chapter 2 : Home sweet home

Isaacs POV//

It's almost midnight of the sixth day since we arrived home after our last battle. This is the first time I didn't loose a man in the fight although a lot are in a bad shape, that's why I still haven't got a proper night sleep. I can hear the agonising screams from the hospital, I am worried, tired and exhausted but the bunch of files and other shit that is on my desk just seems to never end . My phone buzzes non stop and I still didn't finish the report. My head goes round I can't focus properly on one task and it is the beginning of the winter season that means time for the new recruits. In two days will be the meeting in the Castle and I don't think I will be ready with the shit by then. Maybe I should send Felix my Beta , he is a smart guy and knows what we need in our team. My fucking phone buzzes again, it's Jackson the Major of my Unit. I pick up with my all friendly hello "God damn Jacks what the fuck are you calling me for at midnigh?" " Sorry Alpha but the guys won't shut up, I know you are still awake I didn't want to mindlink you so can decide whether pick up or not. Can we have a quick talk? I'll bring Coffee and some snacks. " If it's just a quick talk why does he want to bring snacks and coffee? Well I can think of one thing I know what he wants to talk about and I am not down for that talk again but I also can't leave him dealing with that shit by him self I sigh and answer:" Fine , I'm in my office". its all I said before hanging up the phone.

Less than five minutes later the fucking knock on my door." come in Jackson ". He knows that I'm well aware of what kind of talk that is so he just placed the coffee and the snack on my desk and take the seat opposite of me. We drink the coffee in silence and it fucking killing me! So I break the silence " You're here because the team asked you to talk about the Blood moon Ball again, right ?"

"Yes Alpha, I understand your concern, but the guys are devastated. We are locked up in the base for about 10 years now and all we do ist get out to fight. They need it, their spirit is drained and they're lonely. Maybe you think about it again."

I did, I do , I think about it every day. But I can't allow them to go. I saw what it does to our kind when we loose our loved ones and I told them but they don't get it. Don't get me wrong I am not a monster, if anyone by accident finde their mate they are welcome to bring them here, but I cant bring myself to let them search for their love, it is a distraction and a heartbreking one. I understand their position but how can I explain to them that I don't want them harm and that I am not a Heartless monster. The moment their loved ones die it will kill them or what will happen when they die? What will happen to their mates when they don't come back ? I will be the one to tell their mates what happend , I am the one that hast to deal with the aftermath. I was so in my own mind that I forgot to answer, so Jackson startet talking again " Please just think about it, the boys could use some fun."

" Well maybe they just should go to the whore house like normal men" is all I could answer, and Jacks looks at me like I just hit him in the face to speakless to say something. After some minutes I started again " Look Jacks of all people you should understand why I try to keep the guys away from the Ball. Remember in what hell you yourself burned after your mate died. I need the guy focused , I need them ready to fight and to die. We can't risk them to loose their mind."

It Was a hard Punch, the look of devastation on his face is a hard pill to swallow but I had to say that. He must understand what I mean, I don't want my men to go through hell like he did. It killed me to see my friend like that, he almost lost it, even tried to kill himself. Finally he look me in the eyes and say" I know, I get it. But no matter how bad the end is, to have someone that loves you unconditional, gives you everything you need and reads your every wish from your eyes is something everyone should feel at least one time in his life. You will understand that as soon as you meet your mate."

Well now I'm pissed " First of all I don't want nor need a mate. Second never talk to me like that again I'm not a child I am your fucking Alpha!" Maybe I am harsh but I told him and my dumb Beta I don't want a mate and I hope I never meet her, everyone should have understand that by now. I don't need a stupid woman to mess up my thoughts and life, I can do that perfectly on my own. If I need distraction or just some fun I know who to call for.

I must look furious right know because Jacks looks a bit scared , and I can smell his fear, my men know what will happen if I get furious, he begins to apologise but I stop him " it's OK, I get . But I have a lot more shit to deal with. Let me finish my work and let's get over with the Recruits Battles. After that I will think about the Ball. I get that they are lonely, so if I agree and the shit goes down, their deaths will be on you! And now get the fuck out of my office before I really loose my shit."

" Yes of course and thanks Alpha."

" Yeah what ever." With that he quickly left my office. Well fuck , I guess I just indirectly agreed to let them go. Now my head is complety fucked, and since I now won't get any shit done I will get me some Whisky and call Felix. I am now ceartin that he will deal with the new recruits, I have enough shit to deal with.

It was 20 minutes later , I was downstairs in the kitchen and finally found the whisky bottle, I sit down at the counter not even bothering to get a glass. I just took three big sips from the bottle and Dail Felix number. He picks up right away " Hey Isaacs what's up?" Well nice to know that it was a fucking bad idea to give my childhood friend the Beta position, that fucker has no respect. " Felix I want you to drive down to the Battle Castle and get us some new recruits. I don't want to deal with that." It's quiet for to long so I ask " Is that a fucking problem or did you just forgot how to speak?"

"Sorry Alpha I am a but shocked. I mean I am honored but still shocked. You want me to go by myself? What happend?" Look at that smart fucker, I laugh in my head " Yes , I'm tired of the whole shit here. I have work to do and it looks like I just agreed to Jacks to let the dumb basters to attempt the Ball."

" Damn! That's fucked up" Felix says in a serious tone, well at least he understands me in this matter. " I will get it done and promise I won't mess this up. I accompanied you 7 times so I know what to do don't worry. And about the boys and the Ball, maybe it's not that bad. I mean how bad can our luck be? I don't belive that many of them will meet their mates, maybe 5 or 6 men, that would be not that bad right?" Yes he's right maybe I worrie to much , not all of them will find their mates, the most will just have a good night maybe a good fuck and then they come home with a good mood. " You're right. It won't be that bad. Sex , drugs and rock'n'roll is what the most of then will get." I say and relax a bit at that thoughts. " See, a positive thinking is much better and now tell me how many recruits I should bring back home? Only good fighters? skilled and gifted boys? Or do you need some strategic minds as well?"

That's a talk I will enjoy! " It doesn't really matter we didn't lost much men this year but a bunch of fresh faces ,skilled fighters and fuckes to torture on the Training ground will light up our moods" I say laughing out laud while walking to the garden door to get some air. " That looks definitely like a job for me. I will get you some pretty new toys to fuck up" Felix says amused.

" And While you are there look for out for Victor Varges or one of his boys. I want to have a chat with one of them for some time but aperently didn't have the schedule. When you see one if them give them my number .The Varges are one of the strongest bloodlines around and one of the richest Families, their support could help us a lot" I say while thinking about my guys that are from poor families and send their money home. If I could get in business with the Varges I could raise their pays, I know what financial struggles are. I myself grew up being poor since my grandfather messed with the wrong people and we God kicked out of the Elite. They took all business, the money , the titles and even his power from him. My father being one of the rare dragons that could turn himself into an monstrous creature fight for our social restoration and aperently got enough respect to start building his business and with my help we got our family the rightful respect and money back. Still I think I can get more for my men and their families' sake.

" Sure I can do that. I will go packing and you should get some whiskey and drink yourself to sleep." Felix my friend that always knows how to cheer me up , and what I need .What better friend and Beta could I ask for? When he just would stop pushing me to long therm relationships and finding that fucking mate of mine he would be perfect. " I am already on it bro. I'm in the kitchen drinking the whole bottle and thinking about the ways I could kill you for ordering me around you sucker " I say amused.

I hear a dull laugh " I am so sorry , oh big almighty Alpha, please forgive me my audacity and spear my life!"

" Stop talking Bullshit and get ready, you have to be at the Castle by tomorrow!" I say laughing and hang up the phone before he can answer. I sit down on the stairs at the kitchen door and look at the sky the stars being the only light around since everyone is at sleep or in the hall on the other side of our house. I drink the bottle of Irish whisky and enjoy my quiet alone time, its been a while since I got some rest , alway sbusy and always someoneis around or mindlinkin me.

After an hour and an empty Bottle I'm am still not ready to sleep. Maybe I should Call Lydia and get me a good night fuck. It could help me sleep, it always does. I get my phone from the back pocket of my jeans and Dail her number, to my luck she is still awake and picks up right away. " Hello handsome , what a pleasure to hear from you after so long. How have you been? Did you miss me honey? Couse I sure did!" Did I say luck?

After her words I immediately regret calling her, she sometimes forget the terms we both agreed to. Just sex nothing more , but she always tries to get to me maybe it's time I search for another woman to play around with before this shit goes down. " Lydia how often do I have to tell you to stop his shit! I just wanted a good night fuck , as we agreed a couple of years ago. But now I'm not in the mood anymore. God damn woman can't you just shut you shit ones!" I say and hang up the phone.

To my displease she call back right away, I sigh and pick up " What the fuck do you want? Fo you have a death wish or why do you dare to call me back?" I hear a shaky breath an know she understands that she fucked up and made me mad. " I'm sorry Alpha I crossed the lines. If you need me to come for the night or just the hour I will be on my way ."

I really need a good fuck after my day so I accept her offer: " Fine, be in my office in 20 minutes but one wrong word out of you mouth and I will snap you neck!" sayed so I hung up and start to make my way back to the office. I didn't mean it , I would dare to kill her , but she has to learn her place.