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This was a situation that I never thought could happen so quickly in my life. And again, it was a very stressful and unexpected situation that I was in together with Elijah. I didn't know how I should react to what Elijah and I had done before. And I myself also didn't know how to properly say and express everything I was feeling right now to Elijah. Because I felt so scared.

I'm so scared that I'm going to mess things up now. I'm so afraid that my relationship with Elijah will turn out to be tenuous and awkward. I didn't want that to happen to either of us. But I really don't know the right way to proceed with my and Elijah's relationship now. I feel very hesitant.

My footsteps now even felt very weak. I don't seem to have enough strength, just to be able to walk to all the places that I don't even know where I want to go now. I had nowhere to go where I could just think clearly and calm myself down. I can't possibly return to The Bloodlust Moon Pack now.

Not while, my feelings and t