I had no idea how Jace had gotten hold of a sword even though slaves were not to have any weapons when fighting each other. But I could guess. It was Rose, wanting to have her slave win the fight, who gave Jace a sword.Sully jumped into my arms as soon as she entered our chamber. She hugged me tightly, as if I was one thing she cared about the most in the world. Even if it was a lie, I discovered it indeed made me feel better to think about it.“Thank you,” she said. “Thank you for saving him.”I hugged her back, just as tightly if not tighter.“I gave you my word, didn’t I?”In fact, it was not that hard. At least, not as hard as I thought it would be. Jace was not dumb. Just when he discovered someone was aiding him and not targeting him, he lured them in front of him so it was easier for me to shot at them.I pulled her back from the hug and checked her from head to toe. Her hands were not shaking anymore. I had noticed, whenever she was overly worried, or feeling an emotion stron
I sat with Theodore, drinking tea. I could not help thinking about what happened yesterday at bath. I was happy to use my mouth and hands. I would have done whatever Demian wanted me to do. He had kept his words and that was all that mattered.He said that Alexander would never know what he did, since Rose took care of the bodies of the slaves. Since Rose also helped Jace, she would never tell him.“What are you thinking?” Theodore asked and I felt my face burn. What was I even doing, thinking about what I did with my husband in the presence of his little brother?“Nothing. Just the hunt,” I lied.“Ah, it must have been your first time attending the hunt,” he said.“Why weren’t you there?” I asked.“I was sick. I fell from the stairs,” he said.“Fell?” It felt such a coincidence that he fell right before the hunt.“Did you see my limp? It’s more profound than before. It’s because of the fall,” Theodore explained.I did notice his limp and it was true that it was more profound. There w
I stared at the ceiling. The chamber seemed something between brown and golden as always. I had not opened the curtains. The only light was from the fire in the fireplace.I was not pregnant. Not yet. Once again, Rezef was disappointed, as he should be. Something was wrong with me. I should have been pregnant by now, but I was not.Rezef wanted a baby with me and then abandon me. He never said it, but I knew he would do it. After all, the one person he loved was Sully.I did not know how Sully felt about Rezef. At first, I thought she liked him. But then, I saw her slapping Rezef’s hand away when he touched her waist on the balcony at a dinner party at our home. They did not notice me, or at least, Rezef did not. At that time, I could almost swear that Sully placed her crimson gaze on me for a moment.Thinking about Sully was hard. She was the one I liked the most among my half-siblings. She never said anything bad about me. She was the one who taught me how to read and write since I
I wrapped the cardigan around me more tightly. It was chilly tonight. Even in the prayer room which did not have any window, it felt cold.I had prayed for Sully and Jace today like every other day. I prayed so God would keep them safe from the Silverclaws.But to be honest, I did not have much hope. If it were any other family, I would not worry about them so much, or at least, would not lose hope. However, it was the Silverclaws. If they would kill them, I would thank God. I worried they would keep them alive for too long and would torture them so much that they would wish they were dead.Among my siblings, I was closer to Sully than anyone else. I admired her. Although no one ever said it out loud, she was actually the bravest one among all of us. When we were kids, she would go down the dark stairs of basement with just a candle and retrieve the dolls Mother kept there because according to Father, we were wasting too much time on nonsense. Even as we grew older, there were not man
There were times I thought about my family. Most of the time, I wondered whether they thought of me too. Selina would think of me, since we were close. Mother would as well, for she loved me intensely. Kyle would not care. Father would only care about his reputation and honor, for if my purity were to be tainted, it would affect his so-called honor. Sierra was with child, so she might not care about anything else. I noticed, not without a sense of anger, that mothers or to-be mothers cared only about their children, whether they were yet to come to the world or not; they forgot previous relations and never thought for a second that someone dear to them might require a bit of their love and attention as well.Rose sat opposite to me, sipping wine. She was in a white attire again, with her pin-straight silver hair falling free onto her back. Her lips were blood-red, as if she had painted them with blood.“Have you decided?” she asked.I nodded. “You tried to help Jace, for which I am gr
Leo was someone that made me feel better about myself. Maxi was like that too. But it was mostly Leo, with his nonchalant attitude (though he was caring deep down) and his blatant truth, that sometimes sounded rude.Once I wore a light pink dress which belonged to Maxi. Maxi wore pants mostly at the academy. The pink dress was a gift from the orphanage on her birthday. She never wore it. I tried it on to see how it would look.“It looks weird, Sully. Light pink doesn’t suit you at all,” Leo commented openly. Although it hurt me a little, I soon realized he was right. There were some colors that suited some people and did not suit others.I had tried to act normal during dinner time. I could not let Alexander be suspicious. There was a possibility that he had no idea about my friendship with Leo.I had not seen Leo again, but he was surely at the estate. Probably in a different house nearby. I had not seen any carriage leave after all.I wondered if I could sneak out. Demian would be b
I followed Theodore, my heart thudding inside my chest. My hands were shaking. I was too anxious to speak. I was hoping Thedore was not playing a game with me. It did not seem like he was. He knew about Leo and my friendship and said he had known Leo for a long time. It was surprising.We reached his room. He opened the door and motioned for me to come inside. I was still reluctant, but forced my legs to walk into his room. He closed the door behind us.On one dark corner of the room, there was the same alchemist. The moonlight came through the window and fell on his face. I felt tears brimming my eyes. I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him. His arms were around me just as soon and he hugged me back as tightly as I hugged him.“Oh, Leo,” I sobbed into his shoulder.“You are okay,” he said, as if he was convincing himself of that point. “You are unharmed.”“I am,” I said.We pulled away and he held me at arm’s length to check if I was truly okay. He then kissed me on the forehead
“Demian!”“I don’t know why you act surprised whenever you see me,” he said. I could not see his face, but I could detect a slight hint of something in his face that I had never heard before.“That’s because you never use the door and you are pinning me down on the bed!”“Firstly, why use the door when there is a window? And secondly, I like to watch your ass move when you squirm,” he said. With that, he slapped my ass.I gasped.“Demian!”“That’s for going to another man’s room at night,” he said. “Your friend couldn’t meet you elsewhere?”So, Demian knew about everything. He seemed to know everything, unlike Alexander. Alexander mostly depended on Demian to give him information. It was obvious Demian kept a lot of things from his father.“How do you know?” I asked. There was no point in pretending when he had already known.“Darling, I keep an eye on you all the time, especially when you have no idea you are being watched,” he said. “And I do it myself. I do not rely on others to gi
Sully brushed her fingers on the wound and took them back just as quickly.“Does it hurt a lot?” she asked.To be honest, it did not hurt much. It was a small wound. But according to Sully, even a scratch mattered.“It can lead to infection if left untreated. A wound might be small, but you should treat it just the same way you would treat a serious wound,” she said knowingly. “I could make you a healing potion if I had the ingredients at hand.”“There is ointment in my chamber, Sully.”I told her where it was. While she went to get it, I relaxed in the hot water. The water was hotter than I preferred. Sully said it was perfect. I should have realized by now that the water she called perfect was scalding hot.Sully had the maids prepare the bath for herself. But when I came with a small injury from a knife on my arm, Sully told me to get in the tub instead.After brining the ointment, she first cleaned the wound with practiced hands. She dried the area, put a little ointment on it and
Rose helped me send the message. On the third moon, we would send Jace back. I would go later.“I can’t go before Demian goes somewhere far,” I said. “He keeps an eye on me all the time. He knows about everywhere I go and everything I do. Sometimes he can tell word for word of the conversations I had with other people.”“Does he not have work? He keeps giving Father the reports. How does he do that?” Rose asked.I shook my head. “I don’t know.”“Is he watching us right now?” Rose looked around.“No. He is in our chamber, taking a bath,” I said. “It is more dangerous when he says he is out. Because those times, I never know when he is watching me.”“Are you sure he is not watching us right now?”“He is not,” I said, although it felt wrong somehow to be so sure about it. Because, what if he was watching us? Demian could be anywhere. He could walk alongside you without you knowing anything about it. You could not hear him. Demian walked silently. Sometimes it was like he did not even bre
My arms shook, the books almost falling down the stairs. I took a deep breath and steadied myself. It would be a disaster if I dropped the holy books.My head had not been working straight since coming back from home. Father showed me and other family members another package he received from House Silverclaw. It contained a light brown finger- a man’s middle finger. Jace’s finger.Mother had wailed over it while Father cursed House Silverclaw and every member of the family. I had checked the finger. I checked every part of it.“It has a message,” I said, holding the severed finger in my hand.“What?” Father walked over to where I was sitting. He bent over my shoulder to take a look.“Inside the finger. There is something written on the other side of the skin,” I said. “Look, you can see from the bottom here. It’s not a real finger.”Father took it from me. Indeed, there was a message engraved inside.“Third moon, it says,” Father said.“Tonight is a full moon,” I said. We prayed all n
The tea was nice. Not too sweet. Clarissa did not like sweet things, Rose told me. So, I had the maids prepare salty cookies and tea. Clarissa arrived just in time. She nodded at me when she arrived.Rose told me to treat Clarissa like I would treat a normal person, so that was what I tried to do.“I hope you are doing well, Lady Clarissa,” I said as I gave a small bow. It was a sign of respect to bow to elders.She nodded.Even at dinner tables, she only drank blood, wine and tea with a metal straw through a small gap between her lips. She drank tea the same way with me. I tried not to stare too hard. That would seem rude.I told her about my life with Demian. She nodded along, rather kindly. She communicated with me in sign language. Rose had not told me that she knew sign language. As it turned out, I knew sign language as well. I learned it at the academy.“You look like your mother,” she said in sign language.“I do,” I said. I tried to do sign language as well, but Clarissa said
As usual, Theodore and I were at the library. Instead of his chamber, we spent our time at the library, reading books. Sometimes we both would read different books, sometimes he would listen and I read. I liked to read in silence, but Theodore sometimes insisted that I read to him. I did not want to disappoint him since he came to be library with me. I did not want to come to the library alone.In the afternoon most days, I would meet Rose. Rose said everything was going according to plan. She did not reveal the entire plan to me, although she acted like she did.“First, you need to gain the support of the wives,” Rose told me. “Dela and my mother already like you. Spend time with Clarissa. They live in three different part of the residence. In that way, no one will suspect anything if you go to that parts of the house.”She had a point. I had invited Clarissa to have tea with me and she accepted. I would have tea with her the next day. To be honest, I was rather nervous. How would we
Demian had been watching me in an odd way. He usually looked at me a lot. But now, he was blatantly staring at me regardless of the place we were in.“Who do you think it is?” I asked, not for the first time. “Is it Luke? But I don’t understand why he would do that. He might want to… you know, he might be attracted to my body, but I don’t see the point of his sending someone to kill me.”“I don’t know anything, Sully. I’m looking into it,” Demian said. He said the same thing every time I asked. It was getting tiresome. He was acting differently. I could barely recognize my husband.“What’s wrong?” I asked, placing my hand on his arm. His arm was strong and hard. “Did something happen?”He shook his head. “Nothing. I just have a lot of things on my mind.”I could not ask him what they were since he looked like he did not want to share.I lay my head on his lap. His whole body was like it was made with steel. It was not comfortable to lay on his lap, but I was in peace when I did it.“T
Sully was talking animatedly to my mother. She had gotten close to Mother. There was nothing common between her and Rosalia. Sully was everything Rosalia was not. The only thing common between them was the fact that both of them were beautiful. Mother liked her despite the differences.Sully giggled at something Mother said. Her eyes met mine for a second. She gave me a smile and returned her attention to Mother.I heard about the intruder that came into Sully’s room to kill her two nights ago. I did not have to hear about it to know the particulars.Because I sent that man.I wanted to see the real Sully. The one behind the veil. I wanted to see her being herself. For once, I wanted to glimpse at the person behind the face of the weak woman who was afraid of everything. I wanted to see the genius alchemist who made illegal potions, danced at brothels and was planning something dangerous behind everyone’s back.He was not supposed to kill her. He was going to frighten her a bit. If sh
I stared at the window, at the man coming inside my chamber. I lay still, watching him. He was not so tall, but not short either. He was wearing a cloak, perhaps dark green or red. I could not tell in the dark. But I could see the outline of him as he came near the bed towards me.My heart was calm. It was not thundering inside my ribcage like it did when I was anxious.The man bent over my body. I felt his musky breath on my face. I felt his fingers wrap around my throat. It grew tighter with each moment.I raised my hand from my side and stabbed the man in the neck with a dagger. It all happened very fast. He let out a small groan, clutching the side of his neck where I stabbed him. I pulled the dagger out and let him bleed out.It was amusing watching him bleed out on the ground. I sat on the bed, my feet dangling from the side, and watching him. There was blood on my right arm, but I did not care.I watched the life go out of his eyes and thought, not for the first time, who I was
The days were spent with me going to the library with Theodore, having tea with Rose and sometimes with Dela and Rosalia and then seeing my brother Jace in the dungeon every few days. Rose took me down there and showed me a cell that Alexander wanted to give to me.Jace was okay. Rose did not hurt him. But living in the dungeon was taking a toll on him. I could see it in his face. He did not look as lively and alive as before.“I’m fine. Just take care of yourself,” Jace would say every time I cried about his condition.“Demian treats me alright. I don’t have to live in a dungeon like you, Jace. I’m worried you will catch some sickness living in the filth. Rose, can’t you tell your father to move him elsewhere?” I looked up at Rose expectedly.Rose shook her head. “I wish I could, but you know as well as I do that it’s not possible. Father is mad enough that Jace is not dead.”Leo was still here. I had not had the chance to meet him again. I could not dare risk it. We could not let Al