THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC18
IRIS
My sister was itching me to come early. Break na kasi niya sa work kaya nasa bahay na lang siya.
"Oo nga nakapag-empake na ako. Pupunta muna kami ni Kaia sa school ngayon para mag-enrol," I informed my sister over the phone.
Mamaya na rin kasing 8pm ang flight ko, and Ate Irca was constantly reminding me to pack my things early para aalis na lang ako mamaya. I looked at my watch—it's 8:15 am already. Shit! 9 ang usapan namin ni Kaia.
"Sige na, pupunta na ako school," I said, bidding my goodbye to my sister.
Pagkarating ko sa school ay nando'n na si Kaia sa waiting
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC19IRISI'd never seen an extremely happy Kaia since the day that I met her not until I gave her my Christmas gift—a different design of Vivienne Westwood Corset. Nang pinakita ko kasi sa kanya ang picture ng corset na 'yon ay nagustuhan niya rin. Kaya nang regaluhan ako no'n ni Ate Irca ay pinabili ko ulit siya ng isa pa para kay Kaia."Grabe, Ris pwede na akong mamatay," Kaia hyperbole while hugging the corset. Ngayon ko pa lang kasi naibigay ang gift ko sa kanya kasi kahapon lang ito dumating.Kaia's gift for me was a tie back white satin dress—gano'n daw kasi mga damitan ko kaya no'ng nakita niya 'yon sa mall ay ako raw agad ang naalala niya.
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC20 IRIS "Bakit po ako, Dean? If you don't mind me asking, I mean all of the comm's?" Dean nodded at my inquiries, "Good question," he then smiled, "As I've said earlier, you have an impressive grade in Digital Imaging, one factor. Second is, your professors' recommended you, that's a plus if you'll ask me, and the third one, Mr. Tio specifically asked for you," Dean explained and my lips immediately parted. Ang kapal! Gusto kong tumanggi nang malakas...at magdabog. Kaso baka magalit sa akin si Dean. Scholar pa naman niya ako. Ugh, leche naman 'tong Joaquin na 'to! Anong akala niya sa akin? Hindi nag-aaral? I fisted my knuckles and hide it in my jacket. Parang masarap manuntok ng tao ngayon, sampolan ko kaya mukha ni Joaquin?
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC21IRIS"I only invited you. Sa school natin gagawin ang project with mygroupmates," he deadpanned.Pinatay ko ang laptop ko at mabilis na nag-ayos. Leche siya! Kami lang pala dalawa dito. Hindi ba siya aware na ayoko siyang kasama? Ang lakas ng loob niyang i-invite ako mag-isa ah!"Where are you going?" tanong niya nang tumayo ako.Bwisit ko siyang tiningnan, "Uuwi na!""Iris!""Bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin na tayong dalawa lang pala gagawa ngayon?""Because
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC22 IRIS Joaquin begged me to stay. Hindi na rin naman ako nakipagtalo dahil ayaw niya ako bitawan. Sobrang sakit na rin kasi ng mata ko kaka-iyak, lagi na lang ako umiiyak. Sawang-sawa na talaga ako sa ganitong portion ng buhay ko... Buti nalang may pugo at pizza...kung wala, uuwi talaga ako. "Pwede ba 'wag mo ko titigan, naiilang ako sayo," snapped ko kay Joaquin. Nakatingin lang kasi siya sa akin habang kumakain ako. Ang dami niyang biniling pugo sa totoo lang. Tapos dalawang box pa 'yung pizza—sa akin lang daw lahat 'yon. I almost think that he thought I'm a pig! He sc
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC23IRISI got weird and scary looks from Kaia the next day. She was looking at me like I was one of the murderers of John Wick's dog."You know what, Iris, I admit I'm not the greatest at math but I know when shits don't add up..." she speculated, looking at me directly."Just tell me what you want to say and stop suspending everything, for the love of god, Kaia," I snarled. But Kaia refused to accept my request and still gives me the weird look. Nang mabwisit ako ay hinagis ko sa mukha niya 'yung tissue."Hindi ko kasi maintindihan e, kung pa'nong halos ayaw mo magtagpo ang landas niyo ni Pres tapos ngayon hinahanap ka niya sa
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC24 IRIS "Pwede bang matulog muna?" tanong ko kay Joaquin habang unti-unting tumatayo sa pagkaka-salampak ko sa sahig. Joaquin nodded, "I'll wake you up later," he said while his eyes are still fixated at the screen in front of him. "Joke lang. Ang sakit lang ng mata ko, kanina pa ko nakababad sa screen," reklamo ko. Nasa condo ulit ako ni Joaquin. I already started doing their logo while Joaquin was doing enormous things for school, for SC, for their project, and his studies. Kung matagal na akong nakatutok sa laptop—mas lalo siya. Hindi na nga siya gumagalaw e. I stood u
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC25IRISBaby?What the actual fuckery is this...I feel like water has splashed onto my face when I heard a woman's voice...Not until..."Mom..."Mom?"What are you doing here, Mom?" Joaquin asked. Hindi ko makita angmomna tinawag ni Joaquin kasi nahaharangan niya ito."I'm visiting you, of course!"Hindi sumagot si Joaquin. Nagulat n
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC26 IRIS "I strongly believe that friendships should be 50/50, you tell me the happenings about your love life to me, and I will religiously listen," Kaia said while looking at her phone. Kaia and I were inside the library, nagre-review kami dahil exam namin mamaya sa BroadJourn. Isa lang ang exam namin ngayong prelims dahil 'yung ibang subjects namin ay puro pasahan lang ng Chapter 1 ng research. I was busy reading my reviewer on my phone when I heard her saying those. I initially ignored her because I thought she was just reading something aloud, but when I saw Kaia looking at me from my peripheral vision—which took too long; it immediately sunk into me that she was referring to me.
“Miss Wilson, you may start with your introduction.” Our Prof said. Maingat kong pinasadahan ng kamay ko ang script na hawak ko for this debate. Naglalaman ito ng mga rebuttals ko tungkol sa film na Dancer in the dark. “This counter-argument will be divided into three sections: 1. Psychological aspect; 2. Culture and Economy; 3. Gender Perspective. These are the missing points I sought and heard while I was listening to your argument. I hope you’ll respect my counterpoints as much I respected yours,” was my starting point. I looked at Jacques, tamad siyang nakatingin sa akin. ‘Yung tipong sinasabi na ng mata niya na siya ang mananalo sa debate namin na ito.
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGESC#3JOAQUIN – Iris’ birthday.“Joaquin…”Damn, if there’s one thing I want to hear for the rest of my life, it would be Iris’ voice. It is just so soft and tender and enchanting.“Yeah?”But she didn’t answer.“My love…”“I’m scared, Joaquin…”I looked down at her face only to see her teary-eyed eyes. She’s already looking at me.“Scared of what?”I a
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGESC#2IRIS – Revelation day. When Joaquin sleepover at Iris’s apartment.It’s so quiet.I feel like I’m inside a theater and I’m watching a horror film and everyone is silent because the scene is about to scare the shit out of us.That’s me and Joaquin right now. With Jacques in the middle, sleeping quietly.“Hey–”“You know what…”Yes, we open our mouths to talk at the same time. Cheesy as fuck, right?“Talk first,” I initiated.
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGESC#1JOAQUIN – Finals. Last day. The day Iris flew to Paris.“Pres, pinapatawag na raw kayo ni Dean sa office niya,” Matt informed me after I entered the SC office.I nodded at him.When I reached my office, I immediately call Iris because we decided to go to Dean’s office together. And she still not texting me.“The number you have dialed is currently unavailable. Please try again later.”My forehead creased. Iris would never shut off her phone just like that. Especially today that is very important for her.&
THE GOOD EQUAL | TGEEPILOGUEPART3KAIAFlashback“Alam niyo, may na-realize ako dito sa trabaho ko.”“Which one?” Iris asked.“Creative writer. Ano pa ba?!”“Diba tatlo work mo?”“Yup!”“That’s why I asked which one. Baliw!”“Ugh, Iris, hater. Buti pa si Mags nakikinig lang at hindi nangi-interrupt.”Mags laughed.
THE GOOD EQUAL | TGEEPILOGUEPART2IRIS"Hello, Joaquin?" I mumbled when I picked up the phone without looking at the caller."Anong Joaquin? Si Kaia 'to!"I instantly looked back at my phone to confirm it. Shit, I freaking thought it was Joaquin."Oh, bakit?""Wow! Ganyan na tono mo porket hindi ako si Joaquin? Grabe Iris, magkasama na kayo't lahat sa iisang bahay atat ka pa rin sa tawag niya?"I took a deep breath. Jusko talaga 'tong babaeng 'to!"Shut up! Sinabihan ko kasi siya na tawagan ako kapag may emergency—""Edi si Joaquin lang talaga katawagan mo? Kasi for sure hindi Joaqu
THE GOOD EQUAL | TGEEPILOGUEPART1JOAQUIN"Jacques, where's my kiss?" Iris called out our son. She's about to leave for work but Jacques is keeping her stilled in her spot. Iris then gave me a look."Where's Jacques?" she mouthed.I shrugged, which made her roll her eyes."Pakikuha na siya please, mala-late na ako," she pleaded. I crooked a smile before I rose from the couch and fetch our son from his room.It was already a routine. Iris always had a hard time going to her work early because our son is keeping her late. I wouldn't blame my son though, I would rather have Iris give me a look forever but at least I can see her every day and have her around with me and Jacques than see her for 5 hours a day.
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC42JOAQUINI'm already certain about my life: my dreams, my career, my needs, my wants, everything. It's already listed and all I have to do is to execute them. But Iris turned my world upside down. She crumpled my list and throws it in the nearest garbage.She's such a plan pooper."Pres nasa hall na," Clarence informed me."Ilan sila?""Tatlo, Pres. Pero isang band pa lang ang nasa hall. May klase pa 'yung iba e," she clarified and I nodded.I requested my org mates to hunt do
THE GOOD EQUAL | #TGEC41JOAQUIN"Pres, pinapatawag ka ni Dean," Angela peaked at the door."Office?" I asked and she simply nodded.I stood up from my seat and closed my laptop. I exited my office and I saw my officer's busy doing something on their laptops. And then I call out Matt."Who's attending the ID?""Sina Akin, Pres," Matt answered. "Umalis na ako kasi hindi naman ako pinapansin ni Akin kasi dumating 'yung mga magagandang SA. Kaya umalis na lang ako," he dramatically narrated.