"Hello, my name is Sofia Sayles," I muttered for the hundredth time standing in front of my dresser. I was really nervous. Like it was my first time going for an interview. It was not, of course.
Even though I had done my homework and gathered as much information as Google could provide me about the McKinnons, I still couldn't help but feel like I was missing out on something.
It's just nerves. Don't overthink. Be positive.
I chanted the mantra in my head. Being nervous won't get me the job, being confident will. I glanced at the mirror and smiled.
Yes, stick to that.
Sitting down on my bed, I shuffled through the questionnaire that I have prepared after thorough research. Even though you can never know what's coming at you until you step inside the interview room, it was always better to be a step ahead.
Back in my high school days, I remembered our communication teacher telling us that the questions which sound the simplest are the toughest one to answer, the most common being... A brief introduction about ourselves.
We, humans tend to analyse everything around us, everything that interests us, but what we forget most of the time is to understand who we really are. Self-introspection was not easy. An for a confused soul like me it was literally an uphill task.
What if I was asked the same question? How would I describe myself?
Maybe I would say... 'I am Sofia Sayles. My parent's names are Carmen and Vincent Sayles. They are both lawyers by profession. My hobby is painting ....'
What are you? Five? I sighed and turned my eyes back to the questionnaire. Who was Sofia Sayles? Was a question, the answer to which I was still struggling to find.
"Soaf, aren't you done yet?" Kristen called, distracting me "You are going to be late,"
"Coming!" I yelled, placing the questionnaire in my bag. I stood up to do a last-minute check.
I was wearing my white pantsuit. Somehow suits make me feel confident, like I was in control.
Glancing at the mirror, I noticed that I look pale, but then I always look pale so fretting about that was just useless. My dark hairs were tied in a ponytail that almost reached my waist and I think my makeup was just fine.You will survive, don't worry.
"What took you so long?" Kristen demanded, serving me breakfast.
"I was going through everything one more time," I answered.
"Don't do that. If anything you will feel more nervous and scared." She chastised and I rolled my eyes at her.
"I am nervous and scared," I grimaced.
"That's because you're giving all of this too much thought. Ease up on your mind Soaf, this is not the only job left in the world," She said softly. This was not the only job in the world but I needed it nevertheless.
"I know that, " I told her "But I do need this job. My savings are almost finished and I can't ask dad for money again. As for mom, she's...well you know her,"
"Everything will be fine," Kris assured me "Don't worry,"
"I don't see how, " I muttered "If this doesn't work today, I might need to sell my car. I would definitely get good money for that. In fact, now that I think about it, I could have done that instead of asking dad for money in the first place,"
"Don't be ridiculous Sofia," Kris interrupted "You love your car!"
"Yeah, but there are many things that we love but need to let go off, Kris," I replied.
"Just don't think about all this now. It won't do you any good. Clear your head, ease up and just be honest no matter what they ask, okay?" She said and I nodded my head.
"Okay," I muttered not totally convinced, I still felt like my car was a necessary sacrifice because my expenses and responsibilties were not anybody else's concern. "I think I should get going now,"
"At least finish your breakfast Soaf," Kris instructed.
She was such a mom.
"I am not really hungry, " I said shaking my head "I will eat something later,"
"Well, okay then," She smiled at me. "Goodluck hon, all the best,"
"Thanks," I said, giving her a swift hug. "Bye Kris,"
"Goodbye Soaf, you can do it," I nodded at her and smiled. Alright then, time to leave.
Forty minutes later, I pulled up in front of the thirty five-storeyed glass giant. Above the revolving glass doors was written in steel, Mckinnon Enterprises Inc. I ideally wondered why all these big firms have such intimidating names, like they were planning on world domination or something.
Taking a deep breath to calm myself, I walked inside, my stomach wobbling like Jell-O. My nerves went havoc as I glanced around the steel, glass and white sandstone lobby. On my right was the reception area, all dark wood and laminates and in front of me were black leather couches.
Holy hell...
Ignoring the intimidating surroundings, I walked over to the tall blonde behind the reception desk. She was wearing a perfectly fitted black suit and her blonde hairs were tied in a French roll.
"How can I help you?"She asked, her red lips twitching up in a polite smile.
"Hi, I am Sofia Sayles and I am here to interview for the secretarial post. Can you tell me where it is being held?" I asked as smartly as I could manage.
"Oh yes, please wait a moment," She said politely.
"Sure," I muttered and watched her punch some keys on the keyboard and then she nodded.
"Ms Sayles, please take the elevator to the sixteenth floor and Lydia would guide you from there," She instructed.
"Okay, thank you so much," I said, wondering who Lydia was.
"This way," She smiled, pointing to the glass doors between the reception and the small sitting area. I gave her a polite smile and headed towards the elevator.
Taking a deep breath and squaring my shoulders, I climbed out at the sixteenth floor. The elevator door faced another reception desk. This one was semi-circular illuminated by tiny recessed lights. To my left was an entire glass wall beyond which was the waiting area. I could see almost a dozen candidates already waiting.
Ignoring the nerves, I walked over to yet another attractive front desk personnel.
Everything was attractive here, no need to be surprised.
"Hi, I am Sofia Sayles," I repeated. "I am here for the interview. I'm looking for someone, Lydia?"
"Hello Ms Sayles, I am Lydia. Please wait there, the interview will begin momentarily," She said, pointing towards the waiting area.
"Thanks," I let out and she nodded politely.
I could feel eyes on me as I sat down on of the chairs in the corner. Twelve candidates were already there and I was thirteenth. Most of them looked sharp and poised and ready to battle their way into this intimidating, humongous organisation.
Of course, what else did you expect? Girls dancing in tutu's.
"The interview has begun," Lydia declared ten minutes later and I could feel anxiety taking over me. Calm down. Calm down...just give your best shot.
"I will call you in turns," She finished and stared at each one of us before retreating.
Anticipation was not my thing. It makes me restless and even more nervous than ever. I just like to get things done with, whatever the results, and right now this stupid waiting was making me crazier with each passing seconds.
"Ms Sayles, you're up next," Lydia finally said, after almost an hour and a half later.
"Okay," I muttered. I quickly took out my phone and texted Kristen.
Sofia: It's my turn now, pray for me.
Kristen: I always do, you know that. Don't worry, just give your best.
Sofia: I will.
"This way, Mr Liam will see you now," Lydia said, coming to a halt in front of a laminate door over which were written in bold: Interview Room.
Wait a second...
"Ahm...one second. Liam Mckinnon? Its Ryan Mckinnon, isn't it?" I asked, flustered and she shook her head.
"No, Ms Sayles it's Liam, not Ryan," She answered. "I think you are a bit mistaken here,"
Liam McKinnon was Ryan McKinnon's son. And apparently that was all I know about him.
Oh God, I was screwed!
"Why is he interviewing instead of Mr Ryan?" I inquired and tried not sound agitated.
"He is taking over officially next week. He's the one you will be working for if selected," She answered and I had no idea what that mean.
"What do you mean officially?" I inquired, feeling bewildered.
"Liam sir has been working at his father's place for years now but most of the authority still lies with Mr Ryan. But from next week that too will be transferred to him which means the next time when you Google McKinnon Enterprises his name will be shown as the company's CEO instead of Mr Ryan McKinnon,"
"Thanks," I said, already losing a little hope. "I didn't know that," Lydia nodded and retreated giving me a polite smile. So this was it. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath.
Don't worry, Liam or Ryan it doesn't matter. Just give your best.
"May I come in?" I asked as confidently as I could manage.
"Yes," A sharp, strong voice said and for a moment it felt familiar.
You're hallucinating ...
I rolled my eyes. Shutting the door close behind me, I walked inside concentrating hard on not to trip.
"Please take a seat," He instructed in a deep sharp voice as he shuffled through some papers.
"Thank you, sir," I replied, sitting up straight.
"Ms Sofia Sayles, right?," He muttered, finally looking up at me. He raised a brow and then gave me a knowing smile.
Knowing smile? He doesn't know you, idiot!
I blinked as I stared at the guy in front of me. He had dark hairs just like his father and equally dark eyes, that seemed like they could look straight through you. His dark hairs were tousled up like he hasn't combed them in days. There was an aura of authority radiating from him. Everything about him was impeccable although beautiful seems to be the best word to describe him.
Very very beautiful...
"Yes sir, that's right," I managed to say curbing my ogling.
"Let's begin, shall we?" He asked and gave me a small smile.
"Yes, sure," I said looking him straight in the eye though to be really honest, he was one hell of an intimidating person. Just like his office.
"So, Ms Sayles, I have gone through your resume and I have to admit it's quite impressive," He said and I gave him a polite nod.
"Thank you, sir," I replied, feeling a little motivated.
"Why did you leave Ercisons?" He asked, coming straight to point and I wondered whether to go for the blatantly absurd truth or just come up with a lie.
"I worked at Ericson's for three years as a data analyst and though it was a really good job, it wasn't gratifying. That's why I decided to quit and try for something different," I answered, the truth pouring out of my mouth without my permission. Liam looked a bit surprised by my response.
"Interesting, so then what according to you is more important money or gratification?" He challenged.
"For me, it is a gratification," I replied smiling at him. "We spend almost ten hours every weekday working if what we do is not gratifying we won't be able to keep up with that for long. It's human nature sir, just like we can't eat the same food every day. But obviously it's my personal opinion and not everyone would agree to that," I stared at him squarely in the eye.
"Very well, Ms Sayles, "He said, "Now tell me, what are the most important qualities one need to possess for this job?"
"I think responsibility, positive attitude towards work, adaptability, ability to take orders and since it is a fast pace job, ability to make quick and clear decisions are absolutely the necessary attributes one need possess," I answered automatically because this was in my questionnaire.
"Very well Sofia," He said "Can you give me five positive and five negative traits about yourself?'
Oh the dreaded question even if it was twisted a bit...
"Yes, sir. My positive traits are, I am honest, determined, persevere, adaptable, quick-witted and ambitious, " I replied. "My negative traits are...well as much as I don't think of myself as someone with lots of those, I've been told and also observed that I am fickle-minded, lazy, intolerant, high tempered and a bit clumsy,"
"If you're lazy then why are you here? You must be aware that there is no place for laziness in a secretarial job. Even you agreed that this is a fast-paced job," He challenged.
"I am totally aware of that sir. I am lazy in my personal life but as soon as I will place my foot here my professional life will begin and I know how to differentiate between the two very well," I defended and that was a true.
"I must say, Ms Sayles, you're honest," Liam said and gave me a little bigger smile this time.
He was so damn handsome...
I smiled back politely at him, ignoring my wayward thoughts. God knows how many questions he was going to ask? I just want to get this done with. To be honest, he was so distracting that it's really hard to concentrate on the questions.
"Alright, and you can speak both Italian and French? Do you mind speaking something in either language?"
"Not at all," I said. "Un placer incontrarti," (Meaning [Italian]; It's a pleasure to meet you)
"It's a pleasure to meet you too Sofia," Liam answered smiling at me. His dark eyes twinkled every time he smiled even if it was a brief one.
Okay, so he can speak Italian too. Clever.
"c'tait agrable de Parler Avec Vous," He said. (Meaning [French]): It was nice talking to you)
"Merci Monsieur," I said, feeling triumphant. I knew multiple different languages, thanks to my overbearing mother. But I can see, Liam was impressed and well mission accomplished, I guess. (Meaning: Thank you, sir)
"I think we are done here, Ms Sayles," Liam said. "You answered all your questions fairly well. We will let you know our decision soon enough,"
"Thank you, sir, I will look forward to that," I replied politely.
"It was a pleasure to meet you, Ms Sayles," He said standing up. I immediately followed and nodded.
"Same here," I told him and gave him a small smile.
"Until next time maybe," Liam said reaching out to shook hands.
"Hopefully," I nodded, taking his outstretched hand. I don't know if it was static or nerves but a weird sensation ran down my body. His hand was warm and his grip was assuring and tight.
I looked up at him and he smiled. Now that I was looking so closely I have an uncanny feeling that I have seen him before. He looked familiar. But where have I seen him?
It's your imagination again Sofia!
"Good luck Ms Sayles," Liam said, opening the door for me. I noticed he was quite tall. 6'1 or 6'2 maybe?
"Thank you, sir," I said. I stepped out and made my way to the elevator. Lydia was nowhere to be seen as I waited for the elevator to arrive.
It arrived five minutes later and I stepped inside and as the door closed I had no idea why but I knew I was coming back here again...
Soon...
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Liam"Goodluck Ms Sayles," I said and gave her a small smile."Thank you, sir," Sofia replied, smiling politely back. I pushed open the door for her and she walked out. Sitting down on my desk, I glanced at the resume lying on my table.Sofia Anabelle Sayles... Really?Either I was hallucinating or this was a coincidence to a totally different level. Sofia Sayles, of course! The girl from the club! When she walked in I wasn't that sure about it though because that girlandthis girlwere quite
Sofia"You should be thankful to Lydia for enlightening you about Liam," Kristen remarked later at night after I filled her in on what happened.We were sitting in our balcony after dinner. It's a kind of ritual that we have been following ever since we started living together.It's the time when we gossip. It might sound weird but it was true. We would discuss our office affairs or family or anything that comes to our mind and to be really honest it was a very comforting
Liam I stared out at the vast city stretching in front of me. New York was special. There was a different charm to it. But at the same time the vastness of the city also has the capabilty to make you feel weirdly empty and alone sometimes. While I really don't feel lonely often because I don't have any time for that in the first place, I wouldn't say that I wasn't alone. I was alone despite being surrounded by two great friends, two because I wasn't much of a social person anyway to have a dozen and a loving family and despite that there still has always been this feeling of something missing in my life. I don't know what but just
Liam I stared out at the vast city stretching in front of me. New York was special. There was a different charm to it. But at the same time the vastness of the city also has the capabilty to make you feel weirdly empty and alone sometimes. While I really don't feel lonely often because I don't have any time for that in the first place, I wouldn't say that I wasn't alone. I was alone despite being surrounded by two great friends, two because I wasn't much of a social person anyway to have a dozen and a loving family and despite that there still has always been this feeling of something missing in my life. I don't know what but just something. But then again, we all were alone in one way or other, isn't it? Life after all was nothing but a jourmey and
Sofia Sofia "To a new start and to the Mckinnons!"Kristen said raising her wine glass. "To a new start," I replied laughing and rclinked my glass with hers. It was a happy day. I can't believe I finally had a job. Maybe not the best of what I can do but better than Ericsons for sure. "God, at last, your three months break is over," Kris said echoing my thoughts and I nodded. "
It amazed me how a guy whowas probably not more than three or four years older than me could be this busy!There was someone calling him every five minutes and since all his work-related calls are forwarded to me, I am the one who needs to attend them. My ears have started to buzz and I think my water intake is going to increase as well because my mouth is going dry with constant talking. Seriously, how can he be this busy? All I get calls from were either Kristen or my mom or my cousin Natalie sometimes. Jesus, this was insulting and embarrassing!Calm down stupid! He owns a bloody company while you don't even own an apartment... Don't compare yourself with him!I sighed, my subconscious was right again. Who was I even comparing myself with?
Liam "Sofia...oh shit!" I gasped as her body went limp against mine. "Oh no!" Grabbing her firmly by the waist, I pulled her away from me and managed her into a sitting position with the help of the elevator wall. "Sofia," I bellowed, slapping her lightly on the cheeks. There was no answer from her though. Her eyes were shut tigh
Sofia:I watched the dark clouds seamlessly float over the tall skyscrapers. It was beautiful outside. A full moon night accompanied by the slightly cold breeze that reminded me of the arriving fall.Never in my life have I ever laid awake into the late hours of the night for a guy. But then Liam was not justaguy, was he? He istheguy. The Liam Mckinnon. Every time I close my eyes, I am drawn back to the memories of tonight, or was it yesterday? I glanced a
Liam 3 years later... I stared at the woman in front of me as she stood there explaining some weird-looking painting to her precious visitors. Every time I looked at her, I was overwhelmed by my love for her. There was no way I could ever get enough. She was my life. She was my existence. She was my wife. My Sofia... She was glowing as she subconsciously turned to look at me, a big smile on her beautiful face. I don't think I have ever seen her this happy. Maybe, when I proposed to her? No maybe not even then... It was the happiness of her dreams coming true. This was what she always wanted. What drove her here in the first
Sofia I smiled at the woman who stared back at me from the other side of the large ornate mirror. She looked happy and beautiful. And her wide grin got wider as she was joined by the man of her dreams leaning casually by the door. "How do I look?" I asked, turning to face him. I gave him an elegant twirl in my breathtakingly beautiful dress and he smiled. "Like always," He replied. "I didn't search the entire New York to look like always," I scowled. Tonight was a big night. Tonight, Mckinnons was celebrating its 25th anniversary and it was going to be a big starry affair. And tonight, Neil was going to be announced as the managing director of Mckinnons after three month
Liam "Death is not the opposite of life... It's a part of life..." -Haruki Murakami Unlike what is shown in movies and written in books, I somehow realized how easy and painless death was. Survival was hard. For death, all you have to do is make one single decision and all your agony and pain fades but survival...that's a whole different game. And if it wasn't for the promise I made to her and if it wasn't her voice calling me again and again I would have definitely taken the easy road. At least once, I deserved to take it easy but I couldn't, I didn't because I don't have the right to put her in a lifetime of misery or my parents or my
"It's been six days!" I cried in disdain. "What is happening?" "Ms. Sayles," Dr. Burke warned. "Please calm down!" "Calm down?" I spat. "Not exactly my forte, doc," "Sofia," My mother placed a warning hand on my shoulder. "Let him do his job," I glared at my mother and then at the doctor and then sighed. "Fine," I muttered, stomping out of Liam's inpatient suite. "You need to calm down," Mom muttered. "Go home Sofia, have you even looked at yourself?" "I don't care," I grumbled. It's been six days since Liam was operated... twice. The idea that I almost lost him that night because of severe internal bleed
You know you irrevocably love someone when the thought of losing them makes you forget how to breathe. The fear that gripped me as I watched Liam collapse on the ground was something, I realized I will never forget in my life. Ever. It was going to haunt me for the rest of my life like a scar... reminding me of the momentary coma I just experienced. Move you, idiot! And I did, forcing myself to move forward, running full speed towards him before his head hit the ground and cause any more damage. Neil lurched forward as well... too shocked to show any other reaction. From the distance, we could hear the sirens of the police car approaching...but what if they were too late? "Hey!" I cried, stroking Liam's hair as he took deep labored breathes. B
Thump! Thump! Thump! We were running like mad people in the rain. Nobody said anything. We were just running. Neil was holding my hand so hard that it almost hurt but I couldn't dare leave it. If I get lost here I was screwed for good. So I let him half drag me through the woods. The rain made it impossible to focus as the green mixed with the brown, making it hard to distinguish between anything at all. My mind was crazy with exhilaration and I couldn't focus until my leg hit a huge rock and I stumbled to the ground, landing hard on my knees. "Ouch!" I cried out as pain shot through my body. "Fuck! " Neil cried, helping me up. "Are you alright?" "I am fine!" I panted. "Keep going!"
"Sofia! Sofia, get up!" Neil's voice was urgent and I reluctantly opened my eyes. "What?" I muttered. "Theo is here to see you," He said in a hushed voice. "Now...please... please... please, don't say anything stupid, okay? Just do what he says? You understand?" "Right," I scoffed, sitting up properly. It was dark outside now and I presumed I had fallen asleep. Before Neil could say anything, footsteps approached and the door opened. "Please," Neil whispered and I scowled at him. "There...there," A voice said, it was calm. Almost peaceful...yet a chill ran down my spine. Neil moved and I was face to face with a guy not more than thirty years old. When I
I was feeling pissed. It was late in the afternoon and after my failed attempt to make Neil realize he was better than the douchebag he pretends to be, he has stopped talking completely. It was hot and humid and I was sitting in the same position in the same place for God knows how long. I felt grimy, stiff, and angry. I glanced out of the little window and all I could see was trees. Huge trees for as long as I was allowed to see. Outside, I could hear laughing and cursing, the smell of cigarettes and alcohol.And to think Neil is the son of Ryan Mckinnon...Ideally, I closed my eyes and began to picture Liam's face in my head. My family...what were they doing? Do they know? Sean...Hannah...Kris... what were they doing right now?"Sleeping already?" Neil's familiar voice distracted me.
Sofia My eyes felt like someone has tied heavy stones to them as I struggled to open them. My head felt heavy and there was a funny smell lingering in my nostrils. I blinked twice... thrice in a vain attempt to push away the heaviness but it was just useless. I felt sleepy like I haven't slept in ages and automatically my eyes shut down again making everything go dark. It was too bright and warm... I felt droplets of sweat dripping down my back and my mouth felt slack. "Water," I