I opened the bedroom to find Toni right behind it. Dex was sulking on the couch. He seemed depressed and it tugged at my heart to see him that way. Before I could ask him what was wrong, Toni pulled me into his arm. I froze for just a moment before letting myself relax into his hold. He wasn't in control when he slept with Nina. He didn't even know about it. No wonder he was so confused about it last night. It wasn't an act, he really didn't know. I would be a hypocrite if I can't forgive him after what's happened with Dex and I. "Well, do we need to flee? Did you start a war?" Dex mused from the couch. I pulled back from Toni's embrace. I met Dex's sad eyes with a sad smile. He had helped me last night. He had seen me in the worst pain of my life and I know it affected him. I feel a tightness in my chest when I think about it now. "No war. She's still alive, and I got this." I held both glass bottles up. "Turns out she was being inhibited by a low level demon. I was going to kick
We finally made it back to the kingdom. I was going to send Dex home, but he was looking around the kingdom with such curiosity. I couldn't send him back when I saw his amazement. It was really adorable, like a child. "Come on, we need to give these to my mom." I held up the siren song and the queen's fairy dust. "Let's not mention the aftermath of the siren song, okay?" I didn't feel like getting in trouble. I also didn't feel like getting an hour-long lecture. I didn't want mom trying to come up with fixes either or having to worry any more than she already has to. "Why? She might be able to find a way to remove the siren mark." Toni seemed upset that I didn't want to tell her. "She doesn't need to worry about that right now. I'll tell her after we get Ash back." I cupped his face in my hand, comfortingly. I didn't want him to think that I was choosing to keep the mark. I could see from the corner of my eye that Dex's head fell slightly. Was he sad? I'll get rid of the mark as
The fairy dust had me feeling odd for the past hour. I had put some magic in it, like mom said. I had Toni blow some on me and then I blew some on him. I figure we would both need it. Nothing had seemed to happen though. My skin has just felt odd and prickly since. I am not sure what I was expecting to happen, but I guess I just assumed everything would be fine. Nothing feels different though. My heart still hurts, it still feels betrayed. Can fairy dust not fix this? "Anything?" Toni asked again. He's desperate for this to work too. I shook my head, causing him to sigh and hang his head. "I'm so sorry, Ember." He was hurting just like me. He doesn't even remember any of it, but he knows it hurt me. He knows that I am having a hard time letting it go, and it's killing him. I wish I could convince my heart to forgive and forget it all. It really wasn't his fault. "I'm sorry too. I know it wasn't you. I know you were being controlled. It just hurt so much." I let out a long breath.
Toni and I had gotten dressed and laid in my bed cuddled together. I passed out quickly, my head resting on his chest. I felt warm and whole again, but utterly exhausted. I felt like I could finally rest, and so I did. I am not sure what time it was when I felt my shoulder being shaken awake. I opened my eyes to find Toni still asleep under me. I turned to see whose hands were on my shoulder. Dex held a finger against his lips, telling me to keep quiet. He motioned his head for me to follow. I very begrudgingly got off the bed, and the warmth of Toni. I was careful not to wake him. I followed Dex out of the room into the hall. "I think you forgot something." Dex whispered pointing, not very obviously, behind him. I furrowed my brows until I noticed Eric down the hall. Seems I'm still a shit sister. "Oh my God!" I whispered. "I can't believe I fell asleep." Dex grabbed my hand, sending a tingle through me. "Don't worry. I told him you probably just passed out. He laughed saying i
Eric and I played for a while longer before my phone dinged again. Dex: She's here. Hurry down. Dex: She's a cougar. Save me!I couldn't help but laugh out loud at the last text, causing Toni to arch a brow at me suspiciously. I just shook my head at him, telling him it's nothing. "You ready? Kaitlyn is here." I finally spoke. Toni got up from his secluded spot. He never once made an effort to play or speak to Eric. It hurt that he didn't. I don't think he realizes how much my brothers mean to me sometimes. "Yeah, let's go." He shook his bottom off as he spoke. "I love you, bud. I gotta get going. I'm going to bring Ash back to us. I promise." I gave Eric a big hug before leaving his room. Toni and I walked silently down the hall. I didn't hold his hand. I'm a little upset at him for the way he acted with Eric. Toni's been changing a lot here lately and I don't like it. Not one bit."Ember, I think you need to distance yourself from Dex. He's getting too involved with your fami
"I've called all of our friends. No one has seen him." Eryn let us know. "I've called around to other packs and none of them have seen or heard of a new wolf in their territories. They'll keep an eye out for him though." Charles added, placing his large hand on mom's baby bump. "I've called all my contacts and all favors that are due. He was in New York a few days ago, but he checked out already. He was with a group of girls, but none of them said where they were going next." Dad could always be trusted to find out information. He had the largest network of people. All kinds of people, all kinds of species. "That's a start. He always said he wanted to see New York one day." Mom nodded her head. She was thinking hard, biting on the side of her thumb. "How do we find him now? Is there a location spell or something?" I looked at Kaitlyn when I said that. "I tried. He's blocking his presence and keeping himself hidden. Your brother has a lot of magic. A lot of strong magic that I can
"He's really not going to wake up, is he?" Dex said, poking Eric's cheek again. He was astonished by how hard of a sleeper Eric is. "Yeah. Once he's out, he's out." I laughed. "Listen Dex." I paused fidgeting with my fingers. "I'm really sorry I doubted you. I should have known you wouldn't manipulate Eric. He just got so attached so fast. It was stupid of me. Please forgive me." I looked him dead in the eyes letting him know how much I trusted him right now. He stared back at me for a moment. His eyes were intense and at first I wasn't sure what he was going to do. He sighed and looked away. "Yeah. Okay. I forgive you Ember, but on one condition." He had that stupid smirk on his face again. He was back to his flirtatious self now. "Give me a kiss right here." He pointed to his cheek. I gave him a 'you're kidding me' face. I shook my head no. "No way." I whispered to him. "Oh well guess you'll have to live without my forgiveness." He shrugged his shoulders leaning back on the he
We had made it back to the palace without anyone knowing we left. At least that's what I thought until I made it to my room and Toni opened his door. "Why were you with him again? Where were you?" Toni all, but yelled at me. His eyes were that cool silver and my heart froze. "We can find Ash now. Dex took me to see a man who could help." I explained calmly. I was hoping Toni would calm down with that. He growled instead. "What man?" He didn't believe me. "His name is Jaime. His some siren guy." "He took you to see Jaime?" It seems Toni knows that is. "He's fucking dangerous. Ember, what did you give him?" "Nothing bad. Just something he wanted from Lien." He stepped forward, but I took a step back. His eyes hadn't returned to normal and his voice was sounding less like himself. "Toni, let's talk about this in the morning." I wanted him to calm down. I started to go into my room. Before I could close the door fully, Toni pushed it open. He came into my room and his eyes roamed
"That's it, Ember. Just one more push!" The doctor called out to me. Dex held my right hand and my angel held my left. They both lifted me up more as I pushed with all the strength I had left in me. I heard cry as they suctioned the fluid free of her mouth. That sound is indescribable, tears welled in my eyes with the pure joy of having her here with us now. "You did great. Thank you for bringing our daughter into this world, sunshine." Dex whispered in my ear before kissing my sweaty forehead without a care. His eyes were pink and glistening with tears. I could see the love and pure admiration mirrored in them as he looked down at our sweet Nova, that was now placed in my arms. "She's beautiful, mi amor. You're amazing." Toni kissed the top of my head next. The three of us stared down at Nova's beautiful small features. She made the smallest little noises in complaint of being pushed out of me and into this cruel world. I'll make it safe for you Nova, I promise. She had the rounde
Toni had me laying sweetly beneath him. His eyes held such a deep love for me. His gaze was undoing me long before his touches were. He kissed me tenderly, wrapping his fingers in my hair. His thumb caressed my jaw lightly, sending a warmth flowing through me."Toni." I whispered his name, a silent plea to feel him even closer. There's not enough time, not enough of him to make up for the last decade, but I am damn well going to try. I felt like this missing piece of me was finally put back in place by Toni. "Make me yours again." He kissed me with such intensity. He stole the breath from my lungs and the soul from my body. I was all his and I refuse to leave this bedroom until he's claimed me as his again. I pulled his shirt off, breaking our kiss for just a moment. His muscles were just as toned as they had been when we were younger. There was some of Sam in his body, so it wasn't exactly the same, and yet it was perfect all the same. "I love you, mi amor. I'll never leave you aga
Ember's P.O.V."Why did you come, mi amor? You could have been hurt, or the baby could have." His voice was soft, but his tone was firm. My mind was still reeling with emotions. This is Toni. Suddenly everything about my feelings towards Sam just seemed to make sense and I wanted to slap myself for not noticing it sooner. How could I have not thought about it? "Ash had a vision and he told me you were in trouble. So we all came to help. Lucy cast a protection spell over Nova to keep her safe within me. She did consume some of my magic though, so I'll need to see the doctor. It wasn't enough to make me too weak though." I bit my lip, feeling guilty about putting her in danger. "Ash told me he saw Toni here too. He saw you and we rushed over. Why didn't you tell me?" I punched his arm, furious at how he made me think I had lost him again. "I couldn't." He lightly rubbed my cheeks with Sam's calloused hands. "I am sorry, mi amor. If I had told you they woul
Sam's P.O.V.I followed Evelyn out past the barrier of the kingdom. My heart was beating a mile a minute and my hands were clammy beyond belief. In the next 30 minutes I'll be fighting for my life and getting the greatest gift I could have…my angel half. The wind was blowing harshly outside the barrier and the freezing temperature seeped deep into my bones. The wind stung my face and blew snow into my eyes, forcing me to look down in order to see. Evelyn led the way as if this freezing weather wasn't a factor in her mind at all. Nothing phases her, she could be on fire and she would still be walking like nothing is happening. When she's focused on keeping me safe she has nothing else on her mind. She's locked in. "We'll do this here. I'll start setting up the wards. You need to start engraving the ruins on your chest. Do you remember how?" She asked, handing me the flaming dagger. "Yeah, hard to forget." I took the dagger fr
Yesterday came and went and today was Sam's birthday already. I still can't believe how young he is. I groaned at the sun's blinding rays as we all gathered outside in celebration. Ash was kind and with the help of Eric and Lucy, who stopped by today to visit, they set up a small party for Sam. It was just us, nothing big or involving all the citizens here. It was small and intimate and a way for Ash to thank Sam for all he's done. Without him and his sister my brother wouldn't be having this child with Layla right now. I owe them both a lot too and I'll be sure to find a way to repay them both in the future. "Happy birthday, Sam." I told him for about the third time now. It seemed to be the only thing I could say to him. I didn't want to say anything more. I didn't want to start flirting with him or getting to know him better. He'll be leaving tomorrow and I need to be ready to let him go. "Thanks, Ember." He gave me a sma
Dex's words had rung through my head all day. How I may need Sam. How I shouldn't send him away. Is there really a bond? And if there really is, do I really want to open myself up to it? I also can't seem to get past this damn guilt eating away at me. I shouldn't be thinking of Sam. My heart should be fixed solely on Dex, and only him. Now that Toni has left me completely, there's this fissure in my heart wanting to be filled. Sam could fill it easily, but is that really the right choice? It may be easier to accept it, but I don't know that I want to. He's not Toni, no matter how much I wish him to be. The fact he has Toni's memories still bothers me deeply. Every now and again I'll get another glimpse of them through Sam and it kills me. He refuses to tell me why he has them. It's been making me trust him less the more he denies me the truth. I don't understand how he could have Toni's memories. "Where's your mind?" Ash's voice pulled me back from my thoughts. We had flown togeth
The next few days seemed to fly by. Gabriel was back at school and Dex was at my side all day. At night I would have the same recurring nightmare of the day Ash killed Toni. Having lost him again seems to have resurfaced everything I thought I had healed from. Sam and Evelyn kept their distance for the most part, although it seemed like Sam really wanted to be at my side. I sort of missed him, which still doesn't make sense to me. I barely know the man. I attribute this feeling to the fact he looks so much like Toni. He's like this thorn sent by the universe to remind me of what I am missing. Fuck you universe. "You alright, sunshine?" Dex raised an eyebrow at me. "Yeah, just thinking." I chewed on my cheek refusing to tell Dex that I was missing another man. That's ridiculous. "Let me in, Ember. What's going on?" He stroked my cheek lightly with his knuckle. His touch sent those wonderful electric sparks flying through my skin. "I just miss Toni and Sam looking so much like him
Gabriel and Dex and I spent the entire day in bed as promised. We watched movies, played games, and spoke about many things. Dex and I kept trying to get Gabriel to understand, but he refused. He kept telling us that we would see what he was talking about soon. This day was certainly something I needed. Dex always gives me just what I need even when I don't know what that is. Gabriel was taking his bath in our bathroom now, leaving Dex and I alone for the first time today. "I saw Sam was here with you last night." My heart stilled. Is he upset? Is he jealous? Is he worried? "Yeah, Ash had to-" I paused, realizing I never checked on him and Layla. Damn me and my selfish heart. "I need to call him!" I quickly reached for my phone. "What's wrong?" Dex furrowed his brows, sitting up with me. "I don't know. He left yesterday saying Layla needed him shortly after he got here." The phone rang as I spoke. "Hello?" Ash's voice came through. "Ash, oh my gosh, I am so sorry I didn't call
Dex held me flush against his chest on the bed. He had me tucked under the sheets and was lightly rubbing my back. He was doing his best to comfort me. "Ember, I have to leave you so I can care for our son. I'll return with him soon. I'll tell Ash to come over." He told me. "I won't let you be alone right now." He pulled his phone out and called Ash. He told Ash everything. I could hear Ash say he was on his way. "I won't leave until he gets here." Dex tried to comfort me."It's getting late. You need to go to him before he falls asleep. Ash is coming. I will be okay until then." I tried convincing him. I could tell he wanted to argue though. "He needs to say goodbye. He needs the chance to say it. You need to go." He very reluctantly got off the bed. He gave me one last kiss before leaving. My heart was breaking all over again. The small glue that held it together was coming undone. I was loudly sobbing again. The door opened, letting small light flood the room. "Ash?" I cried o