sorry,” he said.I narrowed my eyes on him. “What are you apologizing for?” I asked innocently.He leaned on my table with his hands. “Don’t pretend you don’t know,” he said. “Chester told me everything.” He continued.I nodded. “It’s all under control now,” I replied as I planned on how to kill Chester and Genevieve later. “We have found artists to model already.” I added.Kristoff looked at me. I don’t know how to describe the look he ga
ASHANTI“I can’t take it anymore,” I told Kristoff as we were in the labor room. This morning, I had several Braxton-Hicks that made Kristoff panic. The contractions had been intensified from then up to now.“Baby, just hold on a little longer.” I don’t know who Kristoff is telling that—me or the baby.He gripped onto my hand as before planting a kiss on my sweaty forehead.I’ve known how painful it is to give birth but the ones I have read never really made me feel this way. This is—by far—the worst pain in my life. I have never even imagined feeling this excruciating pain.Dr. Johnson, my OB, with a nurse came towards us. The nurse explained that the doctor will be checking my cervical dilatation.“You’re fully dilated now, Mrs. Marx. You can push now.” Dr. Johnson told me and encouraged me to bear down.Kristoff was holdi
ASHANTI“I want to eat ice cream.” I raised my brow at what Kristoff told me. We are cuddling on the couch while watching the closing ceremonies of Asian Games, and then, there he is, pouting at me and hugging my body tightly.It was such an awful sight, to be honest. Kristoff and pouting should never be used in one sentence.“But it’s the middle of the night,” I replied and he pouted even more.I almost scoffed when I saw his face like that. Is he kidding me? Why is he acting like this right now? It was as if he is a baby or what.Truthfully, he was like this for the past few days. It’s too extreme to the point that I think he’s the pregnant one. He’s the one with raging hormones and not me.It’s too funny to even think about his expressions when he tells me that he likes pizza, ice cream, twin bananas, dragon fruits and what so ever.I’ve searche
ASHANTI“Are you alright?” Kristoff asked me as I paled when I was looking at the calendar. I was looking at my normal cycle before realizing that I am delayed. Three weeks delayed.I looked at him and nodded.He narrowed his eyes on me and sat closer to me. “Come on. You can’t fool me with that face of yours,” he beamed. “Tell me. What’s wrong, baby?” he asked in the sweetest voice that I have ever heard in my whole life.The way he calls me baby! I can feel my intestines coil with each other and the butterflies are flying all the way up to my throat. I want to throw up.I gulped when I realized that it’s true. I want to throw up. I immediately ran to the toilet and vomited on the bowl. Kristoff came running behind me, panicking about my condition.“Hey, what’s happening?” he asked me as he caressed my back. “Come on, I’l
ASHANTI“Please come to the bridal shower party!” Genevieve beamed at me as she just barged into my office like this. It’s her wedding in two weeks. Finally! We worked our butts off for this wedding because Genevieve wanted a different theme. She wanted a horror theme. According to her, marriage is scary. Hence, horror theme.I looked at her. “You know Kristoff won’t approve that kind of idea,” I replied.She pouted then walked to my desk. “Well they have this thing called Bachelor Bash and I think Kristoff told Chester that he would come,” she told me as she sat on the chair in front of my desk.My eyes widened at her. “What?!” I asked in disbelief.Genevieve nodded at me.I shut my eyes and contained my cool. How could he do this? He told me he wouldn’t go because he doesn't want me to go!I sighed hard.Genevieve looked at me. &ldqu
ASHANTIKristoff walked me inside his office and he led me to his couch. I looked around and wow. His office is really big and neat. It’s not like mine.His office is like those offices I see in dramas. All leather and all made of expensive woods.He let me sit on the couch and he sat beside me. Really, really close. I can feel my heart beating really, really fast.He always had that effect on me. He always had that power in me. He makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.“Are you sure you're okay?” he asked me as he looked at me.I smiled and nodded. I can't even talk because I am too nervous I would stutter because of all the feels.I just can't get enough of Kristoff and his grease. He would always make me feel nervous. No matter how long we’d stayed together.He smiled at me and wrapped his arm around me. “I missed you,” he told me as he kissed m
ASHANTI“What are you cooking, Ashanti?” Genevieve asked me as she leaned on the table while I am cooking something. She sounded really awful though. Oh. I can’t blame her though. I am not a goddess in the kitchen, okay. I acknowledge that.None taken.Instead, I chuckled at her. “I’m cooking something for Kristoff,” I replied as I continued to slice the onions.Genevieve wrinkled her nose. “That? You’re cooking that for your husband?” she asked me as she pointed at the onions.I looked at the onions then blinked at her, nodding. “Why? Is there something wrong?” I asked her.She sighed hard and rolled her eyes on me. Really now, Genevieve? What in the heavens did I do wrong?“Sissy, you won’t make a circle-shaped onion when you cut it that way. Cut it cross-sectional!” she told me.I looked at her confused. “Cro
ASHANTIThey say happy endings don’t just exist in fairy tales. They also exist in reality. One has to be happy and fulfilled to say that it’s the end. So, if one is not yet happy and fulfilled, it’s not yet the end. One has to learn to have faith. Keep the faith, as they say.I had my share of ups and downs. I even think there are more downs than ups. But that’s okay. At least I am happy right now. I am contented.Everything’s back into place. Everything’s going well again.Mom and Dad just celebrated their Pearl Wedding Anniversary, which means they are married for thirty long years. Who would have thought that married couple would reach that, especially nowadays when couples tend to break up? I even laughed at one quote I read that couples of today break up more often that one takes a bath.Is that even serious?Well, my parents are the living proof that marriage can be long-
CHANGE“Are you sure you’ll do this?” Hunter asked me as I am walking to Bianca’s hospital room.It’s been about a month when I last saw her in person. That was when Dad was hospitalized. Now, Dad already recovered. He’s at home and resting like a king.Kristoff and I have been better. He visits me every day in my unit. He’s trying to convince me to move back to our old house but I declined and refused the offer. Somehow, I loved what and where I am now.But what difference did it make? He comes home to me every day. His clothes got piled up in my place and it seems like we are living in one house again.Hunter, well, he is still Hunter Looney, the jerk with the inspirational messages from time to time. Nothing has changed with our relationship. He’s still my closest guy friend. And I am still his hot topic friend. I don’t know. He told me that one time.And no
RECONCILIATION“Dad.”I am watching Bianca hug Dad so tightly with tears brimming in her eyes. She was so broken and now she found her strength again.“My dear Bianca,” my dad hushes her as he patted her head.Kristoff came over and comforted her once again. I must admit that I am jealous. Not of Kristoff but of Dad.He looked at her with so much passion and concern. I don’t know what else. He has never looked at me with those eyes ever. Was it because Bianca’s sick? Or was it because I rebelled and I was too stubborn that I defied him because of my childish cries?I don’t know. And now I am standing near the door of his hospital room, numb and dumbfounded. Frozen. Stoned. I can’t move. I don’t know what to tell him.Should I just leave? Would I aggravate his condition when I stay here longer? The last time I talked to him was the day before he was rushe