The next few months are a nightmare. The medic recommended Astrid to rest as much as she can, to eat healthy foods, so nothing too sweet, too salty, or too tasty and to not make any effort aside for walks in the garden for fresh air and sun. In other words, a bland nightmare.The harem became quite boring too.Loras appointed Tamara in charge of the harem as Sansa decided to remain at the lake mansion for this year, so the princess was quite busy with administrative issues. After all, almost all the girls were sent away by Sansa and new ones had to be brought and trained from the other palaces.Astrid was given her own room, after years of delaying it and was quite disappointed that this one has no balcony that opens on the same side as Loras'. Not that this is such an inconvenience as she is sent every night in the king's rooms. The inconvenience comes from the fact the Loras war warned that sexual encounters can put her in premature labor so he barely touches her. The hormones make
"Astrid! That's enough! The medic said that you have to move around in order for the... for it to come out! It will rot inside you!" Tamara shouts, pulling the blanket off Astrid.She doesn't even want to hear it. She feels horrible now, she can't even imagine how she will feel trying to get into labor to deliver a dead baby. No way! Plus, there is no point! After Loras heard that she didn't want the baby, he just stopped caring. And she can't blame him, but it still hurts like hell."Astrid!"The princess groans at her lack of success and storms out of the room.It's been like this for three days. She will give up eventually. She will distance herself and at some point, she will stop caring. And Astrid would die, without love or affection around her. Just like her child died.It feels so weird to think about those words. They've been spinning around her head since it happened, and they still feel unnatural. Her child died. The child that she didn't even think she wanted, died. And it
The chaos that follows is indescribable, Lysa jumps up and runs out of the room as Astrid still holds her belly in shock, feeling the movement of her miracle baby. After ten minutes, Lysa comes back with the Lady Chaperone and the medic that proceeds to consult Astrid again. This time, she doesn't even mind the consult, she is too happy to be bothered by anything right now. Once she confirms that the baby is alright, Lysa runs outside again and returns, this time with Tamara."How is she? The baby?" Tamara asks, all sweaty and gasping for air."You Grace, the baby seems fine, the position is normal. It's moving. Everything looks like a perfectly normal pregnancy." The medic answers puzzled."Go tell the king!" Tamara orders the Lady Chaperone and then comes to sit next to Astrid. "How?""I have no idea, my lady. Last time I checked, the baby wasn't moving. I wanted to check the other day too with another medic, but..." The medic justifies herself and Tamara sighs."But we have already
"Ben?!" Astrid runs into the house followed closely by her little brother. She ruined his stone castle, trying to play with it and now the boy is after her for revenge. "Help! Mars will kill me!"Ben doesn't ask any questions. Her big brother, who is always on her side, never does. He just drops the fire logs he was holding and picks her up, lifting her up on his shoulders. He is very tall and for little Astrid she feels like being at the top of the world, where no one can hurt her."Astrid! I will cut your hair for this! You will look like a boy! You are flat like one anyway!" Their little brother, Mars, comes running in with a pair of rusty scissors in his hands. They are the scissors their mother uses to trim the bushes in the garden."Mars! Didn't mother forbid you from playing with those? You up for a beating, idiot?" Ben kicks him in the stomach, throwing him on the floor like a sack of potatoes. "Are you a baby? If you have the energy to play with rocks, go to the mill and help
Loras looks confused but says nothing as he follows the weird reunion in front of him. Astrid is barely capable of articulating a full sentence, while Ben just stands there, saying nothing."Ben... Wha... What happened... You... How?""Your Majesty. My lady. I am here to consult you." He finally says with a voice that not in three lifetimes could make her forget. The voice of her older brother."Ben... It's me. It's Astrid." She tries again, getting up and slowly moving closer to him."A pleasure to make acquaintance, my lady. It's indeed an honor to be able to serve the king's favorite." He answers with a small reverence and starts unpacking his medical bag.Astrid grabs his shoulder and shakes him violently."Ben! Ben! It's me! Ben!" She shouts and cries not even knowing what she's feeling at the moment. She got him back and at the same time, she didn't."Astrid. Calm down!" Loras jumps to hold her back as the medic continues to look at her with a distant expression."No... No, Lora
"Ben, please. Let's just talk for a moment.." Astrid pleads with him, but her brother looks at her like she just grew another head. "Please...""Astrid, this may be our only chance...""But I don't want to leave.""You... want to stay here? Because of the child? There are ways to get rid of it. And sister, if you want to keep it we can find a way to do that too, but we need to run away first.""Ben! Listen to me for a second! I do not want to leave! Now sit down and let's talk!" Astrid loses it and snaps at her brother. He looks at her in shock, but he sits down on the bed. "How are you alive?"He clears his voice, looking away. The memories clearly pain him and he doesn't want to recall them but he knows he must."That beast knocked me out. When I opened my eyes... everyone... Mother, father... all our brothers... they were laying there. Slaughtered by the brutes that took you. I could still hear you scream and cry. I tried to crawl to the door, but I couldn't feel my body, the world
When she opens her eyes later in the day, the first thought on her mind it's that it became fucking ridiculous how often she just loses consciousness. Like... once a week she opens her eyes in a totally new place than where she closed them. If her life was a book, every other chapter would start with her coming back from a blackout.The second thought pulls her into a more serious subject. Her brother.She looks around, realizing that she is in her room, so the kidnap/rescue plan failed. But how? And what happened to her brother?"Esmee?" Astrid asks, trying to get up, but her head is spinning like crazy."Lady Astrid? Are you awake?" Esmee comes rushing in. "You gave me such a scare...""What happened?" Astrid asks before pointing to her dress; signaling Esmee to help her get dressed."I heard you screaming inside... I was so scared, but you ordered me that I shouldn’t enter under no circumstance. I wasn't sure what to do so I ran to the guards. The king was coming to you anyway and
The next few days were like walking on the edge of a dagger. No one said anything argumentative, everyone was waiting to see how things would develop. Astrid started to go on walks with Ben and he didn't seem to mind the guards that were ordered to watch them, but he avoided talking about anything important. Instead, they reconnected, shared memories about their family, and just exchanged pleasantries. It felt good to talk with her brother, but the distance between them was evident. Life pulled them apart and no matter how hard they try to ignore it, they are now strangers to one another."Mars would always complain that you take my side. Even though he was the youngest." Astrid remembers her most annoying brother fondly. Death has the power of erasing sins from the memory."When I grew up, I was expected to be the one that they all leaned on. Teach them, protect them. Because, you know, I was the oldest. But I would look at them and think... I was their age too and no one protected m