Go home

After hours of searching for snowy I felt defeated. I lost him and even worse I hated it here. The Royal realm was nothing like the magical realm. I didn't belong here. I got distracted to easily and most of the time I got lost in my head while searching for him. I wanted to go home hours after making the stupid oath. I was dumb enough to agree to it.

I could beat Luther what was I thinking? I should've just left. I cant be trialed no matter the offense. For the last hour I've been trying to teleport back home but I can't. The bond is unbreakable I've tried. I can't focus when I'm anywhere but sitting on the floor. It's like this whole building was made to be a distraction.

Maybe this is why my dad hid me from the royals. I'm weak with too many flaws. I can't even tap into dark magic to break through anything otherwise I'll lose control. I shouldn't be so overdramatic but it's to dangerous to be here. I should've realized that after I had sex with Alex. I don't belong here u