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Author: Ashley Lagoo
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THE PRESENT

I woke up with a jolt. My heart was racing and for the first time since that horrible day I was sobbing. I felt all of the pain that I locked away. How was this even possible? I locked all these feelings away a long time ago. I stood up and walked to the window that was only a few feet from my bed. The reason I had put my bed against the wall was so I could look out the window. I needed a release. I needed to get my emotions in line.

As soon as I teleported outside, some of the mixed emotions faded. I loved the outdoors. It was beautiful, It was where I went when I needed to feel one with myself and the world. I hadn't used my true power since that fateful day. Scared to show any power just in case it caught Luthers eyes.

Just because I could block his memories, did not mean I could use my magic to make him not see me. He was just as powerful as me. If not more powerful because he wasnt emotionally unstable. There was a reason I never touched dark magic
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