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2021-06-13 22:12:20Gulping nervously, I pulled on the skin off my nails and tried my best to stop from shaking, I couldn't help but think of every worst outcome possible.
Ugh, my stupid brain!
I wanted to be brave, confident, and strong but we don't always get what we want so I'm stuck here nervous as Satan's home!
Nate tried keeping the environment light by cracking jokes here and there occasionally making fun of the way Elijah walked, I was grateful for the effort but it did nothing to ease the nervousness and anxiety I was feeling.
Before I could hyperventilate and die of heart failure, I felt my hand being encased by a large warm hand and tightly clutched, my breath hitched and I looked up to see Elijah gazing at me with soft comforting eyes. I stared deeply into his dark hazel eyes finding them warm and soothing. I felt my whole body and heart calm down and my breath got normal.
Huffing I closed my eyes focusing on Elijah's warm hand rubbing circles on my hand,
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