Charity"Is Daddy okay?" Harley whispers as we get ready for bed later on that night. It's been pretty quiet around our house since we got home, and I can understand why Harley's scared to speak any louder than what she is. Drew is… God I don't know what he is right now. It's hard to tell what the hell he's thinking, and that's the scariest part. He seems to be one part shocked, another part pissed."Daddy had a rough day," I answer as I brush her hair."Grandma said we should be good tonight," Justice speaks just as low as her sister did."Grandma was right, but that doesn't mean you have to be completely silent. Just because adults have rough days doesn't mean we're mad or upset with you." I stress this because I don't want them to think the shit we're going through is because of them.As a kid growing up, I didn't know what was going on with my mom, ever. All I knew was that we kept getting kicked out of places we lived, and I had to keep finding new friends. It wasn't
DrewAfter the day I've had, I'm dying to sink into the wet heat of my wife. There's nothing else that helps keep me grounded like being with her. Many men who live the biker lifestyle will say there's nothing like the freedom of straddling their bike and letting the wind blow through their hair. While that's true, and it is my freedom, my wife is pulpit where I kneel and beg God for forgiveness. Fuck she is my forgiveness. Anything I've ever done wrong in my life, I've worked through buried deep inside her heat. Right now I need that forgiveness, that understanding. I need something more than what I've been getting, and I know I'm going to get it from her."I don't wanna hurt you." My voice is brutally honest. "But I'm raw after today, and I need to feel. I need to know you're okay, I need to know I'm okay," I admit. "To know we're gonna make it through this and out on the other side. It feels like it's never going to be over."She reaches behind her, grasping my thigh in betwee
Drew"You ready?" I ask Harley as the two of us sit on my bike, her in front of me. Besides Charity, she's the most precious cargo I've ever carried on here, and it makes me happy she enjoys something I do. Charity and I lucked out with kids who share our interests.We've both got our helmets on, because that's what Charity requires when I have her on the bike. It's a warm day already and I wish I could take mine off. At least it's not a damn full-face one, but it's still warm enough while we're sitting here with no air flow."Y'all be careful," Charity warns as she and Justice walk to the SUV. She stops, giving us both a talking to. I know it's just as much for me, as it is for Harley. "I don't like that you'll be behind me." She grabs hold of Harley's hand. "I'd rather watch your back.""That's okay, Mom, it's our job to watch yours," Harley says the words just like a fucking grown up, I'm proud as hell of her. If there will ever be a female member of the Heaven Hill MC, it v
DrewEveryone thinks I'm going to work today, but I'm actually going to meet Dalton. He and I, we need to have a conversation, and we need to have it without others seeing or hearing it.Since he moved, we've been meeting at his and Mandy's home. This is something I don't want to bring to their front door, so we decide to meet someplace else today. A grove of trees near his house is our designated spot, which is far enough away from our regular stomping grounds no one should be seeing us. Dalton and Mandy live in another damn county, so if someone from the club is out here, especially since I know they don't have any business here, heads will roll. As I pull into the field, I see him already waiting on me."Morning," he greets as I get off my bike, pushing the kickstand down. "Morning," I answer, taking my gloves and helmet off. "Sorry, I had a hell of a time leaving today. Harley wanted to ride on the bike, Charity gave me shit, and it's been one thing after another."He
Charity"How has Drew been handling it?" Denise asks as we sit on her screened-in porch. I have my laptop with me because I truly intended to work, but now that we're talking, I'm not sure I can concentrate on what I need to. "He doesn't talk to me. Not about this, and I won't ask Liam. I don't want to break any of the trust they have in each other. If I do get up the courage to ask Drew, he just smiles and says there's nothing for me to worry about. Which pisses me off. Of course there's shit for me to worry about."Mandy has been the only person I've really been able to discuss things with, and even then I haven't told her much. I don't want her to get involved, and there's no way for me to know what Dalton's told her."Not great," I admit. "He's not sleeping well, he's having dreams, and he's losing weight. I think he's spending more time inside his head than he has since we were in high school."She takes a drink of her sweet tea. Her hair is beginning to show signs of agin
DrewThe sound of my gloved fist hitting the focus mitt reverberates off the empty concrete walls of our boxing complex. Before me, Tyler stands, bracing against the impact of my punch. No matter how hard I hit, he's always been able to withstand the force. Sweat flings in every direction as I try to punish my body enough so that I can sleep tonight without the nightmares. "Harder," he encourages. "Show me with the velocity of your punches, what you can't with words."That's what I need to hear to break down the dam holding all my feelings and emotions in. I throw hands harder and faster than I've ever thrown them before. I'm not sure how he's keeping up with me, but he is. It's always been that way with Tyler. He knows what I need, when I need it. We started working out together when I was a teenager who desperately wanted to control his anger. Now I'm an adult who wants to let that tight grasp he's had on the emotion for years go. I'm back to what I know, and what I know is
Charity"I gotta talk to you." I grab hold of Drew's hand as soon as he walks through the door of his parent's house. Making sure our girls didn't see us, I turn, whisper-hisssing so he can hear me. "Alone."We quickly take the stairs to his boyhood room, I shut the door, locking it behind us. It hasn't changed much since he moved out. The same comforter still decorates the bed, the one I slept with every night he'd sneak me up here. My favorite pillow still leans against the wall, and I bet over on the right side of the mattress there's still the stain where I lost my virginity to him on a night his parents had a club function.His eyebrows raise to his hairline. "Was 'talking to me' code for you wanna fuck like we use to as teenagers?" He grins, laying back against his old bed, supporting himself with his elbows."No," I laugh, rolling my eyes. "I really want to talk to you."Seeing him leaning back like that though, his long legs kicked out in front of him and not a care i
Charity"I need chocolate and I need it stat," I announce, walking into Southern Delights, Harper's bakery.She's about to shut down for the day, but I can tell by the look on her face, she's excited. It's been a hot minute since all us girls got together to talk about our husbands and to eat with the abandonment of a girls' night out. The only difference is we can't have it at our normal hangout, El Mazatlan, and we've been told not to get drunk either. It's a girls' night out, lite."You're in luck! I made us brownies and some chocolate chip cookies. I have some chocolate ganache to top it with if that's your thing too, along with some strawberries." She answers all my prayers as I walk through the sitting area and past the counter. Giving her a hug, I inhale deeply, loving the smell of the treats. "If this was a bar, I'd be belly up."She laughs, giving me a grin. "Go on back, Christine's already here. We're just waiting on Tatum and B. Everybody else has shit to do.""