The time is now. I have a job to do, and then I'm done.
Balancing his breakfast on one hand, I knock promptly on the door. All I have to do is stick to protocol, not disturb him, and this will be all over. And then the door opens.
Suddenly this is a bad idea.
The tray in my hand trembles, the metal lids on china plates shuddering, soft clinks filling the void of silence. I should have convinced Fran to take his breakfast to his room, as all confidence has leaked from my chest, leaving me deflated and flushed with embarrassment.
He stares at me, being so much more than I imagined. He leans his arm against the doorframe, black long-sleeved tunic thankfully hiding enough of him to tame my wandering eyes. Underneath a fringe of slightly too long, mussed bronze hair, he stares at me, the darkness of his pupil surrounded by a glacial blue fog of cornflower blue.
My voice no longer works.
He steps back, a flush of scent hitting me. He smells like the wind, carrying the softest hint of pine entwined with an evocative hint of...cinnamon? Either way, it has my head spinning, as he motions for me to step into the room. I do so with shuddering steps, thinking him through in my head.
He’s clearly not like me. I was born powerless, and I shall remain that way until I die. Him, however, holds restrained power, it’s appearance reaching the surface of his skin in the form of an icy blue shading across his temples and forehead. It glimmers and shifts under the dull light of his room, one minute being an Atlantic blue, the next being as silver as the mountains.
But he's not just that. Not just the unused power. He's a man, a powerful looking man, with beauty that should exist beyond the realm I stand in right now. His features are not abnormal, but so blissfully Azure Province origin. He has precise, graceful features, from sweeping cheekbones to a jawline like Jessa's; practically cut from glass.
Brushing my thoughts away, I lay the tray upon the surface of the desk, careful not to make much noise. I turn back around, expecting him to continue going about his morning, but instead he stands by the closed door, watching me.
“Will that be all?” I ask, hating the shudder in my tone.
“You’re not from here," he remarked.
We stare at each other, no words spoken for a brief moment. I'm too busy pondering why he is speaking to me like this...why he would even bring that up. Not once has a customer inquired into my origin. Not until now, I suppose.
“Excuse me?” It's all I know how to say. I don't care how handsome he is, I want of here. There is a shadow beneath his eyes, that creeps up to thick, sooty lashes, framing those light teal eyes, that frightens me. But not as much as the colour that rains down from his hairline; that strange marking from restrained power almost like a magical tattoo.
“You’re not from here,” he repeats. His gaze wanders down to my chest, making me flinch. “I can tell a Jade Province born when I see one.”
Before I can be offended, I realise what he is looking at. My hand touches just below my neck protectively, where a necklace hangs. Admittedly, it's a Jade Province tradition, to wear the necklace at all times past your eighteenth birthday. Something about warding off evil spirits. Each is curated by the leader of your village, fashioned around the traditions of your home. Mine resembles my Tani. An eye, with a green emerald in the middle.
I'm not surprised he doesn't recognise me from my looks alone. I got Golden Province looks from my foreign father - fair hair, which since moving here, has leeched a lot of it's shine as it has not seen the sun in weeks, and eyes as blue as the ocean there.
“Will that be all?” I practically whisper. Although I refuse to lower my gaze, I can't look at him, instead pinning it past his shoulder, at his immaculately made bed. I was meant to do that.
I go to step past him, but he moves in front of me. “You’re scared of me.”
Well when you do things like that, yes, I get scared.
“Do you say everything like a fact?” I retort, with less vigour than I intended.
It's not the fact he is blocking me in here that is so frightening. I know that if I were that desperate he would let me past. It's the way he looks at me, like he's trying to figure me out. Yet I don't think I'm that interesting to be interrogated by this man. If he ignored Jessa, I don't understand why I would peak his interest so much.
There is the slightest tilt to his lips. “You have very fascinating eyes.”
“I’ll take that as a yes.”
He’s toying with me, maybe. Either that or these plain hazel eyes really have taken his interest. That can’t be the case, when he’s staring at me with eyes touched by snow, silver wind and ice. Cold, consumed in shades of sapphire blue, like the many facets of a real gem. I’ve met him this one time, and yet I see his spirit. Say what he wants, do what he wants kind of spirit. I’ve never been so convinced he’s what people say he is. A Hunter, in whatever way that means.
This time, when I brush past him, he lets me. For the briefest of moments, our shoulders touch, my breath getting caught in my throat. Turning around, I back up a few steps, my hand reaching for the doorframe.
"You're not curious?" He asks. With one sweeping look over me, his gaze again finds mine. My cheeks flush red, and suddenly my outfit feels too loose in all the wrong places, hardly flattering at all. But why would I want to impress him? With brown slack pants and a jacket to match, I’m not feminine, or pretty or fascinating. I hate that I care.
"Excuse me?" The words come out all bent and shuddery.
"The other servant girl had a lot more to say to me than you," he comments. I can’t tell if he’s taunting me, challenging me or what. "She wanted to know if I'm a Hunter."
Maybe it’s a trap, but I can’t help myself. "Are you?"
"Does it matter?" He asks.
There. The briefest flicker of vulnerability that looks so foreign on him. I’m assuming he’s testing the waters upon arrival here, seeing what civilians say about him, whether he is safe here. I could tell him everyone fears him, but surely by my reaction he’s gathered that already.
"I suppose not," I murmur, before turning toward the door. "Have a good day sir."
My day off. I’ve been looking forward to this.
I feel foolish for telling him goodnight.
I can't tell what hurts the most. My head, or my back.
Managing to have found the smoothest slab of stone in the cave, I lay myself upon it.
My hands are planted firmly on the wooden seat, dampness gathering upon my palms.
A servant girl leads me to my room for the night.It's beautiful, even if it's small. The architecture of this manor is magnificent, and this room does not undermine that. It's been dressed and furnished with a mix of colours; navy blue and grey, which is unlikely to be the creative choice of the King himself. Other than a bed, a couple bedside tables, and an armoire, the room has little to it.This time last night, I was in a cave with Marek, wondering what my future would hold. Now I'm being invited to dinner with a King. But I'm not excited, as I kick off my shoes, digging my toes into
Taius is at dinner when we walk in.Marek and I arrive at the same time. I feel foolish walking into this large dining hall, dressed in a tight fitting dress, that I tug at awkwardly. Mercilessly, Marek never made a comment on it, but as I walk toward where Taius sits, I notice his gaze sweep over me brazenly.The dining hall is decorated beautifully, a panoply of paintings strung across the wall which drip wealth I will never understand. Atop the long dining table, is a variety of food, which my stomach immediately reacts to. I don't know the last time I ate something.
I wander up the stairs, defeated, and thankfully not being escorted by anyone.That did not go as I expected. Here I was hoping I would be going back to my family, leaving this mess behind me. But now I'm walking to what will be my room for an undetermined amount of time. I refuse to allow it to be awhile, though. Whatever it might take, I'm going to escape this place.Suddenly a figure appears from around the corner. Pausing, I watch them approach, head down as they stare into a book, oblivious to each step they take before them. A girl, close to my age no doubt.
Eight days later. I stare out the window, but see nothing but my own face staring back at me. The nights here in the Azure Province are long and cold, snow falling ever since we arrived a few days ago. We decided this would be the best place to flee to, hidden in the back of a freight train that Tai smuggled us onto. We almost didn't survive the cold, but we had both agreed this Province would be the last place Marek would look. It's too obvious. The door opens from behind me, the heavy wood creaking on it's metal joints. Glancin
My hands brush against the wall, letting it guide me down the hallway as the darkness blinds me.I'm not sure where I'm going, but it's far from the commotion downstairs. The screaming has ceased, but there are a lot of people moving, like the rebel group are rounding people up and moving them about. How many are there? Tai should be okay down there, but what if he isn't? He needs to stay for his people, but part of me wishes I had encouraged him to come with me.Suddenly, the lights in the hallway flicker on. Flinching, I cover my eyes until they adjust to the sudden assault of light, and once they finally do, I realise that Vaia is standing in the hallway with me.
Tai sits on the edge of his bed, a frown etched into his features.Only five minutes earlier, we were downstairs, Tai have to have addressed the guests who he has offered rooms to here. He claimed that Marek has been obsessed with me for months, and that he has been taken into the prisons to be held. None of that is true, of course. In fact, Tai's guards have been unable to find Marek."You don't have to stay in my room tonight, even if our guests will want to gossip seeing you wander around the halls," Tai says softly, finally releasing his frown, breathing in deeply. The guests already have a lot to gossip about tonight after the incident with Marek.After a
Tai pulls the curtain back, glancing through before closing it again.Beyond, people chatter, seated as they await the beginning of the ceremony. The nerves in my stomach accompany the sound of their unbothered voices, knowing that I'm going to have to step out there soon and exchange vows with Tai, and then kiss him in front of all those people."Don't be nervous," he murmurs, turning back to look at me. Mercifully, Tai has ordered the seamstresses to keep my dress as minimal as possible. The fabric and beading is still decadent and soft, the veil I've pulled behind me is beautifully sheer, hanging off a small crown glittering with silver jewels. This wedding isn't about the show, but about the substance, about what a union will mean for his kingdom.
The next few weeks past by so quickly, I hardly have time to grasp everything.Tomorrow, Tai and I will be married in front of a strategically chosen guest list. From then on, we will be closely monitoring the rebel presence, and the strength of the local villages support. If all goes well, I may not have to stay here much longer, but that is all hypothetical. Right now, nothing is known for certain.Jessa and I lie in bed together, night nearing on early morning. Sleeping isn't a realistic possibility right now, my mind busy trying to process everything that has been going on. Tomorrow will be a defining moment for all of us."Are you nervous?" Jessa asks sof
"I can't believe you convinced me into this."The golden glow of the lamp light above guides Tai and I down the street, the moonlight bathing the cobblestones of the street with a pale sheen. The darkness of the night is a stark contrast to this morning, when Tai approached me and asked me if I would come to dinner with him. I didn't expect us to go so far out from the estate."I promise it will be worth it Akara," Tai murmurs. I glance at him, his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his emerald eyes watching me with gentle intention. He's dressed nicely, simply. There is no evidence in his attire that he is a King, although it's so obvious in his face. He has a regal nature about him, the tilt of his lips, the sweep of his cheekbones...You could see one
I woke to all the feelings of frustration and anger having vanished, leaving a hollow feeling in my stomach. Another morning of waking up to my own cruel reality, and yet another day of trying to recover from it, trying to move on.As usual, the day dragged on, Tai gone off like he usually is, dealing with both the rebel presence, and the cruel reality of the war, which has been bothering the King more recently. He hasn't shared much with me about the war, other than that it's been a financial and emotional drain, knowing that he is sending men to die.My father never spoke much about the horrors of the war either, leaving much up to my imagination. All I know is that it's a battle between independent rebel groups within the Jade Province and the Scarlet Pr
I'm going to go home.Hours have passed since I spoke to Marek, since I saw what he was doing under Tai's demands. I've been pacing back in forth in my room since, wondering if I should bother packing the clothing Tai's people have brought from nearby villages. I don't want a reminder of this place once I leave...Even if I don't know where to go yet.I haven't changed, my clothing and hair still wet when I decide want my plan moving forward is.I need to get away, but quickly. If I tell Tai I'm leaving, he will surely allow it, although will attempt to convince me out of it. So I'm going to steal his band, the one that can transport a human from place to place
Tai spent the next week being closely monitored by healers, leaving me to my own vices.Most of the week I spent writing, trying to make sense of my tumultuous thoughts, finding a place for it all within my brain. When I finally felt like I had compartmentalised it all, I was exhausted, both emotionally and physically. At least I've healed, only what appears to be small scars the last reminder of what happened that night in the cave.Today I've forced myself outside. The morning has been glorious, the dewy grass glistening under the sunlight as I wander aimlessly through the gardens. However dark clouds chased me back inside, yet another storm threatening to roll in.