An hour or two must have passed from the time I was sitting next to the wall waiting to meet the man I was supposed to marry - or at least it felt that long to me.
Knots were continuously tied in my stomach as I every strange face that passed me I expected to be him. It was nauseating and tiring to sit around and wait for him because, in all honesty, I didn't know what to expect. My father had only mentioned once that he was older than me - three years to be exact but that was all I knew.
"Are you the girl who's engaged to Mr. Matthau's son?"
I almost didn't hear the question as a thousand thoughts stirred my head, the nauseating feeling I had worsening.
"Ye-Yes." I stuttered as I looked to my right at the woman in pink who had taken a seat next to me. Her face was plump and pinched but it was cheerful and welcoming, her voice nice and soothing like a mother's.
"I'm surprised that a young lady like you would be getting married so soon. I must say, it's quite admirable that a girl of your age would be settling down so quickly - It's not my place to say but I think a girl as young and as beautiful as you should be enjoying her youth rather than being married so quickly but never mind that from the moment I saw you walk in with Mr. Matthau I knew you were a decent girl. I knew you were the one who was going to marry Kerrick."
"Kerrick?" Even though I didn't know him yet, I felt a strange tinge of emotion just at the mention of his name.
His name sounded so strange yet it stirred a warm feeling inside me.
"Kerrick, what is he like?" The woman narrowed her eyes at me strangely before I moved quickly to clarify my words. "I mean from your perspective."
"Oh, well there's not much I can say about him; he's always so silent and he keeps to himself."
"Oh."
"Well, I'm just glad that he's found someone who can understand him!" She said patting me on the shoulder.
I knew I couldn't say anything and the nauseating feeling I had got worse. At that moment I felt like I needed to get away. I wanted to be alone and lock myself in a room for at least an hour so I could settle my nerves and calm my head. The way I felt made me not want to talk to anyone, I just wanted to gather myself before I met him.
I stood up abruptly and looked around the room for a bathroom where I could go and splash water on my face to wake myself up but much to my dismay I saw my father's friend heading my way. My heart slammed against my chest as he smirked at me from across the room but I relaxed when I saw that he had no one with him.
I took my seat again and waited for him to make his way up to me, the nauseating feeling I had dying down when he approached me.
"It seems that I can't find him anywhere," He said disappointed. "I don't know where he's gone. He doesn't normally move around this much."
Even though I didn't say anything, my heart did a summersault in joy. Relief poured through my body as I let out an unrestrained sigh.
"Oh, are you looking for your son? He's in the room right behind us!"
My eyes nearly bulged out of their sockets when the lady next to me spoke.
All this time he was in the room behind me.
Although I couldn't see it, I knew my face had paled considerably and my hands were shaking, cold.
All this time he was right behind me.
"Oh," He said a little disdainfully. "Well I guess you can go and meet him now," he said motioning to me.
I silently stood up, the noise and commotion from everything around me seemingly paled as my heart drummed away.
I walked up to the door that was not too far from me and pushed it open, not bothering to pause but instead facing the full force of what was to come.
I walked into the room and scanned it but saw no one.
He wasn't there.
I had to quickly find a chair because my heart felt weak from the continuous summersaults of emotions it was going through.
I wasn't sure if I was supposed to feel relieved or stressed because of the continuous delays in our meeting but I took the opportunity of being in this empty room to draw deep breaths and run my hands through my hair.
I slouched back in my chair and sighed once more before I heard the snap of the lock from the door across the room from me - which I hadn't noticed until that moment open.
I flew up from my seat and instantly glued my eyes on him, the man who was standing in front of me.
He stared back, looking me directly in my eyes as I did the same. In the soft engulfing silence of the room, I knew it was him.
I almost couldn't breathe as I stared at him, my airways feeling like they were closing.
His eyes were so dark and engulfing, they made shivers run up my spine. They were so cold and empty. I couldn't feel anything from them, no warmth, happiness, or even discontent. They were just apathetic to the situation.
I quickly moved to take in the rest of his image, which was thankfully not as I had expected.
He was fairly handsome but not exceedingly gorgeous yet his stature was impressive and his image far from ugliness or even plainness.
His hair was the darkest shade of brown I had ever seen. If it was one shade darker it would've been a stunning black.
I soon had to tear myself away from his image as he continued staring at me. I couldn't feel anything from his obscure gaze and I was unaware of what he was thinking about me.
As the seconds ticked by a growing unease filled the room and all the time his piercing eyes were still on me. The silence began ramming loudly against my eardrums as he made no effort to introduce himself and I was too petrified to do the same.
My legs wobbled away as he took a step towards me and I had to quickly sit back in my chair to prevent myself from faltering.
He continued to walk towards me until he stopped, looked at the door then exited the room.
I practically gasped as I drew in heavy breaths. A surge of heat filled my chest in contrast to my cold hands. The eeriness of our meeting had taken the breath out of me but I was glad that it was over.
***
"Delancy, what's going on?" Daniel asked sheepishly.
When I returned home a swarm of questions awaited me.
"We were supposed to go out today! Where were you!?" Victoria frowned.
"Who was that man that came here?" Samantha relentlessly questioned.
I crumpled the hem of my dress with my clenched hands as I leaned back against the counter. I wasn't sure what to tell them but I knew the only thing I could was the truth.
"Delancy, what's going on?" Daniel repeated.
"I'm getting married," I said slowly causing the three of them to fall silent.
Confusion, surprise, and utter disbelief painted their faces as they stared at me but my head was too clouded for me to say anything else.
"You're joking right?" Daniel asked while Sam and Tori continued gaping at me.
"No, I'm not. I'm getting married at the end of the month." As I went on explaining that the man who had come earlier was the father of the man I was going to marry, it only made things more complicated.
"B-But Delancy, you never told us you liked someone."
"Why didn't you tell us you had a boyfriend?" Samantha practically squealed.
"I forgot," I said sarcastically, even though I wasn't sure they knew it was.
"I don't believe it! We're your best friends and you didn't even tell us you met someone!" Samantha continued.
"The last time you had a crush, you couldn't stop talking about it and now you're getting married and you didn't even tell us!" Victoria ground out angrily but I could only nod in agreement.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier but it's complicated."
"Okay all right, we'll let you slide but you better make us bridesmaids or else we'll never forgive you!" Samantha chuckled.
I sighed unable to share in their enthusiasm because I knew the truth of the situation and also the fact I didn't want to get married.
I turned away to revel in my marriage but I noticed Daniel was silent.
"You're getting married?" He asked, his voice still sounding shocked.
I knew Daniel was the type of person who didn't understand change well. It was partly the reason he always acted like a child and a little brother to me but I also knew my situation was beyond explaining to him.
"Don't worry, it's okay I'm not going to change because of this. Even though I'm getting married I'll still come around. I'll still be the same, Delancy." I reassured him even though I wasn't sure if that was true.
As much as I wanted to stay forever with them, I knew I was leaving and my future was uncertain but somehow I hoped that my new life was going to be easier to move on to than I felt.
I patted down the front of my dress as I vaguely looked across the room at everyone that was crossing the floor. I felt the soft silkiness of the fabric against my fingers as I tried to straighten myself up so I could look more presentable because after all, it was my wedding day.I continued gazing across the room blankly at all the people that were there, everyone looking cheerful and happy as they enjoyed my wedding reception while I on the other hand sat tautly and stared.It was extremely difficult for me to partake in anything contently because, in all honesty, I didn't know how to feel. I felt so numb and cold towards everything and everyone that I didn't even know myself. No one knew how numb I was feeling, virtually unable to feel anything. I was unable to laugh or even smile at my wedding but more importantly, I didn't feel like a bride. I didn't feel like I was married and It didn't feel like my wedding day.The tears, laughter, happiness, and overabundance of joy that surr
My eyes slowly cracked open from a gentle nudge I felt on my side before I sat up and squinted from the brightness in the room. I started rubbing my eyes until they adjusted to the light before I began noticing the unfamiliarity of the room I was in. As I looked down at my crumpled wedding dress, the reality of the day before slowly came crashing back down on me."Get up."My eyes quickly shot up to the person standing over me, his appearance grimacing and intimidating."You... I mean -""Change into something else." He abruptly said before I could gather myself."I-, I don't know where you've put my belongings," I whispered softly while tearing myself from his cold gaze.He walked away, signaling for me to follow him so I got up quickly and matched his pace.I rubbed the back of my neck as I ascended the stairs, the crick in my back worsening as I thought of the uncomfortable position I slept in on the couch.As we walked together without saying a word, I reluctantly viewed the walls
I slowly opened my eyes as I felt the morning sun shining on my face before cringing as I tried to sit up because of the pain I felt in my stomach and the area between my legs. I glanced around the room and realized that Kerrick wasn't there so I pulled myself out of bed, the sheets that barely covered my body crumpling to the floor.As soon as I made it to my feet, I went and got a towel to wrap around myself before quickly stumbling out of the room and making my way to the bathroom, my breath hazy as I remembered what had happened.As I showered, recalling what happened, I eventually had to slump down to the floor of the bath because I couldn't stop thinking about it.My breathing was heavy and flashbacks of what had happened came crashing back into my mind, the sound of the water beating down on my body fading.As soon as he began, the pain I felt was so horrible I almost fell apart. I wasn't even sure how everything had ended. My mind eventually sunk away from the mental stress be
I was folding a few items of clothing as I watched Kerrick button up his shirt, his gaze directed toward his reflection in the mirror.I couldn't help staring at his back silently because I was still surprised that he hadn't made any sexual advances toward me in the night.I turned back to the clothes I was folding when I noticed from the corner of my eyes that he was watching me quietly.I didn't utter a single word and only moved to put the clothes away before I noticed he had also moved towards the door before leaving the room.He was just too puzzling for me, his eyes too obscured for me to see the person behind them.I left the room shortly after to meet him downstairs as he gathered his things together. He was already leaving for work even though we had only spent two days together.I knew this was a busy time of year for him as his father had told me - which was partly the reason why we didn't have a honeymoon and only a few days together but I didn't want him to leave yet. Pos
I wasn't strong.I wasn't anything when I was around Kerrick except for a lingering shadow.Since the day I had married him, all I had been capable of doing was cowering and shying away from him whenever he was around. On multiple occasions, I had tried to understand him and his strange ways but my strength was always lost under his scrutinizing gaze. With each day that passed it seemed like I wasn't any closer to unraveling him as the day we'd first met and it was tiring because we were living like two strangers under the same roof.I stared over at Kerrick as I watched him meticulously put his things together for work before sighing as he gazed at me for a brief moment before going back to what he was doing.I didn't know why, but it made me heartbroken to know I couldn't do anything to garner his attention. He didn't seem to care about me in any way and as far as I could see, I did not affect his life.I had given up so much for him, gone through so much, and suffered a lot during
I paced the floor of the living room contemplating what tasks I had left to complete around the house.I was alone at home again because Kerrick was at work, so I tried my best to pass time preoccupying myself with something to do. I already did everything I needed to for the morning because it was only two of us so there wasn't much, to begin with.Three weeks went by since I was in this house, but it still felt strange being here.It didn't feel like my home but Kerrick's, so I always felt like I was intruding in his personal space whenever he was around and I was just a stranger here.I missed my home with my father. I missed the curtains, the carpets, the floors - everything I longed for back at my old house.What was worst of all was the fact I had no one to talk to.Kerrick mentioned earlier that we didn't have any neighbors. From what he knew, they were business people who traveled frequently so they were never around.I missed gossiping and interacting with everyone around me
"One or two?"I lifted the fruits in my hands, trying to figure out which one had better quality and how many I should take.I shoved them in my cart and continued onto another aisle before I stopped and picked up more things.It was refreshing leaving the house after being locked in for so long, I felt so free I didn't want to return at all.I pushed my cart and gazed along the aisles nostalgic for my father's store but it was better than nothing.I decided early in the morning I was going shopping because I was tired of sitting around bored and the house desperately needed a few things.I left as soon as I was finished cleaning for the morning and went straight to the nearest supermarket.I had to admit I was glad I did because I finally felt free again to think coherently and without looking over my shoulder.My shopping cart stopped when I made it up to the cashier, a thin dark haired girl that reminded me of myself as a teenager.She checked my groceries and I swiped my card acro
What was a marriage?What did it mean when I came to this house?What was I supposed to do with this responsibility?I didn't know it was going to be this hard for me but it was.I knew our marriage wasn't built on love so happiness wasn't a high expectation on my mind but neither was disappointment.I didn't know the weight of the title wife, or what it meant but I was slowly understanding it.When I agreed to this marriage I was thinking only about my father, I didn't stop to ask about myself or my well-being.I tried to help Kerrick but all he did was gnaw away at my sanity.I didn't know he could make me cry as much as I did or leave me with feelings of loneliness but it was the reality of our marriage.I was still Delancy and Kerrick was still himself, marriage wasn't going to change that."I'm going to be early from work today.""Okay.""When I return, I'm going to be busy, so don't get in my way."I sat beside him on our bed and contemplated his words.I didn't know if I was hi
"It's ready!" Charlotte, Eric's wife cat Eric's househimed as she pulled a cake tin out of her oven and beamed at me. Kerrick, Kaleb and I were spending the evening at Eric's house with after he invited us. Earlier I decided to give his wife a hand in the kitchen while Kerrick and Eric were sitting out front talking and the boys were playing in the living room."My Eric and Nathan love chocolate," She laughed while putting the freshly baked cake on a cooling rack.Charlotte was petite and had pale blonde hair unlike her dark haired well built husband and son, but she had a radiant smile and bubbly personality that made her very likeable. "How about Kerrick and Kaleb? What flavor cake do they like?" She asked while looking over at our boys playing."Um well," I said smiling at her eager curiosity. "Kerrick doesn't eat cake, he's Diabetic and Kaleb isn't very fond of sweets.""Oh!," Charlotte exclaimed before blushing with embarrassment. "I'm sorry, I didn't know." "It's okay," I laug
"You're home early," I commented as Kerrick put his car keys in the top drawer of the table in the living room. "Oh, and you're wearing your glasses.""I couldn't read the prompt during my meeting." He sighed in resignation. "I guess I'll have to get used to them.""So how did it go, did they like your ideas?" I inquired as he sat down on the couch."Yea, they did." He murmured as I sat beside him and put his head in my lap."That's good. What are your plans moving forward?" I said running my fingers through his hair.A soft smile traced across his lips as he tilted his head up to look at me. "I'm glad you're taking an interest in what's happening."I smiled back at him and nodded."E&E's sell canned goods as you know so with the new canning machine we have at the factory we can easily output at least ten thousand cans a week." He smiled."Wow, that's great!" I remarked."We also found a manufacturer who can deliver all the raw materials we need at reduced cost and high quality so our
As I put the finishing touches on tonight's meal, I couldn't help but watch in awe as steam slowly billowed out of the pot on the stove. The tantalizing aroma wafted through the air, making my mouth water in anticipation of the delicious meal ahead. I was in the middle of turning off the stove when I heard Kerrick's car pull into our driveway so I quickly headed to the door to greet him. As soon as he walked in, I noticed a glimmer in his eyes that seemed to suggest that he was filled with excitement. "You look happy, what happened at work?" I asked curiously. Instead of replying he picked me up bridal style and spun me around and I clung to him and burst out laughing at his unusual behavior until he put me down. "I did it, Delancy," He said hugging me. "I got a client!" "What!?" I mumbled out shocked but as I locked eyes with him he nodded with confirmation. I hugged him in elation and began jumping around while holding him. "This is amazing news! I'm so proud of you!" "It's, tru
"Do you have everything packed?" I asked Kaleb as he was getting ready to go off to school."Yes Mom," He answered as he threw his backpack on and headed towards the door."Don't forget this," I said handing him his lunchbox as he thanked me. Just then Kerrick came down the stairs and called him."Kaleb," He said going up to him and hugging him. "I love you.""Um, thanks Dad," Kaleb responded bewildered. He seemed caught off guard by his unusual actions but said nothing as he bid us goodbye before heading off to school."Is everything okay?" I asked."Yes, It's just that my dad never told me he loved me so I wanted to make sure I never forget to tell Kaleb." He said looking out the window at our son heading up the road."Wait are you serious?" I asked in disbelief.He paused and turned to me silently. "You were the first person to ever tell me that you loved me."My heart nearly broke when Kerrick confessed this and I instinctively reached for him."It's okay. I don't care about that
A few days had passed after meeting Charles and although Kerrick gave him no answer he was still pushing the idea of a merger. As of right now, I decided to visit my dad while Kerrick was at work and Kaleb was at school so I could get my mind off the situation. As I approached my dad's store and my old home, pleasant memories flooded my mind and a smile broke out on my face when I saw my best friends standing right outside the doors. When they noticed me they ran and hugged me and I burst out laughing. Samantha and Victoria always knew how to lighten my mood and I was so lucky to have them as my friends. "You caught us on our way out!" Victoria said between giggles."Oh, I should've come sooner." I apologized. "It's fine, we'll call later," Samantha added as she hurried up to her car."Where are you guys going ?" I inquired as I watched them."I have to pick up my daughter from daycare," Samantha said unlocking her door. "And I'm meeting up with my boyfriend!" Victoria added with
Kerrick was carrying Kaleb on his shoulders when we came home from the football match. Kaleb was still riled up from his win even hours after and couldn't stop talking about it. Kerrick and I were very proud of him and we laughed as we watched our son could bask in his victory."Kaleb, weren't you nervous when you were about to score?" I asked as I helped him down from Kerrick's shoulders."No, I knew I could make it," He smiled and ran around the living room, still full of energy.I smiled as I watched him beam with happiness but I couldn't take my mind off Kerrick's words."My business deal fell through"Kerrick didn't say anything else about it the entire evening but I knew he must've been crushed after all the efforts he put in. At dinner, he listened to Kaleb's recount of the earlier segments of the match that he'd missed and apologized for not being there but all was forgiven as happiness was the only thing on our son's face."Kaleb, go get some sleep, you must be tired," I said
"Where are you going so early?" I asked my son while clearing the table after breakfast. Kaleb had changed out of his pajamas into a blue jumper paired with a white T-shirt and was currently tying his shoelaces. "I'm going to meet my friends, remember I told you." He said jumping to his feet. "I do but it's still early," I said looking over at the wall clock and sighing. "Okay but remember to come home for lunch," I followed him to the door and watched as he hopped on his bicycle before riding off. "Bye, mom!" He called back to me as he went up the road. "Keep out of the road and watch out for cars!" I responded as he rode away and he paused momentarily to nod before continuing on his way. I turned to go back into the house so I could help Kerrick get ready but not before glancing up the street at my son's retreating figure. Once inside I got Kerrick's things together and put them on the table just as I heard him coming down the stairs. "Where's Kaleb?" Kerrick asked while fixing
Sunlight filtered through the curtains by the window as a cool gust of wind blew in and the sky was still overcast from recent rain. The sound of children laughing and running by putting a smile on my face as I waited patiently. I looked over at Kerrick who was quietly working at the table with a mug near his face, wafts of steam warming his lips but not taking the concentration from his eyes as he reviewed his papers. I turned back to the window which looked up the street that all the children were coming down and searched until finally, I saw Kaleb coming my way, his smile warming my heart as he ran along the street. He was walking between two friends, but he was unmistakable from his dark hair protruding from under his yellow raincoat, his obsidian eyes, and his quick stride. I watched him wave goodbye to them and cross the street before running up to the house and I left the window to greet him at the door. "Mom!" He said surprised to see me already waiting for him. I gave him a b
I ran the tips of my fingers over the soft delicate petals of the roses I carried as I followed my father's footsteps. Slowly he stopped and kneeled on the ground as we made it to our destination, my mother's grave."She was so pretty, your mother." He spoke without meeting my eyes, taking the flowers I was carrying and the ones he also had, he placed them in matching ceramic vases opposite each other by her gravestone. "She was so young and I don't think I'll ever stop loving and missing her.""I'm sorry," I looked at my father sadly but with a tinge of happiness that we were finally able to come here together after so long. "I guess I'll never truly understand the pain you went through when you lost her but that just goes to show how much she meant to you and me."My father tucked the last rose firmly in the vase next to him and touched her gravestone again, closing his eyes for a moment when he did so. "You know, I still feel her with me, regardless of the time that's passed, I ca