Chapter 39: 'IF' isn't Good Enough

Ella

I carefully pull my hand away from George's grip and look away. In the reflection I notice him tense up, expression turning colder.

I don't want any tender moments with him, nor do I want to make conversation when it'll just devolve into a fight. He's just driving me home, nothing more.

It shouldn't be anything more either. I still FEEL too much about George.

That's probably part of the reason why we always fight. Too many unresolved things, too many unresolved feelings that just bubble to the surface and turn vicious and poisonous.

We're not good for each other like this. All we're doing is hurting each other, antagonizing one another to the point of rage and neither of us stop.

I try to distract myself with my phone but frown as I realize it's on 'do not disturb', despite me never having done that.

While I was off work at the hospital due to the conference, I was still one of their surgeons. They needed to reach me in any medical emergency such as calling me in fo