Addie"Well you look like you had a good time over the weekend." I'm picking Tatum up from Cash's shop so the two of us can go get our hair done together. I haven't seen her in a few days, and as my eyes travel over her face, she looks like an entirely different person. I wonder if I look different to her too. Wonder if she can tell things have been changing for me, that I've been spending more time than I should at Mayhem, that I'm getting closer than I need to be to Wild. I'd love to tell her about what all is going on with me, but this is her time, this is her love story with Rem, I have nothing to do with it.When we get far enough away from the shop, she lets out the girliest scream I've ever heard from her. "It was absolutely amazing!"I face her, my eyes shining with a laughter that I'm trying to keep to myself. "I'm excited for you and so happy that the two of you got to spend time together."As far as I know the two of them haven't done the deed yet, and this is my
Wild"I've gotta go make this payment, and then I'll be in to work," I tell Skunk as I grab my wallet and cell phone, along with my jacket. "I shouldn't be too late.""Take your time, I got it if you are," he answers from where he lays on the couch, blowing smoke toward the ceiling. I'm still amazed by how much this dude smokes."I've gotta go out to their clubhouse, you think I'll make it back in time?" I have directions, but since I'm not completely familiar with Bowling Green yet, I'm not sure what kind of drive time I'm looking at. "Depends on how fast you can take those roads, some of them are curvy. Just plan on being late. Not a big deal dude."I truly aspire to live my life giving as few fucks as Skunk does. I'm sure it's because he's high all the time, but damn. "See ya."He flicks a hand at me, his gaze doesn't even move to me as I head out the door. Walking slowly down the stairs, I come to a realization. If I'm going to stay here, which after the night with Add
AddieSitting at the table in the middle of the clubhouse with Wild a few chairs down from me is not a position I'd ever thought I'd be in the day after we slept together. Life is what it is though, and sometimes that bitch likes to throw curveballs. Luckily for me, the people at this table are inquisitive fuckers. "How'd you end up here?" Mom asks as she passes him the bread. Never mind he's already answered the question a few times, she still wants it answered again.He's nice though, doesn't even sigh as he pushes into the explanation again. "My bike threw a rod right off exit twenty-eight. Coasted into the gas station, and they showed up." He points to Jagger and Layne. "Pretty lucky for you." She eyes Steele."Yeah, somebody told me you all watch that exit, but I'm very glad you do.""I'm pretty sure that somebody was Skunk. For some reason he seems to act like we're the government. He's got so many conspiracy theories surrounding us and this place, I'm surprised he
AddieFebruary"Can you please cover for me with Mom?" Caelin is begging me as he stands outside of CRISIS. "Just tell her I didn't feel well.""No." I cross my arms over my chest and shake my head vigorously at him. "You've got to learn to take your punishment, bro. You can't be doing the shit you're doing and then expect everyone to bail you out time and time again. It's not fair."He huffs. "You weren't all roses and unicorns two years ago, either. I hope you realize that."I give him a pointed glare. "Oh I do, but I didn't let my freak flag fly until I was out from under their roof. You've got to play the game, Cae. They'll loosen up, but you've got to prove to them you're ready for it."He swallows hard. "I just want them to look at me like I'm a man.""Who?""The guys in the club. If I'm gonna follow in Dad's footsteps, they've got to stop looking at me like I'm a screwup."I'm freezing out here, talking to him, but this is the most he's been willing to share wi
AddieI shouldn't be here. I absolutely shouldn't be here. The thought keeps running through my head as I exit my SUV, letting the door slam loudly. Truth be told I'm not really in the mood tonight, but I want to see Wild. I'm dying to know what happened with the house Jagger took him to see, and we've not exchanged phone numbers, so it's not like I can text him.Tate is out with Remy again, and instead of being stuck alone, I decide very quickly that I'd much rather be watching Wild mix a few drinks behind the bar. And maybe later, I can entice him with the barely-there bra and panty set I have on under this dress.A smile on my face, I plant my feet on the asphalt, get my bearings, and start walking for the entrance. It's a cold night, spitting rain, almost sleet, but I wore this dress and these heels for the man behind the bar, and I'll be damned if he doesn't see me in them. My fingers are reaching for the front door when I feel someone grab me from behind and drag me behind
WildIt's quiet when I start to regain consciousness and I wonder if I'm dead. I've never been in a place that's been this quiet before. Back home there was always the sounds of the road. The house sat so close to the state route, sometimes semis would cause the piece of shit shack to shake. There were times, when I'd get a hair up my ass and take off on my bike, that I would sleep on the streets. Never fully asleep, it wasn't safe to let slumber take you into its depths. As quick as you allowed your body to relax, someone would be there stealing what was rightfully yours. Then my grandpa died and I never heard peace again. Always his words of what I should have done with my life rang in my ears. But this? This is peace and quiet. Surely you can only get that when you've reached the other side. Right?"Wilder, if you can hear me, wake up." I'm not sure who this woman is speaking to me, but I like her voice a lot. Fighting through what feels like a drug-induced sleep I wake up, g
WildThe water flowing through my hair feels better than I ever imagined it would. There have been times in my life where I wasn't in a position to be able to take a shower. When clean clothes weren't an option, and when hygiene wasn't at the forefront of my mind – surviving was. But since I've been out on my own, not having to worry about others, I've made it a point not to be who I was before. That kid in school who wore dirty clothes, who maybe hadn't had a shower in a few days, and who looked like they could use a brush through their hair. Seeing the way I had looked in that mirror today? It'd taken me back to a time I thought I'd moved far away from. Knowing that Addie came over to help me? Means the world to me, even if she'll never know it. "That feels so good," I moan as she cups her hand over my forehead and pours the warm water with a cup. She's kind of helped me shower and given me a sponge bath when my legs could no longer handle my weight. She changed into a pair o
AddieA: Hey Mom, Wilder needs someone to stay with him. Because I've had medical training with CRISIS, I've offered to be that person. My hands shake as I send the text. I worry that she can see straight through me, that she knows what's going on without me telling her. I also know he can't be by himself. There's no way in hell he'll be able to take care of things on his own, and I'm not in the business of letting someone who took a knife for me, fend for himself.M: Are you sure? We can do a rotation. A: No, I feel like this is something I need to do. Ya know, time for me to take on more responsibility.I hope she believes the lie, but I'm worried. Worried that if I don't tell people I'm here, then they might show up and I might have to explain why I'm the one taking care of him. What if someone drives by, sees my SUV and starts asking questions? It's better for me to get ahead of this than to live the lies I've been living for so long. M: Alright, if you need help jus