I almost feel sorry for Cris. Almost
I've been watching her sleep for almost an hour now. Half of her body is lying on top of mine and the first thing that comes to mind is that I want to wake up like this every day. With her snoring softly against my chest. It's crazy how fast our relationship has changed. If I start analyzing it like a sane person who isn't blinded by their feelings or lust, I'd say she's up to something. After all, her bastard father hurt her because she didn't give him anything useful to use against me. Anyone in her position would up their game. But if I go down that road, it would mean I'm doubting her. Her actions, feelings, and everything we've done together would be because she had a motive. And if she has a motive then it means she's faking it. I refuse to believe she's been faking everything. The way she smiles with her eyes, the little moans she makes while I move inside her, and how her body seeks mine even when she's asleep. All that can't be a lie. Marianna is the first woman I'm willing
I think I'm enjoying this too much. I should have insisted on leaving last night but with Cris's arms around me, I couldn't. I gave in easily after convincing myself that it was the last time. I wanted to be with him so we spent the whole night doing all sorts of things I wouldn't be able to do after everything changes. The funny thing is I can't even bring myself to regret anything. Cris has a way of making me feel like the most beautiful, amazing woman in the world. He didn't bring up his feelings which in a way, made this easier for me. If the focus is on sex, I don't have to overanalyze what I'm feeling and why I'm being stupid. This morning, my brilliant self came up with another excuse to spend one more day with him. I can't leave without knowing how he tastes. I've imagined how he'd feel in my mouth, the look in his eyes while I suck him and now I can't move. The adoration in his eyes, the way he takes care of me and just knows what I need. This is a first for me. Having someo
"Wow, that is so cool. Will you show me how to do that?" Tommaso asks sounding in awe. I think he's forgotten that we are under attack and have nowhere to go which only serves to remind me that he's still a kid. I smack his back. "I don't have the time to ask why you have a loaded gun with the safety off. We were going to go out through the kitchen but now we can't. Do you know another way out of this house?" "Yes. Come on" he leads us back to De Luca's room. I'm sure surprise is evident on my face because he smirks. The same way I've seen his father do. Which reminds me of Nev and how Paulo thought we should kill him. Tommaso doesn't have a mother. If we kill his father, wouldn't that make him an orphan? Fuck, why didn't I think everything through? "No one is supposed to know this" he locks the door "All we have to do is keep going until we're on the other end. It's over here in the closet. Come on" "I'm impressed. I never would have thought of that" "Yeah, we all know just
I can't believe Damiano is still mad at me. Apparently, he doesn't like that I left the club knowing Marianna was going to end up like that. All of a sudden that asshole grew a heart overnight. So it's okay for him to poison her but it's not okay for me to what, leave her to talk with Padre? When I left, I just thought he was trying to scare her. She's his fucking daughter. I didn't actually think he'd go through with it. But honestly, I was also hoping he'd just get rid of her once and for all. It's not a secret that we've never gotten along. Her arrogance and self-entitled attitude are something I hate with every fiber of my being. Just because her name is Marianna and mine is Carina doesn't mean she's better than me. Over the years, the hate I feel towards her has grown tenfold. Trust me when I say I don't give a shit about her. She could drop dead in front of me and I wouldn't even blink. If the same happened to me, her reaction wouldn't be any different. So when Damiano, who is
Fuck Damiano. Fuck you, I hate you and your stupid ugly face" I place my gun on the bed and hit his chest with my fists. I don't trust myself not to say screw it and pull the trigger. Besides I need to know where he hid the money before I kill him. "Stop Cara. Losing it now isn't going to help us in any way" "Losing it? You think I've lost it?" "Carina..." "Oh no, no, no. If I had lost it, you wouldn't be standing here. You would already be dead Damiano." "What should we do now?" "Prepare ourselves to die. That man isn't going to let us go easily" "I can negotiate with him. I'm good with people" "You've done enough. Shut up and let me think" This sucks big time. I would have preferred Padre to be the first to find out because he'd just kill us or punish us in one way or another. Giovanni? That asshole is so much worse than Padre. He's never lifted a finger to hurt anyone physically but there are a hundred ways to hurt someone without touching them. And he's the master
My house looks like a war zone. Dead bodies line up the sidewalk all the way to the front gate. They're all covered in blood and one of the guys that was left standing is checking for those that might still be alive. Some are my guys and the rest I assume are Lombardi's. Fuck that bastard to hell and back. I've lost a lot of men and I swear to get him back for the guys he just killed but right now all I can think about is Marianna and Tommaso. I don't wait for Fabian to stop the car. The moment he slows down, I jump out of the car and rush inside. Those fuckers weren't here to just kill people. It seems like they came here to destroy my property too. The chairs have holes in them, remains of the TV are down on the floor together with my sound system. Everything was trashed, nothing survived. I'm so angry but fear overtakes every other emotion. I've been trying to call Nev for hours now but he's not picking up. I'm scared that Lombardi took him. He could be lying dead somewhere and
"Padrino, zia Mari is so cool. A guy tried to shoot at us but then she threw her knife at him like they do in the movies and shot him. She told me she'll teach me how to do it" he starts babbling the second I step out of the car. A sign that he's okay. The attack didn't scare him. I guess letting him watch all those movies was a good call. At least dead bodies don't scare him. It doesn't escape me that she just called Marianna zia. "Where is Marianna?" "She left" that from Mama who's standing just inside the door. "Left? Where did she go?" "Probably back to her father's house. Do you want to tell me why you're fucking around with Lombardi's daughter?" "Mama, language!" I chastise her even though Tommaso has heard worse. Turning to him I say "Go and do whatever shit you normally do when you're here. I'll find you after I'm done talking to your grandma" "Okay, I'm going to practice throwing knives" "Don't even think about it Tommaso" I yell after him but he's already inside
"Well, would you look at that? It looks like someone caught some feelings while she was busy whoring herself. I didn't think that was possible" "Fuck you, Nev," I tell him turning my phone off and taking the card out. It would be better if Cris didn't try coming after me. He sounded so shocked that I was tempted to go back to him but it's too late. I need to stop thinking about him and consider my next steps. If I'm not careful, two powerful Dons will come after me. For the second time, it hit me just how foolish I was to cross Cris and Padre. It wouldn't take a lot to kill me. Maybe Cris might hesitate but once Padre sends his hound Giovanni, I'll be done for. "Yeah, I'd like that. I was going to find someone to release all my stress on after I'd left the warehouse but since I ended up here, would you mind fucking me? You would have all the control because as you can see, I'm literally tied up" Nev says pulling me out of my thoughts. "And I'll stick a sock in your mouth if you d
"Last chance, Cris. If you mess it up, I'll send you to hell myself" Damn it! Who was I kidding? I never had a chance. Maybe provoking him wasn't a good idea. If I hadn't talked to him, he would have continued his play. Giving me more time to convince her that I am the better choice. Then again, who's to say she would have given in? Actions speak louder than words. She doesn't trust me. Locking her door was a clear sign that she didn't feel safe with me. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I hadn't let her go the first time we met. Why does she keep going back to him? He'll hurt her again. I know he will. Turning off the laptop, I take my car keys and leave. She needs to come back to her senses. After everything that bastard did, how could she forgive him? It's okay if she doesn't want to be with me but he's not right for her either. He left when she needed him the most and he will do it again. "Sir" "What?" "She's still waiting for you in the lobby"
I'm curious to know if they've made up but I don't want to disturb them in case they're in the middle of it. Carina just needed a little shove to see that she still loved her husband. I know the other guy, Marco, has done a lot for her but he honestly scares me. Cris is on our level. If we put our minds to it, we could destroy his business and leave him penniless. As a matter of fact, if he does something stupid again, that's what I'll do. But Marco? He's too powerful. He doesn't go around showing it but Damiano told me about him and I was shocked. If someone like that were to date my sister, of course, we would be known as the most powerful family. But it would also mean that we couldn't do anything without his permission. I thought about it really hard. About who would make Carina happy. Maybe I'm judging Marco too harshly but I don't think he can do it. She doesn't look at him the same way she looks at Cris. At first, I just wanted to mess around with her and se
"Marianna!" "Gee, are you trying to burst my eardrum? What's the problem now? Shouldn't you be happy for having a sister as caring as I am?""I'm sorry but did you not hear me when I told you to stay out of it? Are you deaf?""Yes. I usually become deaf when it suits me. Which stage are you at?" "I don't know what's going through that thick head of yours but I'll have you know that I'm going to kick him out" "I took the keys with me" Idiot "I have two spare keys you dumbass" "Damn it! Why are you so stubborn? I just want to see you happy" "It doesn't have to be with him. I can be happy with someone else" I lower my voice so he doesn't hear me. Waking up to find him hovering above me almost gave me a heart attack. But it's not the first time I've caught him watching me sleep. If I didn't know him I'd think he was a creep. "Remember when you left the Maldives and were kidnapped by that asshole?" "Yeah. Marco's guys saved me and took me to his house" "Half a point
Now I'm a hundred percent sure Marianna spent all night planning this. I don't know if I should thank her or be pissed. This could go two ways. Carina could either ignore everything and kick me out or she would end up thinking I was in cahoots with her sister and possibly hate me forever. Either way, it's not gonna end well. Before she comes out, I check for other notes and get rid of them. I've just discarded the last one when she asks, "Is there food in there? Marianna said she ordered some" Some is an under... Fuck. Thank God the fridge door is shielding me or I wouldn't know how to explain my hard-on. One look at her and my cock jumps up happily. I know I have no right to demand anything from her but there's no way I'll let her leave the house dressed like that. The floral dress is simple, exposing her shoulders and a good part of her legs but damn it, those legs are mine. That cleavage is mine. Every part of her is mine. She moves towards me and for a second, I forget to breat
I missed watching her sleep. She looks like an angel curled up, with one of her legs exposed and the other one under the covers. I want to stop time so we'll be stuck in this moment forever. So I can look at her all I want without any interruptions. Sitting on the edge of the bed, I tuck her hair behind her ear, marveling at her long lashes, straight nose, and full lips. I want to kiss her while she's asleep because I know she won't let me anywhere near her once she wakes up. Why I once thought it was okay to let her go is beyond me. Will she be angry when she wakes up and sees me here? What can I do to get her back? No matter how much I think about it, I can't see a future where I'm okay without her. Before her, I didn't believe in love. My plan was to find a woman, any woman, and start a family with her. It's no secret that most women would like to be my wife. My last name comes with not only money but also power. The kind that lets them do whatever they want k
Was I too harsh? But why won't he leave me alone? I already told him that I'd moved on and our relationship was over. Why is he trying so hard? Damn him. He forced me to tell him those things. I wouldn't have been so mean if he had just stayed away. Yes, it's his fault. He deserves that and so much more for abandoning me when... If you don't care, why are you still hung up on that? This is getting old. I can't always use that as an excuse. I don't care about him or his feelings but that doesn't mean I have to put up with him. If I show him the slightest consideration, he won't leave and chances are, I might end up back in his arms. But if I don't care, why am I still up at half past one worrying if he was hurt by my words? Thanks to Cris, I have another sleepless night and wake up feeling grumpy. Funny how I'm not affected by the fact that Lombardi was still alive. Maybe he still is. Marianna said she wasn't sure if Nev killed him or not. What I don't understand is why
"Why are you still here?" "I'm wondering if I should sue you for illegal termination of employment. How can you just fire me?" "Your services are no longer needed. Why should I let you stay? Besides, weren't you the one who was complaining about how you didn't sign up for this shit?""Still. You should have given me a one-month notice" I shift my eyes to look at him. What changed? I was under the impression that he didn't want to stay here because he wasn't fond of Val. Why isn't he jumping with joy? "Are you high?" "Because of your kid, I haven't smoked anything in a long time" "Then I thank you on Val's behalf. Now get lost" As much as I appreciate his help, it would be better if he left. I suspect he wants to stick around because of Carina. She's a beautiful woman and men can't help but be interested in her. Speaking of Carina, I wonder if telling her about Val was the right choice. Marco pissed me off and all I could think was that I should never let him wi
"Are you insane?" "Yeah. Insanely hot" "Why didn't you come to me first?" Flopping back on the bed, I close my eyes. Damiano is as pissed as Giovanni was, when he found out I asked Nev to kill Lombardi. I understand why Giovanni would feel that way but not Damiano. They're acting as if I did something horrible when in reality, they are the ones who are in the wrong. Why the hell would they want to keep that bastard alive? For what reason?"If I hadn't followed you, you wouldn't have told me he was still alive" "Barely. He was hooked up to all those machines and had no chance of waking up. Why would you kill him?" "Technically he was already dead. Why does it matter if I killed him or asked someone else to do it? As you said, he wasn't going to regain consciousness" "That doesn't make it alright for you to kill him!" He snarls, making me lean on my elbows. Lifting my head to stare at him. "Are you seriously angry at me because of that bastard?" "In case you fo
It's almost nine and I'm roaming around the house aimlessly because I can't sleep. For some reason, my nerves are too wound up to let me settle down. Who am I kidding? It's that bastard. Knowing he's here and planning on wooing me, as Marco put it, is driving me insane. Is he the one who's been sending me flowers? Where is he? Why was he here that day? And screw Marco. Why the fuck would he tell me that? Anyone in his position would do everything they could to keep me from finding out. Why did he tell me? How does he even know that? Are they in contact or is he spying on him?I'm scared of his presence. I'm scared that his presence will thaw the ice around my heart because it was already melting before I knew he was here. I'm so scared I'll forgive him and fall into his arms as if nothing happened. If I'm honest with myself, I will admit that I miss him. I miss the way he bulldozed himself into my life, the way he still came back to me even when I almost ruined his busines