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[81] The Thing Inside Me Is Craving For Something
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2021-04-03 20:00:40Professor Aschwa was discussing something about corporate taxes when I felt my stomach rumble.
Rumble was an understatement.
I was seated on my bed, leaning against my headboard. The sound was loud enough that Gray, who was currently pressing his face against Mexi’s aquarium, turned around to look at me, a teasing glint in his eyes. Already bracing myself for the things he would say, I raise my arm up and point at him, narrowing my eyes as much as I could, “Don’t you dare.”
Gray dared, “Aww, is the pig hungry?”
Rolling my eyes, I place my hand on my belly again, “Can you check the stockpile room if I still have some Todas?”
“You’re still eating those?&rd
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