CharityAfter the morning I had, my nerves are completely shot, yet here I stand in the Heaven Hill clubhouse` helping my mother-in-law prepare dinner."Are you okay?" Denise asks as she gets a good look at me. "Liam told me what happened."For the first time in my life I don't feel comfortable talking in the clubhouse. This is the place I'd come as a teenager when my home life got to be too much. When I found out I was pregnant, this is where I came to tell Drew, and again after the ultrasound, we came straight here. This place is my comfortable, and now it's ruined because someone here isn't the family I always thought they were."No." I shake my head. "I'm not okay, and the shittiest thing about it is I don't feel like we can talk openly about it, obviously. This has always been the place I've come to, Denise."I'm holding back threatening tears. When I became so emotional, I'll never know. Maybe it's age, maybe it's what's happening to us right now. "I know, this is wh
Charity"You going to get your hair done tonight?" I ask Mandy as I catch what time it is. Thirty more minutes and we're out the door."At Christine's? Yes! You know I live for these nights she does especially for us." She points to her ponytail. "Plus I've been living with these roots for long enough.""They're not bad.""They're gray! Pregnancy did a number on my body. I still hate you because not only did you not get many stretchmarks with twins, but you didn't get gray hair.""Yeah but I had horrible heartburn. Remember, I couldn't sleep and I hated Drew for half the pregnancy because I had such heartburn?"Mandy giggles. "He slept over at the house more often than he slept at your apartment because you would get so mad at him.""It was an irrational anger that I couldn't let go." I defend myself. "And those girls came out with a headful of hair, so it is what it is, I guess." I glance at the clock again, seeing only five minutes have passed. "Fuck it, we're closing e
DrewStorm clouds are rolling in across the Kentucky sky. They're dark, ominous, and they've caused us to go ahead and close up shop for the day. Not many cars are even on the road. It's like everyone knows the storm heading our way is going to be a big one. Nobody is ready to leave since it's a given we'll get rained on. No, the group of us are standing in one of the garage bays, watching the swiftly moving sky above us. Across the street, behind and beside Cash's Customs, is a field, corn growing high, the stalks blowing in the wind, this way and that. "Feels electric out here." Dalton folds his arms across his chest. "Already gettin' cooler too. It's been too hot lately, whatever happens is gonna be big.""Yeah," I agree. "I texted Charity about an hour ago and told her to either stay at the office or come home, but decide which one it was going to be, and stay. She texted me that all the girls have convened on her office.""Even Harper?" Remy asks, as he walks up to us.
DrewThe rain is pouring in sheets in front of the tow truck. Even though it's a heavy vehicle, it's still hard to keep it on the road. I'm white-knuckling it as we pull around the downtown square. Construction that's been abandoned since the storm came upon us moves the other drivers braving the elements to one lane. "Fucking go!" I beep the horn, causing the person in front of me to double-tap their brakes. "Double-tap all you want motherfucker!" I yell, though they can't hear me over the sound of the water beating around us."Calm down." Jagger speaks as softly as he can. "They don't know what's happening and they're just trying to make it to wherever they're going.""I know!" I glare at him, growling when we have to stop for a red light. "I know," I say again, this time calmer, but only barely. "You don't understand.""The fuck I don't." He grabs a cigarette out of the box he carries in his jeans. "Do you not remember what happened with B and that damn principal? Took ye
Charity"Is Daddy okay?" Harley whispers as we get ready for bed later on that night. It's been pretty quiet around our house since we got home, and I can understand why Harley's scared to speak any louder than what she is. Drew is… God I don't know what he is right now. It's hard to tell what the hell he's thinking, and that's the scariest part. He seems to be one part shocked, another part pissed."Daddy had a rough day," I answer as I brush her hair."Grandma said we should be good tonight," Justice speaks just as low as her sister did."Grandma was right, but that doesn't mean you have to be completely silent. Just because adults have rough days doesn't mean we're mad or upset with you." I stress this because I don't want them to think the shit we're going through is because of them.As a kid growing up, I didn't know what was going on with my mom, ever. All I knew was that we kept getting kicked out of places we lived, and I had to keep finding new friends. It wasn't
DrewAfter the day I've had, I'm dying to sink into the wet heat of my wife. There's nothing else that helps keep me grounded like being with her. Many men who live the biker lifestyle will say there's nothing like the freedom of straddling their bike and letting the wind blow through their hair. While that's true, and it is my freedom, my wife is pulpit where I kneel and beg God for forgiveness. Fuck she is my forgiveness. Anything I've ever done wrong in my life, I've worked through buried deep inside her heat. Right now I need that forgiveness, that understanding. I need something more than what I've been getting, and I know I'm going to get it from her."I don't wanna hurt you." My voice is brutally honest. "But I'm raw after today, and I need to feel. I need to know you're okay, I need to know I'm okay," I admit. "To know we're gonna make it through this and out on the other side. It feels like it's never going to be over."She reaches behind her, grasping my thigh in betwee
Drew"You ready?" I ask Harley as the two of us sit on my bike, her in front of me. Besides Charity, she's the most precious cargo I've ever carried on here, and it makes me happy she enjoys something I do. Charity and I lucked out with kids who share our interests.We've both got our helmets on, because that's what Charity requires when I have her on the bike. It's a warm day already and I wish I could take mine off. At least it's not a damn full-face one, but it's still warm enough while we're sitting here with no air flow."Y'all be careful," Charity warns as she and Justice walk to the SUV. She stops, giving us both a talking to. I know it's just as much for me, as it is for Harley. "I don't like that you'll be behind me." She grabs hold of Harley's hand. "I'd rather watch your back.""That's okay, Mom, it's our job to watch yours," Harley says the words just like a fucking grown up, I'm proud as hell of her. If there will ever be a female member of the Heaven Hill MC, it v
DrewEveryone thinks I'm going to work today, but I'm actually going to meet Dalton. He and I, we need to have a conversation, and we need to have it without others seeing or hearing it.Since he moved, we've been meeting at his and Mandy's home. This is something I don't want to bring to their front door, so we decide to meet someplace else today. A grove of trees near his house is our designated spot, which is far enough away from our regular stomping grounds no one should be seeing us. Dalton and Mandy live in another damn county, so if someone from the club is out here, especially since I know they don't have any business here, heads will roll. As I pull into the field, I see him already waiting on me."Morning," he greets as I get off my bike, pushing the kickstand down. "Morning," I answer, taking my gloves and helmet off. "Sorry, I had a hell of a time leaving today. Harley wanted to ride on the bike, Charity gave me shit, and it's been one thing after another."He