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Author: JP Sina
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Ethan

My heart panged as I heard Adea’s words again. They pierced and sliced through my chest over and over again. It didn’t matter how many times I begged or pleaded with her, she didn’t even want to look at me. She turned her back on me. There was no remorse, no sorrow in her eyes, no love… but I knew it couldn’t be true. There’s no way, she wouldn’t…

I choose him.

I choose him.

I choose him.

I choose him.

It’s always been him.

He had me first.

Her words were a reminder that I had heard correctly. Her firm voice echoed through my mind. As much as I wanted to lie to myself and say it wasn’t her. I couldn’t ignore it, I couldn’t hide from it, I couldn’t flush it out no matter how I tried. Her voice grew louder and louder. It screamed the truth at me. There was nothing else I could do about what had happened. I wouldn’t accept it.

I refused to accept it, I refused to accept that she was done with me. I refused to accept that she wanted him. It was impossible, it didn’t make any sense.
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