LOGINShare
Butterflies in my stomach
Last Updated:
2024-10-29 19:42:56Related chapters
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Azeki
(The chapter after Prologue) "Kye please." I begged as I tried to pull away my arm from him. How could my closet Ally become my worst nightmare. He was the reason everything turned out sour and I had to run. Kye actually laughed and grabbed my arm tighter. I had no choice so I used protective magic that I blocked off unless I was in complete control. I watched as Kye screamed from the intensity of the pain before I turnt and ran again. I had no other option but to run the opposite way. The protective magic was only so stong and soon I would have to tap into my dark magic if worst came to worse. I just showed another card because of an ally who betrayed me. Was I destined to be alone and friendless? Alexander took everything from me and I refused to go back. Everyone I loved was because of Alexander. Everyone except Christopher. Fatigue wasn't a thing but eventually they would be able to catch up to me. I could run and run but If I couldn't find a way out it wou
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Stay married
(Alexander the God of absolute dark powers pov) Finally after months of planning, I had my wife in my hands. The moment she went Ridgid I could only smile because she knew that her heart and soul belonged to me and it was time for her to come home. "Mommy can we go home?" My son asked as he clung onto her leg. I had purposely aged him because I knew she would not give up without a fight and I couldn't afford her to lose control again. "Sure." She whispered as she forced her face to snuggle into my chest more. I rubbed her hair a bit before pulling back a bit. "Grab our son beautiful." I whispered as I looked into her bright green eyes. I knew it would take time for our bond to fix but for now this is all I needed. As she looked up at me the fight had left and now all I seen was sadness. I would fix that but first I just needed to get her home. "Okay." She whispered as she looked down a our son. I watched as her eyes shined more sadness the more she loo
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Still married
I looked at Angel and smiled because she was my closet Ally and she didn't even know it. As long as she was married to him I could beat the emotions because I didn't believe in sharing. "It's nice to see you." She said with a smile which had me smiling even bigger. "I'm glad you seem happy." Alexander said as he poured himself some dark liquor. I just chuckled as I looked anywhere but him. He trapped me but all he would get was me. I assumed that he divorced Angel and that I had something to worry about but it seemed like everything was fine. "So I had someone make you a dress for the ball that we will be attending tonight." Alexander said as he downed his shot and poured another. Maybe he would do something stupid like drink too much. "I'm not attending." I stated without a care in the world as I looked at Angel and smiled. "That shouldn't be a problem since you have Angel to go with." I wryly stated as I conjured up my own food. I wouldn't be eating anyth
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Purposely did it
(Alexander the God of absolute powers pov) "See that wasn't so bad." I said as I smiled at my soon to be wife. When she looked up at me I froze. Her eyes were no longer green but a dull brown now. "No." She said robotically which had me cursing inwardly. She had allowed the oath to punish her. "Here goes the dress sir." My subordinate said as she had it floating in the air. I looked at my wife and seen the life was no longer In her eyes. She was being controlled by the bond. "You can go." I snapped out as I banged my silverware on the table. "Rewind time now." I ordered to Meridith because I definitely needed my wife in her right mind. Meridith looked down at me before she was rewinding time. I looked down at my wife and grabbed her face and forced her to look up at me. Her brown eyes shined from the chandelier lights above our head. "Meeting now." I Snapped out as I looked at Mazaya one last time before leaving out. "I can't access the h
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Completely different
My heart was racing as I looked at Alexander and down to my arm. How and what did he do to me? "Here I got you a piece of pie." Alexander said. It took a second to focus my eyes but as a looked at him my heart raced more and the butterflies were taking over my whole body. I wasn't suppose to be in control. The other part of me block me from seeing or feeling anything because of Alexander. I shouldn't be in control. I can't be in control. "I ummm. I want to go back." I stuttered out as I tried to use some magic to have my other half to take control again. My magic less hands had my anxiety picking up as I realized I was stuck and confused. I felt tingling and warmth on my hand that helped distract me from my inward panic attack. I looked over and felt conflicted as I looked at Alexanders hand holding mine. "You're so beautiful baby." Alexander said which had the butterflies going to my heart. His hand rubbing my hand was comforting. "Why am
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Sparkles
It only took a few seconds to realize why everyone was looking at me. They had read my mind. I had never been in the position where I had to protect my mind. And now I didn't have magic. I looked at my hands as I tried to change the color of the ball that I was holding but all I got was disappointment and a hard dose of reality. "Get my wife her shoes." Alexander ordered someone as he rubbed my sides softly. I looked over at Angel and felt a sense of jealously. He didn't love me. "Stand up beautiful." Alexander whispered in my ear before he was lifting me up on my feet. I was swirled around to face the table and it was nerve reckoning. Everyone was just staring and I didn't like the attention Sparkles falling from the ceiling took away some of the anxiety of everyone looking at me though. Pretty blue sparkles fell to the ground and on me. I looked down and gasped as I looked at the beautiful green dress that I was in. I moved alittle to see how the dress flow
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Wife that is mine
(Alexander The God of absolute dark powers pov) "What do I own you for this visit?" I asked as I sat down at my desk. My time was worth power and power wasn't something I was willing to give up. The more I sat here the more my beautiful wife got lost in her thoughts. "Where's my wife at? I know you have her." Klaus snapped a little to loud for my likings. Just because I couldn't hurt him didn't mean I would allow this none sense. How I never noticed I couldn't hurt him was beyond me but I promise you this he would learn who the true ruler was today. "Your wife? I didn't know you were married." I lied with a smirk. He eyed me before looking around my office like I had secrets he could scope out. He had stole my wife and thought he could get away with it. I had another thing coming to him. The look he gave me had he leaning forward. Klaus balled up his fists and grit his teeth like that would intimate me. We both couldn't be hurt but I had something he could nev
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) The experience I never had
(Warning sex scene. Readers advised) "Did you want to go back to the party or go to our room instead?" Alexander whispered in my ear. Sitting on his lap definitely helped my choice because all I could do was think about his hands on my body. "The room." I said alittle to fast. His chuckle did nothing to help the nerves that were eating away at me the more the warmth of his body wrapped around me. "Okay." He whispered against my neck. All I could do was picture his lips on my neck. My outer half would hate me but I deserved this. I didn't even want to go to the room. My impatience was shining bright as I turnt to him and gave him a bruising inexperienced kiss. If only my outer selves experience went to me or I had magic to help me. "Baby." Alexander groaned though kisses. I couldn't wait anymore though. Just the need that was clouding his eyes was doing things to me, not to mention his hands that I never wanted to leave my body. "Please." I moaned as
Latest chapter
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Change his memories
Somewhere hidden "Mazaya is dead." Christopher yelled at Klaus as soon as he teleported into their base. Klaus slowly looked up at him with anger. "I know." He spit out as he turned back to the God of broken realities and memories. "You have to do it now before his power is to much for even you." Klaus ordered the God. The God of broken realities and memories gave a slight nod of his head before he was pushing his power out with the help of Klaus. "What are you doing? I said Mazaya is dead and you are ignoring me." Christopher stated angrily. Nobody seemed to care that Mazaya was dead and it made no sense. "Relax, I am making sure Alexander's memories are distorted so that he wont realize what he's missing until it's too late." Klaus said to Christopher. "So you are erasing his memories?" Christopher asked slowly. "Clouding them, he's too powerful so we can only cloud and alter them. All he will know is that Mazayas soul is missing. Nothing will add up to what r
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Ruler of the universe
Alexander The God of absolute dark powers Pov (3 year later royal time. 2 day temple time) "I have summoned everyone here to announce the death of my beautiful wife Mazaya. The Goddess of wisdom and creation." I said as I looked over to Zavier who was now holding her lifeless body for all to see. Multiple murmurs and hushed whispers went around the hall as all the counsil members took her in. "This is a trick." Someone in the back yelled out causing a rippled effect. Within a instance I had them by the throat. "Alexan how nice of you to join us." I wryly chuckled as I slowly squeezed his neck until the air stopped flowing. His face went purple and the hands that were clawing at my hand was slowly losing its strength. Right as the life was close to leaving him a hand on my shoulder had me looking over and narrowing my eyes. "Let him go. You still can't kill him and now that Mazaya is dead he is irrelevant." His words had me gritting my teeth and pushing Alexan away. "Ge
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful part 3
"There's nothing in here." Tod mumbled as everyone walked into the circle sized room. My chest tightened and my soul was now extremely active and desperately trying go get closer to Alexander. I tried to move away so it did not somehow make him aware but his hold was tight. I jumped a little from Alexander leaning into me and whispering. "What's wrong my love." "Nothing." I choked out not meaning too. "I was not talking to you but since you answered can you tell me what's wrong with your soul." He whispered softly. I stiffened a little and willed myself to be strong. The black dagger was right in front of me in its glass case. All I had to do was put my hand through the magical barrier and all would be back to normal. I slowly looked over into Alexander's eyes and all my fear dissipated. Not one ounce of love was in them. The gray was darker and it looked like he was daring me to betray him. Daring me to make him have to punish me and lock me away because his fathe
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful Part 2
"What are we exactly looking for?" Alexander asked me as we walked down a set of stairs. "I don't know." I lied as I willed my chest to relax. My soul was quiet and it made me wonder did it know what was about to happen. "She's lying." Tod exclaimed loudly. I ignored him and the few mumbled from some of the other Gods following me. "I believe you." He lied. We both knew that he didn't. No matter what he said he would never trust me again and he had good reason. "This way." Zavier said once we descended the stairs completely. I went stiff causing Alexander to look at me. "Is everything okay?" He asked. I gave a small fake smile and shook my hand. He lifted my face up and leaned down and gave me a soft kiss. My lips moved on there own and before I knew it I was against a wall. Alarms were going off in my mind reminding me of my goal but I was helpless. Alexander pulled back and smirked as he licked his lips. I looked into his gray eyes that were smothering. "We
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful
"Are you ready yet?" Zavier asked as he knocked on the door softly. I stayed silent as I looked at myself in the mirror. Slowly I wiped my face to rid myself of the tears that wouldn't stop. "We don't have much time before Alex comes looking." He continued when I said nothing. I sniffled alittle and took a deep breath. My eyes were a little red and my cheeks were a light pink. Anyone could tell that I was crying but it wouldn't matter because I could feel the hate coming from Alexander every time he looked at me. "Mazaya." Zavier snapped when I still said nothing. "I'm coming." I finally was able to say without my voice sounding scratchy. I blinked a few times as I readied myself. "I'm sorry for what I have to do." I whispered softly to my soul. I turned towards the door and took one more deep breath before I was opening it. Zavier was looking at me with narrowed eyes as he took in my appearance. "Sorry." I apologized as I walked forward and put my hand out. Zavier l
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Dead father
Alexander The God of absolute dark powers Pov "How is she?" Blake asked as soon as he walked into the room. I payed him no mind and instead slowly rubbed her hair in a comforting way. "I said how is she." He angrily yelled at me when I ignored him for to long. I slowly looked up at him with narrowed eyes that he ignored. Instead he walked forward and sat down in the bed neck to his mother. As I opened my mouth to blink she slowly moved a little bit. I looked down at bright green eyes staring at me. A small smile formed. "I thought I lost you." I whispered softly. She blinked a few times as her eyes zoned in on her surroundings. "You are alive." She whispered happily. The small smile I had dropped. Her words were a reminder that my father had died. Blake was quick to make himself noticed as he cleared his throat. Mazaya looked over at her smile grew wide. "Blake." She whispered softly. He was quick to grab her and bring her close to him. "Don't ever do that agai
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Give up on her
Alexander The God of absolute dark Powers Pov I stared at the tumbler as I slowly swirled the dark bane that I had become accustomed to. The pain I felt never truly went away but atleast the edge was gone. "Are you really going to drink your life away?" Angel asked softly. I slowly looked up at her with a scowl. "Didn't I divorce you?" I asked lowly. She rolled her eyes and reached for a glass. "I am here for your fathers ceremony. It's very mundane of you and honorable." She said with a chuckle. "You know It's not to late to add another Goddess to mourn." I dead panned. Her soft smile dropped and she was quick to look away. "I think maybe." I paused and looked at the Gods that had barged into my office. Anger filled me before I was stiffening. Zavier walked forward with Mazaya in his hands. I narrowed my eyes after I got over the initial shock. "Why is she here when I said I was done with her lies and betrayal?" I asked angrily. I was done fighting fate when it clea
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) All black
(Magical realm 5 years later. (5 days royal realm) Mazaya's Pov) "Eat your food." I softly said to Alax who was playing with his broccoli. He looked up at me with a frown that had my chest hurting. His eyes were greyer today only help to remind me of Alexander. "Not until my dad comes back?" He exclaimed as he pushed his plate away and banged his head on the table. I reached forward and grabbed his head and gently lifted it up. "You hurt yourself." I whispered as I looked at the small cut that was on his forhead. He pushed his hand away and ran his hand through his blond hair the same way his father did. "Let me see." Mia demanded in her soft and babyish voice. Alax looked at her angrily as he pushed his chair back. "I am not a baby." He snapped as he walked away. I closed my eyes and willed the tears to not come out. I had been so strong even though Alex had been gone for years. It was getting harder each day though. Every day that Alexander did not come ho
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Nothing without her
Alexander The God of absolute dark Powers Pov As soon as I stepped into the palace I was slammed into a wall. The impact had me wincing reminding me that I had never stopped myself from being able to bleed or feel pain. "It's nice of you to join us." Klaus wryly said in a menacing way. I slowly looked up at him with hooded eyes and a smirk that was anything but welcoming. As he opened his mouth to say something I raised my hand and conjured up a knife. He looked over and chuckled mockingly. "The pleasure is all mine." I said as I threw the knife at the Goddess of magical restrictions torso. A scream sounded which had everyone look over. Klaus seemed to pale instantly. His hold on me loosened as he stared at the mess I created. "Maybe you should have thought before you touched me." I whispered as I pushed him away from me. I knew I could do nothing to him but that didn't mean I couldn't kill every single one of his Allies. His eyes glowed as he teleported to her
