18 October 1272 Tuesday
These few weeks have been exhausting, we, at last, finished writing exams. However now you think, why have I been busy? We have a festival at the end of the year, to celebrate all our hard work... With more hard work.
I take a sigh of relief as I sit down on my bed, getting a few moments to myself. Forbid that ever happens, I think to myself as a knock is heard on my door. I grunt as I stand up and make my way over to the door.
Opening the door to a bored-looking Alex I just can't but giggle, "What's got you in such displeasure?" I ask with a grin, crossing my arms. He sighs pulling out his pocket watch, "The king has me organizing a lot of the festivities, along with running this academy. Quite a lot of work."
I nod in agreement, "I know how you feel, I've been practicing so hard and helping with all the set-ups. Not to mention still having school work- I've completely forgotten to visit Levi." I said with a sigh.
He raised
~10 YEARS LATER~<1280-05-29, Wednesday>Foggy darkness clouds my head, however here in the shadows of smoke and fog stands a tall silhouette. A crown silhouette can be seen atop the darkness's head, I walk closer to it, seeing it on a throne. Moving close enough, I behold that it is a man.I can't see his face, but I can tell that he is above handsome. I can hear his sobs, he's crying. I step back, why is he crying? I can feel cold, dark water seeps into my shoes. I look down and see the water rising, it only becomes more and more as the man's sobs become louder.A realization hits me, this water is his tears. I can't swim but the water doesn't know that, nor does it care. The man is also being lifted up by the water-er tears. I start reaching out to him, but all he does is continue to cry. I start thinking, maybe if I call out his name? I don't know his name though, I st
I sit atop my throne, the same one I spilled blood over all those years back, my crown sitting between my upper legs. I'm in the same room as all the other dreams I've been having.Anger; sadness; but most evident; betrayal burns deep in the back of my throat, such extreme emotions making smoke emerge from all around me. What would cause me to feel such passionate emotions? Why would these emotions cause smoke to appear? I hear footsteps, light, it's the girl, I try to look up, to see her but my body doesn't respond. I stifle a sigh, questions filling my mind, questions that don't have answers, these dreams bring unwanted emotions. Why do these simple nightmares make me feel like this?So lost in my thought, I don't see acknowledge the girl in front of me. She is yelling names but none of them is mine and no matter how hard I try I just can't stop the smoke, I can't stop, I can't stop. I hear cough
Pure black darkness, it's all I can see, there is only the dark. Darker than the deep night, why is it so dark? Have I passed onto the next realm? What could have happened, I was merely just sleeping?I can't see anything but darkness. There is nothing else that any of my other senses can notice. I stand up after realizing I've been sitting. I start walking around, almost scared that I might walk into something.Suddenly a bright, white, light shoots out of nowhere. I cover my eyes and once they've adjusted I see that the shining light is me. My arm is beaming a strong and aggressive ivory color. Why is my arm glowing like so?"Help, please don't forget!" A deep booming voice echoed through the darkness, completely startling out of my questioning state. Once the lights shoot up, it reaches a wall I didn't know was there, lighting up the room. Yet the second it does reach the wall it turns the same pale white.Every corner slowly being consumed by white. "
Burning white is all I see, uninterrupted, everything around me like I'm a room of nothingness. The white burns my eyes as if looking at a flame for too long. This isn't death, I've had several near-death experiences and this isn't death. What was I doing beforehand? Ah yes, I had laid my head down for a night's rest. It must be another one of those dreams I have, this time yet it's a different setting than the last few. Where is the small girl then? I can't see her, perhaps I should call out for her. "Help, please I need to remember!" I call out, one of the first things that come to mind. Spontaneously saying it, almost like an automatic response, little control over my words. This white, screaming colour, yet so basic and simple, marring my eyes. My eyes rushing around to find something, anything but this empty whiteness. "Help, help! It's freezing cold." A familiar and soft voice says, it's t
My eyes flutter open, a moment of peace before the immense pain of the freezing cold whiteness consumes my body. I close my eyes and clench my teeth, taking a moment to get used to it. Calming down a bit once the pain subsides.With the sound of a knock at the door, I sigh out at the pain in my arm, why me, why is this happening, I need to find the source. Throwing my legs over my bed, I make my way over to the door and open it."Good morning deary, are you feeling any better?" Matilda asks the morning light glowing on her brown skin. I nod, "Yes, your soup did help quite a bit." I say with a gentle smile, she seems to light up a bit. "That's lovely to hear, I have a letter for you." She says handing me said letter."Well thank you." I smile at her, she nods, "Alright then, breakfast is almost and then after the other schools arrive for the festival. Do you feel well enough to go help them to their rooms?" She asks kindly with slight worry.
I can hear the horse clattering and wheels coming up to the school as Pheonix and I get closer to the main entrance. I straighten my shirt sleeves, walking to the main door.My shoes ecko-ing through the halls, you can hear people going in out their dorm rooms. Friend groups going down the stairs to see their friends arriving in the carriages.Making sure Pheonix hasn't fallen behind, I open the big wooden front door of the main entrance. Heads turn in my direction, you can hear the chatter already rise. Girls swooning and whispering over me, I ignore it as I always do.Yet there are some that whisper about Pheonix, I hear them say they like a man in a dress. I see him get flustered. New rumors start thinking he's a new lover or saying I fired my last one. You see, my last servant didn't follow me around, she was old and preferred to stay out of the spotlight.Walking over to the first principal I see. I hold out my left hand to shake, keeping the right b
This is the last week of term one, of this school year. Nevertheless, it still feels as tho this quarter has been going on incessantly. I take one big, dragged, and shaky sigh as I stare up at the roof of my room. The lump in my throat attacks my airways over and over.Tears burn my eyes, on the brink of full-on crying. All the memories from me and my mom come flooding in for the millionth time today. Gripping the sheets as I try not to weep, I can't, not now. Crying is weak, after everything I've been through, I am not weak.Yet, I miss her more than anything in me. She was always the one keeping me going. I would do my best to make sure I could go on a vacation and see her. Yet now I only have myself as a reason to get up in the mornings...For some clarification, she died about two years ago. She had an unfortunate case of malaria. I was at her side, her last words being "I love you," as she squeezed my hand. I could feel t
The air is thick with tension. No words are spoken and the inside of my check is chewed to shreds. My eyes glued to the floor as the silence rings in my ears. So loud, so so loud, overbearingly loud. Forcing my thoughts to scream like sirens in my head. The thoughts I've been running from, hiding from. They face me down and now that I have no choice to listen...They're silent. As silent as the sea, loud waves crashing against large rocks of enormous sizes.I've only been to the beach once, for a school trip. The sea loomed over us when stood there in awe. I'd only heard stories before, but no words could describe it. The silence, not a single passing stranger. The village roads were always so busy and the castle walls were no different.There on the beach, it was quiet of people but load by nature. Ocean waves fracturing against the salty earth. The seagulls crooning their unpleasant songs. The splashing of fish and crabs clacking the pinchers. Almost beautiful
Where there used to be fires as tall as houses and mothers running to protect their children there's now peace. The emanating fear of Alexander taking the kingdom over and the war running the castle flat there is now only calm. It seems to me that the mess has all been cleaned up and taken care of. I turn to Levi, our hands still twisted together. He looks down at me, his perfectly formed eyebrows raise. "What do you think happened?" He questions, shaking my head with a shrug. "I'm not sure." Suddenly I see Dixie running to us at full speed. She seems to have more royal dressed than she usually is. With the not-so-far distance, I also see a speeding Levin. He also is in much more fine clothing. Attire that we wear when we have a meeting with other royals. With extreme force, Dixie wraps her arms around my body. "Kathleen! I've missed you so much!" The short-haired girl exclaims while giving me a bone-crushing hug. I furrow my brows, huggi
Golden clouds and pure, heavenly sunlight. Mountains, castles wast lands that encompass a beauty beyond the mortal mind. Fresh eyes with silky smooth and soft to the point of not even feeling the fabric gowns. Hair so feathery light, seeming as if it's made out of pure crystals. This is the plane of the gods. I just knew it. I know it by heart, Moon would take me here every time he missed his family. His mother, his creator, and the friends he'd made along the way. He'd make sure that the moon was perfectly in the sky until we left. So much has changed in the time I was gone. I remember all the time on earth and the time in the heavens. I look over to my side. There he is. The man with such a history in my life. He still looks the way he always did- as Moon. On Earth, he didn't have his silver glow. None of the humans do, even myself. I found it odd, there it's harder to see- rather feel- what type of person they are. Everyone had their own colour. Moon's
I was just informed of the troops that were on the side of my castle. The symbols that they bore were proof that they are from Ladian. This caused severe panic within the kingdom and castle. For me, however, it was infuriating. I thought I made sure that they left? This does mean war. Yet not right now.As a result of the fact that Alexander is lighting the most populated town on fire. It's right by the town square. Not far from the castle. I'm sure that the enemies were instructed to make sure that they don't attract attention. Yet, they decided now is the time. The knights have already trampled the town by the right and left side wings.Things are happening extremely quickly. At this moment, I honestly don't know what to do. Usually, by this time, the darkn
The next morning we all sat at the breakfast table. I expected there to be a sullen silence, but no, Dixie and Levin were chatting up the storm. Here I sit at the head of the table, the seat next to me is open. It's specially built for two head seats. Kathleen's sits open. The two first seats also stay open. It's etiquette, for if we ever were to have kids. Kathleen never wanted kids. She explained how she was scared of giving birth. How she felt that women are pressured into having kids. That it feels as if women's only value is to have kids. We haven't discussed who would rule the kingdom after we die. I suppose I won't die, I can only be killed. I've killed enough people for me to live at least another 1000 years. Probably plenty, upon plenty more years. Yet, Kathleen won't. She won't make it past 80. Then...I'll be all alone again. I didn't think of that, that night when she came knocking on my door. These two smiling faces in front of me also will die one da
I didn't know why the dream affected me so. It makes me happy, seeing such an amazing sight. Yet it brings me longing, a longing for him. To see him, to feel him just to be near him. Anything for that, like my soul yearns for him. Is that right? Wanting for another man when I'm married. They do look the same, almost exactly the same. More than Alexander ever did. Also, why do I keep seeing the dream from Star's point of view? Shouldn't I be seeing it from my own view? That doesn't make much sense, I should be seeing it from the outside body. Or perhaps a side character. I don't understand any of it, but I do know that I need him. Everything about him is perfect and I need him. It reminds me of how I crave Levi. "Holy Star! What on earth is happening here?" I hear a voice above me. My eyes flash open and I behold the person looking down at me. It's Leigh, her eyes are big and she's looking around at the area by me. "It's so early, why are you guys a
It has been a day-long trip. Anna, Leigh, Kilyn and I have been travelling through these woods at a steady pace. Now, here we are at the old lady, Aphy's little hut. "That's strange. No one but us lives here. Nobody has since the capitol of Northmere's been built." Kilyn explains as we all start to slow down. The sun is about to set and I told them we could sleep here. I'm not sure what happened to Aphy. Leigh and I tried to free all the women who were being trafficked by King Leonardo. Yet when we got there they'd already been taken back. Aphy wasn't even in the tent when I was taken in. I simply assumed she wouldn't mind if we stayed here for the night. Heck, maybe she's even back here. I crinkle my brows at Kilyn's words. "What do you mean? Clearly, someone does." I point
I expected to find my kingdom's main square in a complete and utter kerfuffle. Yet it looks perfectly faultless. No fires, no dead bodies, nothing that could possibly cause an issue. That unsettles me, what could he be planning? Silence equals danger or at least some sort of horrible plan. "Why were we in a rush again?" I hear behind me, it's Aphy's voice. "His brother escaped," Levin answers his query. "Is that a bad thing?" Aphy sounds almost surprised by his reply. "Yes, it is awful! He tried to murder me and my queen. He wished to take over the kingdom and the things his mind is filled with are terrifying." My tone is harsh. They both go quiet, "What's the matter with you two?" They both give a shrug. "You're kinda scary. I'm- we're," he turns to Aphy and she nods with him. He then continues, "worried that you might go all...goopy," Levin seems to panic, chewing on the inside of his cheek. There's a stillness between us. "I won't hurt eith
The three people who were just talking their native languages turn and exit the hut. I gulp at their panic, could this really be that bad? I move after the stampeding people. They twist and swerve through tents and then later on through bushes and trees. We've exited their secluded clearing of the village. We then come up with a new reserved space. Anon I see people, a whole village of people, connected by an extensive ring. They all have food in bowls, eating and almost rejoicing the people they are mourning's lives. This is their sacred burial place. "I can't. Stop." I halt my pacing steps right there. "What's the issue?" Anna questions, the group of three turns to me. "I don't want to intrude on your cherished land," I reply, eyes wide with worry. They all look at each other, Anna bites her lip in thought. "I believe the people- and The Elders- will make an exception," Kilyn explains, hoping to hurry up as their finger is golden. "What if I accidentall
"What do you mean my brother escaped?" I command, but it comes out much more like a yell. There's a switch in my mind. The messenger quakes, his eyes grow big as I become even angrier. "The guards went to check on him. They couldn't find him and one of the guards went missing. They assumed that he had kidnapped him." He explains in complete panic.My body shakes just as much as the messenger boy, however, I'm trembling with anger. "Go, run. I'll be right behind you. Tell Dixie Donovan I'll be there soon." I command, shooing the boy away. "Levin! We must move, now!" I order him, my voice booming as I try not and attack someone. He plummets up at my yelling."Why? What has transpired?" He startles, jumping to his feet. "It's Alexander. He has escaped." I clench my jaw shut and pull my hands to fists. "What are you doing?" Aphy questions as I start packing up, completely blinded with fury. "Your hands!" Levin explains in a sheer frenzy. Aphy points at me, also to my