Mixed emotions

My mind was going into turmoil. I couldn't take it anymore. All I felt was hopelessness and loneliness as I looked out the window. Weeks had went by and Alex was nowhere to be seen. I wanted to be free of these restraints but the price to pay was huge.

Without hate It would be almost impossible to come back from the world that would be created for me. I should've just given Luther my virginity. My life wouldn't be like this. Luther was easy to control. I was always 100 steps ahead of him. Now I was trying to race to catch up to the royals.

Alex was the true master manipulator. He was evil and powerful. I wish my dad was here because I really needed him right now but he was dead. Everything I knew was a lie about the royals. I grew up wanting to be a royal but Christopher helped ease the want.

Now I knew that I wouldn't have made it as a royal. I would've been tricked instantly. I was a spoiled child and always wanted my way. The only thing that changed me was Luther. I h