It felt like I hadn't slept last night. I slept after Levi sent me out, but I was drained emotionally. I guess it was my turn to put on a facade, even though I knew what was happening with Ash. Ash didn't want to ask me for help and I can't have him mad at Levi for calling me there. 'I'll keep a close ear on his thoughts. If I feel him getting too upset, I'll let you know.' Talia comforted me. 'Thank you' "Good morning, sleepy head. We need to get ready for school." Ash's grin was the first thing I saw this morning, and I had to fight hard not to cry. This is going to be harder than Ash makes it look. "Do I have to?" I hid my face in the pillow, trying to wipe away the mist that had formed in my eyes. "Yes. Come on. I'm sure Toni is looking forward to seeing you." He poked me and I peaked my face out. "Yeah I do want to see him too." I could use a tight embrace from him right now. I sighed and got off his bed, heading to my room. "Hey Ash?" I stopped in front of our adjoining
1st-3rd period flew by and Toni was now walking me hand in hand to 4th period. I remembered Ash's warning from last night. Can't be alone with Josh today. I don't want whatever is going to ruin our friendship to happen if I can avoid it. Now I just have to avoid Dex and Josh. My joy for art is being stolen by these two today. "I'll meet you outside for lunch. You got this. Don't stress. I'll be here no matter what happens." He squeezed my hand before letting me go. He was telling me that even if Dex managed to do something to me he would still be here with me. He wouldn't leave me for it. I reluctantly went inside the room. Josh and Dex were already at their stations. Both their eyes flew to me the moment I entered. They both took in the jacket I was wearing. "I told you she had a guy." Dex smiled at Josh. "Whatever." Josh muttered. 'I thought she was different. Such a cliche.' Josh's thoughts shot me like an arrow. What's his problem? "Hey." I greeted him as I grabbed my art su
Fuck! If I get suspended then Ash will know something happened. He'll get mad and I'm not supposed to let that happen. My first day in trying to keep him safe and I fucked it up. Why am I still such a fucking failure? Tears started to stream down my face as I walked toward the principal's office. I could feel Dex approach me from behind, but I didn't care. I was too upset with myself to care right now. What am I going to do? How can I keep this from Ash? "Hey." Dex's hand wrapped around my bicep and turned me towards him. His stupid smirk fell when he saw my tears. "Oh come on. You're not actually upset that you got in trouble." He sighed. "No. I've got bigger things going on in my life. Being suspended will only make those things worse." I couldn't help the tears that continued to slip from my eyes relentlessly. "Woah, calm down." He seemed different suddenly. Like my crying was making him uncomfortable. "What if I just get the principal to give you detention instead?" He offered
Toni and I had spent the rest of our free period attached to one another. We would go between hugging and holding to kissing and licking. We made sure to stay out of view of other students and teachers. Toni seemed to be the only thing keeping me grounded right now. His gentleness and caring heart were making me fall deeper in love with him. His crooked smile only filled me with more desire and hunger. He is exactly what I need right now. The moon goddess seems to really know what she's doing when she picks mates. The rest of school was pretty eventless. 8th period came and we had new seating arrangements, which was great and not so great at the same time. I didn't have to sit with Josh, but I lost being able to sit by Toni. I was now sitting with Ash and a girl I had never met before. She was shy and quiet. Her dark hair fell over her face covering her glasses. She seemed sweet though. Toni was with Rachel and Micheal. My poor mate. Josh ended up with Leti and another male from th
Detention ended finally and I met up with Toni right after. His hair was still damp from showering after football practice. His scent hit me strong, causing me to inhale deeply as he approached. "How was it?" He asked as he wrapped his arm around my waist. "Not too bad. Dex was annoying, but he didn't do anything bad." I locked my wrists behind his head. I could feel the warmth from his chest. His face leaned down towards me and he gave me a quick soft kiss. He tasted better than he smelled, which was already amazing. "Good. I don't want to have to get into another fight." He winked at me, sending the butterflies fluttering in my stomach. How am I supposed to think of anything else around him? "I need to get home quickly." I pouted. I know I need to train and help and watch Ash, but being in Toni's arms made me want to forget all of it. "Come on. I'll drive you to the pack lands and you can portal the rest of the way." Toni led me to his car, opening the passenger door for me.
I was able to give Levi and Brontus some energy to help them last night. I looked at the barrier and it didn't seem any worse than the day before so that's good I guess. I'm still worried about it though. I quickly left Ash's mind, not wanting him to know I was there. I was pretty tired when we woke up. Ash had to drag me out of bed. Giving his beasts energy had left me kind of drained. I also didn't sleep well, which didn't help matters. I dressed lazy today, not trying to impress anyone. I still had Toni's letterman jacket and I put it on again. I'll have to give it back to him soon. It's already starting to lose his scent. "You're such a sleepy head. Hurry up before you make us late." Ash pounded on the bathroom as I braided my hair to the side. "I'm coming, calm your tits." I yelled back. "Okay, let's go." I opened the bathroom, almost getting hit by his fist. He was about to bang on the bathroom door again. "Phew. That was close." Ash let out a breath lowering his arm. We qu
Lunch went by quickly. It was just Ash and I messing around at the table. Leti oddly enough joined us. She was still really grateful to us for saving her. She had brought us little thank you gifts and it was sweet. Ash gave her a big side hug, not noticing the intense blush he had caused her. I think Leti is developing a crush. Oh boy. 'You can't just hug a girl like that.' I elbowed his side under the table. 'She's gonna fall in love with you now.' I teased him. 'My bad. I'll keep my sexy self away.' His laughter reached my mind. 'Gross.' I stuck my finger in my mouth pretending to gag myself when Leti wasn't looking. "I'll see you guys later. Thanks again." Leti told us both as the bell rang. Ash gave me a big bear hug, squeezing the air out of me, before he left. His big self was so easy to spot amongst the other students. He doesn't belong here. He should be with other stronger males. He should be getting stronger and learning things he actually needs to know. He's falling be
I started heading out from the forest to the sidewalk again. I began my tretrously long walk to the pack house. About 10 minutes later I was stopped by an all too familiar motorcycle. "What are you doing?" Dex lifted the visor of his helmet, showing me his dark gray eyes again. I quickly looked away, not falling for that twice in a day. "Walking to the pack lands." I answered. "Isn't that really far to walk? Quit being stubborn and get on." He held an extra helmet out at me. I looked at it for a moment. I need to get home quickly, but do I want to ride a bike with him? I'm tired, and this walk would wipe me completely out. I let out an exasperated sigh, taking the helmet from him. I climbed onto the back of the motorcycle. This is my first time on a bike and I am kind of nervous. I may be able to heal, but it doesn't mean it won't hurt if I get injured. Bikes can be so dangerous. He started going and I was a bit scared. I grabbed onto the back of the bike, but it felt like I was
"That's it, Ember. Just one more push!" The doctor called out to me. Dex held my right hand and my angel held my left. They both lifted me up more as I pushed with all the strength I had left in me. I heard cry as they suctioned the fluid free of her mouth. That sound is indescribable, tears welled in my eyes with the pure joy of having her here with us now. "You did great. Thank you for bringing our daughter into this world, sunshine." Dex whispered in my ear before kissing my sweaty forehead without a care. His eyes were pink and glistening with tears. I could see the love and pure admiration mirrored in them as he looked down at our sweet Nova, that was now placed in my arms. "She's beautiful, mi amor. You're amazing." Toni kissed the top of my head next. The three of us stared down at Nova's beautiful small features. She made the smallest little noises in complaint of being pushed out of me and into this cruel world. I'll make it safe for you Nova, I promise. She had the rounde
Toni had me laying sweetly beneath him. His eyes held such a deep love for me. His gaze was undoing me long before his touches were. He kissed me tenderly, wrapping his fingers in my hair. His thumb caressed my jaw lightly, sending a warmth flowing through me."Toni." I whispered his name, a silent plea to feel him even closer. There's not enough time, not enough of him to make up for the last decade, but I am damn well going to try. I felt like this missing piece of me was finally put back in place by Toni. "Make me yours again." He kissed me with such intensity. He stole the breath from my lungs and the soul from my body. I was all his and I refuse to leave this bedroom until he's claimed me as his again. I pulled his shirt off, breaking our kiss for just a moment. His muscles were just as toned as they had been when we were younger. There was some of Sam in his body, so it wasn't exactly the same, and yet it was perfect all the same. "I love you, mi amor. I'll never leave you aga
Ember's P.O.V."Why did you come, mi amor? You could have been hurt, or the baby could have." His voice was soft, but his tone was firm. My mind was still reeling with emotions. This is Toni. Suddenly everything about my feelings towards Sam just seemed to make sense and I wanted to slap myself for not noticing it sooner. How could I have not thought about it? "Ash had a vision and he told me you were in trouble. So we all came to help. Lucy cast a protection spell over Nova to keep her safe within me. She did consume some of my magic though, so I'll need to see the doctor. It wasn't enough to make me too weak though." I bit my lip, feeling guilty about putting her in danger. "Ash told me he saw Toni here too. He saw you and we rushed over. Why didn't you tell me?" I punched his arm, furious at how he made me think I had lost him again. "I couldn't." He lightly rubbed my cheeks with Sam's calloused hands. "I am sorry, mi amor. If I had told you they woul
Sam's P.O.V.I followed Evelyn out past the barrier of the kingdom. My heart was beating a mile a minute and my hands were clammy beyond belief. In the next 30 minutes I'll be fighting for my life and getting the greatest gift I could have…my angel half. The wind was blowing harshly outside the barrier and the freezing temperature seeped deep into my bones. The wind stung my face and blew snow into my eyes, forcing me to look down in order to see. Evelyn led the way as if this freezing weather wasn't a factor in her mind at all. Nothing phases her, she could be on fire and she would still be walking like nothing is happening. When she's focused on keeping me safe she has nothing else on her mind. She's locked in. "We'll do this here. I'll start setting up the wards. You need to start engraving the ruins on your chest. Do you remember how?" She asked, handing me the flaming dagger. "Yeah, hard to forget." I took the dagger fr
Yesterday came and went and today was Sam's birthday already. I still can't believe how young he is. I groaned at the sun's blinding rays as we all gathered outside in celebration. Ash was kind and with the help of Eric and Lucy, who stopped by today to visit, they set up a small party for Sam. It was just us, nothing big or involving all the citizens here. It was small and intimate and a way for Ash to thank Sam for all he's done. Without him and his sister my brother wouldn't be having this child with Layla right now. I owe them both a lot too and I'll be sure to find a way to repay them both in the future. "Happy birthday, Sam." I told him for about the third time now. It seemed to be the only thing I could say to him. I didn't want to say anything more. I didn't want to start flirting with him or getting to know him better. He'll be leaving tomorrow and I need to be ready to let him go. "Thanks, Ember." He gave me a sma
Dex's words had rung through my head all day. How I may need Sam. How I shouldn't send him away. Is there really a bond? And if there really is, do I really want to open myself up to it? I also can't seem to get past this damn guilt eating away at me. I shouldn't be thinking of Sam. My heart should be fixed solely on Dex, and only him. Now that Toni has left me completely, there's this fissure in my heart wanting to be filled. Sam could fill it easily, but is that really the right choice? It may be easier to accept it, but I don't know that I want to. He's not Toni, no matter how much I wish him to be. The fact he has Toni's memories still bothers me deeply. Every now and again I'll get another glimpse of them through Sam and it kills me. He refuses to tell me why he has them. It's been making me trust him less the more he denies me the truth. I don't understand how he could have Toni's memories. "Where's your mind?" Ash's voice pulled me back from my thoughts. We had flown togeth
The next few days seemed to fly by. Gabriel was back at school and Dex was at my side all day. At night I would have the same recurring nightmare of the day Ash killed Toni. Having lost him again seems to have resurfaced everything I thought I had healed from. Sam and Evelyn kept their distance for the most part, although it seemed like Sam really wanted to be at my side. I sort of missed him, which still doesn't make sense to me. I barely know the man. I attribute this feeling to the fact he looks so much like Toni. He's like this thorn sent by the universe to remind me of what I am missing. Fuck you universe. "You alright, sunshine?" Dex raised an eyebrow at me. "Yeah, just thinking." I chewed on my cheek refusing to tell Dex that I was missing another man. That's ridiculous. "Let me in, Ember. What's going on?" He stroked my cheek lightly with his knuckle. His touch sent those wonderful electric sparks flying through my skin. "I just miss Toni and Sam looking so much like him
Gabriel and Dex and I spent the entire day in bed as promised. We watched movies, played games, and spoke about many things. Dex and I kept trying to get Gabriel to understand, but he refused. He kept telling us that we would see what he was talking about soon. This day was certainly something I needed. Dex always gives me just what I need even when I don't know what that is. Gabriel was taking his bath in our bathroom now, leaving Dex and I alone for the first time today. "I saw Sam was here with you last night." My heart stilled. Is he upset? Is he jealous? Is he worried? "Yeah, Ash had to-" I paused, realizing I never checked on him and Layla. Damn me and my selfish heart. "I need to call him!" I quickly reached for my phone. "What's wrong?" Dex furrowed his brows, sitting up with me. "I don't know. He left yesterday saying Layla needed him shortly after he got here." The phone rang as I spoke. "Hello?" Ash's voice came through. "Ash, oh my gosh, I am so sorry I didn't call
Dex held me flush against his chest on the bed. He had me tucked under the sheets and was lightly rubbing my back. He was doing his best to comfort me. "Ember, I have to leave you so I can care for our son. I'll return with him soon. I'll tell Ash to come over." He told me. "I won't let you be alone right now." He pulled his phone out and called Ash. He told Ash everything. I could hear Ash say he was on his way. "I won't leave until he gets here." Dex tried to comfort me."It's getting late. You need to go to him before he falls asleep. Ash is coming. I will be okay until then." I tried convincing him. I could tell he wanted to argue though. "He needs to say goodbye. He needs the chance to say it. You need to go." He very reluctantly got off the bed. He gave me one last kiss before leaving. My heart was breaking all over again. The small glue that held it together was coming undone. I was loudly sobbing again. The door opened, letting small light flood the room. "Ash?" I cried o